Just Being... Me

I awake to the morning light and I slowly become aware of another day to be lived.  I stretch my body.  I look for the animals and I feel the cool air outside of the window.   I look at the temperature and it is 52 deg. F.  Cool for here; close to cold. 

My hands feel like baseball mitts and my face is swollen.  I take a deep breath and I think about what my day will look and feel like and that it will be a good day because I've never seen this one before... (Maya Angelou).

I have contractors coming and two dogs, one cat and one fish to feed.  I think about what I will eat for breakfast.  A very 'nutritious' piece of margherita pizza.  This has taken the place of my guacamole and hummus for now.   I don't know what it is, but I crave it and look forward to it.  Perhaps, it is the tomato; perhaps, it is the crunch; it is definitely the crunch of the crust.  I did weigh less when I ate the hummus and guacamole. But, I follow my desires as best and as smart as I can.  I can't always be real smart!?!?!?   Ha. 

We are looking to get a new kitchen sink, but under the sink, we realize that there are broken/damaged pieces of granite so if we want a new sink, we need new granite.  I will walk through this and see what the outcome will be. 

May you walk through your life, being true to you and open to see what the outcome will be...

Be extra kind to yourself today and like it so much you do it again tomorrow!  Ha!.

'Make' yourself a nice day.

Thank you for visiting me.

Genuinely yours,

Me

                                               

Achy

I just got back from temperatures in the 30's Fahrenheit and this morning was in the 50s in Florida, USA. 

I am grateful for the warmer weather and my body is used to high 70's.  I find it to be and feel it to be aching and screaming; uncomfortable and somewhat unhappy.

Discomfort is a big attention getter and my body seems to want a lot of attention just now.

I do my best to give it attention and pay attention to what it is asking of me.  My mind, still, at times, wants to fight.  I mostly win just going with it and letting it be.  I do need to 'hide-away' to let this be so.  It sure seems so.

I went from morning to night visiting with my sister and enjoyed just about every minute of it.  My body and mind wanted and needed to turn off at times and I did my best to let this happen.

So, I am home now and there is work that we are getting done.  It is not 'shambala' type of everyday work non-stop, but it is several days of work and contractors non-stop.

It feels 'interesting'.  Interesting is the best word that I can come up with. 

I hope to do the work that needs to be done and then have down time from same in an easy and positive manner.

I wish you easy and positive manners in whatever you find yourself doing.  If you are doing it, you may as well be happy doing it.  If you can't find happy just now, may you change it up and/or, perhaps, this is just what you are supposed to be experiencing to grow into the best self that you can be.

May you get your contentment on as much as possible wherever, however you find yourself.  I believe in us mere mortals.   May you believe in yourself. 

Go with the flow of life - get out of your own way - and let life, wisdom and inner being give you the best moments possible.

Where I'm At

I've been traveling back and forth from Florida, USA to Pennsylvania, USA for weddings.  3 to be exact with the last one (for now) in March 2017. 

They are joyful, fun, and filled with love and laughter.  They are my nephews' and my niece's weddinga and my heart runneth over.

My health has been very good where it comes to ulcers on my fingers.   I have had very little; really close to none and I am so grateful for same.  The achiness is always with me.  I am doing pilates regularly and loving it. 

It is not very easy to feel settled as I am living in a home that I don't want to be in for a long term.  I look at it as temporary and there is both good and bad to it.  Good, I don't take it so seriously.  Bad, I don't let myself feel 100% settled.  Perhaps, I could just let myself feel 100% settled for now and good will be all I know regarding same.

I caught myself saying sorry often - too often.  I realized I wanted to stop saying 'I'm sorry' very much by habit.

I read something that very same week that instead of saying 'sorry', say 'I'm thankful that you are kind to me even though I am late.  Instead of saying I am sorry, say I'm thankful that you are open to listening to me.  Instead of saying I am sorry, say I am grateful that you understand (or at least are trying to understand) my situation...

Man, does it feel better on me.

It is said that we teach people how to treat us.   I want respect, openness, kindness and love in my life.  Coming in and going out. 

I'll continue on from here.

May you realize what you want in your life and be open to creating/receiving it and continue on from here.  Namaste.

Hello Goodbye -- Burning Up or Opening Up

Hello to you.   I hope you are having a nice day and/or nice moments throughout your day.  I hope that you are being kind to yourself (and others) and I hope that your heart and mind are open in the best way that your heart and mind can be open. 

Maya Angelou said that 'today is a good day, I've never seen this one before'.  How true. 

We have never seen this day before, nor will we again...   what do you want to do with it...

I hear it being said that we have the choice to feel how we feel.   When I first heard this, I thought it was nuts.  Now, I know it to be true.  Our first reaction may not be what we always want to feel, but we can be aware of our reaction(s) and then turn it/them into the reaction that feels best for ourselves.   Peace feels best for me.

Anger is not fun.  Anger, I lose my way.  Anger, I don't like how I look.  With anger, I don't like how I feel.

