Support, Love and the Desire for Peace

I'd like to think that through the connection of our countries and ourselves; through support, love and the desire for peace, that we are connected and bound by the energy of 'namaste'.

Namaste, to me, means at the depth of myself, I honor the depth of you.  We are all the same.  We are all one.  We are all connected through the breath that we breathe; the desire to be loved and to love.

I want to thank and send out the power of soothing energies to each and everyone of YOU.  Thank you for meeting me where I am at and, I am hoping, that you, too, meet yourself where you are at.

The countries that have recently been connected to my 9BeU blog are listed below.  I am greatly honored to have the present of your presence here.  Namaste.


United States                     Egypt                               United Arab Emirates

France                               Croatia                             Venezuela

Russia                               Ukraine                             Bahamas

China                                 Bangladesh                      Philippines

Portugal                             Ireland

India                                   Canada

Brazil                                  Netherlands

Germany  

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Rise Above.. (or is it below)...

Living life above it all; above the drama, above the doubt, above any harshness, and above any worry is where we present ourself with our best of self.

We don't always know how to create our best connection to the loving reality of all that is in life. However, above it all, and living through the highest highs of our own passion(s) is(are) where most of the magic and the truth of our best self reigns.

We are connected to the most minute pieces of what we sometimes label as 'big'. We register, in our beings, the easiest, grandest parts of living when we realize our smallness in the universe; in the big picture of life; and in the deepest understanding and acceptance of love, truth and trust. We truly are such minute parts of our universe but good things have been known to come in small packages.   May you let the small package that is you be the grand ripple that, when confronted, affects and imbibes our good world above all the ugly.

Let the ripples that you send out heal; just by owning your small part [that Can be so big] because you live above any 'ugly' ripples that are conceived as drama, doubt, harshness and worry.

Be the shades of you that shine the brightest and the best.  I know beauty and ability is in each one of us. I know that individually, together; all our small and grand selves can affect life as we know it.

Go above your pain and live from your heart's beauty.

Above it all into the light of the universe; into the light of 'happier', is a most fulfilling life.  As we take each other's hands and be open and learn to live above it all, heaven on earth is not only a statement, but created and lived.

This is what I want for all our children, for you and for me.  It really is in each of us, no matter how small, to create the grandness together through the one thing; the one super power that shines up above the chaos and into peace within and peace on earth.

May now be the time for each one of us to want this, believe in this, know it and build it.  The beauty is so here.  May you tap into, create, allow and be it.  You matter.   What you do, say, think, and feel matters.  A lot.  Just watch and feel the ripples.

Thank you.

No Where to Run

We are in.  We are in a life that has very limited places to hide.  Everything is 'captured' by digital technology and we all have the capability of 'making movies'. 

I am glad when I was young and silly that my 'young and silly' was not captured!  It is strange enough for my old and silly to be so.

I understand that as I don't do anything wrong, I cannot be caught doing anything wrong.  Even as I'm a true and trusting person, I am only human and humanness has many weird practices.

There is good news in this as what we do is digitalized, we can see for our self the true and fun things we humans do.  We can see so much more about each other than we ever could.  While I have this under 'good news', it can also be something else!

We can connect across the world within seconds.  We can see each other in different states; different countries.  

We can tie in to each other so easily; from one-on-one to a whole group of us.

This is progress.  This can also be challenging.

As I'm writing this, I am so uncomfortable in my body.  I find it hard to concentrate.  I find it hard to sit in comfort.  I feel myself yawning and, again, wanting/needing to stretch.   I have been walking, at times, too.  My body is just screaming to move and I am listening as best I can.

My head feels heavy and light at the same time.  It feels certain and uncertain too.   I am stuck in between both worlds of knowing and unknowing; being seen and unseen; wanting more and okay with where I am...

Stuck.  In this moment, I am stuck.  I accept it because it is my truth.  I also know that if I wait long enough, this will no longer be my truth.  Change is always inevitable.  And, even while stuck, I am okay. 

I feel silly and childish.  I feel frustrated and charmed.  I feel ansty and calm.   I am a bundle of it all.

This is being human.   We all have many sides; many feelings; many emotions. 

May we all live through them in our truest, gentlest and kindest of ways.  May we support each other in doing the same.

In this, we all win.  I want us all to win.

May you win.  I think what matters most is that you feel like you win; at least from time to time.

