Handling the Truth

I have heard myself say, "If I say it out loud, it will make it real.’

I’ve heard others say, "If I talk about it with you, it becomes too real'.

When, in reality...  if we are thinking about, talking about or seeing something that has our attention, it is already real...  to ourselves at least.  And this is what matters most -- what the reality is that you are living in/with/as/through.

Truth is emerging all around us and from deep within us.  Status quo is not a current thing just now.  Change - big, quick changes - are happening in our professional worlds and the way we do things; in our governments and the way it is governed; in our relationships no longer under any cover or disguise and our relationship with ourselves.  Digital communication is more prevalent than ever.  So much is out in the open than ever before.  We are being asked to see, learn, deal and heal more than we have ever been asked to do before; as a whole, as one; individually, together.

What we are feeling, experiencing, witnessing and what shows up in our every breath are, perhaps, new dynamics; new roads to travel and old perspectives to uncover, process and let go of and start from here and from now.

Truth.  Is this the time that we can handle the truth and we must live the truth and we must unburden ourselves from any lack that we think we might have...

Everything we need for our own lifetime we were born with the ability to connect to, allow and become.  To make it happen.  To journey on.  To get through.

You can and you will.  You have and you are.  You learn and you know.  You feel and you process.

May you live the truth through letting go of anything that isn't the you that you want to experience and growing into and becoming the you that you know, feel and sense that you are and want to be.

Emerge.  May you let the depth of You emerge.

Oh the Ache

I wrote the title for this blogpost previously and left the page blank.

I was going about my day and heard a song about loving and supporting one's 'sisters and brothers'.

I thought this post would be about my aches due to dis-ease or overuse or something very different than where I feel it may be going now.

I heard myself say to myself, while listening to this song, that, yes, I ache.  However, I ache to hold and support people in being and living all they can be; the best of themselves.

Could my body really be sending me this message through my achiness...  Yes, I believe so.

I have such a fear of being in the world as my vulnerable self; even my empowering self.  I often hear and feel myself question myself if I am truly up for this task.  And, staying away and/or isolating is hurting me as I am starting to crave more contact with people.

People that could and would benefit from my love and knowledge.  People to share moments of love and wisdom with.  People that lift each other help; that listen to one another; that care; that only want good for another.

I believe most of us are this way.  Most of us want to support one another and serve one another.  Look at all the people that show up, come out, offer themselves and their love when people are down or distressed.

Most of the time people do not want to see another hurt or suffer.  Look how many of us like the 'underdog'.  Most of us, when asked and if able, will do what it takes so another person doesn't suffer/hurt.

I ache to be around the people that would get the most benefit from me being me.  I physically ache wanting connection.  I physically ache wanting to hold you and support you.  I physically ache to make a difference in others' lives.

May you realize what you physically ache for; if you do physically ache.  Perhaps, it isn't physical.  Perhaps, therein resides within you an ache for something different, something 'other', something.

May you acknowledge and feed your 'ache(s)'.

May the people that can benefit from you truly being who you are show up in your life and let you; enable you; be present for you; be helpful to you...   to do you and to do your thing.  Amen.  And so it is.

There is enough good, success, wonderment, awesome, fun, joy, love and empowerment in this world for us all.

Let's get to it.

Higher Self

Higher Self

I have been hearing and feeling a reality with these two words for quite some time.  To me it means being the me I am meant to be from ease, joy and an innate knowing.  The me that God born me on this Earth to be.  My calling.   Your calling.

Higher Self is the You living your greatest potential.

It is a divine self.  It is from divinity.  Some of the words from the Thesaurus for 'divine' are spiritual, blissful, glorious

We all have a Higher Self.  We all are one.  You have one.  You are one.  It is always within you available, ready to go and knows what is necessary to know within each breath.


Higher Self

Google reads "Higher self is a term associated with multiple belief systems, but its basic premise describes an eternal, omnipotent, conscious, and intelligent being, who is one's real self."



Your higher self would never, ever say anything mean or hurtful to you.

How one knows if they are hearing the voice of their 'higher self' or a voice of another or one of the many voices we teach ourselves to speak to ourselves with ***  If it isn't full of compassion and support, it is not our higher self.

Do not listen if compassion, support and mercy are not present.  Do not allow it.  Slowly (or super quick) dissolve any sound, noise, comment from every other voice, thought, feeling that is not your higher self speaking to and/or through you.
                                                             
Words I heard, (not shared verbatim) by (who I consider) the great and knowledgeable astrologer, Susan Grace. 



May you entertain only your Higher Self as often and as much as possible.  Ask her/him/it to take over and announce its residency within and live out loud.

Wishing you the best You ever...  Always and forevermore.

Sitting Pretty

Whew.  What a doozy of times...

Fun times.  Easy times.   Difficult times.  Play times.  Work times.  Times.

