Be U: April 2019

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Friday, April 26, 2019

Becoming; Non-Becoming

Below please find some of my own responses on social networks. There is so much depth, change, alterations, evolving and transformation going on, something inside of myself told me to share so I am just going with it.

If something resonates with you, I am grateful. If nothing does, just let it go. It is my belief this means it isn't meant for you. And it is okay either way.

May you follow and invite your inner knowing to step forward (and through) with you.

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Thank you for the awesome love that is You(rs)! Yes. We are right where we need to be developing into everything that empowers and is love, loving ways and loving nourishment for all. We are enough just as we are and we are each miracles and we are each a part of the vast puzzle that completes our oneness. Oh I'm so ready to live in this world that is becoming what we are and not becoming (letting go) what we are not. Ha. True dat! Thank you for your ‘shine’ that touches beautifully!

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I believe we are at the point where we are mostly being forced to experience what we have not wanting to experience or deal with the most. We are at this depth of burning out and changing the yucky imprint that has been around the longest. It doesn't feel easy. It feels far from joyful. And just maybe right on the other side of this is gloriousness. Individually, together we can ‘hold court’, so to speak, and step out of the human binds and scars and into the highest forms, ways and desires of ourselves.

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May we trust the process, breathe deeply as much as it takes, feel it anyway and keep our hearts and minds open to the love and wholeness that we can feel underneath, or is it above, all of these feelings of unease and hardship. To me it is a constant murmur that invites me to tap into as I breathe, feel and open to the trust of completely being me. A begging. A longing.

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Hugs. I surround you with love and light from my soul to yours. May we all do this for each other just now... if it feels right to you.

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Pain, pain, pain, pain, pain.... pain go away. We want to ‘play’. Perhaps, sometimes, just maybe, we can consider and think of pain as a sensation; just a sensation. And, perhaps just maybe, the pain will agree to lessen and allow us better moments and experiences. I'm all for this to happen. Ha. Hugs. Thank You.

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May you offer up the truth of You in all your moments and experiences; as best you can, as often as you can.

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Your truth is the answer that will allow you to soar.

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Between our weaknesses and strengths is where our true self lives best, complete in each moment; just maybe. Thank you. Hugs.

Thursday, April 18, 2019

Detachment

Detach means "to unfasten and separate; disengage" per dictionary.com.

Words like dissociate, separate, sever, free and withdraw represent the meaning of detach.

It feels to me that many of us are being asked to do just this. Detach from things that are hurtful and feel hurtful. Detach from thoughts that do not uplift us and support us. Detach from habits that no longer serve us as they were created to help us through some hardships and/or challenges in the past. Perhaps, some habits were necessary for survival. These habits and ways are no longer needed and, maybe, even hurtful.

As we begin anew and welcome change and believe in and create new paths out of necessity and desire, we must first detach and let go of certain things, thoughts, and possibly people, to open space for what is to come.

These past several days I have witnessed and seen lizards in their natural habitat. Not the little geckos that run all around Florida, but pretty good size lizards.

I looked up 'lizard' in the "Animal Speak Book" by Ted Andrews which talks about spiritual meaning and lessons from animals that roam our Earth.

"One of the most significant characteristics of some lizards and their claim to fame is their ability of the tail to come off. A predator may grab for it, its paw landing upon the tail, only to be surprised as the tail breaks off and the lizard scampers to freedom. The lizard then begins the process of growing another in its place. This detachment is also part of what lizard can teach. They can help us to become more detached in life to survive. Sometimes it is necessary to separate ourselves or part of ourselves from others to be able to do the things we most desire to do. The lizard helps us to awaken that ability for objective detachment so that it can occur with the least amount of difficulty. Lizard can show up to help us break from the past. It may even indicate a need to explore new realms and follow your own impulses before you get swallowed up in what is not beneficial for you."

May you follow your own impulses and detach from what no longer serves you. Surrender as willingly as possible to the truth of your inner knowing. It is time to live our inside out just because it feels right and comes from our own experiences, instinct and guidance letting go of the outside world's experiences and guidance. You are your greatest teacher, healer, and guide and it is from this that your ability to create your best life forward comes.

Tuesday, April 9, 2019

Happening

Life is happening. Right now; right here; life is happening.

This is me living life. This is you living life. Life is living through us. Life is happening.

We have moments of ease. We have moments of dis-ease. We have moments of joy. We have moments of sorrow.

This is life. This is how it is supposed to be or, perhaps, it would not be this way. And, it is. Whatever is going on in your life right now, in this breath, just maybe, is supposed to happen.

We can feel good. We can feel not so good. We can feel awesome. We can feel pretty awful. These are all feelings that we all experience in our lifetime and so much more...

Then there is the undertone; or is it the overtone. Perhaps, both are always present and available.

Whatever we tell ourselves we are feeling, there just may be other possibilities to always choose from.

If we are used to certain feelings - like Newton's Laws of Motion, it is easier to stay the course and there is always an opposite action/reaction to everything.

May you be aware of what you are feeling and consciously ask yourself if this is what you want to feel... If it is, bask in it. If it is not, perhaps, there is another choice within you that will enable more basking.

May you bask more than change; when you can. May you change more than you bask; when the not so lovely feelings show up within you.

You have the power to do this. You are the power that you need to create the life that you desire.

May you live the life you desire; as often and as much as possible.

May you be easy on yourself when what you are feeling will not allow you to enable a better feeling.
It is my hope as you practice this, better feelings will be more forthcoming, easy and available. Some may just call this enlightenment.

In light of all that you can see, feel and experience, may you allow your best and complete self to live this life that is happening in your now.

Sunday, April 7, 2019

Awestruck

It feels as if there is so much awareness [almost being forced] upon me, that in every thing; in all ways, I can feel a hardship, a hesitation. I feel as if a moment to ponder comes up before every step I take and after every thought I make. The flow is not available to me unless this is my new flow. Hmmm.

There is so much that we don’t always see clearly or, perhaps, ever see at all. When I get to see or feel the power of divine presence, I bow my head, open to the awe and offer my gratitude. It is in this power which cannot be stopped, and that is best to be accepted, that I find and connect to all that is me.

May you stop and feel what is divine to you and accept and connect, consciously, to all that is you; from a place of peace, love, truth, trust and empowerment. May you be in awe of you. And so it is... your choice, your life. Let the wonderment and respect live through you and to you.

The power within us and around us just may be way more than any of us could mentally comprehend. Heart, mind and soul connected just may be a great place to start; individually, together.

May the most joyful way of you be realized. Perhaps, when this occurs, it is most easy to live and share from joy. May you be a conduit to letting joy strike.

Wednesday, April 3, 2019

Lightning/Lightening

Life is a journey. Life is an adventure.

It touches us. It challenges us. It greets us.

May you bring your best and true loving self into each situation; as often and as much as possible.

May you trust that everything you need for your lifetime is already inside of you.

Relax into what shows up for you. Know and believe [underneath, above, beside it all] that your loving truth can and will prevail. You have you.

Your survival rate thus far is 100%. Very good odds indeed.

Sending loving, trusting energy out to You. I am always wishing You the best of You.

The adventure I wish for us all is to be open to making our dreams reality; to making them so.

May You let You happen. Love always. Love anyway; love any way possible.

Tap in, allow and have the loving power of You On...

May you connect to your highest/best self and know it, be it, live from it and share it.

Bam!

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!