I know I do and it is what keeps me going the best.  The love of the win; and just the love.

Thank you.

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Rainy, Clear Day

Today we are having thunderstorms, lightening and downpours.  Everything is drenched.  I can feel it in my body.  The house is dark and it is 4 p.m.  It has been dark for several hours.  I have been eating almond bark and enjoying it.

My body still aches.  I did stretch again and it certainly does feel better.  My body is asking me for more movement than I am giving it as I'm connected to a fear inside of myself that tells me my head is too light/dizzy/off to be going to the gym.  I stay here and lift very light weights and do some movement.  It is not enough for my body and it is enough for my fear/head.  It is better than nothing and I hope the part of me that wants more wins again soon. 

Oh this balance of feeling one way and feeling the other at the same time.  I like it best when the feeling good and happy part of me wins.  I like it much more when the feeling irritable, fearful part of me does not win. 

I push through when I can.  I accept when I cannot.  I do nothing when I know of nothing to do.   I do everything that I am open to do. 

This being human is surely a ride.  We all have good days and not so good days.  We all have up times; cheerful times.  We all have cranky, unsure times.

This is living.   This is life.  This is being human.

May you accept where you are in living; accept life and being human.  May you accept where you are.  May you let your dreams and inner knowing breathe.  May you let your cranky and uncertainty breathe.

May you just love yourself through it all.   You don't have to like it all.  It does work best when you love yourself through it.

This is my wish for you.

Whether you are having a 'rainy' and unclear day or a bright sunshiny and clear day or a rainy and 'clear' day -- whatever kind of day you are having... may you participate through the love of yourself.  In this, fulfillment is yours...  And, yours to share...

And so it is.

Achy but Not Breaky

Today, I find my arms and legs achy.  As I sit here to type, I am realizing that they are asking to be stretched.  So stretch I will.  I got my hair done today and that is always fun and enjoyable lately. 

I feel brighter and pretty and that is never a bad feeling!  The 'artist' that does my hair is also always open to a deep conversation and we get along great and it is always an enjoyable session for me.   I'm going to get some color extensions in my hair.  I'm deciding on 'buttercream' or violet.  I'm excited to see which way I will go.   I just feel a little feisty and this is one way to let my feisty roar-ish.  Ha.

She's is checking into sparkling 'tinsel' pieces for the holiday and for my upcoming niece's wedding right after the new year!  Oh, what love can do to/for a person and all those it touches!

I sent out a post this morning that offered to "Tell your mind to love; just love." 

I realized, more deeply than ever before, that as I forgive, let go, and love what I want to forgive, let go, and love, that each of these 'things' are so possible.  It is only within my willingness that it can happen.  This is good news and, perhaps, not so good news.

Only I can be willing to forgive, let go and/or love, etc.  No one can do it for me.

I am ready.  I am ready to be free; again.  ha!

I speak out loud and look in the mirror and say these words - I forgive; I let go; I love.  I can tell a story about each and everything that I am experiencing.  I can be general and just let the feeling happen. 

You can tell a story to each and everything that comes up for you.  You can just choose to let the emotion process and, perhaps, dissolve into, through and gently outside of yourself what you no longer want to hold onto within.  You can do this. 

May you know that it is your choice and your choice only.   May you choose YOU.

I heard myself saying - well, I'm not sure that I want so and so (or a certain situation) to have my forgiveness, letting go of and/or love.  I was still pondering that the 'act' that hurt me didn't deserve letting go of and happiness.  Then I realized, I don't get the letting go and happiness until I let and give it to everything and everyone involved too.  I know that I am ready to deserve and that I deserve to be happy.  By letting go of any lingering pain, I get happy.  I say 'happy on'.  What matters is that if I have the power to make myself happy, why would I not choose happy...

What matters is that you have the power to make yourself happy, why would you not choose same...

Choose happy.  Choose letting go.  Choose forgiveness.  Choose love.  You can always unchoose it anytime you want.  But; try it, you just may like it!

It is my wish that you do choose - whatever feels best on and in you.  May you choose it for you and know that without offering the pain and the letting go up, we stay stuck.  'Stuck' is so much more boring than moving on to new adventures, openness, feelings and lovingly reacting to what is true inside of you on the outside of you.

May you tell your mind to love; just love.

Let honor be in da house!  Honor yourself.  Honor others.  Honor situations.

