Shutting Down for a Recharge

Sometimes, life, things, relationships, lists can all seem overwhelming.   This happens when we need a break from what we are doing to doing things that make ourselves happy or, perhaps, nothing at all.

It is okay to shut down the technology for a day.  It is okay to work at 65% instead of 100% for a day or two.  It is okay to just breathe and feel your own love for a few moments whenever you need a boost.  It is okay to share what you are feeling knowing that it is your truth and that 100% for sure you are feeling what you feel for real reasons.  And, this is what matters most to your own well-being. 

If you are feeling dramatic, perhaps, something in your life is dramatic or at one time was very dramatic.  If you are feeling hurt, perhaps, something in your life is hurting you now or bringing up old memories of being hurt.  If you are feeling tired, perhaps, you've been going and going and going and truly just need a rest.

May you know what you need and may you willingly notice, allow and give it to yourself right when you need it; even it if it is only for a brief period of time.

Recharging your batteries, so to speak, is the best thing you can do to be the most productive and loving you can be.  Doing nothing is, perhaps, the most productive thing we can do. 

Let's face it.  We are more loving when we are most fulfilled ourselves.  When we are drained and working on empty, love doesn't flow as well.

May you fill yourself up and always keep a reserve of good energy within you for a 'rainy' moment.

My wish for you.

Resisting Feelings

I come here resisting, once again, my feelings as I'm not comfortable or happy within my body. 

I have been uncomfortable with tooth pain in at least four different areas of my mouth over the last several days.  Lack of sleep and high quantity of drugs to get through have me irritable, hurting, shut down and unhappy.

I'm resisting what is in front of me (getting my mouth worked on) out of fear.  The dentist has told me to wait until I am done antibiotics for a few days and I have an appointment for May 11.  I'm not sure what tooth or mouth area he will work on first.  I'm not sure it is something that he can 'fix'.  All I can do is walk through the best I can and love through.

I'm tired of struggling; tired of hurting; tired of being afraid and just tired.   I currently feel best when I'm under the covers in my big, warm and comfy bed.  Perhaps, I will end up there very soon as I hear this is what my mind and body are asking for. 

I'm sweaty.  I'm cool.  I'm eating poorly.  I'm in the cycle of discomfort; deeply.  

I was cutting back on Xanax taking one less every other day and it seems that as I choose to cut back, (each time) something comes up that challenges me and I lose...   Or is it winning as at least I have an answer to change things up and get me through.

And, perhaps, changing things up - fighting what is - treating one's symptoms through burying them --  is this just prolonging what has to be experienced... 

Until I face life/it/things face on.... perhaps, full positive change will not be complete.

I have come far.  I have done much.  I have changed my chemistry.  I have changed my thinking. Apparently, I am not done yet because I know suffering today.

Or, is suffering still winning.  Does being human mean knowing suffering...  Is medicine a gift from God... 
                                [above is one of my greatest and recurring conundrum dance]

I think suffering is human and has to happen from time to time...  or does it...  And, I also think there is much unnecessary suffering that being human may create.

This is what this new shift - the changes - the lessons -- this what is that is brought to us -- is here to teach us.

ACCEPT and LIVE exactly what is in front of you - with love, compassion, trust and openness.

May we follow our truth into the next chapter of our lives and know that where we are today - we have the best shot of our best tomorrow by participating in and following our very own truth.  Each situation that arises within us; before us; and around us is best lived from our truest of self.  Just by being our true self wholly and with kindness, we live our best self.  Just being you is the best way to travel through your life. 

Time to get our truth on in the most extraordinary way --   The way that is inside of us. 

May you live your inside voice on; outloud and with full ownership through the best part of yourself.  You are extraordinary. 

You know you are living your best self when you are standing and living from your truth in kindness, wonder and allowing-ness.  When you know you are doing/being/acting from your best place within - you will be connected to the full miracle of you and you will respond accordingly.

I  do not feel good.  I still love on.   I know love within.  I know love without.  I embrace my discomfort knowing it is here to teach me a lesson and to guide me forward and onward in this human experience.  It is not easy to embrace what hurts me.  Yet, to fight it may be my least favorable answer as I find that it hasn't worked yet. 

