Still Not Happening

The 'seller' to 'my' house has assured me that this is not my house.  The bank that owns this house has again declined my winning auction bid.

I am sad.   I am exasperated somewhat.  I do not know where I go from here.  I may be done.  I am uncertain. 

I will sleep on this information and see where, what, and how I feel in the morning.

I still have hope inside of me.  I still believe that what happens is what is supposed to happen.  Yes, there are other houses; and, perhaps, there is too much negativity around this one to continue chasing it at this point.  I am unsure if doing 'business' with this bank is a good idea...  hasn't been thus far!  Although, I am a stronger woman and have done things I never thought I would.  --  Like bidding at online and live auctions and walking into the unknown on purpose again and again and again.

I just hear myself asking, how can I win at least four bids in four different auctions for the same house and still not have the house...   Ludicrous comes to mind.

There is a 'learning' here for me.   I am with what is.

May you learn and may you be with what is.  May you do it in a manner that best gives you peace within.

Isn't there always peace within if I choose it....   Of this, I am not certain just now.  I don't know if I am feeling peace or if I am feeling shock.   Yikes.  I'm hoping it is peace.   lol

Thank you

May we all unite together from the deepest part of ourselves.

Thank you for visiting me here and loving your self more and more and more.

When we come from love within, perhaps, all we can do is share love.

Love on.  Truth on.  'You' on.

If there is something inside of you so strong... may you believe that it is yours to create and live fulfilled.

United States
Russia
Germany
France
Dominican Republic
Czech Republic
Brazil
China
United Kingdom
India

Thank you to the above countries who are 'visiting' just now.

"Let there be peace on Earth and let it begin with me."  Lyrics by Jill Jackson Miller and Sy Miller

Still

I am living this Monday morning; a beautiful Monday morning with cool air, warm sunshine and hope in my heart.

I have no definitive answer about this Florida house that I'd like to make mine.  I have no word as to where things are today.  Last I heard, my bid was 'declined', however,  I have people that want the same thing as me professionally doing their best to make it 'accepted' instead.

I sit in the stillness of not knowing.

I am going with what is inside of me; a strong knowing that I belong there.  It is where I am supposed to open my professional doors of my being once again, start a career in supporting others' lives and live comfortably and full of vitality living the life that is inside of myself to live.

Anything is possible.   I am waiting for the miracle to befall me.  I am open to receiving the miracle of creating what is inside of me outside of myself.

I create on.

May you be open to creating the life that is inside of you outside of yourself.

Peace or Madness

"All pain is born of resistance.  An attitude of nonresistance liberates tremendous energy.  Pain arises when we fight against what is happening, and peace comes when we accept what is."  From the book "A Deep Breath of Life" by Alan Cohen

Liberate yourself.

May you walk through what is as all that you are; as easily and as accepting as possible.

                                                          Unknown

Peace

"The choice for peace is always empowering.  When we refuse to give in to fear, we are able to see solutions that we would miss in hysteria.  Any situation can lead to great pain or great freedom, depending on how we handle it.  Even a hardened criminal can be healed and corrected with the touch of love.  Practice being kind in situations where you are tempted to panic; that is how to become a true miracle worker."

"Help me to remember that love works better than fear.  I can find the heart of anyone I seek to reach."

From the book "A Deep Breath of Life" by Alan Cohen

Well said.   Well said indeed.  Fear has its place.   Love is always a present. 

May you always choose love over fear; as often as possible.

Cherish

"Cherish and take care of what you value.  Happiness is fragile.   Appreciate every moment and do everything you can to protect it."  From the book "Missing You" by Harlan Coben. 

May you be open to happiness and let it flow through you.

Authentic

"The freedom to be authentic."  From the book "Missing You" by Harlen Coben

This 'authentic' word keeps coming up for me lately. 

Authentic - "not false or copied; genuine" (dictionary.com)

To be my authentic self...

To be your authentic self...

May you give yourself permission to be your authentic self in all situations.  JUST BE U

THIS will change our world; positively.   I believe.

Faith

"Faith is the belief you cannot see."  Steve Harvey

A brilliant girlfriend sent me this quote.  I feel nice when I think and believe this thought.  It is nice to have faith that what is inside of myself is the answer for my own life.  What I feel and believe surely can come to fruition.   I may not know an answer now but when I have faith that I will know when I'm supposed to know; and that what I find out is in my best interest for my life going forward, Faith is empowering.

May you allow your self to be faithful to your own beliefs; the beliefs that come from a strong feeling within your self.

Empower your self.  Believe. 

                                                 "Being a Woman", Facebook

Not

"It is not what you have or don't have, it's what you give."  Amy Purdy

May you give of yourself today and know the feeling of goodness that comes with this.