Yikes

I just now woke up at 10:24 a.m.   I have the cleaning crew coming at 10:30 a.m.  I did not fall asleep until 5 a.m.  Yikes. 

I have still been an insomniac.  My body and mind hasn't balanced out yet.  My eyes burn from reading so much for so long.  I cannot sleep until the wee hours of the morning and then, I sleep half of the day on many (current) days.

Very interesting indeed.  I am grateful that I do sleep.  I am grateful that I can sleep because my husband works for both of us.  He is one of a kind man.  Not sure I could have married and loved better. We have been 'dating' for 31 years!  This is a whole 'nother story...  I would marry him again today. 

To live with a person with a dis-ease is not easy nor is it a small feat.  At times,  I know it is harder on him than it is on me.   He feels fine and wants to do things; go places; see things.  My illness holds me back.  And, while always wanting to talk truth; it is my illness, but, it is also my fear of my illness that stops me in my tracks; so to speak.

I get fearful that I will find myself in pain.  I get fearful that I won't have enough energy or stamina.  I am fearful I will have to look at pain in the face at the least opportune time. So, I stay 'put' more often than not. 

Like a therapist once suggested, it is like living with a terrorist.. one never knows when it is going to strike.

I want to change my fear into courage.   I want to feel courageous instead of fear.  I want to choose what I wish to do over what I can't do.   I want to live over surviving. 

So, while I am not sleeping on a 'normal' schedule... what is normal?, I am learning to go with it and allow where I am to be okay.  Meet myself where I am at and live anyway.  This is the best choice that I feel I can choose right now.

May you choose to meet yourself where you are at and live as fully as possible; in your truth; your trust; your own loving way - live. 

Who We Are When

Who we are when we are 'on fire' is the truest, bestest, brightest, warmest, and burning our most truest version of our self from deep within out.

We feel all sparkly and bubbly.  We feel vibrant and excited.  We feel energy all 'a-flowing'.  We are at our greatest of self 'place' in the universe.

Like Janis Joplin sang, "You know you got it if it makes you feel good".  We are at a place; a time; a knowing of who we are and we are more sure-footed.  We are more alive as we walk in this plane of our own very existence.  We are possibly growing in leaps and bounds and there is no turning back and we don't want to.  We don't want to turn away from the knowledge that we have acquired.  Some of it has come through a lot of blood, sweat and tears; so to speak.  Some of this knowledge is as simple as we don't know what we thought we once did.  We are sure-footed that we are not as sure-footed as we once thought we were.  This, in itself, is huge. 

Change is everywhere.  Many things that were once tradition, are now tradition, but in a new light; a new way, a new manner.  Perhaps, it is best to say a new tradition that is built out of the old ones. 

Where goals to succeed were driven by our own desire to accomplish; what we accomplish is desiring happiness within and without more than things we can touch and feel with our hands.  We are now desiring things we can feel with our hearts and minds more than with our hands; although I still appreciate being able to see and touch beauty too.

Of course, nothing is all or nothing.  Nothing is set in stone that we can't change our outcome and/or our goals.

Everything is, possibly, mattering more and judged less. 

I want to support what brings you happiness.  I want you to support what brings you happiness. 

My hope is that more and more of us are incorporating the best that we can be individually, together.

The fullness of life is a vastness of connection.  The fulfillment in one's self is the vastness of standing strong in our own truth and our own love.

We are trusting the process of life from within because there is less outside of ourselves that we can trust and we are learning that what is within one's self is our greatest super power and/or our greatest challenge.

My wish is that what you have inside is your greatest super power.  May you let it be so.  May you let You be so. 

Embrace the truth, trust and love that is within as we surround ourselves with light, growth and beautiful colors that make us who we best are.

It is time to honor ourselves and each other; more than ever.  Trust the circle of life and be one with it. 

May you honor you.  May you honor others.  May you live in honor and success of this honor.  It is huge.  Amen.

To Mind or Not to Mind

Uh oh...  My mind...

Sometimes it works smoothly and the way I think it 'should' and the way that I like it best.  Other times, it doesn't function quite so capably and harmoniously with what is going on with my life and how I think, see and experience my life.

I'm forgetful.  My memory doesn't work.  What I want to say and what I say are not always the same thing. It is quite in disarray at times; this mind of mine.