I will survive.  I will thrive.  I will be the best that God has made me.  Because that is who I am.  That is how I roll.  This is how I know I live my most fulfilled self; the true me that I encounter and am.

I don't know what will come from this.  I do know love feels better than any other choice I could conjure up.  For me, love is the answer.  It is what brings me my greatest joy within, without, around and in front of...  Love is it for me.  Anything different feels less inviting.

May you know what it is for you and may you allow it to grow in, around and through your entire entity.

Dentist Dental

My mouth/face has been swollen and bothering me badly for two nights.  My dentist did not have office hours yesterday.   Today, he is not in... Hoot; but not really.

It took me 3 hours to get brave enough to make the call and it was the easiest call once I made it.  The thought of the call and thoughts of everything that would possibly follow is what prevented me from calling for help from the dentist.

Oh, this being human is so interesting.  It is hard for me to put my own fingers in my mouth, let alone the dentists with their tools.  I am very uncomfortable and know great fear around this. 

So, I will be called in an antibiotic until next week.   This works just fine for me.  In fact, I am happy about it as yesterday was my 24 year wedding anniversary and Monday is my 55th birth day celebration. 

The antiobiotic will calm my mouth down and I will allow myself to be open to enjoying the weekend without the thought of dentistry or too much pain on my mind and/or in my being.

I feel many of us are being challenged regarding our most scariest, deepest issues.  We are being shown that we can live, allow, go through much and we will still be standing and okay. 

It is the time, now, to believe in yourself, your love, your ability and the process of life.

Now is the time to open up to all that you are and make that ('phone') call to your greatest connection of love to yourself.

May you connect to and trust all that you are in this world just as it is today.  May you 'know' that you are okay even when you feel sad, angry, scared, and/or hurt.   You are okay.   You are walking through and becoming.  You are processing out and being.  You are allowing and coming from love just because this is what you choose to do because love and gentle power is what propels you to fly your highest.  It is what feels best on and in you.  And, if there is something else that feels best on and deep within you (from the depth of your being), may you do that. 

May you give yourself permission to connect to it all and be your true, most loving and open self possible.

Now is your time to face that thing that you have feared the most facing...   Just maybe...  Believe in yourself.  I believe in the human spirit.  I believe in you.

We support each other.  Support on. 

Attract Self-Love

"We attract the people, places, and things that are a vibrational match to ourselves.  So if a lesson is presenting itself to you again and again, you must allow yourself to confront it head on and to truly experience it.  Be still, be present, and breathe.  Look for what it is trying to teach you.  Push through the fear, push through the emotions, and invite change within.  By fully experiencing the lesson, you will move through it, beyond it, and you will no longer attract it into your life.  Through the experience, you will identify and confront the barriers that keep you from peace, happiness, abundance, intimacy, and love.  This is growth.  This is the evolution of consciousness.  This is the art of becoming.  This is self love."  Creig Crippin

These are awesome words with much freedom provocation.

May you walk forward processing what is.

                                                       Unknown

Visualization

Breathe. Take a deep cleansing breath. Let your body relax. Let go...

 Now, if you would like...
Imagine yourself laying on a cloud; a soft, fluffy cloud. Imagine it enveloping you gently. Feel yourself sinking into this cloud and it totally supporting you. The temperature is perfect. You experience great comfort... You feel totally safe.

Now imagine this cloud taking you to a beautiful place. Perhaps, your most favorite place...

Feel how this place makes you feel.  See the sights that make you happy.  Smell the smells that bring you comfort. Feel the air caressing your body. Hear the sounds that bring you peace.

Just stay in this beautiful place and enjoy it. Relax into it. Be one with it. Breathe. Feel. Be. Experience... 

Now, staying in this relaxed and comfortable state, come back to here; to now. Continue breathing. And go on about your way.

May you know gratitude for your blessings. Namaste'.

Hope

As I awake this morning to rain, I am happily amazed at how wonderful rain feels in an almost always sunny climate.  It brings a sense of peace, rebirth and relaxation to me. 

I was up with toothaches or, perhaps, it is better to say 'mouthache' in the middle of the night.  It is not just one tooth that hurts, it is many.  It is the nerves in my gums.  It is known that scleroderma can do this.  I believe the blood circulation does not get fully into the gums, at times, and it is what is (maybe) causing the pain.  Ugh. 

