Like There’s No Tommorrow

Like there’s no tomorrow...

I heard myself saying that I am aching like there is no tomorrow.  For some reason those words were loud and I immediate thought what does that even mean.

I googled it.  In the Cambridge Dictionary it reads “informal.  If someone does something like there is/was no tomorrow, they do it very fast, in large amounts and without thinking carefully:”.   

So I carefully (ha) thought about it and said I think I want to live more often like there is no tomorrow.  

I want to do what is in my heart to do and not take the time to talk myself out of it.  I want to say what feels right for me to say without stopping myself because I may be challenged or looked at like I said something to another human that does not think like me.  I pretty much have this freedom of saying/typing things down here on my blog.  I just go with what comes up ‘like there’s no tomorrow'.   It is in person that is more difficult for me because I can see and feel reactions.  

Here I put out what is inside of me in hope of supporting/empowering you to do the same.  It also, often, amazes me to read what I do, say, think and feel.   

In the physical world I more often than not stop myself doing things I want to do because I'm realizing I trust myself less now than ever before.  Partially because I am not capable of doing some 'very easy' everyday things I used to be able to do because of scleroderma and partially because I have let myself feel hurt by certain things and situations in the many years I have lived and fear shows up to 'protect' me from feeling any more hurt.   

Why is it that I am choosing to build up the hurt and lack instead of building up the feeling of being uplifted which I have experienced and pleasantly opened myself to and the amazing ways I have worked around this dis-ease.   

I want to do me; live free; be love and let my light aflame like there is no tomorrow.  

Good news is that I'm the one that is stopping myself.  And the bad news is that I'm the one that is stopping myself.  

I don't want to stop the me I am and that I want to be anymore; ever again.  Perhaps if I shoot for 'ever again', I have the best chance of starting off doing it some of the time.   

I want to live from the truth of me and let this be joy because it is.  I have done this and it brings me the deepest, loudest, most joyful joy I have ever known.  

To just be who we are and want to be and to live fully in this is joy.  

Oh.  May you live in joy.  Your kind of joy.  

Frigid

Well, the weather here in S. Florida has changed and our winter is in the air.  It is nothing like the winters I grew up in in Pennsylvania, USA.  And, the air still feels different and cold.  I love putting on the sweats.  I don't love feeling the cold from the inside out.

With Raynauds and Scleroderma, for me, the cold is hurtful and I find myself aching and a wee bit cranky.

I find myself amazed at how much the cold does affect me.  It is interesting how I still find myself amazed by this after more than 40 years of it.  Wow.  My human brain can forget, ignore, relearn and react in ways, that if I don't do my best to take control of, it surely will be taking control of me.

Good news is I can teach myself to react differently.  Bad news is that I am the only one that can do it.  No one can do it for me.

In truth, I probably wouldn't want anyone too.  I think that I would like it to be easier, at times, than it is, however.

So, while I love breathing in the fresh cool air and wearing my sweats, [I have a sweatshirt on today that reads 'Just Breathe'] the cold hurts me and I feel myself contracting with it, feeling the urge to hibernate and not only cranky, but a bit miserable too.

I am open to accepting this as my truth.  It seems to be a process that I process multiple times.  The good news is that I do eventually process it.  The bad news is that I forget that I process it and seem to have to do it every winter.

I am grateful that the winter is so mild here.  I don't think of winter as closing my backyard like I did up north.  I think of winter as a few days I get to wear my UGGs.  Yes, I still wear them and find them extremely comfortable.  Sexy, no.  Comfortable, yes.

And, in our comfort, aren't we all just maybe a little sexy.   Ha.

May you meet yourself and your life where it is at.  It is okay to feel exactly how you are feeling.  May you also know gratitude for the things in your life that you do enjoy, appreciate and work for You.

However you need to do you - forgive yourself; love yourself; be there for yourself and let yourself grow into every situation that shows up - your truth, your trust and your empowerment in accepting what is.