Forget about autopilot.  It is gone.   I was discussing this topic the other day.  I believe that our 'autopilot' ability disengages when we choose to become aware and want to learn, change and grow into an evolved version of our true self.

I am hoping that once there - [which is where I think I belong for now; which is where I feel I am now] - perhaps, a new autopilot just may create its way into my subconscious being.  My who, what, where, and  how and to have the ability to live from the me that I am ready to live through now.  I choose this ability, joy level, harmony and homeostasis level of being.  I feel that I have worked very hard to introduce ( to connect) myself to this current me.

This being of who I am now - (bringing my true self of who I am now; how I think now and how my feelings emote now) - and bring all of me with me, easily, and emerging me and/or merging me within and throughout this thing called a human life.

It would be good if I could speak/write better, but, for now, I am going with the flow of my fingers and my thought process as it cannot feel any more real to me than it does in this moment, just now.

So, to mind your mind is a gift; an awareness; a present; and a 'pilot' is needed to grow, to evolve, to become something other than what was. 

It is exciting and we all have this capability.  As soon as you have the desire to, because your way of life feels more threatening to stay the same than it is to change your way of life; you will be the pilot of your own evolution.

It would be my greatest joy and pleasure to support you and even just here, through this blog, touch on supporting you to be your bestest, greatest and truest of self; from love.

I know it is in you.  You are not broken.  But, if you are unhappy, your unique power of who you are is the greatest thing that you can offer yourself to get your greatest, truest and deepest happy on. 

And so it is; so it can be; so it will be...

May you 'pilot' yourself into the greatest version of who you are and who you want to be...  The power is yours.  Yay.

Namaste.  Be gentle, loving and true.  Let the door to your heart swing both ways because life works best when we let love, truth, trust and our own self (and everything that we are and know) flow through us towards letting the mind and the heart work in unison in the best possible harmonious way that is You(rs).

 

Still

I do love me...  still.    Ha.

I'm going to the pain doctor today.  The pain doctor is a person that is strapped by code, rules, heavy hands and eyes watching their every move.  To administer narcotics, that help people with pain, is to administer legalities, rules, drug tests and asking their patients to sign a monthly form that they are not distributing the drugs and are using them as prescribed (here where I live). 

It often feels like it is more about the medicine than the pain and definitely not the homeostatis of the patient - me. 

This way of doing it just may be what heals me..  And, I kid not... well, maybe, a little bit, I kid.

I must bring my medicine with me.  They count what is left.  They give me urine tests and I sign the paper that I am getting this drug from nowhere else and I am not sharing or selling this drug.  Man, if it doesn't play into my own guilt for needing pain medicine to live a somewhat comfortable life...  On one side I am more comfortable because of the medicine.  On the other side, I am so uncomfortable going to these monthly visits.  Monthly as we can no longer get refills.

And, to top it off.  Once I have the prescription in my hand, it is still a 'war'-like feeling that I take this prescription into the pharmacy; who they then have to figure out if and when it can be filled.  Each month, almost, it has seemed, that there is a - what I call - a rule of the month.   I don't know what it is until I'm there.  I never walk out with the prescription even if I only have one pill left as it is a day away of me needing the refill.

It is a hoot.  But not a happy hoot.  I let it be stressful most of the time.  It is like a huge win when I get my prescribed and needed pain medicine until the next month and time comes up.

Today is this day.  Oh boy.  

I know it is my thoughts (the way I think) in regards to this day.  I am doing my best to think the thoughts and feel the way that is most helpful to my situation.  I am better than I was.  I am not where I want to be.

I am grateful for all the years that it wasn't this difficult and I am believing it is like this way for a reason and as I carry myself through, I am open to bringing my best loving self with me.

May you be open to bringing your best loving self with you in whatever situation you enter and/or find yourself in. 

In this, may we know fulfillment.   Truthspeak, love and openness; trusting one's self to know what one will do when faced with difficulty and or complications that arise.  Wrap yourself up in your truth; your trust; and your love.  Amen.

Good Day

Good Day to You!

I hope that whatever time zone you find yourself in, you are open to easy moments.

Dream.  It is nice to dream.  Dreaming dreams that will stay just that.  And, dreaming dreams that will come to fruition.

Is it up to us...  Just what if it is...

As you dream; feel it, see it, smell it, taste it, hear it, know it - is it coming from your own innate knowing and intuition; is it coming from somewhere outside of yourself; is it just coming...