I believe I have one leg in my house yet and one leg into my business venture.  I know I feel best when I'm at my computer or on the phone 'businessing'.  I find great fulfillment and purpose speaking and sharing love, challenges, trials and tribulations...  Sharing LIFE.   Real and honest life. 

I have a neighbor who wants to do pool aerobics with me.  I have two people allowing me the pleasure of reading their books and reviewing them.  I have 500 likes on Facebook.   The business is growing.  I am touching more people.  It is exciting.  It is my time to do this.

And, as I say this, I do hear concern in my mind about my health; my ability; my ableness.  I know I am connected.   I am connected to all that is.   I feel within and I feel without.  I feel you and I feel our beautiful planet.  I feel the struggles and I feel the pain.  I feel the love and I feel the awesomeness.   I feel.  I care.  I know that I care deeply.  I have experienced and worked with many modalities of healing and energy work.  I am blessed and grateful to be me...  even with the hardship of the pain and insecurities because of my physical challenges.  Hey, I have mental challenges too (for sure).  I am human.  This is the human experience.

And, I experience on... as best I can.

May you experience your humanness.. as best you can.   I cheer you on!  It is your life; and it and you matter greatly. 

Something Different

It is my understanding that with the end of April 19, 2015, also came the end to the eclipse season in our sky.  With the beginning of April 20, 2015, it is possible that we are able to 'see' clearly again, perhaps, more clear than ever.

On my way to the addiction doctor (yesterday), as I'm trying to figure out if the drugs I am on are more hurtful or helpful; if I need them or not; and how to decipher (if at all possible) between dependent and addicted, I saw a man up in a bucket truck cutting down many fronds of a palm tree.  He was cutting many of the pretty ones off to give all the new growth a great chance at life and to be able to use all the live energy from the tree's roots and trunk for itself.

I realized that it felt that this is exactly what I am doing with myself.  I am letting go of much of what I am to become everything that I want.  I want my new growth to prosper, build, grow well and become a part of the most beautiful life that I can live.

This is exciting and somewhat desensitizing of the old.  I am grabbing onto the new energies that I feel are circling around me; mostly around my head from the ears up out to the shoulders and as far as eternity goes.  I feel it.   It is on high.  It is not energy that I can go and run miles.  It is energy that I am uncertain of what to do with.  It is a spastic, heavy energy.  It feels like an energy that holds much promise, ability and light.  It is not leaving me.  It is here to stay. 

This morning I feel my heart beating fast and loud.  I choose to think of it as ensuring me that I am alive.  I stopped what I was doing when I felt my heart beating hard and fast against my chest and I stretched; I breathed; I reached up high to the sky and back to the back wall.  I reached down past my toes as I took many deep breaths and I thanked my heart for its attention to get me to do just this. 

I am asking the universe, et al for guidance, help and signs to place me on the best path that I can be on to work through love (in God's wonder), compassion, excitement, awesomeness, beauty and joyful fun.   I am ready to live all of me out in the world and to know that this is my destiny; my purpose; my calling and my passion. 

I want to touch others in the way they need/want to be touched.  I want to support others in they way they need/want to be supported.  I want to uplift what needs to be uplifted though the divinity of the universe. 

Note:  The other day a professional asked me who made me God as I was talking about this.  After much contemplation, I realize that God put this desire in me and I am going to honor it.  It is the only thing I know to do.   I believe her question was from a place of love because she saw me struggling with myself and my truth of this.  I believe her goal was to take the pressure off of myself. 

I have not a picture of what this looks like.  I can feel what it feels like.  It feels like trust, compassion, love, some discomfort, some fear and always my truth being with me and myself standing strong in it.  It is the best that I can ask for.  It is the best that I can offer.

I am in a good amount of discomfort with these energies racing around and through me.  I am not calm.  I am not settled.   I am uncertain.   I am love, trust and great hope of a better world for all. 

As I create, allow and be the world I want to live in -- it is my hope that others will join in (I believe they are already on this journey as well and many more will 'sign up') and, individually, together we will build the world comprised of the most beauty, love and support that many of us have dreamed of.

