I am certainly a better me here in warmer (much warmer) climate. I feel calmer. I feel happier. I love the beauty of nature being so alive and I feel contentment with the soft, warm breeze.
I want to hug a palm tree. I want to dance in bare feet in the thick, green grass. I smell the salt air from the ocean. I hear the waves hitting the shore.
All my senses are awakened here. I feel most alive here.
I can't imagine why I don't live here since I know it is here. I lived here for many, many winters. I knew I was lucky while I was doing it.
I didn't realize how much I miss it until today. I hope to find my way back.
My wish for you is for U to find your way (back) to something you love; something that pleases all of your senses.
Life is about living and, sometimes, about struggling. May we all know more about the living side of life and less about the struggling side as we move forward.
Monday, January 31, 2011
This Day
This day will never be ours to live again.
What would U like to do with this day.
Will it be a good memory or not so good.....is it up to us?
I vote for I did what works best for me and my loved ones day.
I vote for a U making U happy day!
What would U like to do with this day.
Will it be a good memory or not so good.....is it up to us?
I vote for I did what works best for me and my loved ones day.
I vote for a U making U happy day!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Made it to Palm Beach Gardens
Just made it to Palm Beach Gardens. Green Grass. Palm Trees Galore. 67 deg. at 9 pm at night! Need I say more.
4 hour drive at 80 mph non-stop. My brain is mush!
Good night. Sleep well. Sleep really, extra well tonight.
May U be content where U are.
4 hour drive at 80 mph non-stop. My brain is mush!
Good night. Sleep well. Sleep really, extra well tonight.
May U be content where U are.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Egret
Yesterday, while doing the treadmill, I looked out the window and there was an Egret in the man-made pond. Of course, I had to look up Egret in the Ted Andrews 'Animal Speak' book.
It is listed under Heron as a 'wader'. Aggressive Self Determination and Self Reliance
Again, this is copied from his book and I am writing what catches my eye.
Symbols of balance and may represent an ability to progress and evolve. People with this totem are wonderfully successful at being the traditional 'jack of all trades'. This ability enables them to follow their own path. Most people will never to be able to live the way heron people do. It is not a structured way, and does not seem to have a stability and security to it. It is, though, just a matter of perspective. There is security in heron medicine, for it gives the ability to do a variety of tasks. If one way doesn't work, then another will. This, heron people seem to inherently know.
They do not feel the need 'to keep up with the Joneses' or be traditional in their life roles. They stand out in their uniqueness and they know how to snatch and take advantage of things and events that the average person would not even bother with.
It reflects a need for to follow their own innate wisdom and path of self-determination. You know what is best for you and should follow it, rather than the promptings of others.
Have you seen an heron or an egret lately? Can you trust, even if just for today, that if things don't work out the way you originally thought it would, that things will work out in another way.
It is listed under Heron as a 'wader'. Aggressive Self Determination and Self Reliance
Again, this is copied from his book and I am writing what catches my eye.
Symbols of balance and may represent an ability to progress and evolve. People with this totem are wonderfully successful at being the traditional 'jack of all trades'. This ability enables them to follow their own path. Most people will never to be able to live the way heron people do. It is not a structured way, and does not seem to have a stability and security to it. It is, though, just a matter of perspective. There is security in heron medicine, for it gives the ability to do a variety of tasks. If one way doesn't work, then another will. This, heron people seem to inherently know.
They do not feel the need 'to keep up with the Joneses' or be traditional in their life roles. They stand out in their uniqueness and they know how to snatch and take advantage of things and events that the average person would not even bother with.
It reflects a need for to follow their own innate wisdom and path of self-determination. You know what is best for you and should follow it, rather than the promptings of others.
Have you seen an heron or an egret lately? Can you trust, even if just for today, that if things don't work out the way you originally thought it would, that things will work out in another way.
Checking Out
Checking out of hotel 1 tomorrow! It was fun and alot to do and I'm ready to move on. Looking forward to being in South Florida, even though it's only for a couple of days.
We know alot of people there and we hope to see and visit with as many as we can. Palms trees, blue/green oceans, green grass, warm breezes; what more does a person need. Ha.
So, loading up the car, driving almost 300 miles after the horse show tomorrow and we will be on to the next stop.
We have a break between shows this week so it will be fun to do other things for a couple of days.
A break in any regular schedule is always welcome by me.
My wish for you today is to give yourself a 10 minute break from your regular schedule today; if this is what feels right for U.
Riviera Beach, FL
We know alot of people there and we hope to see and visit with as many as we can. Palms trees, blue/green oceans, green grass, warm breezes; what more does a person need. Ha.
So, loading up the car, driving almost 300 miles after the horse show tomorrow and we will be on to the next stop.
We have a break between shows this week so it will be fun to do other things for a couple of days.
A break in any regular schedule is always welcome by me.
My wish for you today is to give yourself a 10 minute break from your regular schedule today; if this is what feels right for U.
Trials of My Fingers
I certainly feel like I'm camping some. I do love camping (for a weekend).
Just opening the packets of ketchup; putting quarters in the washer/dryer machines; taking the cellophane off the individually wrapped cups in the hotel rooms provides me with challenges.
At my house, I am so fortunate to have it built around my ability and lack thereof. I have ALOT of ease and comfort there because of this. I am grateful.
Being out in the 'real world', I see myself differently and realistically. I do carry a 'grabber' to open water bottles, etc. with. I also carry a little pair of scissors to open food wrappers and other packages with.
I cannot carry two glasses at one time because I need two hands to carry each glass because one hand does not fit around the circumference of a glass.
I'm writing about this, much to my dismay, because people ask me to. I feel somewhat sick as I admit the above. I don't know if it's fear/shame/anger/sadness. My bet is that it is all of these things.
I believe we all have something we have to live with that we'd rather not. I've always said this is just mine.
I'd like to think that I've lived with this long enough and it's time to move on from it. So.....
Do you have something you'd rather not be living with right now? I wonder if changing our thinking would affect it enough to change the outcome of same.....
Bring on the good, the happy, the positive. Good luck.
Just opening the packets of ketchup; putting quarters in the washer/dryer machines; taking the cellophane off the individually wrapped cups in the hotel rooms provides me with challenges.
At my house, I am so fortunate to have it built around my ability and lack thereof. I have ALOT of ease and comfort there because of this. I am grateful.
Being out in the 'real world', I see myself differently and realistically. I do carry a 'grabber' to open water bottles, etc. with. I also carry a little pair of scissors to open food wrappers and other packages with.
I cannot carry two glasses at one time because I need two hands to carry each glass because one hand does not fit around the circumference of a glass.
I'm writing about this, much to my dismay, because people ask me to. I feel somewhat sick as I admit the above. I don't know if it's fear/shame/anger/sadness. My bet is that it is all of these things.
I believe we all have something we have to live with that we'd rather not. I've always said this is just mine.
I'd like to think that I've lived with this long enough and it's time to move on from it. So.....
Do you have something you'd rather not be living with right now? I wonder if changing our thinking would affect it enough to change the outcome of same.....
Bring on the good, the happy, the positive. Good luck.
Place of Love
I think it would be wonderful if we all were able to come from a place of love and trust. I think the world would be different. I think there would be more light, peace, happiness and harmony.
Shambala - A place of peace and harmony for all living creatures.
Maybe we can all try to 'upgrade' to 10% more trust, love and light today. I think it's worth trying.
Are you willing to send out 10% more love, light and trust today.
Perhaps, we can look at it like an experiment. I also believe it may bring us each closer to being our authentic selves; Be U; what we were born instinctively knowing and doing; with open hearts.
3-1/2 month miniature aussie at horse show
Shambala - A place of peace and harmony for all living creatures.
Maybe we can all try to 'upgrade' to 10% more trust, love and light today. I think it's worth trying.
Are you willing to send out 10% more love, light and trust today.
Perhaps, we can look at it like an experiment. I also believe it may bring us each closer to being our authentic selves; Be U; what we were born instinctively knowing and doing; with open hearts.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Dinners
OH MY. I have been eating out every night. I can't do it another night. I need a break. Alot of us Americans have big plates and big appetites. We use kale for decorating our plates instead of eating it. I hear people complaining if the portions are European or too small.
It's not a wonder so many of us are overweight and unhealthy.
Last night was my healthiest meal. Chilean Sea Bass and it was phenomenal. I really loved it.
My unhealthiest meal was at a Hibachi Grille restaurant. I couldn't believe all the butter that was melted and placed on all the food served, even the steak. It was a real eye opener to me. Next time, I am sure I can ask to hold the butter.
I've met some really nice people during dinner. Last night there was a nice gentleman that thinks he is buying a Ferrari. It is on my bucket list to drive a Ferrari. I wonder if I really would have the nerve. I think I would. Ha. Ever since Don Johnson in Miami Vice have I wanted to drive a Ferrari. Come on - doesn't it just look like so much fun and COOL is written all over it!
I have kept moving daily and I'm grateful for this.
Again, balance is so important. Calories in and calories out. This is what matters most for weight. Type of calories also matters for health.
What's your calorie balance lately; are you happy with it. Are you being the best U you can be.
It's not a wonder so many of us are overweight and unhealthy.
Last night was my healthiest meal. Chilean Sea Bass and it was phenomenal. I really loved it.
My unhealthiest meal was at a Hibachi Grille restaurant. I couldn't believe all the butter that was melted and placed on all the food served, even the steak. It was a real eye opener to me. Next time, I am sure I can ask to hold the butter.
I've met some really nice people during dinner. Last night there was a nice gentleman that thinks he is buying a Ferrari. It is on my bucket list to drive a Ferrari. I wonder if I really would have the nerve. I think I would. Ha. Ever since Don Johnson in Miami Vice have I wanted to drive a Ferrari. Come on - doesn't it just look like so much fun and COOL is written all over it!
I have kept moving daily and I'm grateful for this.
Again, balance is so important. Calories in and calories out. This is what matters most for weight. Type of calories also matters for health.
What's your calorie balance lately; are you happy with it. Are you being the best U you can be.
Tired
Just got back from a day at the horse show; beautiful horses. It was 67, but the wind made it feel a bit cooler. I'm feeling pretty tired. It was a good day.
Two more days and we go to Palm Beach Gardens, FL for just a couple of days and then back up to Ocala for the rest of our stay in Florida.
We are covering alot of Florida. Not a bad state to cover this time of year.
I'm so tired; I've got nothing more. I'm having a hard time allowing myself to just be. It's time for me to 'just be'.
How are you handling balancing your own life?
Two more days and we go to Palm Beach Gardens, FL for just a couple of days and then back up to Ocala for the rest of our stay in Florida.
We are covering alot of Florida. Not a bad state to cover this time of year.
I'm so tired; I've got nothing more. I'm having a hard time allowing myself to just be. It's time for me to 'just be'.
How are you handling balancing your own life?
Today
Today is a good day to make it a good day! This day will never happen again for us. We may as well make it a good one.