As you dream, be open to it being a possibility; if you so desire.  As you dream, know that you can manifest it, if you so desire. 

Many things in our lives come from premonitions, intuition, dreams and thoughts.  What comes to us, just because, is supposed to be here just as the dreams we dream up and create.

In each 'small' moment of our lives that we live, some moments feel wondrous and wonderful.  Other moments, not so good.  We take them as individual moments and bring our feelings up through them a lot of the time.

In the big picture of life, we are full of many different wondrous, wonderful and not so good moments.  This is life; this is living.  Perhaps, this is exactly the way it is supposed to be or it wouldn't be so. 

May you embrace it all from the true feelings, thoughts, and ways of yourself.  As you embrace them all, as best you can, you live a life fulfilled.  My wish is for you to really open up and let yourself experience your own life by and through your feelings, your thoughts, your ways and everything that you are.

Your greatest super power is that you can change what you live, feel, think or surrender to and/or fight with.  I have learned fighting is way harder on me (doesn't feel good) and I choose to create, surrender and love instead of fight; as often as possible. 

May you know what you are experiencing; really know. 

You are what matters in each situation because what you bring to each situation is yours to own, to live and to be responsible for.  What you bring is what touches you and every one else involved; for life. 

May you wish to "Just 9Be U" through your own intuition and what makes you feel your most innate self.  And so it shall be.

Amen.  Amen means 'it is so'; 'so be it' per Dictionary.com.  

 

Cicadas

August 14, 2010 Blog Post...

The Cicada

The Cicada

I am in the Northeast Pennsylvania area and we have alot of Cicadas right now.  Very loud singing Cicadas.  They are locust-like; Cricket-like.
One  morning while walking my Australian Shepherd, Durby, the noise of the Cicada was deafening to me.  I didn't like it and I felt unable to tolerate the noise.  When I got home, I looked up Cicada and realized the meaning of a Cicada was 'a loyalty to one's principles'.  I knew I was not paying attention to what I really want and need.  I was not being loyal to myself.   I immediately took this as me being unable to or not connected to listening to my inner voice.  The next morning there was a Cicada (first time I ever saw one) floating in my pool.  I scooped it out and it came to life;  it's voice was extremely loud and alive.  Its wings were wet so I placed it on a chair.  Within 8 minutes or so, it had flown away.  I took this to mean that I was going to live and I was going to be okay. 

Following this happening to me, I started sharing it with people.  This is what came out of it.

One woman who is in bad shape, stuck in a marriage that she's been questioning for a long time, drinking too much - told me a cicada recently attacked her. (Her inner voice wanting attention?)

Another woman who very recently left a bad marriage and was planning on going to the summer ski mountain and hanging out at the Tiki Bar told me she loved the sound of the cicada (loves that she listened to her inner voice?)

And, one last woman who recently lost 35 pounds and left her husband and started a new life for herself at the beginning of the year told me she was sweeping up the shells of the cicada on her front door. (sign of shedding her own weight and her old life?)

Very interesting to me, indeed. 

Where are you at paying attention and meeting the needs of your inner voice?

 

 

What Up

I sit here at my computer wondering what to write.  Nothing is screaming within myself to share. 

So, I start and I am open to seeing where I will end up.

It is Sunday evening; dusk.  The sky is white-ish blue and I can see it behind the silhouette of a palm tree. It really is quite pretty.  It feels serene.  It looks pretty.  I can see the palm swaying in the breeze.  It is very much like a dance of serenity to me.  I am enjoying it!

I have my 'Little Bear' at my back on my office chair.  She has recently started requesting to lift her up so that she can sit with me here.  I enjoy her warmth and it makes me feel good to know that she is content.  She is my little black pekignese dog that had a serious back surgery 5 years ago; when she lost the use of her back legs.  It was miraculous how the vet was able to help her. She was only 3 years old.  She is now 8.

We are getting ready for a Monday morning; a start of a new week and we enjoy Sunday nights; usually quiet and subdued.  Just being together with my husband and I, I feel blessed.

I hadn't slept much recently.  Insomniac for sure.  I think it is the new medicine.  I finally switched it up in a way that I slept great last night and I will know if it is going to continuously work; depending on if I sleep tonight.  I feel that I will.

I went with the process of not sleeping (sometimes falling asleep at 6:30 am) as best I could.  I found myself calmly allowing trust in that this is exactly what my body, mind and being needed moving forward.

