IMess

Messy.   That is what life, our world and my own experiences and those of others, I am witnessing.  Messy.

We are, just maybe, living in some extra messy moments and times.

What isn't messy is honoring what you are experiencing and feeling.  Don't write it off, discard, bury or disengage completely.  What you are experiencing is leading you forward; if we let it.  The ability to create the most amazing and fun stuff can come from experiencing your true experiences in each moment.  

What you feel matters.  It is real.  It is You.  Stay aware through your own love with as much peace within that you can conjure up.  

Your feels do not come out of nowhere for no reason.  They are true.  They are information.  They are wise.  They are You.

To be aware and walk in and through them is, just maybe, one of the greatest things we can do for ourselves, each other and our world.

They are part of your response to the blueprint that you were born with and grew from and through.  

Honor them.  Honor yourself. 

May you let your loving truth preside.  

Sure, feelings can be messy.  Is the mess more messy when we write our feelings off, discount/discard them or disengage from them completely.   You know best.  

My feelings always come back until I honor them and process them; experience them in a way that feels most like me and not a 'survival form' of myself or a great discomfiture for me.

You know you got it if it takes you towards happy.  Home within yourself.  

Peace.  A lot of awesome joy comes through peace within.  

We breathe better, feel better, are better when we own what we are experiencing and feeling our unique and truthful feels.

Even when all the options that are present are not any we wish to choose, stay within your wisdom of your heart, soul and mind.  

May you open to the miracle of You.

Totality

The balance of life is in the totality of our entire lifetime, perhaps.   We keep walking thru the sunshine, storms, rainbows and wind.   To fully experience all that shows up in our world is to know the totality of who we are.   

The energies showing up and the energies that make us who we are feel extra ‘lit’. There is amazing, miraculous and scientific energy, in abundance, for healing, letting go and becoming anew.  

May you tap into it; into yourself and allow this divine, unique energy to create healing, letting go and becoming anew.   

It is happening.  Change is the present.  You are happening.  Being fully true to You is the change that will be miraculous for You; for our world and each other. 

Let love. Let truth. Let trust. Let vulnerability.  Let kindness.  Let wisdom and the uniqueness of yourself show up and through the abundant energies within and available to You.  

Let the wholesome, wholistic, wholeness of You present itself to You and throughout all that is.

May we build each other up and create a world where we all live genuinely and complete; letting love lead.   

Ring

What makes you happy…. Do that.  Go there.  Follow it.  Feel it. Allow it.  Invite it.  Create it.

May you know what makes you happy and get you some; as often and as much as possible.  

If you are not sure, play around with some ideas and/or thoughts.  Try new and old things.  

May you land on your happy as quickly, easily and often as possible. 

It does not have to be big, out of the park things.  It can be as simple as petting an animal or spending time in nature.  A shared moment with someone you love.  A deep breath and filling yourself up with your own love. 

Something warm when you are cold.  Something cool when you are warm. Enjoying the warmth   Enjoying the cold.  

You know best.  Our bodies react positively; lightly; alight.  

Follow your bliss. 

Follow your contentment. 

Live (in) what makes you most feel like You.  

Honor all that you feel.  Be real with yourself. 

Perhaps, step outside of yourself and look at yourself with loving, open and genuine authenticity.  What do you want to stop doing…  What do you wish to do…

Come on, get happy.  

May you keep ringing what rings true for your happiness.  Ding Dong.   Ha.  

Whatcha Gonna Do

I have not had the drive to write.  I have no information bubbling up inside that is asking to be shared.  Not much is coming through me that wishes to come through my fingers to type out.  

Whatcha gonna do.

I come here open to seeing what may show up.   

Courage was a topic today that was discussed.  Courage being the thing that shows up when fear is present.  Courage can be about doing something anyway regardless of when the fear of same is present.  

Fear is our mind’s way of protecting us whether it is necessary to or not.  Our brain is a mechanism that holds records and experiences and applies them to the present.   It can be a real task to change and/or support the brain in a new direction thanking it for the desire to protect us. 

It can be an ongoing thing to battle and reestablish the way of our own brain.  You are worth to do so.

That is what you may wanna do.

I feel me being quiet is about keeping energy, breath, strength, change, flexibility and growth in transforming and adapting to life in general; my life, myself, and meeting all things through who I am and what is showing up to propel, invite, navigate and uplift me in moving forward through a new awareness and the truths within myself.

Whatcha gonna do.