The time is now.  The time has come.  You are here on this planet now with all of us to be your truest loving self, share your uniqueness, be vulnerable and create the life that You know you are supposed to be living from a place of love, worth and trust.  Step by step; breath by breath, we build...

May you create, allow and be the world you want to live in.  May you focus on new growth only for now (perhaps). 

"Just 9Be U"

"Be like a wave: flow.  Be like a bird; fly.  Be your true and full inner self; live your purpose."  Just 9Be U

Perhaps, our purpose here on Earth is to learn, live and share exactly what we are made of and to support each other to do the same. We are made of universal love and we all have an unique compilation of feelings, thoughts, patterns, passions, experiences and intricacies that, when lived honestly, compassionately and fully, we live our best and all-encompassing lives forward in the best way possible.

May you live your best path forward. You were born with everything you need to do just this.

 "Just 9Be U". Be U to completion...

Joy

I come here to my blog wanting to connect to joy.  Wanting to feel joy and in this joy to surrender to who I am, what my life is like, the connections and situations that arise and my true reaction to it all. 

As I accept what is, I know peace, joy, happiness, sadness, love, discomfort....

Life is supposed to be the way it currently is, perhaps, or it wouldn't be so.  

How we react to life is the biggest, most meaningful thing to our mind, body, soul, and being.

Today, I choose joy.

Joy in the sound of the fountains,  Joy in watching the water fall over the pebbled barrel.  Joy in the beautiful colors of the flowers and trees.   Joy in the love that is inside of me.  Joy because I am loved.  Joy because I can do so many things.  Joy because I am blessed with so much.

Joy because I love music.  Joy because there is music always available to me.  Joy because I can dance.  Joy because I can pretend I can sing.  Joy because I connect with others and others connect with me.  Joy because I love animals and they love me.

Joy....    what connects you to your joy...   Be/Do this.

May you allow joy in your life in the simplest of things and the greatest of things.   You are joy.  Be joy.

 

Woes

With life; with being a human; with experiencing all life has to offer, there are woes.  Woes of small proportions, woes of big proportions and woes that feel unpassable.

This huge change for me of living full time in Florida, selling and letting go of so much of what my life was, learning to live in new dynamics and circumstances after feeling so settled and safe is still creeping up on me from time to time and I'm feeling woeful just now.

I was on the telephone and all I was asked for was my zip code.  For the life of me, I could not remember it.  The recording kept repeating its question of my zip code and my mind could not find the numbers.   I have had many zip codes in my life and while I've had this one before, it would not come to me.  I was stuck on 08 which was Margate, NJ, USA's. 

I had to hang up, look it up and call back.

I was amazed and astonished; frustrated and sad.  I found myself very mad at myself for not easily knowing my own zip code. 

I have been dealing with all new numbers, new banking statements, new insurance companies and new numbers (amounts) of bills each month.  I guess I was on number overload and, in truth, didn't even want to be making this particular phone call.

US Airways credit card apparently has been changed to AAdvantage Aviator Red MasterCard and when I was sent an email offering me my statement for this card it was yet another new way of doing things.  I didn't recognize the name and I was not told about the upcoming name change for same.

How many new ways of doing things do each of us see, confront and have to learn each day... !  A lot.  Some of it is easy and some of it is challenging and a lot of it is good stuff.  And, a lot of it makes my brain spin. 

It is like the information doesn't know where to land; gather from or to and/or process.  And, certainly not always easily. 

Again, this is the human side of life and as much as I try, I cannot not be human.! 

May you accept your woes; love yourself through and carry on as best you can.  Trust the process of you and your life and know that you are a gentle powerful warrior.

We walk through change; new way of doing things; a new way of life, together.  And, when we find ourselves alone... know that it will not last and everything is temporary.  As I have encountered more and more 'things' in my life, I know that I can get through much; but, I also know that some days there can be much to get through.

And so it is.  Living the human life.  Carry on as you and I believe you are doing it in your best way.  Amen.

Uniquely You

I am finding it interesting that I just want to be on my computer sharing, connecting to and discussing 'saving the world'.

I want to stop disharmony and help to support harmony amongst all living things/beings everywhere.   I have always wanted to do this even as a child from as far back as I can remember. 