The other day, while out walking the dogs, I had an usual feeling.  The usual feeling always consisted of me looking down at my hands and they would be purple.  I had to look three back to back times, because this time, my hands were NOT purple, they were a beautiful pink color and I just couldn't believe with the way that I was feeling that my hands were not purple.

Change is definitely,  100%, happening with me.  I defer to my right to hold judgment just yet.  It is too new for my mind to speak up and out loud as to what I feel is going on.   I am in constant awareness and my faith is strong.

I walk on.

May you never ever judge yourself harshly.  Perhaps, you do not have to judge anything.  Just maybe 'life' is what it is and love is more peaceful and works better without judgment.  Definitely, harsh judgment can be very hurtful and unhelpful.

May you be kind, open, loving and, from time to time, serene.  Perhaps, in serenity we 'hear' the loudest and connect to the most valuable help.

May you allow every thing about you to sit in serenity from time to time.  If it feels right for you. 

Mark Nepo Quote

I am reading a new book by one of my favorite poets and writers, Mr. Mark Nepo.  He is connected to his deep humanness and spirituality, in a big way, because of his own experience with suffering through cancer and surgeries. 

The book is called "The One Life We're Given:  Finding the Wisdom that Waits In Your Heart".  A very cool name and a meaningful meaning to us all.  !

Mark writes:

"So brave your way on.  You are a blessing waiting to be discovered by yourself.  The wisdom waits in your heart like a buried treasure which only loving your self can bring to the surface.  And loving your self is like diving to the bottom of the ocean with nothing but who you are to find your way."  Beautiful! 

All any of us truly need for this entire lifetime is to be connected to one's own inner wisdom, life and heart.  To be connected by truth and trust.  To share who we deeply are with every situation we find ourselves in.

The wisdom you seek you already have.  It comes inside of you. 

Perhaps, when we look at life this way, we can believe that we do come with instructions.  The instructions are deep within and, like most instructions, can be complex and hard to follow, or as we learn not to fear them and open to them, they can be easy, well written and user friendly.

May you be open to your own 'instruction manual' to be user friendly as you live with an open heart; an open mind; and truth, trust and love.

In this, we live in fulfillment and ease; gentle strength and empowerment.

When we come from love, we are empowered.   When we come from fear we can often be paralyzed.  Wherever you find yourself on any given day, I believe, we can make a choice to let love lead us.

May you let love lead you to your own inner wisdom and the fulfilling life that you are born to live.  In the deep silence of your self, you will find you...

9/9/2016 9-9-9

Today could be considered a very powerful day of 'completion(s)'.  9 is known as the number for completion.

Today is 9/9 and with 2016 equaling 9 - it is a triple whammy!

My wish is that you put away, once and for all, anything that hurts you; anything that has been hurting you.

Forgive the situation; forgive the person; forgive yourself.

Let go of the situation that has you so sad; angry; hurt.  Let go of the loss.  

Perhaps, if it is a loss, be happy that the loss was so great that it brought huge sadness into your life by experiencing it.  It is okay to be sad.  It feels better to be grateful for the awesomeness that it was than focus on the pain of the loss of it.   How wonderful that you got to experience something so wonderful; someone so fabulous, that the loss of same can hurt so bad.  Focus on the having of it/them. 

The wondrous wonder of the greatness that you got to experience in this lifetime can be a great thing.  Let go of the pain that hurts.  After you process it (feel it), let it go.  Embrace how lucky and blessed you were to know; experience; live this particular situation or with this particular person.   Kudos that YOU are the one that got to experience such blessings.

And, even if you never ever get to experience it the same as you did once upon a time, you did get to experience it and how blessed and wonderful it was.  May you focus on the wonderful.  Live with and through the wonderful.

Perhaps, as we live through this 'wonderful' and not the 'loss', we create, enable and project more kinds of wonderful.  It is what the universe wants for you.  It is what I want for you. 

May it be what you want for you.   Let go of the pain of it.  Embrace the wonder of it.

By it, I mean the bond, the experience, the beauty, the love, the joy...  Let this be the part that lives in you now.

999     Let go of the awful.  Let in the wondrous.  

May you live in the wondrous, the blessings, and the beauty of your life. 

Go On and On and On

I'm seeing where many people are starting to (or at least putting a voice to) listening to their own inner 'chatter'.  The sayings, thoughts, voices, ideas that just pop up in our heads again and again and again.