There has been a few times, when anger felt good.  I felt deceived and, at that time, nothing else would come up for me.  I even preplanned how I would deal with the situation I knew I was walking into.  I thought I had it figured out, but anger was the only feeling that wanted to 'roar'.  So, roared I did.  And it felt good. 

However, as I was 'doing' anger and giving my anger breath, I knew I was scary and there was an inability to communicate with me.  A part of me knew, it wasn't being as helpful as I could be and I knew an apology from myself would follow.  But for those few minutes, I had no other feeling available to me.

I later learned that people could hear me more, open up to me more, communicate with me more if I was angry but I showed my anger through a more loving and open way.

Now, most of my anger comes through in this manner.  I don't always get heard, but I always like myself for bringing and carrying peace.

It is who I am.  It is who I want to be.  It is what I feel most comfortable around.

Next time you get angry, feel the anger, see the anger, step out of yourself and watch the anger.  Do you like what you see...

Is there a more loving, open, communicative way to share what makes you angry. 

It is said that anger is either underlying fear or hurt.  I feel this to be true.  I also feel it to be true to best communicate and create peace takes us much further into the situation and the ability to change things up than carrying and spouting anger into same.

When you are quiet and peaceful, perhaps, ask yourself what you want.   Do you want people to share you and your life with or do you want to be a beast that people are afraid of and can't be their true selves around you.  Do you want a bond of togetherness and peace or do you want a bond of anger, fear and hurt.

Yes, it is how we react.

May you react well to achieve your goal(s).  Hello to you.  I would like it best being in a person's life that is supportive and kindly shows anger than a person that shows anger that makes me want to run away from fast.

You do have a choice; each and every time.  May you choose you.  Choose the you that you want to be and be it. 

People will respond to your choice(s). 

                                                Burning up or Opened up...

My Feelings

Lately I have not felt the strong and unstoppable urge to post; to share; to help without being asked and/or to give of myself just because I need to.

I love people.  I love helping people.  I love seeing people succeed.  I love having a place in people's lives.

I feel the urge to not give so fully or readily.   I feel the urge to go inward and give to myself, my needs; to create, allow and accomplish my desires.

I still feel connected.  I always have the desire to feel connected.  It feels like I have a need to go deeper within.  I thought I was very deep.  There is a calling for me to go even deeper.  I am not sure what that looks like or feels like, but the urge to do so is vibrant and strong.

The need to share my dilemmas and/or hardships; the need to share my thoughts and/or feelings is not very strong right now.

The need to grow from within out is what is calling me; what is being demanded of me.

I'm really and truly not sure what this means or looks like. 

I am open to finding out and allowing it; embracing it - embracing me.

Whatever you are feeling or desiring,

may you let your feelings and desires lead you home to you.  Lead you into the life that is meant for you to be living now...  Lead you into empowering you.

As you empower yourself, you empower others.

I am hoping that my own empowerment will touch yours.

Let us be empowered together -- from deep within out into the lives that we are meant and made to be living now.

Hip Hip Hooray!!  Let's just go here whatever and wherever 'here' means to you.

             Unknown                                                 

Stomach

My stomach is a bit upset and uncomfortable just now.   I've had a busy day.   I am wondering what I cannot 'stomach'  just now.

I know the medicine, when I went to pick it up last week, was not in stock and I had to travel without it.  That wasn't a whole lot of fun.   I made it.  I survived.  I feel unbalanced from not having it. 

There are a few things breaking in the house that needs immediate attention like a toilet and air conditioning. 

I went to pilates and loved it.   That I can stomach and my stomach even loves it.   Man, do I love movement and strength training.  It is still stressing my body, however, and I am looking for my healthiest balance of same.

Change is constantly occurring in my life.  With my husband traveling, my daughter in and out and me still working on finding my best daily way.

I am open to it all falling easily into place.  I am open to my ability to stomach it all easily and greatly.

May you be open to finding your best balance doing what you love best and being your best self.  It is so possible.  Most of us have all been there at one time or another.  I certainly have.   I am ready to get back into this fun and special place as soon as possible and stay there more often than not.

May you stay in your best and balanced life as much as possible and with the greatest of ease.

May you be open to your best self and your best life.  As you open to it, believe it will happen.   I do.

Thank you.

Airplane

As I sit on the plane getting ready for take off, I sit on the plane waiting for take off... ! (Hmmm)   It is a liitle over a two hour flight and I'm thinking of the good ole' days when flying used to be fun and a happy part of the trip.

I suppose it still can be, but having to have proof of who we are, the rules and regulations, the people in a hurry to get comfortable in their seats dampens the laughter within me.  The laughter that I used to allow/know when flying.  The best I can do is breathe and let be.   I know they won't leave without me; I feel my own comfort and strength of the seat underneath me and I am grateful it is a 2 hour flight instead of a 1,200 mile car ride.  I sit in my seat and type this blog to you..

I have my seatbelt on, my belongings stored and I plan on reading the book by Carrie Fisher called "Wishful Drinking".   

Thank you for being here as I entertain myself in hopes of entertaining and touching your heart; just maybe.   

The flight attendant is starting her spiel as we pull back from Gate B11.  