I kept quiet, silent and hidden - this part of myself.  I believe it is because when I did share it, it was hard to find someone that didn't think I was nuts or worse--said harmony could never happen this way.

I used to (and sometimes still do, although much less often) call this feeling/belief my 'crazy'.  I was told if I keep talking that/this way, they would come and take me away.   How scary for little me.  There are some cells in my body that to this day believe it still could happen.  I would still be 'certifiable'. 

As of today, I declare that what I called my 'crazy' is my awesome and wonderful uniqueness.  My uniqueness that came with me - was imbibed in me as I was being created in my mom's belly.  It is what makes me me.  It will always be me.

I have, now, since and especially in these last two years - have found many others that believe this same thing.  They believe that global harmony is possible if not critical.  I am so thrilled that there are other people sharing their similar uniqueness.  I am happy others are sharing their uniqueness; whatever it is especially when it comes from within and without compassion.  It empowers my own. 

I am learning that your uniqueness is what we all need.  It is what, when we combine and share with others, will change our world.  It is your destiny and purpose to let your uniqueness shine from the innermost part of you - the most loving part of you - out into our world.  What makes you you... 

May you relax into your truth and build it up and present the real you to your/our world.  

This just may be the ultimate purpose of living this life and this is what will change our world into the world that we may all find ourselves waking up passionately to live in.  Waking up as peace, love, harmony and awesomeness overpowering all else....  I can feel it now.  And it feels good!

May you live from your unique and most loving, passionate self in everything you do.

 

May

May you have what you need/want today.  May you be open to allowing the flow in your life and the life that is all around you to live through you as you just breath and let everything go and let who you are easily participate in what is.

My head spins as there is so much information being swirled around, dredged up, bombarded upon us.  My being is happy as much of this is about change, purpose and caring.

There is some horrific stuff going on and we are no longer allowing it to be 'under a rock' or the silent 'elephant in the room'.

We are being forced either by need, no other option or through the internet to see things we only used to read about or hear about.   We are seeing these issues, feeling their human responses and knowing that in reality what happens over there does affect what happens over here.  Perhaps, not in the same way.  And, yet, if any mankind hurts, mankind is hurt.

I believe completely and absolutely that every life -- human, animal, plant, slug - matters.  As we learn to work, live and BE in harmony with everything that is energy; emits breath; lives and dies, we also know what true inner harmony feels like.

I know I function best when my outer world around me is in harmony.  I don't seem to be 'all that I can be' when I am touched by ugly, hateful, disruptive, hurt and hurtful things.

This is changing.  I am learning to stand strong in my love.  I am learning that my love can softly empower another to love; as they are opening and ready to do so. 

It is not an easy feat to stand alone in love when chaos is around.   It is not an easy feat to choose love when pain has come upon me.  It is not easy to love quietly when hatred seems more powerful. 

I am learning, however, that I got it going on when I stand strong in what I believe and feel.  I'm experiencing others' pain even when they are not expressing it themselves.  Some may not even be aware that they are hurting themselves (or hurting) as much as they are.  [And, I cannot 100% for sure know that someone else is hurting.  The only thing I know to do is either ask them or just to send them love.]

To be courageous is to stand true to myself lovingly, openly, in full vulnerability and know that who I am is who I am and how others act or share their lives is about them and who they are.   I choose to only live, share and behave as who I am.  I am owning my own power, love and truth more every day.  I love because that is what I like to do.  It is what feels best within and without my full being. 

May you be proud of your own courage to be all that you can be because it is who you are and you are love, loving and lovable.   You were made this way.  Society and being human may have challenged this but deep down we are all awesome, loving and kind human beings that like harmony within and without better than disharmony.  Some of us may be more comfortable in disharmony because that is what we have known for a large portion of our life (if not all our life).  However, in our silent self, we know that harmony is what we desire.  I believe this to be true for most of us, if not all of us. 

The time is now to embrace who you are from your most loving and vulnerable of places and stand strong in You and gently empower others to do the same. 

Within this place, we can grow our best world yet.  Together, we can emit such light that the darkness will finally be lessened by a very large scope.

It is my wish; my dream; my purpose for living.  It is in every breath that I take. 