One of the lectures I once went to said that there was a study done and most of us think the same thoughts each day.  Up to 75% of the same thoughts each day...  WOW

So the noise, chatter, voices, and thoughts that we experience today, we continue experiencing them tomorrow and on and on and on.   This is done until we become mentally aware and change them.

It takes work.  It takes practice.  It takes awareness.  It takes time.   And, to me, it is better to take all of 'this' than to stay stuck in thoughts that we do not want. 

If you ever asked yourself why am I always the one that has to make peace; that has to speak up first; that has to be the reacher outer to solve certain situations...  I can give you what I think is the greatest answer that was once given to me when I had asked this same question...

'Because you are the one that is bothered by it.'   Hmm.  Yes, this is true.  And, it also makes it easier to 'play' it out this way because I'm worth it.  "Baby, I'm Worth It."  And, Baby, you are too! 

Sometimes, I feel childish dealing with certain issues thinking that it is ridiculous that I have to talk about this, shine awareness on that or even take time to connect to certain issues.  It is okay.  Feel childish if that is what comes up for you.  But, meet yourself where you are at and work through whatever it is that comes up for you. 

It is my experience that 'it' doesn't go away until we do this.  It goes on and on and on.

So, if certain thoughts, ideas, voices are in your awareness again and again and again -  and you'd prefer they not be there...

May you STOP and listen and deal, feel and experience whatever it is from the place that you are at in the moment. 

You win when you do this because growth is happening and with growth comes new possibilities.

Here's to you and new possibilities that excite you...   !

 

Update

My Health

I went to the doctor who is working with me with the hormone prolactin to see if this could help me to get softer skin, more mobility and peace.   Oh, man, peace would be the best!

We are continuing on the drug as my skin has softened enough to notice.  My body and mind are all over the place trying to create homeostasis within myself.

Balance, harmony, -- all systems working together for the greatest of my health.  Just feels beautiful to type same.

So, while I am being challenged with great discomfort, sleepness nights, sleepy nights where I can't wake up, deep heat in the body, and my mind being foggy and feeling unstable, I walk on because I have to see if this could become a total positive in my life.  I have to.  I must try it as it shows some promise. 

The good doesn't outweigh the not so good just now but I have never been 'here' before, and I must try it.

None of us have really ever been 'here' before.   It is a new moment.  It is always a new moment.

Anything is possible.  

May you meet yourself where you are at and believe that anything you once thought was impossible is always about 'Im possible'.   Because You Are.   I believe.

It is my honor to write and post with You in mind.

 Please, if only to try it out to see how you like it...

May you be your own best friend and take 'you' places where you know you want to go and are [from deep within] supposed to go; through the greatest love that is you(rs).

Photo by Tom                                      

The Beauty of Life Is All Around

Stop.  Take a deep breath.  Feel the beauty in you; near you; around you; in the distance' at your side.  See it.  Feel it.  Breathe it in.  Touch it.  Smell it even, perhaps.

Beauty is everywhere. 

When I am in a bad mood or yucky mood or being grumpy, I don't even want to stop to look for beauty.  I don't really, at times, even want to connect to it.  It just might take me out of my bad place and/or mindset.  Why on earth would I want to ruin it!?!?!

Ha.

We often feel entitled to a bad mood.  If 'somebody' or 'something' did us wrong, darnit, we are going to be in IT and not let that be okay by being in a good, happy or beautiful mood.   Ha. (Please remember that no one or nothing can do you wrong (inside of yourself) without your permission.))

Now, who the heck is this hurting.   Noone but ourselves.  We don't win.  We stay grumpy.   Being grumpy, to me anyway, is not a win.  It is grumpy.

Just maybe, I will STOP, take a deep breath, let all that go and see the fountain bubbling up over its side (out the office window) in the bright spotlight of the dark night. 

Enjoying this pretty bubbling movement is more enjoyable than feeling crabby and/or yucky. 

Is it a choice?.?

Only I know for me.  Only you know for you.

Do you want it to be a choice.  Yep, again, the answer is within your power.

Perhaps, when you feel yourself getting an edge on, or just plain feeling  yucky, check in with yourself and ask which way do you want to feel -- with the meter going south or the meter going north.

Check in.  Take charge.  Love yourself through.  Let the beauty be YOU(rs).