This is how human nature works best, perhaps.  I wish you the best humanness you have to live in today and every day.

Cheers.  If you are human and you are still carrying onward, then you have graduated into the status of living through the human spirit.  May you let your soul and your spirit fill your life up and share the awesome that is you out...  

 

But, I've Always Done it This Way

Oh my my…  If this isn't something that is said often and thought often.  And, when it is said and 'thunked', it is certainly believed.

And, I'd like to offer 'but, is it really true' with who you are now, where you are now and what you need/want now...

I am thinking that just because something has always worked for me in the past and helped me with transitions, situations and positivity that does not mean that it will work for me now in this new, different and evolved world most of us are experiencing and living in.

I am different.  Everyday there is something different to learn or a new option to doing things.  Our world is different.  What happens over on that side of the world, we feel and know about it on this side of the world.  What happens here is known about and felt over there.

I'm thinking it may not be a bad idea, the next time you hear yourself say or think 'but, I've always done it this way', to stop and check in with yourself, your life, your feelings, your goals, your dreams and how is what you are doing and thinking working for you.

Just maybe it can be beneficial to create a new way; open to a new path; think a new thought; do it differently.

I have more tools now and you may too.  I see things and know things that I never have before.  I want to experience life as happily as possible through these new tools, who I am now, how I feel now and what I know now.

May you use the tools that you have now and experience life through who you are now, with what you know and feel now and through the best experience and option that you can come up with, create and allow.

May you meet your life where it is at now and start anew if this is what is going to open you up to the life you wish to experience and live.  It is okay to take a turn.  Whether it be a tad different or a complete U-turn, may you follow it home to You.  You 'turning' may just be where it's at...

I wish you You; lovingly, openly, brilliantly, trustingly and truthfully as possible.

I wish to welcome you home to the You that you are.  With everything showing up and bouncing around you, you can still find yourself home within yourself.

And, You are beautiful being You.

Yin Yang

Yin Yang comes from Chinese Taoism.   It seems to and relates to opposites but it is also life lessons that complement each other and teach/show us the infinite possibilities of all that is.

When we experience something, there is always a possibility to experience it in more than one way.

Shade with light.  Up with down.  In with out.  Over with under.  Male with Female.

Our chi; our energy; our life force; our prana; God.  Whatever you want to call this power inside of you that is 'life' is empowered and streamed through our own thoughts, actions, feelings and breath.

May you look at and see things (life) from and through the best place inside of you.

As you are seeing things and taking a 'looksee' at life within and outside of yourself, if it doesn't lift you up, empower you or enhance the best way you can feel in the moment, perhaps, take another look.  See things (life) [the current situation] differently.  There is always more than one way to process everything that one needs to process.  There is Yin and there is Yang and there are possibilities that connect the energy that is within us to our hearts, minds and souls.  

May you choose the best way for you in each breath; as often and as much as possible.

It is our thoughts, our actions and our stories we tell ourselves that create our reaction, response and the way we process through; the way we feel and move forward.

It is my hope that you choose You - in your best light; as often and as much as possible.  Choose what feels best on and within you.

When we choose our best, it is what we have to share.  I invite you to choose to feel your best.  Allow it.  Live it.  Choose it.  Be it.  Share it.

Our world is changing and so are we.  Let us change and transform into the best that we can live as today with the tools, knowledge and love that we carry with us.

Be the light that you want to be and are.  Be the light that is available to you and for you.  Lighten up and live free to live through what makes your soul shine.

May these words turn into actions for every one and any one that wishes it to be true.  Because if you choose and believe it, it is true for You.   You are this able.  You were born with this ability.  You have the light inside of you that you wish to be and participate in.  Hold on to it.  Own it.  Let it grow and build.  Let it become a part of everything that you are and do.

May you live [in] the 'lightness' of You.

Rainy

It feels like we are being asked by a force, greater than all of us, to find our truth and live through it.  Be our love and entertain it.  Know ourselves and be what we know.