January 2010 is just about behind us. Have you accomplished some of the things you were hoping to. Today may be just that day for you.
May you be 'spot on' today.
January 2010 is just about behind us. Have you accomplished some of the things you were hoping to. Today may be just that day for you.
May you be 'spot on' today.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Owning our Own Life
I'm thinking about whether I own my own life. Do I have my hands on the steering wheel and my foot on the pedal and am I driving my life where I know that makes me happiest.
No, can't say that I always am.
When we are children, alot of us can't wait to become adults so we can 'do what we want' without 'anyone telling us what to do'. Well, I am now an adult (and I have been for a long time) and I still allow outside influences to push me to take detours; get trapped in dead ends and end up on freeways that I can't get off of easily.
I'd like to make my own road map and create my own destinations always towards happiness. I saw a bumper sticker today that said if it doesn't make you happy why are you doing it. I'm not feeling like it's that simple.
O Organizing what matters to me
W Winning to my best ability
N Negotiating towards happiness
I Influenced by noone unless I want to be
N No when I want to say no
G Going with the flow
I am compromising my happiness for another. Where do I draw the line. IN all honesty, as much as I don't want to go here; I've never had a teenager for a daughter before. I care and want 100% for her happiness. Does it have to cost me so much of my own. I fear she will see this and be upset. I feel I can't continue unless I face this truth that is so prevalent inside of me right now.
I am truly suffering living her love of life which is horses and outside in 40 deg. temperature. I have to figure out a happy medium for myself. Allow her to continue her path while I recreate my own while supporting her.
I understand why when I was growing up 'children should be seen and not heard' was a mantra for the adults. It is hard to be surrounded by things, places, people and ideas that I, myself, do not bring into my life. My child does. My love is tropical islands, beaches and hot, sunny days. Her love is it doesn't matter what temperature, what the surroundings or environment is like; get out there and ride the horses. I'm extremely proud and very grateful that she is finding her way and able to live her life and know that it is 'right for her' in her heart. If I want to be in her life, then I follow on and try to share what I can.
So, I am here in 39 deg weather (it is going to 60) and living in just a regular hotel, no bells and whistles, not within the smell of the ocean; and hanging around dirt, poop and animals. At least at this show they have flushing toilets on the fairgrounds. Some horse shows, we use only port-a-potty(s). Being a 'just a mom' in this environment is interesting to say the least. I can't imagine if I didn't love animals; I'd be completely out of my element.
So, am I living my own life? Yes and No. Yes, in that I want to support my daughter and be with her and watch her thrive and grow and be the best that she can be. And, she is certainly doing that superbly. No, in that, I would never find myself here on my own accord. (Honda Accord - driving my own life, get it? Ha) I would never choose this for just me. My heart doesn't feel content here. And, because I'm doing this for her and not for me; I am grateful that I can give this to her.
I still want to be okay for me as well. It's important for me and I know it's important for her to see me wanting and fighting for my own dreams. When she has children; my wish for her is to better balance these lives than I am able to do.
I guess I am driving my own car; but it's parked alot right now. I am in the driver's seat of her car now and I will soon be handing over the wheel to her.
This, I suppose, is what we call transitioning from child into adult. I am proud to be here with her watching her and helping her when she needs me. She doesn't want to need me and she still does, at times.
So, I am choosing to park my car and get it in when I can. It's only two more years and then we will be in, mostly, separate cars. So, I'm going to enjoy her 'car' even if it kills me! HA.
Today I am working on balancing better to tip the scale for calmness and peace in myself while I drive unknown roads and follow signs I wouldn't follow if I were alone in my own car. I am so happy to have my daughter in a car with me; I truly am.
With this knowledge and understanding, I'm ready to move forward with happiness, pride and a sense of owning my own life; even with a teenager sometimes flattening my tires.
Note: I know my teenager doesn't say she is going to flatten my tires and stop me in my tracks. I know she loves me. I also know that she is growing into who she is and this is a part of life for all of us. It was so much, much more fun when I was the teenager!
To my daughter - I love you for who you are and what you represent and the love in your heart and the brilliance in your mind. I love you for the beauty of you. You are not responsible for the way I choose to drive. You are responsible for your own car. You are doing great; YOU GOT THIS!
It doesn't have to be a teenager's car you are driving. It could be an elderly loved one, a sick spouse, anyone that counts on you to get by.
Whether you've done this already, you are doing this now, you will be doing this one day; my wish for you is that your own car won't be parked so long that the battery will need recharging. Don't forget to get out there and drive your own car with the windows down and the breeze ablowing.
No, can't say that I always am.
When we are children, alot of us can't wait to become adults so we can 'do what we want' without 'anyone telling us what to do'. Well, I am now an adult (and I have been for a long time) and I still allow outside influences to push me to take detours; get trapped in dead ends and end up on freeways that I can't get off of easily.
I'd like to make my own road map and create my own destinations always towards happiness. I saw a bumper sticker today that said if it doesn't make you happy why are you doing it. I'm not feeling like it's that simple.
O Organizing what matters to me
W Winning to my best ability
N Negotiating towards happiness
I Influenced by noone unless I want to be
N No when I want to say no
G Going with the flow
I am compromising my happiness for another. Where do I draw the line. IN all honesty, as much as I don't want to go here; I've never had a teenager for a daughter before. I care and want 100% for her happiness. Does it have to cost me so much of my own. I fear she will see this and be upset. I feel I can't continue unless I face this truth that is so prevalent inside of me right now.
I am truly suffering living her love of life which is horses and outside in 40 deg. temperature. I have to figure out a happy medium for myself. Allow her to continue her path while I recreate my own while supporting her.
I understand why when I was growing up 'children should be seen and not heard' was a mantra for the adults. It is hard to be surrounded by things, places, people and ideas that I, myself, do not bring into my life. My child does. My love is tropical islands, beaches and hot, sunny days. Her love is it doesn't matter what temperature, what the surroundings or environment is like; get out there and ride the horses. I'm extremely proud and very grateful that she is finding her way and able to live her life and know that it is 'right for her' in her heart. If I want to be in her life, then I follow on and try to share what I can.
So, I am here in 39 deg weather (it is going to 60) and living in just a regular hotel, no bells and whistles, not within the smell of the ocean; and hanging around dirt, poop and animals. At least at this show they have flushing toilets on the fairgrounds. Some horse shows, we use only port-a-potty(s). Being a 'just a mom' in this environment is interesting to say the least. I can't imagine if I didn't love animals; I'd be completely out of my element.
So, am I living my own life? Yes and No. Yes, in that I want to support my daughter and be with her and watch her thrive and grow and be the best that she can be. And, she is certainly doing that superbly. No, in that, I would never find myself here on my own accord. (Honda Accord - driving my own life, get it? Ha) I would never choose this for just me. My heart doesn't feel content here. And, because I'm doing this for her and not for me; I am grateful that I can give this to her.
I still want to be okay for me as well. It's important for me and I know it's important for her to see me wanting and fighting for my own dreams. When she has children; my wish for her is to better balance these lives than I am able to do.
I guess I am driving my own car; but it's parked alot right now. I am in the driver's seat of her car now and I will soon be handing over the wheel to her.
This, I suppose, is what we call transitioning from child into adult. I am proud to be here with her watching her and helping her when she needs me. She doesn't want to need me and she still does, at times.
So, I am choosing to park my car and get it in when I can. It's only two more years and then we will be in, mostly, separate cars. So, I'm going to enjoy her 'car' even if it kills me! HA.
Today I am working on balancing better to tip the scale for calmness and peace in myself while I drive unknown roads and follow signs I wouldn't follow if I were alone in my own car. I am so happy to have my daughter in a car with me; I truly am.
With this knowledge and understanding, I'm ready to move forward with happiness, pride and a sense of owning my own life; even with a teenager sometimes flattening my tires.
Note: I know my teenager doesn't say she is going to flatten my tires and stop me in my tracks. I know she loves me. I also know that she is growing into who she is and this is a part of life for all of us. It was so much, much more fun when I was the teenager!
To my daughter - I love you for who you are and what you represent and the love in your heart and the brilliance in your mind. I love you for the beauty of you. You are not responsible for the way I choose to drive. You are responsible for your own car. You are doing great; YOU GOT THIS!
It doesn't have to be a teenager's car you are driving. It could be an elderly loved one, a sick spouse, anyone that counts on you to get by.
Whether you've done this already, you are doing this now, you will be doing this one day; my wish for you is that your own car won't be parked so long that the battery will need recharging. Don't forget to get out there and drive your own car with the windows down and the breeze ablowing.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Sometimes
Sometimes, you just have to lay down and take a rest.
Sometimes it feels like the hardest job of the day.
Regardless, if you feel like you want to lay down, it's always a great idea.
Burn Baby Burn
If you have something that you want to let go of - how about writing 'it' on a piece of paper and holding a ceremony of whatever sort works for you and burn the piece of paper and everything written on it from your life and your mind. Just sayin.
Long Day
It's been a long, rainy, thunderstorm kind of day. We went exploring a bit and there's a lot going on in this town; a lot to do.
Left thinking I was going out for 2 hours and it's been 5 hours. It's interesting without dogs to come home to, how I find myself staying out longer and not worrying about coming home. It's a nice break for sure. I do miss their company when I am 'home'. They are missing me I am told. Little Bear is still collecting my shoes and bringing them out to the dog bed and up on my bed and when people get to my home; there is quite the collection of slippers that they find.
My thumbs are still pretty sore. I didn't sleep well last night because of the pain. I do not get on-line because I don't want to wake up my daughter. It's tight quarters here in the hotel room. I've been reading a lot during these times.
All is well in my world.
My wish for you today is to know peace in any chaos that may surround you. It is there, I promise. Sometimes it is hard for me to find and, I know, it's always here in my world.
With faith, trust and belief that everything is as it needs to be for today; perhaps, we can move forward with this knowledge and know that everything always works out. We made it this far in life; we will continue on.
Left thinking I was going out for 2 hours and it's been 5 hours. It's interesting without dogs to come home to, how I find myself staying out longer and not worrying about coming home. It's a nice break for sure. I do miss their company when I am 'home'. They are missing me I am told. Little Bear is still collecting my shoes and bringing them out to the dog bed and up on my bed and when people get to my home; there is quite the collection of slippers that they find.
My thumbs are still pretty sore. I didn't sleep well last night because of the pain. I do not get on-line because I don't want to wake up my daughter. It's tight quarters here in the hotel room. I've been reading a lot during these times.
All is well in my world.
My wish for you today is to know peace in any chaos that may surround you. It is there, I promise. Sometimes it is hard for me to find and, I know, it's always here in my world.
With faith, trust and belief that everything is as it needs to be for today; perhaps, we can move forward with this knowledge and know that everything always works out. We made it this far in life; we will continue on.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Beautiful Day
Today is a beautiful day in northern Florida, United States. 63 deg F and sunny and the bluest sky I've seen in quite sometime! Just lovely. The sun feels so good on the skin and hair.