And, if this one time, you want to stay crabby; yep, you have the ability to do just that.!.

To stay grumpy or not...  may you know that it is your choice.  May you use it wisely; lovingly, kindly and smartly.  You have/are the power how to feel.

                                                        @treeowl

Rain/Reign/Rein

The English language is very interesting.  It doesn't always make sense and it can be challenging and nonsensical just like life. Rain is water coming out of the sky.  Reign is to reign over a congregation or a community or a thing; "dominate power or influence".  Rein is to rein in the kids; pull on the reins so the horse stops; "curb, restrain, control".  (The words in quotation marks are taken from Dictionary.com.)

I am learning that I can very easily (if I allow myself) reign over my life.  I can choose peace pretty much whenever I want to.  I can choose the kind thoughts over the mean thoughts.  I can choose the compassionate love within myself through the sad feelings I experience.  I can choose to send love and not to worry.

I love the summer rain in Florida, USA.  It feels very alive and lively.  It is a relaxing day for me when it rains.  I find myself happy when I wake up to rain.  It is a beautiful dance on the trees, the ponds and the pools.  It seems to liven the ocean.  It is very welcome here to me.

I can rein in my feelings.  Allow them to be, but do not allow them to be dramatic, long lasting or so charged with energy that I lose myself in them. 

I am learning that things that feel wrong, perhaps, don't need to always be fixed.  Perhaps, they really aren't broken.  Perhaps, it is just the way it is.  I can question what is the good side of what I am experiencing.  I can choose to focus on this; be peace and not have to want to change things up but gladly change the way I react, see, know, or think about them.  This is an interesting power that, I believe, we all have; we can all learn to tap into.

As I talk more and more to my 'shrink(s)' (who are pretty awesome), I am feeling that the things I thought I was supposed to talk about to fix, can be just things that are not the most fun in my life, but they cannot be fixed as I have brought my truth to them and they remain the same.  Perhaps, for now, they are not broken.  Hmmm.   And, I am feeling a big hmmm.

When I feel my mind going to these 'unhappy' things, I can acknowledge them, acknowledge how I feel and choose to focus and feel on something happier.  Speak my loving truth about them.  It is nothing I want to ignore because I seem to notice them more when I try to ignore them, or things get loud louder when I try to pretend they are not so.  But to acknowledge, speak my truth and still choose my own peace and love...  this is where the win comes in.

I seem to be liking the wins (you think!).  Especially, on the tiny, minute things that coincide with my loved ones' habits; coincide with people's way of living; coincide with always having the good with the not so good. 

All things, just maybe, are not supposed to be fixed.  But to breathe, let go and move on into a place of peace within.  This, I do have power over.

Hip Hip Hooray.   !   This is big.

May you allow your inner peace, your truth, your love, your loving truth and power to come alive (like how I see Florida rain) whenever your old habit(s) or your old self would want to reign (not favorably) and or pull the reins in not supporting your own peace.   Let your new and happier self breathe peace in and out.  Focus on the good in the situation; the person; the moment.  Participate in this rather than that...

Rain/Rein/Reign Down on YOU the loving peace that you want to experience.  You can.  It is possible.  And, I hope, that you do and will.

May you rain down/rein in/reign on the you that you feel best being...

HUGE!

Good luck.  You are worth the try here.  You are worth your peace.  May you give yourself the piece of you that feels best in each situation.

And so it is.  (Amen).

"Bloom Where You are Planted"

Blooming You

My mind is telling me to write 'bloom where you are planted' as a quote to this picture. Yet, I'm not really sure what it means. With a little research I come up with 'make the best out of a situation.'  'Don't give up.'  'Care and things will bloom.'

  

I'd like to think it could mean wherever you are; whatever you are doing and/or facing, give your all.   Be the best you that you can be.   Bloom can mean a flourishing, healthy condition.  It can be looked on as expansion. 

So when I'm connected to all these possible definitions, it is my wish for you that 'you will bloom where you are planted'.  

Be your glorious self.  "Grow Yourself Complete" !  Neat!  Fun! The good news is that you have everything already inside of you to do just this. You already have all of yourself with and within you. Tap in. 'Water yourself' and start your very own blooming with this very next breath (if you have not already started to do so)!  Its like a party up in everything you do.  A celebration of life from deep inside of you out.  May you.. Tap in.  Bloom out.