                              Samba right before he got 3rd and 1st place today!  He 'gave' great!
                                                          

222

I noticed '222' yesterday on a car in front of me.  I also noticed the clock reading 2:22.  Hence, I looked up 222 and below is what I found.  This was after I drove though the community I wish to live in; hopefully in 'my' house. 

"Have faith.  Everything's going to be all right.  Don't worry about anything, as this situation is resolving itself beautifully for everyone involved."  spiritlibrary.com

May you believe that everything unfolds in the best interest for your lifetime.

Cake

I sure hope I find out for sure and move into this house very soon (dot. dot. dot.)...   I am eating a lot of cake recently; almost daily I am having a piece.   It gives me a headache from the sugar and, yet, I do not resist.

I just had a big piece and my stomach is uncomfortable and I feel ugh.  I couldn't resist it.  I didn't want to resist it.  I heard myself say if I eat it now,  it will not be here tomorrow when I wake up.  Wow.  That sure isn't the way I want to think.

I guess I want 'my cake and eat it too'....(ha)   again and again and again.   Almost like the amount of bids on the house that I won as high bidder and still haven't had the opportunity to purchase the house..!?!

I'm ready to stop eating cake.  I will be unhealthy because of what I choose to eat if I keep this up.  It's a very uncomfortable and unsettling feeling to me.

Am I creating more unsettling feelings from already feeling so unsettled....

May you treat yourself with kindness, gentleness and love, always; and not too much cake.

Relief

"For fast-acting relief, try slowing down."  Lily Tomlin     From the book "A Deep Breath of Life" by Alan Cohen

May you know YOU in the silence and the pause between your breaths.

                                             As stated above... Thank you.

All

"Move me to be all I can be.  I don't want to simply glow; I want to shine.  Help me fulfill my highest potential today.  Today I go beyond anything I have done before.  I am willing to be great."

From the book "A Deep Breath of Life" by Alan Cohen

May you Shine On.

Cyclone

"The cyclone derives its powers from a calm center.  So does a person."  Normal Vincent Peale

"The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes."  William James

From the book "Chicken Soup for the Soul:  Think Positive:  101 Inspirational Stories about Counting Your Blessings and Having a Positive Attitude" by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen and Amy Newmark

May you alter your life from your center calm.

 

Yet Again

I have been told that the bank declined my offer yet again to buy this house after I won the highest bid in the auction.   I don't understand.   I do not know where to go from here.

I still have one hope left as there are people that are supporting me to get this house that just may be able to make it happen.

It is a long shot.  I trust that God has me.  I trust that the Universe will put me where I can best support my life and, hopefully, others' lives.

I am sad.   I am numb.  My usual habit is to shut down.   I feel I have done this some and I also know that I am staying more open than ever and loving on and through.

Yes, I so want this house.   And, it is still not mine.   In fact, I have been told again that it will not be mine.   Why don't I believe it....!?!?! 

I guess until all hope is gone, I will have hope and faith. 

It saddens me that filling these empty homes is not as easy as I would like it to be.  And, I am open to changing it. 

I may not.   It is a very possible scenario that I will not get this house; 'my' house.   But, until I have exhausted every road to achieving it, I will not give up.   It is not in me to do so.

Just a bit longer and I will know which direction (away or towards) for this house I will be going. 

May you never give up on YOU ever.  If there is something in you driving you - keep 'driving' until the drive has exhausted itself [if this is what is in you to do].

Holding Breath

I'm holding my breath (not really, but it feels so) waiting to hear if my winning bid was accepted by the bank that holds the ownership of this house down here in Florida.

I have just written another letter.   I do think I was holding my breath as I hit the 'send' button.

We humans breathe more freely when our bodies are relaxed and we feel safe within our selves.

May you breathe easy and feel safe and protected wherever you are.

Lost

I am getting lost in the paperwork, issues, work and thoughts/opinions that need to be addressed in order to move forward through my life.

I am stuck in house situations.  I am in the unknown of where I will reside and 'grow some roots'.  I am letting go of what was and creating what will be.   I am in 'limbo'. 

It is a fine place to be, if I let it be so.   It is an extremely difficult place to be, if I let it be so.

I waffle through not landing on either feeling.  Perhaps, this is a good thing.  Perhaps, this is processing.  Perhaps, this is life.

Depending on many external factors and what I do with them internally, this is where I find myself.

May you find yourself where you are best connected to peace within.

Realization

I started to feel achy this morning; head achy and beat up.  I noticed my fingers getting purple and numb. 

Today at noon, the weatherman has announced that the temperature is going to drop dramatically.  It was 89 degrees yesterday.  Tonight it will be 47 degrees.   Oh, how sensitive I am to this.

This is not my first realization.  However, this is perhaps, one of these realizations with acceptance this time.  It is what it is.  I am who I am.  My body responds/reacts how it responds/reacts.

I am okay even when I do not feel so.

I stop the fight of who I am.   I embrace who I am.   I hope the people around me and that love me will be okay with same. (interesting sentence to me)  I am not like anyone but myself.   I cannot be.  This is how I came to this Earth or, at the very least, how I am on this earth. 