I have three ulcers on my fingers that are pussing (gross) and they hurt pretty badly. My two thumbs are the worse. Try pulling up pants without your thumbs; not an easy feat for sure.
Over all the years, my thumbs have never been affected in this manner. I can say that it's hardest to use my hands with bad thumbs. Thumbs are pretty important.
I'm putting PAV and Emu Oil on them constantly and it certainly helps with the pain. The PAV seems to dry them up and the Emu Oil seems to calm the throbbing pain.
I am grateful for the beautiful day and grateful to you, the readers of my blog.
May you know beauty in your day.
I have three ulcers on my fingers that are pussing (gross) and they hurt pretty badly. My two thumbs are the worse. Try pulling up pants without your thumbs; not an easy feat for sure.
Over all the years, my thumbs have never been affected in this manner. I can say that it's hardest to use my hands with bad thumbs. Thumbs are pretty important.
I'm putting PAV and Emu Oil on them constantly and it certainly helps with the pain. The PAV seems to dry them up and the Emu Oil seems to calm the throbbing pain.
I am grateful for the beautiful day and grateful to you, the readers of my blog.
May you know beauty in your day.
1 Down 7 To Go
I have been in Florida for one week now. I have 7 more to go. I'm feeling a little lonely and sad that I'm not at home. I know if the weather was warmer here, I probably wouldn't miss home so much. The one day it was 74 here, I felt like dancing; like living to the fullest.
Yesterday, when the high was 45 and I was out in it. By the time I got back in my car with the heat I was hurting and numb and very uncomfortable. I was mad at myself for making myself tolerate the cold. I didn't do it too well because my fingers were hurting terribly.
I'm mad and angry that I even have to write this. I feel it's a bunch of nonsense. I don't want to go here. Yet, I have nowhere else to go presently.
The grass here is dead or 'asleep'. Not many beautiful palms; perhaps, they cannot live in this climate. Like me, they need the warmer climate. There is not much color. It is a true mild winter season.
Seasons are fun. Seasons are nice for being able to change to different clothing and just for a change. However, for me, I would have the winter season for one month and be done. Again, there is no changing Mother Nature.
And, apparently, there is no changing our own nature. Apparently, my body and mind just do not like the cold. So, like the past 30 years, why don't I just accept that I don't like the cold; that it hurts me; and go with it. I'll try this AGAIN. There is such a 'force' inside of me that wants to fight my inability to be comfortable in the cold. I'd lo go for a long walk in the snow with my dogs; slide down a tube on a mountain. However, I am sensing fight throughout my body. What if it's this fight and tension that is stopping my circulation and keeping my fingers from not living fully.
Interesting.
Do you have a 'fight' within yourself that you have been fighting for too long? How about we begin to stop the fight together or can we just decide to stop the fight altogether. Relax into ourselves.
RELAX INTO BEING U.
I know I'm tired of fighting. I just want my body to be comfortable and let go. It's time to let go of my fight with myself and who I am. Acceptance is a beautiful thing and it loves to be just out of my grasp at times. I would like acceptance of myself to be with me all the time.
I would like to accept acceptance continuously.
Are you with me?
Yesterday, when the high was 45 and I was out in it. By the time I got back in my car with the heat I was hurting and numb and very uncomfortable. I was mad at myself for making myself tolerate the cold. I didn't do it too well because my fingers were hurting terribly.
I'm mad and angry that I even have to write this. I feel it's a bunch of nonsense. I don't want to go here. Yet, I have nowhere else to go presently.
The grass here is dead or 'asleep'. Not many beautiful palms; perhaps, they cannot live in this climate. Like me, they need the warmer climate. There is not much color. It is a true mild winter season.
Seasons are fun. Seasons are nice for being able to change to different clothing and just for a change. However, for me, I would have the winter season for one month and be done. Again, there is no changing Mother Nature.
And, apparently, there is no changing our own nature. Apparently, my body and mind just do not like the cold. So, like the past 30 years, why don't I just accept that I don't like the cold; that it hurts me; and go with it. I'll try this AGAIN. There is such a 'force' inside of me that wants to fight my inability to be comfortable in the cold. I'd lo go for a long walk in the snow with my dogs; slide down a tube on a mountain. However, I am sensing fight throughout my body. What if it's this fight and tension that is stopping my circulation and keeping my fingers from not living fully.
Interesting.
Do you have a 'fight' within yourself that you have been fighting for too long? How about we begin to stop the fight together or can we just decide to stop the fight altogether. Relax into ourselves.
RELAX INTO BEING U.
I know I'm tired of fighting. I just want my body to be comfortable and let go. It's time to let go of my fight with myself and who I am. Acceptance is a beautiful thing and it loves to be just out of my grasp at times. I would like acceptance of myself to be with me all the time.
I would like to accept acceptance continuously.
Are you with me?
Sunday, January 23, 2011
So Tired, I Have Nothing
I'm feeling pretty beat and tired and achy. Don't want to be, but I am.
My mind is a blur. My body wants to rest. What am I going to do? Go out to dinner.
Help. I want to STOP and I don't know how.
Are you listening to your needs OR are you choosing to ignore them?
Which scenario works best for us and why can't I always choose this? Why do I ignore me.
Perhaps, the balance of choosing is what works best in our lives. How to mostly achieve this balance, apparently, is still a mystery to me. I am better at it than I used to be and I still would like to do better.
Where are you at, today, in giving in to your needs? As I write this, I see that I use the words 'giving in'. Perhaps, I can use the words 'allowing your needs to be met'. Maybe, this is a better way of looking at our own needs.
I don't think many of us like the feeling of 'giving in'. Ha.
My mind is a blur. My body wants to rest. What am I going to do? Go out to dinner.
Help. I want to STOP and I don't know how.
Are you listening to your needs OR are you choosing to ignore them?
Which scenario works best for us and why can't I always choose this? Why do I ignore me.
Perhaps, the balance of choosing is what works best in our lives. How to mostly achieve this balance, apparently, is still a mystery to me. I am better at it than I used to be and I still would like to do better.
Where are you at, today, in giving in to your needs? As I write this, I see that I use the words 'giving in'. Perhaps, I can use the words 'allowing your needs to be met'. Maybe, this is a better way of looking at our own needs.
I don't think many of us like the feeling of 'giving in'. Ha.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
When in Doubt, Ask
I asked my daughter what she thought about me 'hurting' if I stay outside in the cold to watch the horse show. She said, without hesitation, there will be other shows, you definitely should not be out there if you are uncomfortable at all.
So, our children certainly are smart. Deep down, I know this is the answer. Yet, another part of me still believes it is my job to be out there supporting my child. Not only my job, but my desire.
I hear people say that 'kids are resilient'. I'm not sure I believe this. Perhaps, kids show resilience. However, my belief is that kids are resilient until they become adults. Alot that we didn't deal with or passed over as kids, may come back to 'haunt' us as adults.
I'm sure all adults can easily come up with at least three (3) memories that forever changed their life; even circumstances that still have us believing certain ways that, if questioned, aren't so real or true for us today. Perhaps, there is even something(s) that we haven't let go of because it was so traumatic or just hugely affected us at the time (and we can still be letting us affect us now).
Interesting, if nothing else. It can also hurt my head to think about it. Ha.
How is your resilience level today?
Talk about bouncing back. Is it bouncing back or bouncing to what works best for us now.
So, our children certainly are smart. Deep down, I know this is the answer. Yet, another part of me still believes it is my job to be out there supporting my child. Not only my job, but my desire.
I hear people say that 'kids are resilient'. I'm not sure I believe this. Perhaps, kids show resilience. However, my belief is that kids are resilient until they become adults. Alot that we didn't deal with or passed over as kids, may come back to 'haunt' us as adults.
I'm sure all adults can easily come up with at least three (3) memories that forever changed their life; even circumstances that still have us believing certain ways that, if questioned, aren't so real or true for us today. Perhaps, there is even something(s) that we haven't let go of because it was so traumatic or just hugely affected us at the time (and we can still be letting us affect us now).
Interesting, if nothing else. It can also hurt my head to think about it. Ha.
How is your resilience level today?
Torn
I am torn today on the subject of whether I was being me or not. I stood outside for much more time than my body was comfortable. I hurt my health.
I wanted to watch my daughter ride her horses.
So, was I being me or was I being fake. Tough one for me.
For me, as a woman, I never would have been outside. For me, as a mom, I'd probably do it again.
Tough dilemna.
Next time, however, if I can sit in a warm car and watch - then this is what I'll do.
Are you being U or are U compromising for good cause(s)?
Perhaps, there is my answer in the question. Sounds like I wasn't being me; I was being someone else. I'm still 'out' on the subject because am I not both of these things. If I take it a step further and ask myself would I want my daughter to do this for her daughter - I cannot answer that definitively either.
To be or not to be.....
There is no love like a Mother's love.
The battle of what's best for our children.
I wanted to watch my daughter ride her horses.
So, was I being me or was I being fake. Tough one for me.
For me, as a woman, I never would have been outside. For me, as a mom, I'd probably do it again.
Tough dilemna.
Next time, however, if I can sit in a warm car and watch - then this is what I'll do.
Are you being U or are U compromising for good cause(s)?
Perhaps, there is my answer in the question. Sounds like I wasn't being me; I was being someone else. I'm still 'out' on the subject because am I not both of these things. If I take it a step further and ask myself would I want my daughter to do this for her daughter - I cannot answer that definitively either.
To be or not to be.....
There is no love like a Mother's love.
The battle of what's best for our children.
Turtle
TURTLE ("Animal Speak" by Ted Andrews)
"The turtle is associated with longevity. Long life and groundedness within ife is part of what the turtle is about. They have amazing survival skills and strategies. Turtles hold the mystery of awakening the senses--on both physical and spiritual levels.
If turtle shows up in your life, you may need to ask yourself are you not seeing what you should? Are you not hearing what you should? Are you or those around you not using discrimination?
A snapping turtle may indicate the ability to grab and use the mouth and all associated with it (voice, sound, digestion) in new ways.
A box turtle has a hinge - like opening in the front and back that it can retreat into and it can teach how to protect yourself more solidly.
A painted turtle may be able to teach you the power and use of color.
Turtles carry their home on their back. The shell is actually the backbone and ribs of the turtle. It serves as home and shelter for it. If turned on their back they use their head and neck to turnabout. This can be a reminder to use your own head and knowledge to right yourself when your world gets topsy turvy.
Sometimes we can't see the forest for the trees and turtle can slow us down to help us see our opportunities.
Turtle is the favorite food of raccoons. Good idea to also study raccoons. This can help you understand the interplay of energies manifesting within your life. It is believed that turtles use the sun to make vaitamin D. It may be a good idea to check your own vitamin intake and adjust your diet, especially vitamin D.