I believe, and this is my story that feels best to honor, our world wants love… the earth, the animals, the people, the way of being in this everchanging and new world.   Love.  

We want to matter   We want to be.  We want to breathe easy.  We want to be free to live free in the autonomy of a good, clear, uplifting and loving way.  

What are we gonna do…

May we easily and intentionally - because it feels best - opening  - opened to  - allowing  love, truth and free authenticity possess us as we possess it.

That’s what I’d like to offer and believe we are going to do. Doing even.  

Get out of our own way and free ourselves to “Just Be U” and to let our love.

Create through what fills us up   What makes our cells happy.  What feels happiest to believe and to do…

May you do yourself the honor of honoring You.

Prayer

May God bless us with sanity and ongoing support to stay sane during any challenging times.   Amen.

Life seems to balance itself out.  Life also seems to balance many of our lives in their totality out.

Opposition/resistance can sometimes push us deeper into what we are resisting.

Perhaps, try flowing with and through being as true to your feelings, needs and experiences as possible.  There is sanity in this and what can be a healthy way of being and choosing to feel (through deep awareness) may be our greatest self-attraction to life and living now.

I pray that you stop at times, check in with yourself.

I pray that you stop at times, step outside of yourself and look in - see You; look at You.

I pray that you always let your love lead You; as often and as much as possible.

I pray that when peace comes, joy and fun happen and vice versa.

Maybe, non-judgement is best.

Maybe, in these times, discovery is the better goal.  

Maybe, to be true, loving, kind, open and real is what constitutes what matters most.

Whatever matters most to You, may you invite it by being true, loving, authentic You and creating forward from this way of being/living You.

I wish You your best of self.  

Do no harm to yourself or to others.

Chill and let it be your truth and your openness that You choose.

I pray.

The Answer My Friend

I’m relearning that to speak candidly, openly, from a loving, calm place - my truth and feelings - is the greatest, forward positive way to live for myself and for all.

I’m not keeping the peace by not speaking/sharing my truth.   If there is unrest, it is there til I process it.  

The ‘pot is already stirred’.  The ‘elephant is in the room’ whether we speak about it or not.  We stay stuck and/or living in discomfort unless we address the ‘dirt under the rug’.   

Many of us are living in situations that to address them with the people that are directly involved, while it makes us vulnerable, discomfort has no chance of diffusing until we acknowledge and bring forth the awareness and truth of what is.  

The uniqueness of our situations, relationships and experiences are real to us.   Trust who you are, what you feel and let kindness bring you through.  

I have been exploring speaking candidly with kindness wholeheartedly.  It is trippy.  It is freeing.  It is scary.  It is beautiful.  It can be really fun and exciting.  It is definitely love.  

Oh the ‘web we weave’ and it always can be reweaved.  

We are living as we are living.  We are living in and through situations.  To ignore them does not make them not so. 

To not bring them into the light with a goal of growing and healing, to do better - to alter a ‘thing’, may keep us stuck in it.  

We are being asked, sometimes forced, to ‘unstick’ ourselves.   It can be exhausting.  I am sure it is grandness and opens our full ability to thrive.   

May you want your best for You.  May you free yourself to Just Speak You from your most open heart and mind as possible.  When the desire to live as you truly feel is present [and from deep within us it most always is], let You be so.   Let love.  

 I wish this for You; as much and as often as possible.

What's Up

I don't know what's up just now.  Hence, the title of this blogpost.  

I'm at my computer waiting on some work and I thought I'd give it a go.

Nothing.  I don't really have anything.

Water is on my mind.. to drink it.

The written word 'mis-takes' is on my mind as I first saw it written this way yesterday by someone pretty cool; I am sure.

It reminds me of the written word that I've been using for a long time of 'dis-ease' because that is what it can be to me.  

I see birds out the window soaring high up close to the clouds.  I see the palm fronds dancing which I really enjoy the experience of.

It is a quiet afternoon out the window other than that.  Nice, dark green grass and pink, dark pink and white flowers.  Orange hibiscus.  The colors popping and making me feel good.

Just being in the moment.  

May you be in a moment, or as many moments as possible, that brings you 'home' to your happy.

Yes, You can...  whenever you choose it for You.

Hang loose and be kind, true and open to You.

Move

When you find yourself not liking how you are feeling, perhaps, move.

Move your thoughts; Move through your surrounding or environment; Move your body.

Change one thing that is inside of you to change.

Close your eyes, breathe deep, go into the feeling - really connect with it.  Say hello.  See what comes to you do say; to do; to be; to believe.