May you be aware of what your breath emits and 'says' to you.  May you believe it when you hear it and feel it.  May you breathe the light that you have brought with you for this time in our world.  Some are calling this time 'The Shift' or 'The Great Awakening'. 

I call it loving who you are in totality and Just Being You from the purest place within yourself.  And so it is...

Namaste' 

                                                   Unknown

Iyanla Vanzant

"Who you are is strong enough to bear your pain."  Iyanla Vanzant

Iyanla Vanzant is brilliant and I believe her. 

I have heard it said that God will not give you any more than you can handle.  I have to believe this.

Although, at times, 'getting through' doesn't always feel possible.

However, so far, in my life, it has been so.  Most likely, for you as well, you have survived much. 

I have seen amazingly strong people.   I have witnessed the perseverance, love, strength and fortitude of many. 

I believe that to bring your truest of self to each situation in your most loving way again and again and again may be the greatest strength we humans can muster.  To be vulnerable and trust ourselves to be okay with whatever comes our way is true courage.

Sharing who you are in all aspects of life [from a place of compassion and wanting to understand another with an open heart] is, perhaps, one of the greatest things we can do with and for one another.

May you allow 'gentle empowerment' to happen through (and with) your own open mind, heart, soul and humanness.

May you believe that you are strong enough to live your best life out and forward through everything that comes your way throughout the rest of your days here on Earth.

Gentle Empowerment on! 

Lessons

What an interesting time.  Deep lessons are being shown most of us and they may not all feel good.  And, that is putting it mildly.

May you trust that where you are is exactly where you need to be.  Bring your truth to each situation and in every breath you take.

May you trust that you will 'know' when you are supposed to 'know'.  May you believe that everything is okay just as it is and may you walk into your own gentle power.

With everyone's life who is touching mine just now, I feel a reaching out, a standing in one's truth, a nowhere left to hide and a togetherness in our 'crazy'.  It is certainly discombobulating.  The change to a new way of living is here. 

It keeps showing up for me again and again and again.   In my own life and within others'...  Perhaps, the best thing we can do just now is to bring our most loving self forward; our most truthful self into every breath and situation.

This is not the most comfortable place as many of us were taught not to be self-important; to put on a mask while out in public and to put others in front of our own self.  We were taught not to speak about hurtful or hard situations.  We were taught not to share our complete self with each other.  Many of us were taught these things from society, our parents/caretakers and our peers.  Many of us bought into this not knowing any different. 

THIS IS ALL CHANGING.

We are being summoned from a greater force that our humanness to live exactly opposite of this.  We are being challenged with many situations that force us - because there is nothing left to try - to stand in our own power, truth and love just to get through/by the life that is in front of us to live now.

The time has come.

Being YOU is the best gift you can give to yourself, our world and each other. 

May you bring and show the real you wherever you go; with compassion/respect for yourself and compassion/respect for every living thing.

Oy, I have a headache!  Yikes

Intense

It is an intense afterworld of energy.   All kinds of energy.  I find myself connecting to; participating in; running from; delving into..  all kinds of energy.

Some, I have no clue what to do with or how to handle.   Some, I do not like.  Some, I get so excited and charged up about.  Some, it is just present and it is neither here nor there; so to speak.

There is a bundle of nervous, extra charged, light it up, bang the drum energies in the air.   I wonder if any one else feels it. 

I wonder if you are running from it; delving into it; not understanding it and/or making great sense out of it...

There is a polaroid of energy beaming from ocean to ocean; moons to sun; sky to land.  We are right here tapping into things and/or letting them go.   Consciously, some of us may not even know we are doing it. 

It is a wild, crazy and wonderful ride being human.  A ride it is!

May you bring your truest of self into this 'ride' and develop it into being your most fun, joyous, fulfilling ride yet.  My wish. 

                                                              Unknown

Energy

My energy is intense and unsettling once again.   If I could get away from myself, I feel that I would. 

I'm feeling jittery and excitable.  I'm feeling tense and filled with some hesitation.  I have seen myself doing Indian dances the past two days. 

I am on an edge and I don't know which step to take next.   I am still settling in to my new life (so it seems).  I am not in a comfort zone.  I hear it said that one has to be outside of the comfort zone to grow.  I'm not sure what my comfort zone is.