If turtle has shown up in your life, it is time to get connected to your most primal essence. Go within your shell and come out when your ideas are ready to be expressed. It is time to recognize that there is an abundance out there for you. Let the natural flow work for you.
Turtle reminds us that all we need for all that we do is available to us when we approach it in the right manner and time.
Turtles remind us that the way to heaven is through the earth. In Mother Earth there is all that we need. She will care for us, protect us and nurture us as long as we do the same for her. For that to happen, we must slow down and heighten our sensibilities. We must see the connection to all things.
Just as the turtle cannot separate itself from its shell, neither can we separate ourselves from what we do to and on the Earth."
Is today a good day to start using turtle energy to Be U?
There is more about the turtle in Mr. Andrews book. I only put what 'grabbed' me.
"The turtle is associated with longevity. Long life and groundedness within ife is part of what the turtle is about. They have amazing survival skills and strategies. Turtles hold the mystery of awakening the senses--on both physical and spiritual levels.
If turtle shows up in your life, you may need to ask yourself are you not seeing what you should? Are you not hearing what you should? Are you or those around you not using discrimination?
A snapping turtle may indicate the ability to grab and use the mouth and all associated with it (voice, sound, digestion) in new ways.
A box turtle has a hinge - like opening in the front and back that it can retreat into and it can teach how to protect yourself more solidly.
A painted turtle may be able to teach you the power and use of color.
Turtles carry their home on their back. The shell is actually the backbone and ribs of the turtle. It serves as home and shelter for it. If turned on their back they use their head and neck to turnabout. This can be a reminder to use your own head and knowledge to right yourself when your world gets topsy turvy.
Sometimes we can't see the forest for the trees and turtle can slow us down to help us see our opportunities.
Turtle is the favorite food of raccoons. Good idea to also study raccoons. This can help you understand the interplay of energies manifesting within your life. It is believed that turtles use the sun to make vaitamin D. It may be a good idea to check your own vitamin intake and adjust your diet, especially vitamin D.
If turtle has shown up in your life, it is time to get connected to your most primal essence. Go within your shell and come out when your ideas are ready to be expressed. It is time to recognize that there is an abundance out there for you. Let the natural flow work for you.
Turtle reminds us that all we need for all that we do is available to us when we approach it in the right manner and time.
Turtles remind us that the way to heaven is through the earth. In Mother Earth there is all that we need. She will care for us, protect us and nurture us as long as we do the same for her. For that to happen, we must slow down and heighten our sensibilities. We must see the connection to all things.
Just as the turtle cannot separate itself from its shell, neither can we separate ourselves from what we do to and on the Earth."
Is today a good day to start using turtle energy to Be U?
There is more about the turtle in Mr. Andrews book. I only put what 'grabbed' me.
Equestrians
These equestrians are sure hard working people. Out in all elements of weather and loving what they do. Amazing.
It's all in the mindset, isn't it.
How is your mindset today? Choose to make it a good one. You deserve it and so does everyone around U.
Is a happy mindset contagious?
It's all in the mindset, isn't it.
How is your mindset today? Choose to make it a good one. You deserve it and so does everyone around U.
Is a happy mindset contagious?
Friday, January 21, 2011
Rainy Day
A rainy, foggy morning today. Oh, yippee, I can go out and trudge in the wet deep muck. How lucky am I.
I will certainly take it over the dirty, icy snow and 32. I understand 10 deg. is on its way to Pennsylania and I really don't think that temperature should be allowed. I know it doesn't feel like anyone should have to habitate in that. Good luck to all that do. I'm sure alot of people like it. Maybe they need a doctor. Ha!
As I start my day with a little stretch and breakfast, I am excited to see my daughter do her thing; ride like art. It really can be beautiful. Animal and woman working in sync. Pretty cool for sure.
I'll stay on the ground. Thank you very much. I like them when my feet are on the ground. I enjoy giving them carrots and apples. Did I mention all the dogs? I miss my four terribly. I know they know I am gone. I hope they are happy and playing with everyone else. Sounds like they are. Little Bear has brought 5 shoes out of my closet one day and put on her bed in the kitchen area. She does this all the time when I'm not there. How cute.
I'm wishing for everyone to make this Friday a good one. Make it a good day for U even if it kills you! (Joke.) Make it a good day for U.
I will certainly take it over the dirty, icy snow and 32. I understand 10 deg. is on its way to Pennsylania and I really don't think that temperature should be allowed. I know it doesn't feel like anyone should have to habitate in that. Good luck to all that do. I'm sure alot of people like it. Maybe they need a doctor. Ha!
As I start my day with a little stretch and breakfast, I am excited to see my daughter do her thing; ride like art. It really can be beautiful. Animal and woman working in sync. Pretty cool for sure.
I'll stay on the ground. Thank you very much. I like them when my feet are on the ground. I enjoy giving them carrots and apples. Did I mention all the dogs? I miss my four terribly. I know they know I am gone. I hope they are happy and playing with everyone else. Sounds like they are. Little Bear has brought 5 shoes out of my closet one day and put on her bed in the kitchen area. She does this all the time when I'm not there. How cute.
I'm wishing for everyone to make this Friday a good one. Make it a good day for U even if it kills you! (Joke.) Make it a good day for U.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Keep On Keeping On
No matter what it going on in your life; you are in control of you. It's not what is happening to us, but how we look at what's happening; how we think about it.
Is your cup half full or half empty. Which one are you choosing today? How does it make you feel.
My wish for you today is to simply keep on keeping on.
Is your cup half full or half empty. Which one are you choosing today? How does it make you feel.
My wish for you today is to simply keep on keeping on.
Horses
I was outside most of the day watching horses. Horses jumping, horses trotting, horses walking. Horses, horses, horses.
They are beautiful creatures. They have so much muscle and strength. They spook at the strangest things. Some don't like to walk through puddles; some don't like it if a flower pot was moved to a different area; some don't like noises. For being such big creatures, they surely don't always know that their pure size can overpower almost everything that they are afraid of.
Fear - what an interesting thing. If I see a person afraid of a little dog; I don't usually get it because I'm not; AND I've never been bit. When I'm afraid of locking myself in a small enclosed room; others may not get it because they don't have a care about that. Fear stops us from doing so many things at times. When really, the fear may just be in our mind and pretty far away from the reality of it's ability to hurt us.
If fear knocks on your door, open the door and walk through; you'll see, nothing is there most of the time. Why then does fear have so much power over me. Why can fear have so much power over the largest and strongest of horses. Who knows?
May you walk through your door of fear and realize "I've got this".
They are beautiful creatures. They have so much muscle and strength. They spook at the strangest things. Some don't like to walk through puddles; some don't like it if a flower pot was moved to a different area; some don't like noises. For being such big creatures, they surely don't always know that their pure size can overpower almost everything that they are afraid of.
Fear - what an interesting thing. If I see a person afraid of a little dog; I don't usually get it because I'm not; AND I've never been bit. When I'm afraid of locking myself in a small enclosed room; others may not get it because they don't have a care about that. Fear stops us from doing so many things at times. When really, the fear may just be in our mind and pretty far away from the reality of it's ability to hurt us.
If fear knocks on your door, open the door and walk through; you'll see, nothing is there most of the time. Why then does fear have so much power over me. Why can fear have so much power over the largest and strongest of horses. Who knows?
May you walk through your door of fear and realize "I've got this".
Movement ln the Mind
Moving is still prevalent in my mind today. I walked on the treadmill and stretched for one hour. I feel pretty good. WOW. Did I just say that. YES I DID.
Movement invigorates me. Movement connects me with myself. Movement burns calories. Movement produces endorphins which are our feel-good hormones.
Walking on the treadmill, looking at the window at a dirty water lake and listening to my IPOD. I was in the zone. I was happy. I felt good. A turtle popped it's head up out of the water. I have to go look up Turtle in my Animal Speak book by Ted Andrews. It stayed there for a bit and then disappeared under the water again.
My body was jumping up and down inside from happiness that I was giving it some attention. I wonder if I'll do it tomorrow. Right now, in this moment, I can't wait to do it tomorrow.
My wish for you today is to move enough today to feel good about U. May you connect to the part of you that loves yourself enough to make time to dance, run, walk, ski, bike, row -- whatever it is that you find the enjoyment of moving with; give it to yourself. You deserve it. There just might not be anything better.
If nothing is coming up for you, then just put on the music and walk in place for five minutes or dance. See where it leads you. See how you feel after. Will you want to go on?
Are we better when we work our brain, our bodies? Will this lead to better attitudes. It just may! Good luck. Rock and Roll! Ha.
Movement invigorates me. Movement connects me with myself. Movement burns calories. Movement produces endorphins which are our feel-good hormones.
Walking on the treadmill, looking at the window at a dirty water lake and listening to my IPOD. I was in the zone. I was happy. I felt good. A turtle popped it's head up out of the water. I have to go look up Turtle in my Animal Speak book by Ted Andrews. It stayed there for a bit and then disappeared under the water again.
My body was jumping up and down inside from happiness that I was giving it some attention. I wonder if I'll do it tomorrow. Right now, in this moment, I can't wait to do it tomorrow.
My wish for you today is to move enough today to feel good about U. May you connect to the part of you that loves yourself enough to make time to dance, run, walk, ski, bike, row -- whatever it is that you find the enjoyment of moving with; give it to yourself. You deserve it. There just might not be anything better.
If nothing is coming up for you, then just put on the music and walk in place for five minutes or dance. See where it leads you. See how you feel after. Will you want to go on?
Are we better when we work our brain, our bodies? Will this lead to better attitudes. It just may! Good luck. Rock and Roll! Ha.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
ThinkPad
My laptop is called a ThinkPad........
My brain is a thinking machine.
I'd like to stop thinking for this moment.
May you not think in this moment and just feel the presence of U.
OH no, it's hard for me to sit in this presently. What is going on. Breathe Mercedes, just breathe.(this after I heard from an Ocala, FL realtor that she still doesn't know if a house is available for purchase by me or not).
Not surprising to feel this way; Yet, I'm resisting feeling this way......interesting and exhausting.
Wish I could as easily turn off my brain as I can my Thinkpad. HA.
My brain is a thinking machine.
I'd like to stop thinking for this moment.
May you not think in this moment and just feel the presence of U.
OH no, it's hard for me to sit in this presently. What is going on. Breathe Mercedes, just breathe.(this after I heard from an Ocala, FL realtor that she still doesn't know if a house is available for purchase by me or not).
Not surprising to feel this way; Yet, I'm resisting feeling this way......interesting and exhausting.
Wish I could as easily turn off my brain as I can my Thinkpad. HA.
70 Degrees in Jacksonville
Can you say Ahhhhhhhh. Love the weather here. My body is calmer and happier. Going outside is not an ordeal for me; it is something I look forward to. No coat, no heavy clothes. Heaven for me.
My body is still screaming a little. I find myself wanting to move more. It feels good when I move my body. I'm realizing how much muscle I've lost and I'm hoping to move more and more everyday.