May you accept all of you just as you are and let your life ride out through this person that is you.  Love yourself through.

You are unlike anyone else.  It is meant to be so.

Let us celebrate each other just as we are.  Celebrate ourselves as we live all that we are in each moment.  Celebrate you. 

Grateful

I sit in a state of gratefulness; back tall and erect, one foot flat on the floor as I type this.  I come to share that I still have no answer to whether I will be buying 'my' house.  It is an unknown.

I can feel many different ways about this unknown-ness.   Just now, in this moment, I will decide on gratefulness.

When I do 'hear' and 'know' this answer (that I have been after since before the New Year), I will know more 'noise'.   Either way - yes or no - my life will have been changed.  It will be time to move on. 

So, as I do not know this answer yet - I choose quiet.  I choose peace.  I choose to be in this moment with gratitude.  It is a nice moment.

May you choose gratitude and may you realize how 'nice' each moment may be.

"Super Soul Sunday" on OWN

The new season has started on "OWN - Oprah Winfrey Network".  I believe that there are many brilliant shows on  this channel that can help to open, change, and evolve one's life just by watching with an open mind and open heart.  I like to think of it as enlightening, encouraging and entertaining TV.  This is what it feels like to me. 

Shirley MacLaine was Oprah's first guest of this new season.  The sentence stated by Ms. MacLaine that stands out the most to my open mind and heart is below.  I'd like to share it with you.

...there is much that is unknown  "To be happy you have to be willing to be compliant with not knowing."

May you accept what is, trust what will be and know that you can handle whatever comes your way. 

I believe in you and my wish for you is to give yourself full permission to believe in yourself wholly and genuinely.  The time is now. 

I believe in me.  How wonderful it is for me to give myself the permission to feel this way and share this with you.

Namaste' 

Live your life as you; and support each other in doing just this! 

This thought expands all that I am.  It is a great gift that connects me to joy, hope, love and peace within.  It connects me to joy, hope, love and peace outside of myself when I connect to others who feel this thought as the truth of who they are as well. 

High

I went to the Grand Prix at Wellington Village, Florida last night. 

The horses and their riders were hoping to jump 13-5'5" high jumps and all under 85 seconds.   What a feat!  Some did, many did not.

However, they all jumped high; they all went fast and they all did brilliantly just by taking this 'feat' on!  Wowza!

What brilliant and amazing things we humans can do when we want to.  Life is awesome when we do what is in our own hearts to do. 

May you want to do brilliant and amazing things today because you can!

See

I wake up thinking - 'let's see what the day brings'.   It will be a good day; a nice day.

I'm open to live this day.   I take me with me wherever I go.

"Wherever you go, there you are."  Unknown

May you be open to live this day.  May you be open to fully participate as the truth of who you are.

Making It

Today is 2 work weeks after the auction of the house that I won the bid for at this 'on the lawn' auction and with the new auction company.  (I was high bid for this house before with an online auction and a different auction company.)  I still say it feels like 'my' house.   

I thought I would hear by the end of the work day today what the Seller is willing to do.   I could not resist any longer and I just now wrote an email to the auction company asking if anyone can tell me anything.

I sit, stand, walk in circles, and eat as I await an answer.

I go to the book "The Alchemical Tarot" by Rosemary Ellen Guiley and Robert M. Place.  The card that I felt 'heat' towards just now was the 'Seven of Coins'.

This card's "tarot wisdom" is below:

"The ladder shows the process of evolution, and emphasizes that there is a natural growth order.  An end result awaits you because you have planted the right seeds and undertook the correct process.  You are reaping what you sow.  The message also might refer to looking back over your steps, or reviewing your progress.  Do not become impatient and try to jump ahead to the end or you will miss crucial steps along the way." 

Okay.   Now what?!?!?!?!    lol    I wait on.

May you allow yourself to do, be, feel, think whatever it is as you go on. 

                                                     Peace & Love, Facebook

More

Right now in this minute, I feel like I cannot take a whole lot more...  All the talk about insurance, houses, selling, buying, moving, letting go, creating anew, fish, animals; and every one involved having an opinion on same.  It's downright overwhelming in this minute to me.

And, in it all, I feel lonely and alone. 

I believe it is mostly about not feeling settled; not feeling grounded.  How do I ground myself when my life is in such great transition... 

How interesting.

I AM with what is.  I trust the process.  I know everything will fall into place as it is supposed to.   I know I will one day feel stable again.  I will have a place I love to call 'home'.  I know I am okay even when I do not feel so.

Trust is a big one just now; trust in myself, my thoughts and my own being. Trust in others, trust in situations and trust in the process of it all.  Trust in God that He has me and I have me. 

When there is so much uncertainty, I walk on and through.  I can be certain of this.