I walk on and forward knowing I am ok.  I walk on and forward open to living my greatest good; my greatest cause; my greatest purpose for being here on this Earth, now, with all of you.

I have a neighbor wanting to work with me to strengthen her body through water aerobics.  I have people requesting for me to read their books and leave reviews.  I have a sense of touching other people's lives in positive ways.   I have a sense that my caterpillar in a cocoon time is about to be over and I will be able to fly like a beautiful butterfly and soar like an eagle.

I am working with many professionals to find my balance; my self-assurance; my voice; my sharing of my acceptance of who I am.

This is big for me.   This is scary for me.  This is uncomfortable for me.  There is no logic that leads me.  Only my heart and soul with my brain as backup.  Yikes!

I'm finding my life here mundane and irritable.  I am grateful for it.  I am no longer satisfied in my mundaneness. 

I want to exercise and feel alive through this again.   I am stretching; doing a wee bit of free weights and some movement.  I feeling like I'm wanting the 'runner's high',  The feeling after an intense workout.  I have not gone after this for a long time on a long on-going basis. 

I used to exercise and could not wait until tomorrow to exercise again.   I want to create this feeling of the love of something physical again.   I love talking deep, learning and growing.  I want to live in the action of this.

I have no idea what this means.  I am open to knowing and living it.

May you go from anything that you no longer enjoy as mundane to everything that you can embrace as joyful and full of life (if you are ready to do so).  If you are already there - whoop whoop for you!  Enjoy you!  Wherever you are - May you love yourself through. 

Eeeber Jeeber

I am getting a lot of requests on Facebook (FB) to be friends from many men.  I'm a bit freaked out by it as I'm always so much more comfortable exploring the depth of life with women.  It has to do with my father (a man) abandoning me at a young age.  Of this, I am certain. 

It is amazing how quickly one can tell that many of these men are not on FB to talk about the depth and condition of our world and the human soul/spirit!  Yikes!

I am very uncomfortable when this is the case.  I am learning that it is okay not to befriend someone who has completely different expectations and/or interests than my own as my FB experience is one of supporting our world and my Just 9Be U business.

I do find that I am learning to say no.  I am learning to speak (type) my mind, kindly, to these men and I am learning that it is okay to be me and expect, gravitate to and allow respect, truth, kindness and respect in my life.  I know I said respect twice as many of these men feel (to me) that they may not respect themselves or are in just a way different juncture in their life than where I am at (or I will ever be).

They are allowed and entitled to it and I can even honor what their road is as long as it is not threatening, changing, challenging or freaking me out or hurting others..  !

I am more and more fulfilled in just being who I am and loving my total self while allowing and respecting every one's unique path.

There is a reason (or many) that we are at this point in our lives where we are.  Our experiences, challenges, hurt, successes and personality have brought us right here to the right now exactly where we are.

From this point, I can dig deep and create, allow, come from and release my truest essence in every breath. 

This is my intent, plan and will to do just this.

In this, I know fulfillment of my greatest kind.

I wish you fulfillment of your greatest kind.

May you live in your own fulfillment.  If you are there - hip hip hooray.  If you are not, may you dig deep, feel what is your truth and let it rip!  Let it come from every cell of your being; your soul, your heart, your inner knowing and let it roll easily from your lips into your voice.  Speak You.

You are beautiful in your kindness, respect, and love.  And, through this kindness, respect and love - may you allow your truth to build your best you; your best life... Evolve into all that you are.  And so it is.

Unknown                      

Celebrate Love

Celebrate love; first and foremost.  Love begets miracles. 
 

 

Just 9Be U, LLC

Love yourself through. Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, love yourself through; kindly and gently. When we come from love, perhaps, all we can offer is love.

May you love on.
 

Where I'm At

I am irritable as I come here.  Thoughts overwhelm me and being in this moment - all I can feel is a 'need' to be in the next.  I find it hard to stay here now; stay present with my thoughts as I've been gathering so much information in such large amounts and so quickly about who and what I am about.

There is much energy inside of me and this energy, as of now, does not have an outlet or a game plan.  It is not running smoothly and it is knocking on a door within myself wanting to get out. 

I cannot explain this.  And, it is very much how I feel.