I know I don't need to go 1.5 hrs to feel better. I feel better when I take my body extremely close to tired through movement.
I feel the struggle of the young, healthy me and the latest, older me. I'm hoping to meet both of them here where I am. 50 and fabulous. Ha.
It's amazing how different I feel within. I'm so much more sitting with 'ME' and trusting that people will still like me and I will fit in the world better than ever. Being away from home and out being adventurous is just what I need right now.
I do feel like I'm camping. Being at a horse show is definitely camping for me. I love the horses; there are tons of dogs and alot of walking. To see the joy on my daughter's face is everything. I am out of my element some; she is so in hers.
I want to embrace, experience this and learn and grow from it. I usually retreat to the ocean; a tropical resort. I am now at a place where my mouth tastes the dust from the horse's movement. Oh my!
My wish for you today is that there is movement in your life; that you know the beautiful, energizing feeling of moving your body.
If you already have a routine. You rock! If not, park a little further away. Take the steps instead of the escalator/elevator. Stand in place and march for 5 minutes. Whatever you are telling yourself to do - I hope you listen. Today is your day.
I'm with you.
I'm feeling a little awkward. I'm sure it's my own life transitions. Letting go of what's not working for me and bringing on the new. A little out of my comfort zone. From the old personal trainer who exercised 6 am to 9 pm to a mom who gave most of herself to her family. I'm meeting somewhere in the middle and I'm not too comfortable with it YET. I say 'Bring It'. Bring it on!
This is Penn State, Pennsylvania in Summer.
You get the idea. I have to get my downloads going here in Florida.
Let's Move Like the Horses! Fly over the obstacles in front of us and end up grounded and strong.
My body is still screaming a little. I find myself wanting to move more. It feels good when I move my body. I'm realizing how much muscle I've lost and I'm hoping to move more and more everyday.
I know I don't need to go 1.5 hrs to feel better. I feel better when I take my body extremely close to tired through movement.
I feel the struggle of the young, healthy me and the latest, older me. I'm hoping to meet both of them here where I am. 50 and fabulous. Ha.
It's amazing how different I feel within. I'm so much more sitting with 'ME' and trusting that people will still like me and I will fit in the world better than ever. Being away from home and out being adventurous is just what I need right now.
I do feel like I'm camping. Being at a horse show is definitely camping for me. I love the horses; there are tons of dogs and alot of walking. To see the joy on my daughter's face is everything. I am out of my element some; she is so in hers.
I want to embrace, experience this and learn and grow from it. I usually retreat to the ocean; a tropical resort. I am now at a place where my mouth tastes the dust from the horse's movement. Oh my!
My wish for you today is that there is movement in your life; that you know the beautiful, energizing feeling of moving your body.
If you already have a routine. You rock! If not, park a little further away. Take the steps instead of the escalator/elevator. Stand in place and march for 5 minutes. Whatever you are telling yourself to do - I hope you listen. Today is your day.
I'm with you.
I'm feeling a little awkward. I'm sure it's my own life transitions. Letting go of what's not working for me and bringing on the new. A little out of my comfort zone. From the old personal trainer who exercised 6 am to 9 pm to a mom who gave most of herself to her family. I'm meeting somewhere in the middle and I'm not too comfortable with it YET. I say 'Bring It'. Bring it on!
You get the idea. I have to get my downloads going here in Florida.
Let's Move Like the Horses! Fly over the obstacles in front of us and end up grounded and strong.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Experience Your Experiences
Every minute of every day we have experiences. We create them, we live them, we reside in them. We run to them, from them and outside of them.
What if, by actually experiencing them and not having our thoughts elsewhere but in the experience, we can live fuller and be more productive. What if our experiencing our experiences enable us to be ourselves in each and every moment.
Can this give me the opportunity to grow, change and get on and stay on my happy paths.
Live in the moment. Live in the experience of each moment. This is what I am going to try to stay fully aware of today.
So, when I find my mind wondering away from what I'm doing in the moment, I vow to bring my mind back to what I'm doing and be fully involved.
With all this change and upheaval in my present life, I think I need to turn off the fear again and again of not doing the right thing in the right moment. I hope to experience the 'thing' that I'm doing in the moment. I'm doing it, so why question it. Enjoy it. This, I tell myself.
May you enjoy experiencing your experiences fully. May you make them what provides you with happiness.
What if, by actually experiencing them and not having our thoughts elsewhere but in the experience, we can live fuller and be more productive. What if our experiencing our experiences enable us to be ourselves in each and every moment.
Can this give me the opportunity to grow, change and get on and stay on my happy paths.
Live in the moment. Live in the experience of each moment. This is what I am going to try to stay fully aware of today.
So, when I find my mind wondering away from what I'm doing in the moment, I vow to bring my mind back to what I'm doing and be fully involved.
With all this change and upheaval in my present life, I think I need to turn off the fear again and again of not doing the right thing in the right moment. I hope to experience the 'thing' that I'm doing in the moment. I'm doing it, so why question it. Enjoy it. This, I tell myself.
May you enjoy experiencing your experiences fully. May you make them what provides you with happiness.
My Health and Gratefulness
My body is screaming some. I'm watching what I eat; I'm moving my body more. The tightness of my skin and the ulcers on my fingers are still very prevalent.
I'm a bit achy. My ears are ringing. My feet need more cushioning. Opening certain packages, carrying certain luggage and turning certain doors are a bit of a challenge for me while traveling. Just counting coins or going through paperwork takes me longer than it used to because of my hands.
I love the warm breeze on my skin. There is nothing better than it for me. It calms me and I feel so part of nature here. I don't know why; but I belong in this climate.
I miss my animals alot. I am so grateful for the people watching them and loving them in my place. Without them I would never relax here and enjoy myself.
When I am away from my everyday life, I find it easier to look and see it more clearly then when I'm in the middle of living it.
I'm very grateful for the ease in my life. Just having a car that opens the back hatch with a touch of a button; having a nice comfy bed with a perfect pillow; having an oven to cook food in; a soft, fluffy towel is surely a luxury.
Is it possible to look at the things in your life that you love and appreciate and, at times, may take for granted. My wish for you is that you know how lucky you are to have some favorite things in your everyday life and how fortunate you are to have many things in your life that can be done with ease.
May you contemplate them and have gratefulness in your heart.
There are some really great things that I take for granted and, today, I am extra thankful for.
I'm a bit achy. My ears are ringing. My feet need more cushioning. Opening certain packages, carrying certain luggage and turning certain doors are a bit of a challenge for me while traveling. Just counting coins or going through paperwork takes me longer than it used to because of my hands.
I love the warm breeze on my skin. There is nothing better than it for me. It calms me and I feel so part of nature here. I don't know why; but I belong in this climate.
I miss my animals alot. I am so grateful for the people watching them and loving them in my place. Without them I would never relax here and enjoy myself.
When I am away from my everyday life, I find it easier to look and see it more clearly then when I'm in the middle of living it.
I'm very grateful for the ease in my life. Just having a car that opens the back hatch with a touch of a button; having a nice comfy bed with a perfect pillow; having an oven to cook food in; a soft, fluffy towel is surely a luxury.
Is it possible to look at the things in your life that you love and appreciate and, at times, may take for granted. My wish for you is that you know how lucky you are to have some favorite things in your everyday life and how fortunate you are to have many things in your life that can be done with ease.
May you contemplate them and have gratefulness in your heart.
There are some really great things that I take for granted and, today, I am extra thankful for.
St. Augustine, FL
I've arrived for my two week stay here in St. Augustine. It greeted me with 60 deg. F and I am very thankful.
My head is a bit discombobulated and I'm settling in nicely. My daughter meets me here tomorrow and the horse showing begins Friday. I'm looking forward to watching her.
Me - I'm (actually, I do not know). I'm doing this all for her and her love and ability with her horses. Me, as a woman is not so much here right now. Me, as a MOM is spot on and I'm okay with that for now.
It's hard to feel whole and, yet, it's okay because my daughter is happy. I'd like to feel whole and my daughter be happy. Possible? I certainly think so. I'd like to learn how.
If you were not a parent, a spouse, a job title, who would you be? This is U. Are you here?
My head is a bit discombobulated and I'm settling in nicely. My daughter meets me here tomorrow and the horse showing begins Friday. I'm looking forward to watching her.
Me - I'm (actually, I do not know). I'm doing this all for her and her love and ability with her horses. Me, as a woman is not so much here right now. Me, as a MOM is spot on and I'm okay with that for now.
It's hard to feel whole and, yet, it's okay because my daughter is happy. I'd like to feel whole and my daughter be happy. Possible? I certainly think so. I'd like to learn how.
If you were not a parent, a spouse, a job title, who would you be? This is U. Are you here?
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Last Night in Pennsylvania
I wish you strength, happiness and success.
I'll see you on the 'other side' of my travels.
I guess I can say I'm in a transitional state. Sort of feels exciting and adventurous and also feels uprooted and unsettling.
I know the thought of it scares me more than when I'm actually doing it. Until I leave the house, it's quite the 'crazies' in my head and around me. As soon as I'm on my way, it seems I turn into someone who can handle it all.
I'm much more comfortable with the person that believes she can handle it all. As I'm leaving my dogs and the safety of my home to travel, I scramble and am not relaxed. Once I've left my home, I settle in and get ready to enjoy the 'ride'. (the animals are staying here with plenty of loving people caring for them).
Right now, in this moment, I'm in the unsettled phase. I can't sit still. I'm scrambling to make sure I'm thinking of everything that needs attention here; everything I need for there and the things in between like the plane tickets and luggage.
My daughter is already down there. I'm flying by myself to meet her there. I know she'll rock the horse world! First two weeks in Jacksonville, FL, then another 7 weeks in Ocala, FL.
May you feel safe in your life, be open to new transitions that may work better for you with where you are in your life today. May you have the ability to hear YOUR inner voice (amongst all the others that make us question ourselves) and follow through to find yourself on the side of HAPPY; on the side of BEING U.
I am grateful for you visiting the Be U site and I believe that when people work together with their positive light, amazing and beautiful things light up in one's life. I am hopeful that we will all live the powerful lives we are meant to live and the world's light will shine bright on all. Positivity, love and depth will be ours all the time.
I'll see you on the 'other side' of my travels.
I guess I can say I'm in a transitional state. Sort of feels exciting and adventurous and also feels uprooted and unsettling.
I know the thought of it scares me more than when I'm actually doing it. Until I leave the house, it's quite the 'crazies' in my head and around me. As soon as I'm on my way, it seems I turn into someone who can handle it all.
I'm much more comfortable with the person that believes she can handle it all. As I'm leaving my dogs and the safety of my home to travel, I scramble and am not relaxed. Once I've left my home, I settle in and get ready to enjoy the 'ride'. (the animals are staying here with plenty of loving people caring for them).