May you be certain that you will walk on and through (as you) in every situation that comes into your life. 

I believe it is up to me to decide and choose how I want to feel as I walk through and on.  I believe that I will believe in myself as best I can in every breath that I take.

Tis Morning

As I awake this morning, I tell myself that I am going to see the good side of everything today.... at least in the first five minutes!!  lol  hoot

May you see the good side of everything. 

Different

There are different ways to see, think, write and accomplish the same goal.

"Begin doing what you want to do now. We are not living in eternity.  We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand and melting like a snowflake."  Francis Bacon

May you accomplish your goals feeling as loving, as free to be you and with the greatest of ease possible.

                                  Our Beautiful World and Universe, Facebook

Spring

People are saying 'Happy Spring'!  This time of year used to be when I would come alive again after a long, dark winter of 'quiet'.  Spring was always a time to roll down the windows, blast the music and sing and dance.  I used to love watching the buds coil from their branches; crocus, daffodils and tulips would break through the ground and reach towards the sunlight.  The birdsong would be more prevalent.  Baby animals are born and daylight would 'stand' longer.  It felt easier to connect to people as more were outside and open to the new growth that was all around them. 

Yes, with this wonder, weeds came too, cutting the grass was necessary and some unwanted bugs would appear. 

However, the wondrous-ness of it all far outweighed any of the negative for me.  

I would always think of Spring as March 21 because this is the first full day of spring.  Today is when winter turns to spring and anything with winter in it (other than a very short term of same) would not be something I knew how to celebrate.  (As in short term, I mean one weekend of cold, snow, beauty, nature sleeping and a fireplace is all I ever need/want.) 

Down here in Florida, I do see new buds blooming on some trees.  However, it feels like summer all the time here and I am right where I belong, without a doubt.

May you allow the life inside of you to spring alive and bloom.  Ha!

 

Whoa

As the winter thaws up north and the pond ice starts to melt, I am told that there are many dead fish coming to float on the top.  This saddens me greatly.  This is not normal.  If I lose one fish over the winter, it is a big deal and the norm.  My heart feels the loss.  My heart feels sadness.  My being feels so sorry for the beautiful fish. 

I think when the electricity was off when my home first met destruction back in January, the bubblers were also off and my wonderful, peaceful, and beautiful fish did not have enough oxygen.  The expert was there last night pulling many dead fish out of the bogs and he said that they looked like they have been dead for quite some time.   This is how I come to the conclusion of the reason of the deceased fish.

It just amazes me how when I no longer wanted to live here, at my beautiful Shambala--my Shambala started destroying itself.  It is but a shell of a home in most of the areas and many of my fish didn't make it. 

I know I don't feel happy about any of this.  I have no words for how I feel.  A description of my feelings would be for naught.  A description of my feelings cannot really convey the true depth of what is inside of me.  I only can sit with what is.  I can only live with what is.  I can only process what is. 

I have and choose to be unable to look at pictures; unable to visit the home.  I am so grateful I have trustworthy and loving people there breaking it down to where it no longer looks like my presence occurred there.  It certainly cannot feel like my full presence was even ever there.

I believe there is a reason for all of this.   I believe I have to be learning greatness from this great loss.  I know who I was is no longer who I am.  I'm certain this experience of such great loss has something to do with it.  It is great loss and yet, I still have my loved ones.  I still have me.  I still AM. 

So, I learn to be who I am as I am today.  I learn to share who I am as I am today.  I learn to be with who I am as I am today.

May you 'learn on' and stand strong in hope, love and trust of self; in trust of the Universe and trust of what you know is true for you.  May you trust in your Creator, God, Allah, Jesus -- whatever gives you the most peace of whatever/whoever is the truth of who you are.  May you continue to believe in the good of life.

                                                    Steve Vaugh, Artist

Bird Point

                                                              Unknown

Tired

With so many changes, challenges, information and awareness within and without, I am emotionally tired from taking honest information in, processing it and allowing it to exit my being as best as I can.  This is huge work for me.  This is exhilarating.  This is exhausting.

I truly believe my chemistry (the chemicals of my very own body) are changing, revamping, re-distributing and reclaiming everything that I am.  I feel it. 

It hurts in many places of my body.  I feel a strong tightness and several little 'battles'.   I also know ease in parts of my body where ease was not the norm. 

I am speaking hard (for me) truth and living through this truth in the best light and love I know how.

I have a dear friend, Ula.  One of her favorite sayings is "Choose well".   I am choosing well for me.   I am following my heart, my instinct, my base self and my innate knowing. 

I am less fearful to be ME.  I have less choice to not be me.  I have taught myself well.   I have taught myself who I am, what I want, what I know (which changes all the time), where I want to be and how and what I want to feel with what I allow myself to surround myself with. 