Im heading towards my sister and her family.   Their time to marry the youngest in their family; my beautiful and precious niece.  It all feels right.  It all feels good.  It all feels exciting and happy!! There is going to be a fabulous and loving wedding!!  

'The time has come'!   My husband and I used these words on our wedding invitation as we dated 6 years before we 'took the plunge' and got married.  We have been married for 26 years.  We have been exclusive for 32 years!  Yes, I am 'experienced'.  !

So now, the time has come for my niece to marry the man she has fallen deeply in love with and I proudly, honorably and excitedly get ready to participate and to watch this moment of a lifetime moment!!

When we have good moments in our lives - may we feel them, breathe them, be in them, be open to them and let yourself imbibe in all the glory, astonishment and overall liveliness of said moment(s).  Let yourself open up to the magic in the specialness of each precious moment that is yours.   

Being human is living, experiencing and creating moments to witness and dwell in.   

So as the plane picks up speed, I'm pushed back into my chair, the plane wobbles and looks for its place in the sky, I realize it is kinda, sorta just like a human trait.  

We wobble at times; we get off our [easiest] path sometimes; but we always look for and react to finding our proper and best place 'in the sky' for our own lifetime fulfillment.   

When we let ourselves fill in any voids; participate in any wobbliness and allow our true flow into the universal flow, we open our wings and fly.   

Our best of self is always within us.  Our wings are always available to us.  Our happy and our not so happy is part of the intention of each human life.  

May you participate in your lifetime with an open heart, an open mind, kindness and compassion, love and flow and let your time be here now [always now] as you know, speak, share and be the light of your day and the dark of your night.  Allow you to happen just as you do.  Be aware and choose through self-love. 

There is beauty in it all.  Your 'feels' matter; they can guide you.   Believe in you and trust as much as you can and stay the course of, with, and in the magic of yourself; your inner knowing and your outer doing.   Stay the course of being the best of you in the time that you know as now.  

I am flying high now and I wish you to let yourself be, do and live the same.  Flying high with all that you know, are, see, do and create.   

Happy flight into yourself.  Happy love from and in your heart. Happy you because you give yourself permission to lovingly be you!!!    Whoop!  

Love is in the air even at 31,000 feet!  When my feet hit the ground I plan to be flow and love; love and flow.  

Be good to you.  Please.   

Find your place and give it all you got.

May you be flow and love; love and flow (to the best of your ability in each moment).

                                       

Wedding

I have an extremely important and exciting wedding coming up this 1/7/17.   Wherever I go, the thought of it is with me.

My niece.   My beautiful niece is getting married.

We have done much over the years from infant to full adult and I am so happy, thrilled and proud of her.

She is marrying the man that supports her and I want to say completes her but she is already complete as a woman and as a person.  But to share a life with someone can be such a gift and she has fallen in love with the perfect man for her.  They are complete within themselves and they support this completion.

There is no greater love.  To me, this is what love is.   Loving someone is to support them to be their best and happiest self.  They do this for each other.

She is having a big 'bash' and to be able to experience this, feel this, and watch this is what (feels to me) one of my grandest gifts in life.

She is beautiful inside and out.

So, I make plans to get my family there and experience this with them.  There is nothing better than this.

An adventure with love in the air!

May you give, create and allow adventure with love in the air for yourself; as often as possible.  When we are open to it, it comes...

Happy Adventuring with your own open heart and mind. 

 Unknown

Breathe. Be. Love.

May you breathe.   May you be.   May you love. 

Happy 2017

We made it.  We will ring in 2017; individually, together.

There will be some births.  There will be some deaths.  There will be sad midnight hours.   There will be happy midnight hours.  Each one is huge.  Each one is important.  Each one matters.  Each one affects life as we know it. 

We can look at it as a clean slate and bring our positive thoughts and hopeful ways with us.   We can do it differently from this if we choose.

It is our choice. 

We can flow and accept what is happening inside of us and around us.   We can fight and dislike it; dislike the unknown and do everything but flow.

Which works best on you...  Which gives you the most peace... Which creates the most satisfaction and fulfilment inside of you... 

This is what I wish for you.  

In order to get it, you must wish it for yourself.  It is better when we know and think that we are deserving to have it and it works best when we open our hearts and minds to allow permission of our best selves and ease to walk into 2017 with us.

May you let the true you be you.

I often don't know what I am going to post.  I don't plan it out.  I don't think it over.  I usually just let my thoughts flow from somewhere outside of myself to inside of myself to my fingers to the page.

My "just be u" came from me so badly wanting to allow myself to 'just be me'.

So, here I am being me.  I will continue to be me.  I'd like to give myself complete freedom and permission to just be and share myself again and again and again. 

I know that I love.  I know that I care.  I know that I want to be helpful.   I know that I want to enjoy life.   This is me, along with all my other emotions, feelings, thoughts and ways.

So, here I am being me.   2017 I will be the greatest, best-est and let whatever I feel to be, be.

May you bring your greatest and best-est and let whatever you feel to be, be.  It is what will create our best, most truest; I hope passionate and loving self and life within ourselves; individually, together to be.

Happy 2017.  !!! 
  
                                       
                                                     (Unknown)