I don't feel in pain.  I don't feel sad.  I feel excited.  And, I'm not sure why!  And, perhaps, the 'why' doesn't matter.

I have also been gathering 'friends' on Facebook.  I have fallen into the number currently mattering to me.  (I am liking those "Likes".)  Dang; I did not want it to.  I've never cared before as my thought was 'who will come into my life and connect to me is exactly who is supposed to'. 

I am seeing the addiction doctor and she has been brilliantly helpful with more awareness and connecting me to my 'allowance of self'. 

As I accept what is now; As I bring my truth into each breath; As I realize what I feel is only that and I don't have to be so against it or with it - I can just 'Be' in it.  I'm finding freedom and ease in this 'way of being'.

I am realizing that everyone in my life is supporting me and willing to grow/change/hear/respond and love me, along with their own self.  This is a really beautiful thing. 

I am 'me' (myself) with everyone.   There is so much empowerment and love here.  I am amazed.  Gently amazed.

The weather is warming up.  86 deg F.  The sun is bright and the sky is blue.  There is so much natural beauty around me.  As I walk out of my front door - it is present.  I am so grateful for this peaceful and beautiful energy.  There are fountains, flowers, palm trees and dark green grass.  There are orchids, birds and beautiful stone.  I am in heaven here. 

I am still not where I am going.  However, I know when I'm there that there will always be more.  This is what our human life encompasses.  Change.

I have options of trying different medicine.  Viagra is even an option as it does get blood to the extremities.  I await hoping I won't have to use it.  My sores on my fingers are minimal.  I am growing fingernails.  They are currently 'weirdo' looking but I am growing them.  I have more flexibility in my fingers and my body.  Perhaps, as my thoughts get most flexible so does my body. 

I feel all of me; internal through my feelings and external through my human flesh, organs and skin.  My face and legs are somewhat numb yet; my ears still have tinnitus; my mouth is still dry And I feel whole.  I like feeling whole.

So, as I do different; live different; be who I am and walk my talk - I am on my way.   I am in a beautiful place of truth, peace, love and awe-ness.  I like it here. 

I still struggle.  I still get lost.  I still know pain.  And, I'm okay with it.  More than I ever was.  I understand it is all who I am and who I am is beautiful.

I care about people and I care about our world.  I honor all walks of life through as much love that is present inside of me and I have great hope that as more and more people come from their love, their beauty, their gentle strength and their truth, this is what our world will know.  Love, beauty, gentle strength and truth.

We all want to be loved and feel worthy.  We all want to be here for a reason and be heard and feel to matter.

You are and you do.

JUST 9BE U --  Just be your complete self as you are now and bring brilliant YOU into every breath you take.  THIS is your reason for being.  I know this to be true for me.  I honor what is true for you.  I hope what is true for you is loving, gentle, kind and fulfilling.  God, Allah, Creator, Universe, etc. truly wants this for you.  Truly has it available to you.  Perhaps, all you have to do is choose it.  Choose YOU.

Namaste'.

MAY YOU JUST BE ALL THAT YOU ARE WITH YOUR HEART AND SOUL LEADING THE WAY through your internal and external intelligence.

Kicking and Screaming or Go Gently BUT We are Going

I have this 'inner knowing' that our world/the Universe/God is either allowing and supporting us and/or forcing us to live in our truest of truths. 

Huge change, growth, challenge and success I am seeing this week.  It is time to buckle up and ride into our truth.

It is time to open our hearts and spread the light and share the darkness in our most abled loving way out into our world.

I believe that this is what will support each other, our world and a betterment of same.

It is time.  It is not always easy.  It is, perhaps, one of our biggest unified and individual challenges to date.

And, it just may be the most beautiful gift we humans are ever given here on Earth.

I see and hear of sadness, disconnect, pain, anger and even mind boggling situations

. 

I know there is peace connected within each and every one of us.  Our world, as it was, sometimes dissipated this peace somewhat and/or even totally over the years/decades, etc.

May you love yourself through; connect to this peace, allow gentleness and empower yourself and others by going 'there'.  'There' where you haven't wanted to go.   Connect and discuss the 'elephant in the room' and allow truth to set you free.

My so very deep and eternal wish.

Be your best self going forward; for you/for me/for us. Thank you.

Namaste'