It feels so true and so real, I do not want to know different.  It is still somewhat hard for me to speak much of this because I still have a fear of pushing love away.   Yet, I am learning if I do push 'it' away, it most likely really isn't 'love' to me.  How interesting and how enlightening.  How exciting.  How 'un-habitual' this is for me.  There is nothing auto-pilot about this.  This is one moment at a time.  This is moment to moment; situation to situation; feeling to feeling; knowing to knowing.  This is the best way I know how to do this right now; at this time.

May you trust yourself that you are where you need to be and may you be aware how well (or not) it works within your being.   May you be open to evolve into always being aware of the answer to if you are going in the direction of your best self or not.  May you choose the direction of your best self as often as possible.  JUST BE YOU. 

21

Angel number 21

The number 21  is made up of the vibration of the number 2 and number 1.  Number 2 resonates with the attributes of duality and finding balance, consideration and co-operation, relationships and partnerships, encouragement, selflessness and your Divine life purpose and soul mission. The energies of the number 1 include new beginnings, independence, uniqueness, motivation, striving forward and progress, attainment, achievement and success. This makes 21 a number of versatility, energy, charisma and communication.

Angel Number by Joann Sacred Scribes

I had this sitting in my draft posts.   I don't have too many draft posts nor often.  I awake and the view number on my blog was 21.  My eyes went back and forth and had a quick laugh over the number 21 being present as it was.
I wasn't sure I was going to post this.  This is just a number that came to me after I was sent other numbers and their meaning like that of 'my' house and the bidding pad number for this house. 

Hoot.   I hope it can maybe mean something to many of you.

May you find meaning in everything that you are meant to.

                 I am told this is what ocean sand looks like many times magnified.  Unknown
 

Horse

Today is a horse show day.   There are beautiful horses and the competition is stiff.  My daughter is up there with all of the winners and it is wonderful to see her do what she loves and love what she does.  I wish this for her always.

Getting up early and heading right on out is not what I am used to doing.  Ha.  It is different to do so.  And, it gives me something to do and changing 'courses' is always good and it changes things up, challenges and usually always pays off.

May you do one thing different today that is out of the norm for you.  Even if it is as 'silly' as doing something opposite (on purpose) from what you normally do.  Take a chance.   Live what is inside of you; now in this moment.

Break free from habits that no longer serve your greater self.  Woo Hoo. 

Intensity

I still feel myself resisting coming here.  I'm resisting my truth if I'm resisting coming here.  It is a much cooler day.  The water is still dancing and the high spout of the fountain is spraying in all directions as it blows in the wind.

I was awake early this morning and had the dogs out.  I went back to bed but not back to sleep.  I was on the 'electronic people connection thingy' (smart phone).  I can't resist picking it up and seeing what I may be missing.  I connect a bit and then I move on.  I pick it up.  I put it down.   It really feels like a third arm.  I don't really want or need a third arm.  And, yet, I can't resist.

So, here I sit.  A Friday morning.  A good morning.   A morning.  Again, I hear the refrigerator running and the water cooler humming.   The sound of the fountain outside I love. 

I have no words that are forthcoming.  So, why am I wanting some...  Perhaps, I sit in the quiet awaiting 'my' house decision; if the seller is willing to let me 'love' it. 

Ha.   I love it whether the seller allows me to or not.   The real question is will the seller allow me to buy it... That is what I have no control over.  However, to love it is my choice.

I will go out to the grocery store.  I will do some errands.   I will play with dogs.  I will do some paperwork.  I am not feeling a whole lot of joy in any of this!?!?! ...

I want to be connecting to human beings.  I want to be discussing their dreams and desires; their woes and their dilemmas.  I want to laugh.   I want to cry.  I want to do this with people for a profession in a professional environment. 

Touch is very important to most humans.  Interaction is vital throughout our lives.  Whether in silence to/or chaos, it is the interaction that propels the humanness of one another. 

What comes to mind is if a tree falls in the forest and no one hears, does it matter. (my own words)   I say yes.  It surely matters.

So if a person is crying or laughing, it matters more vivaciously when we share it with each other.  We aren't as happy unless we can share our happiness with someone.  We are more sad, when we feel there is no one that cares.

May you laugh with someone today.  May you care for someone today.  May you know that you are cared for by someone today.

Without communicating same, how can others know what/who we are...  Allow us in...

May you trust yourself enough to allow others to know the real you.  If you have trust in yourself that you will be okay no matter what, perhaps, this is what is most important in allowing people in.  Some things may let us down, some things may pick us up.  However, it is our reaction to it all that allows peace within or not. 

Uh Oh   Huge stuff!  Yikes.  It can feel exhausting to me!...  I walk on...

Rainy Sunshine

"Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain."
 From the book "Chicken Soup for the Soul:  Think Positive:  101 Inspirational Stories about Counting Your Blessings and Having a Positive Attitude" by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen and Amy Newmark

I did used to like to put my bathing suit on as a child and play in the rain and splash in puddles.  I remember it as great fun.  Swimming in the rain was a lot of fun also. 