Right now, in this moment, I'm in the unsettled phase. I can't sit still. I'm scrambling to make sure I'm thinking of everything that needs attention here; everything I need for there and the things in between like the plane tickets and luggage.
My daughter is already down there. I'm flying by myself to meet her there. I know she'll rock the horse world! First two weeks in Jacksonville, FL, then another 7 weeks in Ocala, FL.
May you feel safe in your life, be open to new transitions that may work better for you with where you are in your life today. May you have the ability to hear YOUR inner voice (amongst all the others that make us question ourselves) and follow through to find yourself on the side of HAPPY; on the side of BEING U.
I am grateful for you visiting the Be U site and I believe that when people work together with their positive light, amazing and beautiful things light up in one's life. I am hopeful that we will all live the powerful lives we are meant to live and the world's light will shine bright on all. Positivity, love and depth will be ours all the time.
Breathe. Stretch. Smile.
With great sincerity,
Mercedes
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Today is the Day
Today is the day. Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow isn't here yet. Today is the day to make it yours and enjoy and be happy.
How lucky we are that we have today.
What are you going to do with your day? My wish for you is that you will make today a happy one for U.
How lucky we are that we have today.
What are you going to do with your day? My wish for you is that you will make today a happy one for U.
Lightening Up (or not)
I want to lighten up here. So much intensity; not sure you feel it. Would love to say something witty, funny, charming...
I wonder why I need this. I have this belief that by being so serious, I push you away. I need to say something charming to bring you back in. To keep you connected to me. Yes, this is still important to me. I guess it always will be. I'm okay with that.
To not feel connected to people is like death for me. (oh, so dramatic and yet so true)
I remember being in my early teens and being at my first outdoor drinking party* (do I be honest and say it was in some sort of woods around some sort of cemetery, ugh) and I remember asking Renee to walk me around and I had to be introduced to everyone at the 'party'. (interesting that this just popped up in my head) I also remember being at a dance bar for one of my first times and standing in front of the bar on the dance floor and asking everyone that would pay attention to me to come and dance. I wanted to get the whole place involved! Weirdo..... maybe! It's always been important to me that no one is left out.
When I did a huge group warm-up on the Boardwalk in Atlantic City, NJ before a run/walk - I tried to get everyone waiting to participate in the warm-up.
I never know where these posts are going; I just go with whatever and fly with it.
How spontaneous are U? Do you want to try to let go a bit more or, maybe, hold back some just to 'do different' and see what happens. Do you dare?
*I didn't personally have alcohol here. It wouldn't be long before I did my experimenting with it, however.
I wonder why I need this. I have this belief that by being so serious, I push you away. I need to say something charming to bring you back in. To keep you connected to me. Yes, this is still important to me. I guess it always will be. I'm okay with that.
To not feel connected to people is like death for me. (oh, so dramatic and yet so true)
I remember being in my early teens and being at my first outdoor drinking party* (do I be honest and say it was in some sort of woods around some sort of cemetery, ugh) and I remember asking Renee to walk me around and I had to be introduced to everyone at the 'party'. (interesting that this just popped up in my head) I also remember being at a dance bar for one of my first times and standing in front of the bar on the dance floor and asking everyone that would pay attention to me to come and dance. I wanted to get the whole place involved! Weirdo..... maybe! It's always been important to me that no one is left out.
When I did a huge group warm-up on the Boardwalk in Atlantic City, NJ before a run/walk - I tried to get everyone waiting to participate in the warm-up.
I never know where these posts are going; I just go with whatever and fly with it.
How spontaneous are U? Do you want to try to let go a bit more or, maybe, hold back some just to 'do different' and see what happens. Do you dare?
*I didn't personally have alcohol here. It wouldn't be long before I did my experimenting with it, however.
Up at 4 AM
My pain in my hands gas awaken me again. I let the dogs out - amazingly cold. 10 degrees F. Is there anything that can live in that temperature? Found out yesterday that ticks can. My Durby dog went for his daily walk yesterday (I do not walk him in the winter) and he came home with 6 ticks on him. I was certainly surprised. He must have walked through a nest or something. Yucky, right?
Two more days, I go to Florida. It's 43 degrees F. there right now. Will it be the usual reprieve from the cold for me. We will see. Last year and this seem to be unusally cooler in the south. I'm sure there is an explanation for it. I may not even want to hear it.
Every winter, except this one, I've asked myself how can the cold affect me so negatively; why. I know blood vessel constrict in the cold and when we shiver - I guess mine just constrict more then they need to in the fingers and that's why they do not get enough blood. It's literally like my hands are dying while I'm alive. What a horrible disease. I guess that's why it's called a dis-ease. What disease isn't horrible.
Alot of the alternative people in medicine think to get rid of the dis-ease. Sounds easy enough. Apparently, for me, it is not. Is my deep down level of (un)worthiness keeping me stuck. My deep down level of fear of being told I'm wrong to feel this or that way; or someone would laugh at me for my beliefs; or worse - holler at me. (I'm here after reading this sentence again and again; in reality, this probably happened to me only on several occassions and when I was too young to make it not matter. AHA) Why such the impact that 40 plus years later, the fear and dis-ease is still here..........
I'm not sure where this is coming from. I do believe it's coming from deep down inside. Right now in this moment, when I see these words and read them and hear them; they don't seem to have such an impact that they do when I feel them. Feeling them is a much more dramatic feeling then reading and hearing them. Interesting.
May you see the reality of your feelings today. Are U letting your feelings run you or are you running your feelings? This is over my head. I don't know which is the correct answer for me.
I suppose there are times to let our feelings run us and other times when we can sit back, look at how we feel, and decide if it's working for us or not. Keep them or change them up some.
This just may have been a giant leap for Mercedes kind. get it - giant leap for mankind...... ha. Again, 4 am!
Two more days, I go to Florida. It's 43 degrees F. there right now. Will it be the usual reprieve from the cold for me. We will see. Last year and this seem to be unusally cooler in the south. I'm sure there is an explanation for it. I may not even want to hear it.
Every winter, except this one, I've asked myself how can the cold affect me so negatively; why. I know blood vessel constrict in the cold and when we shiver - I guess mine just constrict more then they need to in the fingers and that's why they do not get enough blood. It's literally like my hands are dying while I'm alive. What a horrible disease. I guess that's why it's called a dis-ease. What disease isn't horrible.
Alot of the alternative people in medicine think to get rid of the dis-ease. Sounds easy enough. Apparently, for me, it is not. Is my deep down level of (un)worthiness keeping me stuck. My deep down level of fear of being told I'm wrong to feel this or that way; or someone would laugh at me for my beliefs; or worse - holler at me. (I'm here after reading this sentence again and again; in reality, this probably happened to me only on several occassions and when I was too young to make it not matter. AHA) Why such the impact that 40 plus years later, the fear and dis-ease is still here..........
I'm not sure where this is coming from. I do believe it's coming from deep down inside. Right now in this moment, when I see these words and read them and hear them; they don't seem to have such an impact that they do when I feel them. Feeling them is a much more dramatic feeling then reading and hearing them. Interesting.
May you see the reality of your feelings today. Are U letting your feelings run you or are you running your feelings? This is over my head. I don't know which is the correct answer for me.
I suppose there are times to let our feelings run us and other times when we can sit back, look at how we feel, and decide if it's working for us or not. Keep them or change them up some.
This just may have been a giant leap for Mercedes kind. get it - giant leap for mankind...... ha. Again, 4 am!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Honesty
I'm having a pretty rough morning today. The cold is WOW. I think it went down to 14 degrees. That should NOT be allowed.
My hands are screaming and fighting everything I am doing. They don't want to do anything at all. I had to activate a credit card this morning and I had to rev myself up for that. Totally embarrassing to me. I'm angry at myself for feeling this way. I'm in the darkness, I suppose.
I know in my head to love myself through this. Say to myself - I'm doing the best I can with what I'm dealing with. It's okay to be here for this moment. I believe this in my head totally.
In my cells - I want to fight and kick and scream back. I don't want to not want to get things done. I don't want to feel resistance to certain things. I don't want to feel the cold hurting me. I don't want to not have the energy to live my life fully.
Back and forth, around and around. Can we say the word 'stuck'. So, let's say this is just an old habit of mine holding on with everything it's got. Perhaps, I can say thank you for when you helped me. However, you are hurting me terribly now residing within me and I want you to leave. I want you to take your abundance of energy and go out into the world and have others receive this energy as GOOD, POSITIVE, ENLIGHTENING ENERGY. Within me, it's hurtful. Moving on, I want it to be powerful to others beyond belief.
I also would like myself without this 'energy' to be powerful beyond belief. To trust and live and breathe and do what I KNOW IN MY heart is correct, right, positive and pure.
Is this all just bull. It certainly might be. I'm not sure in this moment.
May you connect with your 'pureness of truth' and move onward. My wish for today is to feel what we are feeling and let it go.
Hold on to what works for U and let go of what doesn't. Simple has never been so hard!
My hands are screaming and fighting everything I am doing. They don't want to do anything at all. I had to activate a credit card this morning and I had to rev myself up for that. Totally embarrassing to me. I'm angry at myself for feeling this way. I'm in the darkness, I suppose.
I know in my head to love myself through this. Say to myself - I'm doing the best I can with what I'm dealing with. It's okay to be here for this moment. I believe this in my head totally.
In my cells - I want to fight and kick and scream back. I don't want to not want to get things done. I don't want to feel resistance to certain things. I don't want to feel the cold hurting me. I don't want to not have the energy to live my life fully.
Back and forth, around and around. Can we say the word 'stuck'. So, let's say this is just an old habit of mine holding on with everything it's got. Perhaps, I can say thank you for when you helped me. However, you are hurting me terribly now residing within me and I want you to leave. I want you to take your abundance of energy and go out into the world and have others receive this energy as GOOD, POSITIVE, ENLIGHTENING ENERGY. Within me, it's hurtful. Moving on, I want it to be powerful to others beyond belief.
I also would like myself without this 'energy' to be powerful beyond belief. To trust and live and breathe and do what I KNOW IN MY heart is correct, right, positive and pure.
Is this all just bull. It certainly might be. I'm not sure in this moment.
May you connect with your 'pureness of truth' and move onward. My wish for today is to feel what we are feeling and let it go.
Hold on to what works for U and let go of what doesn't. Simple has never been so hard!
Who Do You Want to Be Today
WHO ARE U, today, in this moment?
WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE?
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(Picture Taken of Joaquin Phoenix from the movie I'm Still Here)
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Be Ready to Learn and the Teacher Will Come
After my day of learning more about myself, I sit down, put Dr. Phil on TV and this is what I hear him say:
When you grow up around parents who fight all the time, it changes who you are.
Parents are your island in the ocean. That's when they are safe and it's based on the belief that this gives children the ability to leave the island and go out in the world and grow up and be who they are. If they never know if that island is going to be safe or scaary when they come back, they can become very insecure and they can turn aggressive. Some may be aggressed against and others may become the agressor.