I feel all over the place with relationships, people, thoughts, actions, abilities, disabilities.

I am happy in one minute, angry in the next, not sure how I feel in another.

What a spectrum of feelings us humans have.

We are quite the hoots...

Wherever you find yourself just now, may you bring as much love into it as possible.

May you let your love participate.

No matter how you feel, may you believe that there is always a part of you that is sitting pretty or handsome or like a complete lovable bada*s.

Cycle or Flow

I seem to be stuck in a cycle within my head and thoughts that are causing me concern and discomfort.

It seems that I go in and out and I don't want to be in this at all, ever.

I hear myself wondering why I feel like I do and is it something that I need to be concerned about.

When, in reality, I know that as I get out of my own way; my own head; my own thoughts, life is much more enjoyable.

I'm alone this week; 8 days.  I talk to people, I see a few people and I have my animals.  With the way that I am telling myself I feel, I don't feel like reaching out and/or getting out.

I know that this is not helping and, just now, I don't know how to do or be different.  Even just to sit and get my hair done...  it is not in me to do so.

I'm honoring this as best I can and I, at times, can easily put the 'L' on my forehead and think 'Loser'.

There is a part of me that knows honoring, allowing and flowing with how I feel can be super productive and one of the hardest things to do.

There is a part of me that can think I'm just being lazy.  I definitely find myself feeling scared and I, deeply, believe that there is a strong lesson within all of this and to 'play' it out and 'see' where I end up can be extremely awesome and liberating.

I did go out with appointments that I wouldn't cancel.  I did not enjoy it.  I looked forward to getting home.

It has been very cold here.  Uncommonly cold.  Cold is not my friend.  Cold hurts me.  My hands were purple and my body constricted and painful.

Another 'avenue' I have been exploring is - is this the Scleroderma, the dis-ease that I was labeled with.  Is this the medicine I am on.  Is this something else.  It is what it is.  It is not what it isn't.  Ha.

So, as my thoughts are not a pleasant course of action.  As I know that I am not being here now in this moment as often as I'd like to create a full day of enjoyment and/or peace within, this is where I'm at.

What is a woman to do...  !

I breathe.  I count my blessings.  I feel grateful for the times that peace is within me.  I do bring my true self into each communication.  I'm open to doing better as I do know better.  I am open to being my own best friend.

This is, also, me feeling sorry for me.  Sorry that cold bothers me.  Sorry that I am choosing to be alone.  Sorry that I feel like I do.  Sorry that I'm not choosing or able to choose to create easier for myself.

This is, also, me open to what is.  Allowing what comes up for me to come up.  Allowing awareness.  Allowing all my feels.  Playing 'me' through being me until something within me changes.  Until something outside of myself encourages change.  Change will happen.

So, wherever you are; whatever you are doing; whatever you are feeling; whatever you are allowing; whatever you are creating; whatever you are open to...

May you be aware of it all.  Be extra awesome and kind to yourself and delve into the lesson(s) that is present even if there are no clues available to really know what it is...

Walk on forward, thru and out and let this journey that you find yourself in be.

There will be great journeys; hard journeys; unknown journeys; journeys within the journeys.

This is being human.  This is life.  This is you.  This is yours.

You are living right now in exactly what is deemed by the universe; by God; by our higher power to journey through.

You have you.  You were born with everything you need to live your life in its entirety.

Believe and breathe and be and bask and Bam...  Let your life always come back to being true You.

I send you love.  I believe in you.  You matter.  You are enough just as you are.

May you be aware if you are in some kind of cycle or if you are letting life flow through you.  May you know what feels best and be open to it.  

Unknown

Reactionary Discomfort

Perhaps, uncomfortable reactions can arise automatically to certain thoughts and feelings previously addressed or experienced.  They can become an automatic response to certain stimuli; certain situations.  

Just maybe, one can tell one's self that one is safe with whatever is going on.  You are in control of what you want to do and say; how you react in this moment. 

And, in this moment you are ok, able and living in whatever uncomfortable situation one's mind sees, feels and knows as discomfort.  In this ok moment, even if you do not like what you see and feel - your presence, your ability to move through it happens even as we think there is no way available to us.  It happens.  We happen.  You happen.  

Relax your body.  Expand open your heart.  Breathe.  Tell your body it is allowed to relax and let go of any discomfort.  

You are supporting your body for this to be so.  Hug yourself.  Literally hug yourself.  And feel, see, know, look at everything around you and within you at this moment.  The floor. The walls.  Your breath.  The trees.  Whatever is right here next to you, around you and within your eyesight.  Really see it.  See it for what it is.  Change your thinking of distress to alertly focus on the true presence of what is in front of you, not the thoughts created [that are unhelpful] in your mind.  