To my daughter, I always offer her the song by LeAnn Womack...  "If you get a chance to sit it out or dance.... I hope you dance". 

May you dance in rain or in sunshine.  May you 'dance'. 

May you allow yourself freedom to Just Be U.

                                                        lol

Enemy/Human

"If we could read the secret histories of our enemies, we should find in each man's life, sorrow and suffering enough to disarm all hostility."  Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

"The cyclone derives its powers from a calm center.  So does a person."  Norman Vincent Peale


From the book "Chicken Soup for the Soul: Think Positive:  101 Inspirational Stories about Counting Your Blessings and Having a Positive Attitude"  by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen and Amy Newmark

Dreamin'

"Give me the courage to live my dreams now.  I celebrate my heart's deepest desires by expressing them enthusiastically."

"Give me the strength to believe in my quest and live it.  My visions are given to me by God.  I will live my dreams."

From the book "A Deep Breath of Life" by Alan Cohen


May you always "Dream On"!  (Aerosmith)

I believe that if a dream is within you, this dream can be your reality. 

 

Frequency

There is much 'frequency' going on--much power, change, charge and evolution.   We are growing into our true selves; we are owning who we are more and more.

You may find yourself uncomfortable or irritable.  There may be an intensity of life happening within and around you.

Breathe into it.  Trust the process.  Trust yourself.

Allow your shoulders to relax.  Feel the earth underneath you supporting you.  Breathe in.   Breathe out.   Perhaps--long, slow, and deep breaths. 

In this very moment, everything is okay.    Right here; right now.   We are okay. 

I believe a higher frequency of humanness is being offered; being developed; being altered.

Many of us are more aware; more in tune, more touched by all that is.

If you are finding yourself uncomfortable, allow it.   Trust it.

Wherever you are; whatever you feel -- it is for YOU and YOU will know and be and breathe into 'okay-ness'.  Breathe into everything that you are.   Only you know you like no one else can or does.

May you accept what is as YOU.   and YOU can take YOU to anywhere you can dream up, feel or imagine.

Dream.  Feel.  Imagine.

I believe.

                                                      Unknown

No Comment

I have nothing that is bubbling inside of me to share.  I feel anxious waiting for an approval from the Seller so I can get on with it...

It's a breezy, coolish kind of day outside.  The palm fronds are dancing in all directions.  The surface of the little lake is flowing in circles, lines.  I certainly cannot see any reflections on it just now.

I welcome the breeze.  It is sunny and the day is full of energy. 

I feel, inside of myself, pretty much the same as what the day is offering.  My mind does not know where to land.

So, I will land here with my fingers tapping on the keyboard.  The chair supporting me as I sit sideways.  One foot on the ground with my legs crossed.  My dogs are laying close by as they had their 'break of fasting' and their morning 'fun'. 

It is very quiet as I sit here.   I hear the ringing in my ears; the refrigerator running; the water cooler humming; the breeze blowing as I have my patio door open.  Once in a while I hear my bird 'Sunshine' chirp.  Just now, the neighbor's truck started and he is 'out of here'. 

May you allow the silence of what is to enter your 'being' from time to time.  May you allow yourself to just "be here now".   Breathe through the moment and into your life.  Be gentle and loving.  Allow it.   Allow YOU.  My wish.

                                                          Unknown

Shock

I am still in shock as I realize how far I have come and that I went to an auction that I knew I never wanted to go to; and achieved what many told me was mostly impossible (although it is not over yet). 

I am not inside this house yet.  And, I am grateful for being where I am.  I trust if I am supposed to be in this house and make it my home, then it will be so.

I don't know if I'm tired from the energy that I used to accomplish this.   Most of the energy, was not comfortable energy as I walked through the unknown.   I walked through learning to be more secure in what I was doing, feeling and being. 

Change is every where.   What is inside of us is us.

When we stand strong in what we feel, allow ourselves to feel it and trust in the process, magic happens.  We may not always get what we want.  We do get exactly what we need to propel us forward knowing what we want, what we are supposed to be, what we are supposed to do, what we are supposed to share.

May you be your authentic self in whatever environment you find yourself in throughout your day.

Share YOU.

 An uninvited visitor that allowed me to place him in a bucket and place him outside into his natural environment right here from this shelf. 

 

Winning or .. It just Is

We did win the top bid at the auction for 'my' house.  We now wait 14 days until the seller decides whether to yea or nay the bid. 

It was extremely 'exciting' and 'scary' for me.  I do feel that God (the Universe, Allah, fate, just because, etc., whichever you believe) did put the right people there and I felt they were my angels as I went to the auction open to receive my best path.