They can do poorly in school. They can have anxiety, they can have depression. They have a much higher rate of suicide. They have a much higher rate of alcohol or drug abuse.
Thank you Dr. Phil McGraw for being my teacher today.
Are U ready to learn?
When you grow up around parents who fight all the time, it changes who you are.
Parents are your island in the ocean. That's when they are safe and it's based on the belief that this gives children the ability to leave the island and go out in the world and grow up and be who they are. If they never know if that island is going to be safe or scaary when they come back, they can become very insecure and they can turn aggressive. Some may be aggressed against and others may become the agressor.
They can do poorly in school. They can have anxiety, they can have depression. They have a much higher rate of suicide. They have a much higher rate of alcohol or drug abuse.
Thank you Dr. Phil McGraw for being my teacher today.
Are U ready to learn?
Scared and Alone
I'm feeling all of these wonderful things and at the same time feeling scared and alone.
What am I afraid of? the unknown; not having the strength to move forward; not having the ability or know-how to do what I want to do; failure; people laughing at me; doing the wrong thing
Why do I feel alone? Perhaps, because I am connecting to my own uniqueness, my own power; my inner knowing like I have never done before. Perhaps, I am not using other people for contentment, not needing others to agree with me. Perhaps, I am still shut down some because I don't know how to be this me with others yet.
How can one person feel so many things? The full spectrum of feelings. The fullness of life. There's alot to be said for 'staying in my cave'... Am I really ready to come out and to continue to fight for my life; my breath; my place in the world. Or, am I ready to come out and just let it all be what it is and plop myself in the middle of it and FLY.
Okay, more than enough for one sitting.
Are you ready to just let it all be? My wish for you today is that you are ready to answer to:
Will the real U please stand up!
What am I afraid of? the unknown; not having the strength to move forward; not having the ability or know-how to do what I want to do; failure; people laughing at me; doing the wrong thing
Why do I feel alone? Perhaps, because I am connecting to my own uniqueness, my own power; my inner knowing like I have never done before. Perhaps, I am not using other people for contentment, not needing others to agree with me. Perhaps, I am still shut down some because I don't know how to be this me with others yet.
How can one person feel so many things? The full spectrum of feelings. The fullness of life. There's alot to be said for 'staying in my cave'... Am I really ready to come out and to continue to fight for my life; my breath; my place in the world. Or, am I ready to come out and just let it all be what it is and plop myself in the middle of it and FLY.
Okay, more than enough for one sitting.
Are you ready to just let it all be? My wish for you today is that you are ready to answer to:
Will the real U please stand up!
Owning My Power
THREE REALLY BIG WORDS for me. People are telling me that I'm ready to own my power. I'm ready to live my life and be true to myself and others about my needs, wants, thoughts, and feelings.
I'm ready to be powerful. (wow, where did these words come from - it's hard for me to believe that my fingers typed these words)
I'M READY TO BE POWERFUL.
I'm ready to be powerful. (wow, where did these words come from - it's hard for me to believe that my fingers typed these words)
I'M READY TO BE POWERFUL.
Powerful (dictionary.com)
having or exerting great power or force; physically strong, as a person
having great effectiveness, as a speech, speaker, description, reason, etc.
having great power, authority, or influence; mighty
How is your BE U Power today?
Another Informative Experience (can you say wonderful - ha)
My wonderful massage therapist was here yesterday and today I went to my wonderful naturopath and I had some wonderful (wonderful?) experiences and I learned more about me. Below is was my total experience.
I was laying on the table, fully clothed, and all of a sudden Michael Row Your Boat Ashore and Three Blind Mice songs came into my head. I mentioned this to the masseuse and she said take it as information. So I went with it and before I knew it I was sitting up on the table rocking saying "2nd grade, 3rd grade; 2nd grade, 3rd grade; I'm in school not wanting to be there because I know there is some real, bad and scary things going on at home. They won't let me leave school and I know that my home is a scary place and I don't understand it and I know it is bad." I broke down saying "oh my, this is when I left myself"; this is when I decided I couldn't handle or understand things, but I knew I didn't want to be a part of it. So I left little me that day. I left my family (in my head) as well. Almost like I didn't belong in my family. I felt feelings of embarrassment and ugliness. I shut down and turned off a part of me that day. This was only about my parents fighting; arguing. It had a huge impact on me. I believe that I didn't know how to be around it or live during it. I believe that something in me, that day, was buried. I say buried, because I can feel this part of me today. I can feel the innocent, cute, scared little girl. So, while I wanted to say a part of me died that day; I don't think that would be true. Buried somehow would be more accurate. If I had to guess, I would say buried somewhere in my belly. Crazy, maybe. Completely feels real? - you bet.
I believe today that this embarrassing and ugly feeling manifested into my fingers. Sounds crazy and sounds true.
Oh what a road I am on. (where's the exit sign!) "They" better not come take me away. I am more sane than I've ever been. I don't know if I can know for certain what to label this. I do know I am really being me. Feels so right and it feels so scary or off the charts.
Are you ignoring, feeling or having thoughts that you write-off as insane, wrong or shouldn't feel? Can you dare to listen to them and see where it takes you? What if, in a matter of moments, it would bring you closer to Being U? Are you willing to go there?
For me - Being U equals complete inner peace. Ahhhhhh.
I was laying on the table, fully clothed, and all of a sudden Michael Row Your Boat Ashore and Three Blind Mice songs came into my head. I mentioned this to the masseuse and she said take it as information. So I went with it and before I knew it I was sitting up on the table rocking saying "2nd grade, 3rd grade; 2nd grade, 3rd grade; I'm in school not wanting to be there because I know there is some real, bad and scary things going on at home. They won't let me leave school and I know that my home is a scary place and I don't understand it and I know it is bad." I broke down saying "oh my, this is when I left myself"; this is when I decided I couldn't handle or understand things, but I knew I didn't want to be a part of it. So I left little me that day. I left my family (in my head) as well. Almost like I didn't belong in my family. I felt feelings of embarrassment and ugliness. I shut down and turned off a part of me that day. This was only about my parents fighting; arguing. It had a huge impact on me. I believe that I didn't know how to be around it or live during it. I believe that something in me, that day, was buried. I say buried, because I can feel this part of me today. I can feel the innocent, cute, scared little girl. So, while I wanted to say a part of me died that day; I don't think that would be true. Buried somehow would be more accurate. If I had to guess, I would say buried somewhere in my belly. Crazy, maybe. Completely feels real? - you bet.
I believe today that this embarrassing and ugly feeling manifested into my fingers. Sounds crazy and sounds true.
Oh what a road I am on. (where's the exit sign!) "They" better not come take me away. I am more sane than I've ever been. I don't know if I can know for certain what to label this. I do know I am really being me. Feels so right and it feels so scary or off the charts.
Are you ignoring, feeling or having thoughts that you write-off as insane, wrong or shouldn't feel? Can you dare to listen to them and see where it takes you? What if, in a matter of moments, it would bring you closer to Being U? Are you willing to go there?
For me - Being U equals complete inner peace. Ahhhhhh.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Snow, Now, No, Sow
Snow again today. Absolutely beautiful to look at with the evergreens looking heavy with the white snow laying on them. Picture perfect. Really.
At this moment, I'm worried/embarrassed about posting a picture of my fingers in my last post. I'm totally embarrassed by them. I'm not sure why other than they are so different and I find them ugly. I so want to grow better fingers..? I have to sit with this a bit.
I have learned to say No a wee bit better than in my past. I'm realizing it's not about not wanting to (most of the time). It's about my ability to and the impact saying yes has on me; therefore, the impact it has on my feelings toward the person I have not said no to when I truly wanted to. Meaning, if I say yes to someone's plea and I really want to say no; there is something in me that clicks and is not very happy with the person I say yes to. It's not the person's responsibility; it is mine and yet I blame them. That can't be very good on either of us.
We Reap What we Sow. Isn't that a quote? Meaning, what we plant (think, do, and dream), will grow. If I tell myself 'I don't feel good' - guess what I don't feel (YEP), good. If I tell myself I feel good - I certainly feel a bit better and my hope is that I will eventually feel good. What have I got to lose? I'm going to try it for today.
Is there something you'd like to tell yourself over and over again today to experiment and see what the results are, if any? Good luck.
To help, perhaps you know of something you tell yourself that isn't working for you. Can you tell yourself the opposite of this.
At this moment, I'm worried/embarrassed about posting a picture of my fingers in my last post. I'm totally embarrassed by them. I'm not sure why other than they are so different and I find them ugly. I so want to grow better fingers..? I have to sit with this a bit.
I have learned to say No a wee bit better than in my past. I'm realizing it's not about not wanting to (most of the time). It's about my ability to and the impact saying yes has on me; therefore, the impact it has on my feelings toward the person I have not said no to when I truly wanted to. Meaning, if I say yes to someone's plea and I really want to say no; there is something in me that clicks and is not very happy with the person I say yes to. It's not the person's responsibility; it is mine and yet I blame them. That can't be very good on either of us.
We Reap What we Sow. Isn't that a quote? Meaning, what we plant (think, do, and dream), will grow. If I tell myself 'I don't feel good' - guess what I don't feel (YEP), good. If I tell myself I feel good - I certainly feel a bit better and my hope is that I will eventually feel good. What have I got to lose? I'm going to try it for today.
Is there something you'd like to tell yourself over and over again today to experiment and see what the results are, if any? Good luck.
To help, perhaps you know of something you tell yourself that isn't working for you. Can you tell yourself the opposite of this.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Technology, Electronics and Me (oh my)
I'm not sure this is even what anyone wants to hear about, however, it is what is coming up for me. I'd like to share the 'tragedy' please. Ha.
So, I have a rental car today. I have to drive out of town today and I do not know the exact path to travel. My car (luckily, perhaps spoiled) has Navigation in it and I didn't realize how much I didn't pay attention to the routes I drive because of my dependency on the technology. I even have a portable Garmin (navigation) that I hooked up to the rental car. OH MY though - to have to figure out the new way to use it and not be able to just push a button. Horrible, right.
Anyhow, got it plugged into the socket in the car to charge the battery and soon I was putting in the address and got it done. Hooray. (The charger plug did get stuck in the socket at the end of it all and I needed help to pull it out.) Then, I have my new cell phone. Figuring that out is enough for me right there. However, my car has a bluetooth built into it and it keeps my hands free and the speaker is in my car.
So, the Garmin is sliding all around and falling on the floor more than once because I didn't have the 'hook'; the cell phone is on my seat and I'm trying to listen and deal with the contractors at my house; my daughter about her schedule; the car service center; a realtor in FL. Before I knew it, I found myself stopping at a green light. THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT TO DO WHEN DRIVING.
Also, we have EZ pass (sunpass); an electronic device on our windshield of the car so that we can drive right through the tolls and be billed. The rental car had no EZ pass. Can you imagine that I had to stop at the toll, get a ticket and stop at the toll and pay the fee. Oh my my my my my.!