Focus on comfort.  Focus on the love available to you and within you.  Create an ability to share and/or stand in your truth.  Relax into this moment that is your real truth and not the thoughts that we can so easily create and tell ourselves.  Check in and see if your thinking really does match your reality; your 100% knowingness and desire.       

Hugs.  I close my eyes and hold you in safe arms.   

May you react in a way that supports your gentle strength, your loving heart and your knowing soul -- your best experience of yourself.  

Be True You

I had what felt like a huge and deep lesson today.

I know that our true self is the best self to bring with us in everything we do and are; in every situation, circumstance and relationship.

I found myself shaking internally today.  I could feel my heartbeat in my throat, my chest and my stomach.  It was not comfortable.  It was scary.

In this awareness of great discomfort, I realized it was my body's way of supporting me to honor my truth and share it from a place of peace, caring, authenticity and wisdom.

I realized that a 'dance' I was doing in and with a certain relationship was not my complete truth and it was a manufactured dance that was not good for either party and/or any outsider privy to this relationship.

With the help of a friend, I was able to discern this and put into words what I so much wanted and needed to share.

Once I shared these words that I gathered in a way to speak my loving truth, magic happened.

Both of us were able to step into a new and different light and dimension.  We were able to honor each other and feel supported in honoring ourselves.

What I knew to be true was spoken not from me but from the other person.

We found ourselves in a place of insightfulness, change, openness, awareness, love and gratitude.

I don't know anything past this conversation, just yet, and I'm okay with that.

I'm standing in my truth and I feel empowered, heard and open to a new and better way to support each other going forward.  Change has already occurred and is occurring even as there is nothing that I need to participate in just now.

May you stand in your truth from a place of everything you are and feel.  May you share this truth.  May it turn into empowerment of anybody and everybody you share your wholeness with.

I wish you the place that you glow, grow and become your brightest self.

May you shine on, out, up, through and everywhere that best serves all.

Make A Wish

Anytime something pretty would show up or a funky thing would happen in every day life, I always told my daughter to make a wish.

She eventually grew up and caught on that I would sometime turn a questionable possible reaction into making a wish.  Wishing is much more fun than thinking negative.  A way of honoring something beautiful could be to make a wish on/to it.

May you find yourself making wishes from a place of joy and fun.

Make a wish.   I am wishing for all of your wishes [that especially support the best of you and your life] to come through/true.

Spirit of Peace

The Spirit of Peace.  It is my thought and hope that we have all experienced this throughout our lives.  It is the quiet in the noise.  It is the calm in the pain.  It is the easy breath in the reaction.  It is the love in the fear.  It is the undying connection in the relationship.  It is the joyful contentment within our own beings.

May you open up, relax into and allow yourself freedom and lessons with(in) the Spirit of Peace.

I am noticing [still] that I find my thoughts in the future and not in this current moment as I start and open up to my day.  When this is so, I feel unsettled, fearful, uncertainty and angst.   These things are not fun for me to feel.  I do not like the paralyzing and the petrifaction that it creates within myself and against myself.  I contract.  My body, my mind and my ability to be all that I am is greatly hindered.

When I expand, my body, mind and my ability to be all that I am flows within, outside, through and around myself.  Dreams, wishes, desires and 'ME' just happens easily and joyfully.  

As I 'catch' myself contracting, I stop and breathe.  I tell myself I am safe, able, strong and wonderful. I was born with everything I need to live my entire lifetime.  I go to the place within me that is confident, willing, open and knows the depth of my own-ness.  I let self-love and faith take over.

I can think a new thought.  I can speak aloud a better thought.  I can ask myself what do I really know about the scenario I find my thoughts in.  I can touch base on the truth of it and not the old record or beat myself up in hurtful and unloving ways.  

We can put ourselves first.  We can love ourselves.  We can be our own best friend.  We can be as compassionate to ourselves as we are to the ones we enjoy and choose to support.

May you put yourself first.   May you love yourself.  May you be your own best friend.  

It is more about all the best that we are than just an option available to us.

I wish you the most available peace within yourself in everything you do, think, breathe and are.  

May You be/get excited about Being U.

Dreams, Wishes, Desires

I'm wondering where my dreams, wishes and desires come from.   They do not come from my mind so much.  They go through my mind.  They do not originate there it seems.

My heart, perhaps.  My soul.  My inner being which is the totality of everything I am.

I choose to believe my inner being.

It is not like I have to think them through or up.  It is like they just show up from deep inside of me.  The energy of them shows up as a feeling, a thought, a picture, a song, etc.  They show up through an opening of peace, silence, acknowledgement and/or subtle (or strong) feeling.

May you pay attention to these subtle and/or strong hints/whispers and let them live inside of you until they, and You, are ready to come out and occur.  