They were very classy and helpful.  They talked with me and assured me answers to any questions we offered.  The retired owner of the company was the auctioneer and he was a kind and caring man.  There were bidders on line and only one other person 'in house' that wanted the same property.   The other man was an investor and he guided us through at the very end asking if we were going to live there.  That if we were, he would go for it.   That was all we needed to hear.   I cried and my heart beat very fast and loud.  We did go 18K over what we went in to spend and I feel good about it all.  What an experience.  Not for me....  !

I still do not know if this house is mine and I am hopeful and open to allowing the flow.  I believe it will be ours. I have to because this is my wish. 

What a ride.   What a drive.  What a time.

May you be open to what the universe has for you and know that what you dream and believe IS possible. 

Yes, I want this house to be ours.  And, just that I went through all of this and learned so much and found confidence in myself to walk through,  find very hard to find answers and to do my very best....  this in itself is a huge gift to myself.  My spirit soars.   I want to take my humanness with me so all of me soars through love and innate knowing of who, what and why I am. 

My wish is for all of who you are to soar as what and why you are - through your dreams and your innate knowing. 

                                                      Unknown

Health

"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society."  J. Krishnamurti

May you be your own doctor, cleaning service, lawyer, private investigator, comic, beauty consultant, financial consultant, interior designer, best friend, etc. as you use your innate knowing.  Live your innate self with connection to outside professionals/people.  Be your best authentic self from your truth within.   No one knows you like you do.   No one knows what you feel more than you.  No one can control the way you react to things like you. 

Your best health just may be from the inside out.

May you breathe what is inside of you always and gently and lovingly allow it to teach you where you want to be... and go there.

                                                      Tarah Hannes, Facebook

Auction

I wake up nervous, excited --  going to an auction...  w h a t ?   me?    oh my

When you find yourself somewhere you've never been before -

May you stay open and bring your total self with you as you feel, think and Be You walking through as best you know how.   It is enough.  You are always enough when you come from your truth within.  Share 'you'. 

 

Open House

The 'open house' for the house that has had my attention for the past two months was held today.   Tomorrow is the auction.   No one else was there but myself and my husband the few times we went back to investigate same.

I still like it when I'm inside the house and it still feels like 'my' home.  However, my intellect is telling me to tread very slow and carefully.

I still don't know my 'game plan' for the auction.   I know that I will attend.  I know that I will be open to walking through and I sure am praying that the best 'thing' will occur that puts me where I'm supposed to be in regards to this situation.

I have asked God to lead the way and take over as I don't know what to do.  I have found more information about the previous owner and what 'maintenance work' will be required by the community association that has many rules for each house and each subdivision.

My only unknown now is whether the paperwork will be on the up and up and if everything written and signed be carried through and out as exact.  I don't know if the process assures correct and legal sales and I wonder if it will benefit myself, as the buyer, and not all written for the safety and benefit of the seller (as the lawyer knows it is now).

My brain is tired.   My eyes are heavy.  I spin in confusion as I read all the contractual paperwork.  I read many reviews about deals that have gone astray with other buyers.  Yet, there are some buyers that write a positive and happy review.  This auction company holds the truth of the house's 'saleability'. 

I am very surprised that I find myself here.   This reminds me of the saying "never say never" because before I saw this house, I certainly would have said that I would never, ever go down this road for any reason.  I know great discomfort in it and, yet, I'm doing it with strength, hope, intellect and energy. 

I have to trust myself, trust the process and believe that I am where I'm supposed to be or I wouldn't be here.

We put the clocks on 'spring forward' time this weekend.   We have turned the time to be one hour ahead than where we were when we went to sleep last night.

I hope that if I 'spring forward' tomorrow, I won't be sorry for 'springing'...

May you let your educated innate knowing spring yourself forward if you truly believe and feel that what you are doing is best for you.  Believe totally in yourself. 

Our world is changing.  We are all shifting from what we have known in the past to learning what works best for us now and for moving forward as our best self.

'Shift' happens and, perhaps, if we stand strong in who we are and share just this, our own shift will be awesome and this awesomeness will reach past ourselves and blend with each others'.

May you allow your awesomeness to blend into our world.  It is time for 'awesomeness' as we create anew through awareness, care, love, feeling and sharing the innate truth of who we are.

Resist

I used to come here and just let my fingers fly.   I'm feeling myself resist this.  I'm questioning how sane is it..?!  I guess if I'm worried about 'it' now, this ship has already sailed!  lol   hoot   wowza

So, as I breathe into where I'm at; what I'm feeling; where I'm going; what I'm 'sitting' with... 'My' house is the first thing that pops up.

I am walking in this through the darkness and since the lawyer is saying there is much 'darkness' in these auction agreements - this is not a comforting thing.

Is this a chance to follow my innate knowing in one of the biggest and most serious ways........

I would never, in the past, go down a road such as this.  I'm perplexed, amazed, challenged and in awe that I find myself here to be quite frank.

Tomorrow is the 'open house' (if the house gets opened; which I'm sure it will as last week it did not) and Monday is the auction.