Relax into it and trust that this feeling is on your side with best intentions.

Do a workout.  Stretch.  Open to your body and move it in the way it wants to move.  Jump up and down.  Wiggle.  Dance.  Move robotically.  Move freely.  What feels best to You...

Look at your thoughts.  Listen to your thoughts.  Be aware of your thoughts.  Change your thoughts.  Can you change and/or create them into something that feels more encouraging, open and loving...

If you don't like the way you feel, you can always choose to move; one thing or a lot of things.

May you change the energy within You when you are not vibin' well with it.  

Try it.  I hope you like it.  For You.  Your way.  Your timing.  Your wisdom.  Your ability.  

Your move.  Ha.

Brainiac

Oh the brain. my brain anyway, can get tired, run down, zapped and even fried.  Processing too much information in a small amount of time can make me dizzy/ditzy.  

And, every hour, of every day, if I'm not aware of this 'too much information' syndrome, it can constantly bombard and fill me up to overflowing and/or spent.  

It is not a place I currently enjoy.  

Sure, I love using my brain; learning, growing and am fascinated by new information.  I can also feel bamboozled, overwhelmed and know when enough is enough for now.  I seem to realize it more quickly than ever before.  There is a need and a desire in me to notice this in the healthiest way to myself.

Balance of some sort, some way works best for me.  The need to be 'on' is good to consider.  The need to be 'off' is best without guilt and plenty of love and compassion.

May you balance the use of your brain in the healthiest and most enjoyable way for You.

Perhaps, this is the new [or another] meaning of Brainiac.

May you let your awareness of You and your needs love yourself through. 

Your Dreams

Life is too short to be living someone else’s dream.   Stay in your own thoughts and wisdom before invading another’s.  

Own what is true for You.  It is ok to hear others out.  If it doesn’t feel right or ring true for You, it is not the way of You.  Do not dream for another.  Let them have their own dreams for themselves.

Stay in your lane.  On your road.  In your journey.   On your path.  

Dream your dreams without any outside noise.  Live your life from your instinctive and unique trajectory; your direction, track and flow.  If it makes you happy, you are honoring living your innermost and overall soul-filled way.  

Is there a more extraordinary, fulfilling or joyous way..   I am sure there are many.   

But what a way that you can live if you choose to do so.   Is this not maybe what a dream coming true is about.   ‘If you can dream it, you can become and/or achieve it.’

May you always have at least one dream you are dreaming.  I believe in You becoming and/or achieving each one.

Booyah.  Dream on.  Dream away.  Dream from within out.   

It’s Happening

Our voices. The feminine energy.  The goddesses.  The female warriors.  The undying, claimed strength of the power of a woman.  It is time.  We are embarking.  We are taking what is inside of us and honoring it, healing what needs to be healed and stepping into the endeavor of being our whole, true, loving, badass, fun selves.

Boom. Bang. Bing. Power. The wonder of the woman is no longer in wonder.  

The feminine energy of the heart based man is growing.  A real man feels.  A real man listens. A real man supports, encourages and walks beside and through the love of his full authentic self.  

Authenticity is becoming the new great success story.   The win.  The goal. The rapture. The way.  

To know one’s self creates and empowers wisdom.   To accept one’s self creates and empowers invincibility.    

Stay in your truth.  Be so kind to You.  You’ll know when there is something different needed for You to do.   

Flow with each moment.  Flow with the truth of what is.   

You are amazing.  You are the Universe.  You are also a mere mortal like us all.    

Yeah.   Life.  It’s a thang.    We love.  We live true.  We trust.  We flow.  We breathe.   We stay open to what is.   Amen.  

God has You.  Trust what You feel.    I care.  

May you know thyself.  May you accept yourself.  May you love yourself til there is nothing of you left unloved.  

Clean Slate

There are many things that could be perceived as mind-blowing in a perceived and/or real messy world.

The weather/climate.   The stories.  Our own experiences.  Our own beliefs.  Natural and manmade disasters.  

So much is happening around this world in so many corners of our world. 

‘Things’ are happening, perhaps, inside and within each of us as well.  

Imagine a clean slate for our world, for each of us, for you.  It is ours for creating/developing/drawing upon.    

Just what if this is the opportunity, here now…For the whole human race, all living things and celestial beings.  

May we FREE OURSELVES to be who we are and accept and process what we are feeling and allow for what we dream and know to be true from the innermost part of ourselves that is the same for all and makes us as One.