I believe as we breathe into them and ourselves; as we open up to all that we are; as we validate and allow our truth(s), these dreams, wishes and desires of ours come true.

May all your dreams, wishes and desires come to fruition.

If they are meant to happen, nothing will stop them from being so.  Doors and windows will open to allow the path to each one be successful.

May you meet your own unique and loving self exactly where you are today...  full force; gently.

All or Nothing

All or Nothing...  Nothing at All...

I'm certainly not feeling this.  Just like the spectrum of colors - black and white.

Nothing in life is all on one side...  Life oscillates.

Like a fan; so are the days of our lives.  Ha!

Whatever you are feeling now in this moment, after several hours or even after several seconds, you just may feel different then what you are in this breath that you breathe in just now.

Human life offers us a variety of choices, options, chances, situations, relationships, thoughts, feelings, etc.

It is up to us, as humans, what we choose, opt, chance, live, relate, think and feel throughout the day; in each moment; each scenario.

May you realize what you are telling yourself and the experience you are creating for yourself in this moment.  

Do you like it... Do you dislike it...  Where on the spectrum of feeling good and feeling lousy are you...

What is one small thing/thought that you can change to feel most true to yourself...  More compassionate; more loving; more on Your Own Side.

May you breathe deep into yourself and gather everything possible and lean in on what it is you wish to feel that creates the you that you want to be and truly are.

Within the recesses of your knowingness, you are this powerful.

Empowerment on.  I believe in your awesomeness.

Mountain... or Is It...

Sometimes as we hear and/or acknowledge things and situations, they can feel so monumental or overwhelming.  We can feel scattered, overwhelmed and/or confused.

Yet, if we back away from the moment (feeling), outside of our feelings, we can choose to look at the moment in a way that is kinder to our own self.  We can choose to see it in a different light if we choose to do just this.

When I was sick and immobile in bed, when I looked at what could go wrong, it was not helpful.  In fact, it was hurtful.   When I chose to be true and loving to myself in each breath, I knew - even though I wasn’t having fun (ha!) -  that underneath what was going on (or is it above), I was okay.   I had ailments and things that were off/wrong/confusing and hurtful and I knew that I was still okay.  I was living. I was breathing.  I was alive. I was coping; even when it could feel like I was not.

May you know that you are okay right here right now no matter what is going on.   May you know that your survival rate thus far is 100% and that’s pretty good odds.

Underneath our humanness - or is it above it - there is a presence that resides in each of us that is the watcher, the outsider; perhaps, always open and able to choose and believe in ‘okayness’.

I wish you your own belief and experience in feeling/knowing/being okay through anything and everything human.

I Have Missed You

Wow.  Where do I begin.   ...

Yesterday I had an appointment that I was late for.  Today I find myself early for an appointment.  It was in my phone correctly and I didn’t ‘see’ it correctly.  My mind didn’t process this correctly.

How many times have I been doing this lately; and for how long has it gone on...

It does feel like change is huge inside of me and throughout my life.

I was sick in bed for 16 days in December.  Doctors labeled it ‘bronchitis’.  I feel it was so much more.    Wiped me out.   I lost 10 pounds, was unable to walk the dog and I was not associating with life or the world outside of myself.   It wasn’t possible.

It feels like my DNA changed.  I feel different.

I have not had a cold; a cough; the flu or anything like this in close to 30 years.  It was a ‘yikeser’ for me.  I coughed; had fevers; threw up; hardly ate and was very weak.

I’m 95% better than when this had me down and out and I feel like I’m starting my life and myself from new perspectives, new health, new knowledge and new vibration(s).

It feels unknown.   It feels uncomfortable and strange.  It feels like I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

There is an un-calm in me.  I find myself focusing on every moment I’m in.   I hear myself saying I’m taking a step.  I’m taking a deep breath.  I’m hanging my towel on a hook.  I’m seeing this.   I’m hearing that.   I’m feeling the A/C.   I’m feeling the phone in my hands; the seat underneath me.  I’m hearing quiet chatter from the people around me.  

This, I find, keeps me in the present moment.   This moment.   It invites my inner calm.  This is what I crave just now.  

Thoughts of anything past this moment or anything previous to this moment, currently, do not bring me the calm I so vitally desire.

May you function and live in a way that what you desire and crave now creates and open doors for the possibility of same. 

Soulful

Your soul knows.

May you let it lead as best You can.  May you let it fill every part of you and all that you do.

Today and each situation you experience are one part in the overall journey of your human life.   It is our humanness that, maybe, wants to take it most seriously.  

Things will all work out exactly as they are meant to.   Life will happen for us in the most meaningful way to support our soul’s journey.

Soulful You is perfect.

May you allow and open up to your unique journey that is here for you to live. 

May we all love ourselves and each other through and onward.  

Thank You.

Sending out much soulful love to You.