I will be a detective until then to acquire as much information to 'arm' myself with my greatest ability to make a bid or not.

This is not the easiest road to take by far.  Yet, when I look at the pictures of this house or stand in the big room, something is surely calling me to it. 

This is a wonderful opportunity to use what God has given me!  My innate knowing and my intellectual brain.

I am writing this for any one to share this with me.  I sit in peace, yet in the back of my head I can call in the 'alarms' that I know are on standby...   I just am choosing not to sound them as they are so very vague and nonthreatening just now. 

Today is the last day to go full force in gathering as much information as I can.  Mostly to liens, titles, deeds and whatever else pops up.

I feel very confident in the house itself.  Now it is all the legal jargon that has me awake.

May you use your innate knowing and your intellectual wisdom to guide you home.  Ha; Guide you 'home' to you.

Feelings

What you feel is real for you.  

May you allow it, be gentle and process it through.   On the other side of all these feelings that, perhaps, we ignore, run from, or hide is the greatest gift of all....   your true self.

May you live your true self by allowing what comes up for you to be your friend.

My initial reaction to what I would consider an unwanted or negative feeling is not to want to feel it.  I immediately choose to ignore it, run from it or numb myself to it.  I am learning that when I feel a feeling that is arising and my initial reaction is not to own it, I say hello to it and wonder what it is here to teach me; which direction it wants me to go.  I also thank it because it is possibly the most real thing about me.

Just Be U

Good Morning

Good morning, good morning, good morning to you.
Good morning, good morning and how do you do....

I found myself singing this to my dogs today.  They came over to me and wagged their tails and did a little dance.  

What a nice way to start my morning. 

May you 'note' to start your mornings on a happy 'note'.   Ha!

Crane

I saw a beautiful crane hanging out in the bushes while I was waiting for someone to show up at the open house for 'my' new house this past week.   It was just the crane and I present. 

I wanted to look up what 'Crane' meant from the book "Animal Speak" by Ted Andrews. There is more, however, below are the descriptions that spoke to me. 

..."it could very well reflect that you are about to recover what had almost become extinct within you."

"This can reflect a new sense of protectiveness, or even a need for secrecy in regard to something new you have given birth to or are about to give birth to."

..."it will reflect the importance of not dividing your attention--especially in rearing your children, be they your actual children or symbolic children, as in the case of special projects."

"One of the most remarkable aspects of this bird is its loud whooping sound.  Its haunting tone is reminiscent of a primal celebration over birth.  The crane can teach you how to celebrate your creative resources and keep them alive, regardless of the conditions in which they are manifest, both by simply having the proper focus in your life."

May you never give up [until you are truly ready to] in achieving whatever your heart desires.

Alan Cohen

From his book, "A Deep Breath of Life", Alan Cohen writes:

"In my seminars, I tell audiences, "Please point to yourself."  Nearly every person in the room points to their heart.  Although they had a choice of many body parts, 99 percent of those asked sensed that they live in their heart.  On some level, we remember that our heart contains the essence of who we are."

"Give me the courage to live my dreams now.  I celebrate my heart's deepest desires by expressing them enthusiastically."

"Give me the strength to believe in my quest and live it.  My visions are given to me by God.  I will live my dreams."

"I pray to be big enough to handle whatever comes before me.  With Your help, I can and will do anything.  The power of God is within me."

May you believe the time is now; the time has come and the dreams that are inside of you only need your permission to be so. 

Where I'm At

Where I'm at....   I haven't stopped to think about this for a while.   Perhaps, because I do not want to know...

I heard myself telling myself that this is not how my life is supposed to be.   This is not how I saw myself in this stage of my life.

I said this crying and upset.

I realize that I have more and great learning to be had.  The walk with the dogs this morning I noticed how I was walking in a parking lot and the sidewalks were full of leaves and debris.  I compared it to the community I want to live in and I had a hard time understanding how I could find myself 'here' as this wasn't my plan.  I never saw this coming.

I'm feeling challenged and sad this morning.  Probably for a long while now I have felt out of my element; out of my comfort zone.

I know I have the power, knowledge and ability to create the life I want and the life I am supposed to be living.  So create on I say while knowing gratefulness for what I do have and how I am living.  It could always be worse; much worse.

So, as I battle with the life that I have created for myself with the decisions and actions I have made to date, I know that with this awareness comes the ability to let it be and enjoy where I am and what I do have as I create the peaceful, exciting world inside of myself on the outside of myself.

We all have valleys and mountains to experience.   We all have status quo that we really don't want to be so.  We all have challenges and wins.   We all have struggles and learning to experience.

May you bring your true self to the forefront of your life.  See, feel and know what is your truth and then decide what it is you want to accomplish out of innate knowing, love and steps to acquire just this.

I know it is in each and every one of us.  I know it is in me.  I know it is in you.  Live the full life you were born to live.

Create on.