Do no harm.  Care.  Be mindful of your actions and experiences.  Be open minded and open hearted.   

Feel what is in your life to experience.  Love through.  Be true.  Be love.  

From within you out..

May you live love - live free.   

Here I Am

I come here to see where I am...  What is going on with me.  What, if anything, do I have to offer just now.

It's been a road for me a bit.  An unknown, bleary, dreary, eerie, most beautiful road. 

The changes that flow through me, that stay a bit, that I don't allow to enter, that I create are real.  Very real to me.  I feel bombarded in them and fascinated even as many of them do not feel fun, smooth nor am I able to make sense of many.

I just know life is different.  I am different.  

I am closer and further apart.

I am connected and can disconnect a lot quicker.

We are, perhaps, being asked (nudged) to go within and connect to the piece of ourselves that is peaceful and true.  Let it grow.  

Let our innate wisdom come up and forth.  Let love.  Our love.

In this, just maybe, we all win.

I have felt discombobulated, lost, fearful, puzzled.

I have felt hopeful, loving, open and have tapped into faith and belief that what is happening now is for our highest good going forward.  A better world.  A 'new earth'.  

We are creating a new way.  Many, many, many new ways are being tried and tested.  

The unknown and wholeness is present and separated.

So many of us want a peaceful, loving and safe world for ourselves and definitely for our children.  

We can and we do, individually, together create this.  It is more doable when we believe it.  I'm at a place in my life that I feel it to be possible even when it is not believed to be possible.  It is the world I want to support and live in.

All this mumbo jumbo, aggressiveness and fear.  All these conundrums, unknowns, changes and questions...

There are answers.  There are solutions.  There are ways.  Through You.  Through each of us.  Together.

May love, kindness, openness and wanting best for all living creatures and our earth guide you and be the backbone of everything you do; everything ‘You’.

It is my understanding that the spiritual meaning of 5 is balance, personal growth, transformation, vibration of change, shift, shake-ups, expansion, imagination, options, desires, major life changes, renewed sense of freedom.  Both human and universal harmony.  Hoot.  (unknown)

Awesome Wisdom

May you know that there is within you an amazingness that is so much greater than any obstacle.  Unknown

Keep stepping.  Keep breathing.  Keep being.  Keep believing.  Keep true to You.  Open heart.  Open Mind.  You were born with everything inside of you that you need for this lifetime.  

May you "Just 9Be U.  Grow Yourself Complete."

Whatcha Gonna Do

What was.  What is.  What will be.  

We do not always have a say about what shows up in our lives to experience.  We always have a choice in how we experience what shows up.  

The experiences and relationships that bloom in our lives —it is our meaning and thought about each one that can and does create the way we see, feel and experience them and our lives.

I have been having a lot of dental appointments.  Ones I'd so rather not have.  I do need them.  Yet, while not really loving the idea and/or experience of them, I am grateful that I have a professional to turn to.  Someone who cares and is willing to take on a patient with scleroderma.  A patient with a mouth that has been affected with scleroderma is no easy feat.  In fact, it can take herculean effort with the challenges and patience necessary.  

Since April of 2023, I have had 5 big appointments.  The longest in the chair was 6 hours.   

The dentist, for me, has been an unsettling; uncomfortable; one of my scariest fears.   When I was under age 10, a dentist gave me novocaine through the inside of my cheek.  My sister, in the waiting room, said she heard my screaming   It was a huge, big ouch and had me fearful of the dentist forever after that visit   Then with developing the dis-ease scleroderma, my mouth grew tight and small and that added to the discomfort greatly.  One dentist tried to work on my mouth and actually stated he was ‘aborting the procedure’ as my mouth was impossible to work on. 

Well, I didn’t like or feel comforted by that trip to the dentist either.    

I now am less afraid as I've met a Zen dentist who is gentle, caring, 

May one or all of your fears be faced with help of the best kind.  

Fears can be created in childhood that we hold on to as our brain is meant to help us and keep us safe.  Often through trauma, our brain gets over-sensitized and ignites stronger to a similar situation now, today without warrant and/or truth but from preservation of the experience and feels of the situation(s).  

May you, with this understanding, talk to yourself, look around at what is now, be there for yourself, as the adult you are, with the tools you have and bowl through a fear that is showing up and that you no longer want to experience.  Be there fully in the presence of what is now for You.  Walk on.  Even if awareness is the one accomplishment that happens.      

Good luck. 

May you have You.