There is a storm 'abrewing'.  A beautiful storm.  Yet, a storm of unease; unknown and new light.

May you be brave enough and loving enough to be gently transparent in who you are, what you know and what makes you happy.  

In this, we empower not only our own lives but others'.  We honor our Creator by being who and what we were/are created to be.  

We are being asked, or is it forced, to open up and say what we feel.  As I choose to do this at the time of realizing my feelings, from a place of love - it is the most impactful way to go.  If I stew or come from anger and release my feelings -- oh, it can invite in exactly what I don't want to live as, through and in.

May you choose to, as lovingly as possible, share what you are feeling from the inner wisdom of your spirit.

We can get sopping wet and not enjoy it or we can dance in the rain and have a blast.  And, of course, there are so many options in between these two extremes.

May you know what works and feels best on and in You.

May your 'storm' turn into the beauty that you wish to share with the world...   You.

De Light Full

Another full moon is up in the sky high above us all.  Everyone of us has the same moonlight shining down on us.

May you capture the light and let it connect you to de light fully You.

If something doesn't delight you; just for now, let it go.  Just for these few moments, any thought that does not lift you up or allow your happiness to flow, let it/them go.  

Feel what it feels like to not have a thought inside your head and being that brings you down; that is heavy; that feels yucky.  

Feel the feeling of presence and peace.  Feel the feeling of delight.

Perhaps, this is what this full moon is 'supporting' us to do.  Shine the light on what we want and are and shine the light on what we do not want and are not.

Imagine your body; your cells, are filled with your most favorite color.  Imagine that your body; your cells are vibrating happily, joyfully and in sync.

There is a flow that is flowing that is producing and creating a You that you now want to live as, support and be.

Even if it is only for this moment.

What would it feel like...  What would you be doing...  What would you be concentrating on...  What would make you look and feel aglow...

Be this.  Allow this.  Create this.  Open to this...  if only for this moment and, just maybe beyond it.

Everything you are able to wish for, there are parts of it growing inside of you already.  Water them with love.  Cherish them with kindness.  Feed them with respect.  Know them with everything that you are.  Grow them through faith of it happening; you becoming.

I wish you delight.  I wish you da light.  I wish you light and lightness going forward from this breath on.

Shine on warriors of awesome.  Shine on dudes and dudettes.  Shine on brothers and sisters.  Shine on fellow humans.  Shine on, up, out, through and into everything that you experience.

Shine on.

11/11

Wishing you Beautiful You filled with fulfillment, freedom, ease, love, truth, trust and fun.

This is the me that I want to know, be, live as and share.

I do not want to be afraid to be all that I am with anything that I perceive as a flaw to be seen as uniqueness, empowerment, a gift.  I choose love through everything as much and as often as I can.

May you choose love through everything; as much as and as often as you can.

The sky was beautiful last night.  The breeze was a wee bit cooler.  There were clouds and there was a full moon; or what looked to be a full moon.  It went from between the clouds, under the clouds, dressed by clouds, surrounded by clouds and in front of the clouds.  

There were dark blues, light blues splattered all around me.  I took a picture and it excited me and felt like a gift.  This is the picture you will find below.

I'd like to think of it as an angel; a sign; a portal.  A reminder to put myself into the light and walk into and with myself with freedom, ease and allowance of who I am and what I feel.  

May you walk into the depth of yourself with freedom, ease and allowance of everything you feel.  Let your breath breathe.  Let your feelings process.  Let your thoughts feel kind.  Let your being be free and playful.  Let your own love into every cell and out into everything you do.

I need to believe we, as a whole, are going in the right direction figuring new and better ways to live this thing called life.  We are seeing, feeling and aware in ways that we have never experienced before.  May we let love be part of every experience and open the door(s) to the person we are best to live through and on.

I truly and sincerely wish you the best of you.  Share your truth.  Allow what is.  Allow your feels.  Let love lead you, carry you and be you.