I remember when my parents had a hard time figuring out and/or wanting to deal with answering machines and then cell phones. Then, I thought they were the neatest inventions ever. Remember when microwaves came out? What, no heat - impossible (not). I wonder what our kids are going to have to learn/accept when they are my age.
Yes, anything we want to know can be found on the internet. We can contact each other in so many different forms and from almost anywhere we find ourselves and immediately. The world no longer sleeps.
There is good and not so good to all of this, I believe. I guess it's us, as individuals and groups, to discriminate and use it appropriately and in good health and with safety measures.
I'm ready for the invention of delicious pieces of chocolate that come in a box and with each chocolate we can either lose weight, gain weight, gain energy, build muscle, grow eyelashes, get rid of wrinkles; you get the idea.. The chocolate of our choice, so to speak.
Talk about advancements. Talk about constant "On".
Something to think about, or at the very least, Use.
May you use technology in a way that empowers your life and not in a way that is added stress. Put it down when you want some 'me' time. We can't plug ourselves into outlets to recharge.....YET.
My 'old' (2 years) cell phone.... and my fingers...
So, I have a rental car today. I have to drive out of town today and I do not know the exact path to travel. My car (luckily, perhaps spoiled) has Navigation in it and I didn't realize how much I didn't pay attention to the routes I drive because of my dependency on the technology. I even have a portable Garmin (navigation) that I hooked up to the rental car. OH MY though - to have to figure out the new way to use it and not be able to just push a button. Horrible, right.
Anyhow, got it plugged into the socket in the car to charge the battery and soon I was putting in the address and got it done. Hooray. (The charger plug did get stuck in the socket at the end of it all and I needed help to pull it out.) Then, I have my new cell phone. Figuring that out is enough for me right there. However, my car has a bluetooth built into it and it keeps my hands free and the speaker is in my car.
So, the Garmin is sliding all around and falling on the floor more than once because I didn't have the 'hook'; the cell phone is on my seat and I'm trying to listen and deal with the contractors at my house; my daughter about her schedule; the car service center; a realtor in FL. Before I knew it, I found myself stopping at a green light. THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT TO DO WHEN DRIVING.
Also, we have EZ pass (sunpass); an electronic device on our windshield of the car so that we can drive right through the tolls and be billed. The rental car had no EZ pass. Can you imagine that I had to stop at the toll, get a ticket and stop at the toll and pay the fee. Oh my my my my my.!
I remember when my parents had a hard time figuring out and/or wanting to deal with answering machines and then cell phones. Then, I thought they were the neatest inventions ever. Remember when microwaves came out? What, no heat - impossible (not). I wonder what our kids are going to have to learn/accept when they are my age.
Yes, anything we want to know can be found on the internet. We can contact each other in so many different forms and from almost anywhere we find ourselves and immediately. The world no longer sleeps.
There is good and not so good to all of this, I believe. I guess it's us, as individuals and groups, to discriminate and use it appropriately and in good health and with safety measures.
I'm ready for the invention of delicious pieces of chocolate that come in a box and with each chocolate we can either lose weight, gain weight, gain energy, build muscle, grow eyelashes, get rid of wrinkles; you get the idea.. The chocolate of our choice, so to speak.
Talk about advancements. Talk about constant "On".
Something to think about, or at the very least, Use.
May you use technology in a way that empowers your life and not in a way that is added stress. Put it down when you want some 'me' time. We can't plug ourselves into outlets to recharge.....YET.
My 'old' (2 years) cell phone.... and my fingers...
Monday, January 10, 2011
Approval
The only approval that is truly necessary is our own. If we approve of ourselves, it doesn't matter what anyone else tells us.
If I'm feeling completely sure of something, then no matter what anyone else says, most likely I cannot be swayed.
If I'm on the 'fence' so to speak, then someone saying something may make me go on one side or the other.
If I'm feeling good about a decision, then I can own it and not waiver on it because another person thinks differently.
May you approve of U today and know the beauty of owning and living your beliefs.
If I'm feeling completely sure of something, then no matter what anyone else says, most likely I cannot be swayed.
If I'm on the 'fence' so to speak, then someone saying something may make me go on one side or the other.
If I'm feeling good about a decision, then I can own it and not waiver on it because another person thinks differently.
May you approve of U today and know the beauty of owning and living your beliefs.
What was your Goal in Coming Here
I went to the doctor today. He asked me 'what is your goal in coming here'. Perfect question.
On the way home I'm thinking that is a good question, that when I'm feeling stuck, to always ask myself. What is my goal in this situation.
Focusing on this helps to center and ground me some.
Does it feel right to you when you are 'stuck' or uncomfortable in any situation (good, bad, ugly), ask yourself 'what's my goal in this situation'? It may change moment to moment; and my wish is that it would help you feel centered and stay focused on something that is important to you.
Good luck.
On the way home I'm thinking that is a good question, that when I'm feeling stuck, to always ask myself. What is my goal in this situation.
Focusing on this helps to center and ground me some.
Does it feel right to you when you are 'stuck' or uncomfortable in any situation (good, bad, ugly), ask yourself 'what's my goal in this situation'? It may change moment to moment; and my wish is that it would help you feel centered and stay focused on something that is important to you.
Good luck.
Caught Up in a Whirlwind
I'm out and about and doing and getting and accomplishing. All good, yes? Make the list, cross the items off. Is there anything better than crossing items off our to do lists?
Would love to say doing the to do list, but not quite there. Some of the items are fun, some are challenging and some I don't know where or how to begin.
Again, maybe this is what life is. Nothing more, nothing less.
May you find yourself enjoying working on your to do list today. We tell ourselves we have to do these things; so perhaps, we might as well enjoy them and relax into doing them. Joyful is the word that comes to mind.
My wish for you is to be a joyful U today.
Would love to say doing the to do list, but not quite there. Some of the items are fun, some are challenging and some I don't know where or how to begin.
Again, maybe this is what life is. Nothing more, nothing less.
May you find yourself enjoying working on your to do list today. We tell ourselves we have to do these things; so perhaps, we might as well enjoy them and relax into doing them. Joyful is the word that comes to mind.
My wish for you is to be a joyful U today.
ScatterBrain
I'm packing up to head out for a few months. I'm settling things here to the best of my ability. I feel scattered and at peace.
I am questioning a bit if this is the right thing for my family. I'm worried that this change could make my life harder. I'm hopeful that it will make my life better.
For the first two weeks, I'll be in a hotel without my animals. This will be quite the experience for me. I'm not looking forward to it and I am looking forward to it.
How can one person have so many different feelings at one time. I'm not sure which one to focus on more. I'm not sure I even have a choice in the matter.
I have to sit back and let things be every so often and do nothing. It seems to keep me balanced a bit.
I'm excited to get out of the freezing temperature. I'm excited to try something new. I'm a bit afraid to try something new as well.
I'm really worried that I won't be able to do much at all with my hands the way the are. I'm not even sure how things are going to work out. I have faith that it will all work out the way it's supposed to. Somehow, someway, with help, I know I'll get through the moving-in phase.
I'm a bit numb to the whole idea. I'm thinking it's the most predominant way I get myself through things that bring me uncertainty; by shutting down some. It seems to be working so I'm going to just let it be for now.
May you be peaceful underneath excitement, challenge, change and/or it all.
I am questioning a bit if this is the right thing for my family. I'm worried that this change could make my life harder. I'm hopeful that it will make my life better.
For the first two weeks, I'll be in a hotel without my animals. This will be quite the experience for me. I'm not looking forward to it and I am looking forward to it.
How can one person have so many different feelings at one time. I'm not sure which one to focus on more. I'm not sure I even have a choice in the matter.
I have to sit back and let things be every so often and do nothing. It seems to keep me balanced a bit.
I'm excited to get out of the freezing temperature. I'm excited to try something new. I'm a bit afraid to try something new as well.
I'm really worried that I won't be able to do much at all with my hands the way the are. I'm not even sure how things are going to work out. I have faith that it will all work out the way it's supposed to. Somehow, someway, with help, I know I'll get through the moving-in phase.
I'm a bit numb to the whole idea. I'm thinking it's the most predominant way I get myself through things that bring me uncertainty; by shutting down some. It seems to be working so I'm going to just let it be for now.
May you be peaceful underneath excitement, challenge, change and/or it all.
Miracles
We have miracles in our lives everyday. The miracle of our body breathing on its own. There is nothing we need to do and our bodies work miraculously.
We have love in our hearts. It may not always be at the forefront, however, I believe it is always there to tap into.
We have babies. Infants, puppies, kittens, rabbits, etc.
The miracle of the sun coming up and going down every day.
The miracle of knowing something is different. The miracle of change.
The miracle of the internet.... Yes. The ability to connect to one another and have every information possible right at our fingertips. Anything we want to learn about - it's right here on our computers.
The miracle of our inner knowing. We all have it. You and You and U. This inner knowing is here to guide us. I ignored mine for a long, long time. I was born connected to it and somewhere along the way I gave the connection up. It was always there. I declined using it because I believed it brought me pain and uncomfortableness. I experienced that it made other people angry and uncomfortable. (When our child lives and feels and does differently than the way we would have done it or do it - it can be uncomfortable - how we react is what matters, perhaps.) Whenever I voiced it outloud as a child; many times there was no one there like I needed them to be. It was just my life situation. Noone's fault; just was. It's made me who I am today. I am a miracle. You are a miracle.
Just ask you inner knowing - it will tell you how miraculous you are.
My wish for you today is to go out and be your 'bad miracle self'! Share the miracle of you with everyone you encounter.
Connect with miracles. Perhaps, the easiest one would be to connect with your breath. The possibilities are endless.
We have love in our hearts. It may not always be at the forefront, however, I believe it is always there to tap into.
We have babies. Infants, puppies, kittens, rabbits, etc.
The miracle of the sun coming up and going down every day.
The miracle of knowing something is different. The miracle of change.
The miracle of the internet.... Yes. The ability to connect to one another and have every information possible right at our fingertips. Anything we want to learn about - it's right here on our computers.
The miracle of our inner knowing. We all have it. You and You and U. This inner knowing is here to guide us. I ignored mine for a long, long time. I was born connected to it and somewhere along the way I gave the connection up. It was always there. I declined using it because I believed it brought me pain and uncomfortableness. I experienced that it made other people angry and uncomfortable. (When our child lives and feels and does differently than the way we would have done it or do it - it can be uncomfortable - how we react is what matters, perhaps.) Whenever I voiced it outloud as a child; many times there was no one there like I needed them to be. It was just my life situation. Noone's fault; just was. It's made me who I am today. I am a miracle. You are a miracle.
Just ask you inner knowing - it will tell you how miraculous you are.
My wish for you today is to go out and be your 'bad miracle self'! Share the miracle of you with everyone you encounter.
Connect with miracles. Perhaps, the easiest one would be to connect with your breath. The possibilities are endless.
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