In this, the greatest miracle will happen.  The miracle of you being authentically and lovingly You.

Amen.

Thank you for doing your best to support the best life possible in yourself, others and the whole of our world.  Be the awesome you wish to experience in the world...  Open heart.  Open mind.  Joyful fun.

Birthday

Today is my awesome daughter's 25th birthday!  Whoop, Yes it is!

I find it amazing that I always dreamed of marrying and having children, of raising children.  I never, for whatever reason, found myself dreaming about what life would be like after my child is grown.  I never thought about my interests, plans of what life would be like after my time of being blessed with being needed and being involved in my daughter's growth and her own 'becoming'; about my life after being a mom of young children.

And now here I am.

I always tell her ‘thanks for being my daughter’.   I always say ‘our kids are our best teachers’.   One of my favorite songs for her is ‘I Hope You Dance’ by Lee Ann Womack and Sons of the Desert.   While she was growing up, I know she remembers me singing ‘You Can’t Always Get What You Want’ to her by the Rolling Stones (great lyrics and music).

Our relationship is different now.  It now consists of her 'adulting'.  I am so proud of the young woman she is and the fabulous and brilliant life she is creating, building and so mindful of.

Her favorite color is pink.  Her favorite animal is an elephant.

She was born 9:19 am on Tuesday, November 8, 1994.   She has been and is one of my greatest accomplishments and one of my greatest challenges.  I am so very honored to call her daughter.  I admire her and stand in awe of her.  I sometimes find myself flabbergasted by what she does next.   She is one of my greatest life lessons.  She is one of my greatest joys.

She is way up there on my 'of extreme importance' priority list.

I remember leaving for the hospital close to 5 am.   I had a natural childbirth which consisted of me mostly screaming.  Through her birth, beginning with singing and talking to her in my belly to singing and talking to her as an adult is one of my greatest constant heartfelt connections I have ever known and will ever know. #grateful

May you stop from time to time and relive in your mind and remember in your heart your greatest accomplishments, loves and successes.  May you feel your deep gratitude for these things.  

I am reminded who I was every step of the way.  I was far from perfect and my love for her was always within me circulating its presence.

I know life coaching is my next me; my new agenda; my life as I am now.

May you know in what direction you wish to go and claim it.

Thank you my beautiful daughter for choosing me as your mom and for being you; helping me to create me and affording me one of my greatest privileges which is being your mom.

I believe in you.  Im in awe of you.  I love you.

Always and forever.

Happy Birthday brilliant and beautiful daughter.   May you dance in and through the truth of You.

May you, my gift also; my reader, live innately in and through the truth of You.  Thank You.

You

I have been feeling vulnerable with and through my own feelings, situations and experiences that are opening up and showing themselves to me.  I have talked to others who are g(r)o)wing) through their own deeply seeded emotions and challenges.  I feel like what is dark inside of us is coming to light.  I believe many of us have the tools and ability moreso now than ever before and this is why what is happening now in our lives is happening.

In the dark there is light that may shine its brightest.  

We all know dark. We all know light.

May you be aware of what you are focusing on.

May you always let the love that is you(rs) be in each breath; as much and as often as possible.

Think, breathe, allow, feel, live as bright a light possible in the things that make it so for you.

Allow you to be You.

May you expand [the light of and] into what makes you You.    

This life we are living is [largely] about our humanness...

May you live it through the most loving truth of You.   You are remarkable.

I believe that you deserve the light of a full moon, the warmth of the sun on your face, your heart expanding in love for yourself and everything you can feel to dream to become a reality.

Sit in.  Walk on.  Breathe out.  May you let your own loving light fill you up.

Thank You

I want to thank the people from the following countries for dropping in.

I am honored to have you 'visit'.  

I am grateful for You.   I am hopeful for our world.  

As we all become and live from the best of ourselves,

 may we create the best for our world, together, and share life through love.  

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