Holy Smoke Screen

Wow.   I am feeling bombarded by people's feelings, emotions, truth and fear; along with my own stuff.   We are all so alive just now.  Tingly even.  Most of us are overwhelmed and know that we are here but are uncertain (like we once were certain) of where we are headed. 

May you just breathe, allow, embrace and let go.  May you trust yourself and feel what it is that is present in your life and walk through and with your inner truest of truths. 

"When life feels like it is falling apart, it may actually be falling into place."  Unknown

I so believe that this is what is happening in many of our lives just now.

This just may be the most powerful and empowering time in all of history. 

May you trust the process of life and trust yourself that you will know and act exactly as you are supposed to [with your best possible self] when the time comes to do so.

Be in this moment and when nothing else, just breathe.  Stay with yourself.  You are truly awesome and powerful.  May you let yourself empower your life.

Just Be U

5 2 Do's

1.  Love yourself through

2.  Be true to yourself and to others (bring your true self into every situation you encounter)

3.  Be gentle strength

4.  Connect to your inner wisdom which is the truth of what you feel, believe, think and allow from your
     most loving of self; your highest of self; from everything that being 'you' encompasses - embrace this

5.  Know fulfillment by doing the above

It is this simple and this complex.  We are taught, perhaps, at an early age [we may even teach this to our self] that if we respond or share certain things or feelings, hurtful things and/or anger can be thrown back at us. It taught us, perhaps, to hold back, not be vulnerable, hide what is within. 

It is up to us, as adults, to decipher when we are still feeling these feelings and to understand that the anger or hurt that we felt after sharing something true about ourselves was not ours to own.  It was outside of our self.  I know I internalized a lot of that which was not mine to own.

Deciphering what is mine to own and what is not has been one of the greatest gifts I have given to myself.  It has been freeing, allowing, life-changing and I truly believe the chemistry of my body has changed since doing this more and more.

Our life is ours to live.  If we do not, it messes up the dynamic(s) of everything and everyone around us.  Honor our Creator by not messing up the dynamic of what is beautifully possible through Just Being You. 

As I allowed my own gentle strength to stand in and share my truth, the dynamic of my life and all those I have encountered feels empowering.

Great challenge came with this for me.  Empowerment has always come too.

Walk through this challenge of becoming the most real and all-encompassing you and allow the empowerment of our world to begin with you.

Yes, you are this powerful.  Whoop  Whoop.  !

 

 

'What are you talking about Willis'

If this was ever a look!.!.!  

It's like she is saying to me...

Now, what are you talking about Mom?

lol   Hoot

May you bring your true loving self to every situation no matter how silly, crazy or afraid you may be feeling. 

Face Place

I am growing my Facebook (FB)  page "Just 9Be U, LLC" and it is exciting and it is interesting.  My hope in growing it is the same as here but not so much 'behind the scenes' as I am here...  To reach out and promote self love, self-awareness and self-living -- to support others to grow one's self into their best and truest version of their self. 

I started this 9BeU.blogspot blog because something inside of me told me to do so.  I didn't even know what a 'blog' was.  I found it to be a great release; a great 'listener'; and a great learning experience to actually see and 'visit' where I find myself in my life and even with what I am feeling.  It has been a beautiful lifeline for myself.  And, to see people reading my posts and coming back for more helps me to connect to my best and truest version of my self.  It empowers me.  You empower me.  (Thank you.) 

Sometimes, I would write away as the words came through me (this is how I mostly find myself in gurgitation here) and upon reading what I had written, I would learn and understand myself more.  Very interesting indeed.

With Facebook, I am cautious and less open about me; however, I am open to complete inner knowing, complete freedom to openly share with what 'shows up' within myself to post.

I have met wonderful and amazing people.   I have encountered some scary things and very different people from myself.

In fact, I've been having issues with my eyesight some.  It is as if I can see clearly but there is a jumpiness/shading/discomfort in what my eyes are feeling.  I'm wondering today if this is that I don't know how to 'see' a lot of what I am encountering on FB. 

There is a lot of beautiful things in our world.  Sadly, there is a lot of pain and horrendous things yet also.

So, as I am seeing more, I have to learn how to adjust, readjust and adjust some more deeper into myself to process, deal with, send love to and change what is in my power to change so less pain and hardship is alive.

Hurt people hurt people.  Of this I am certain.  When I am not hurting, I cannot hurt anything or any one.  When I am hurting, I am not as openly loving and secure in my own vulnerability.

I'm ready to take this next step.  I am strong enough to explore this 'wholeness of our world'.  I ask for it to come slow and for me to know and be able to experience, 'see' and rally through to the better side of things for all of humankind.

May we all just be touched by exactly what we are able to portray in a brighter, more true and loving way that changes the existence of pain and hardship into love and endless, wonderful possibilities.  May we all meet on the plane of love and endless possibilities as soon as humanly possible.  Let us 'catch up' with our soul spirits that already understand this astral plane.  Amen.

Wishing you Well

I'd like to share my gratitude for you who visit me here and connect to your own heart, mind and soul. 

It is my honor, privilege and sometimes fear to share my true self with you. 

It is my hope that one or more post or sentence will resonate within you and you connect to and feel your most empowered self as often as possible.

YOU can make it so! 

Thanks to the people here from the countries listed below:

Russia   United States   Germany   Uganda   India   Australia   Egypt   France   Ukraine     Together, coming from our own individual power of respect, we will make a loving difference.   May you be open to your greatest love that is inside of you creating our greatest positive change together.

Sit

I sit down here to the computer and I feel irritable, uncertain, frustrated and I have an overabundance of energy.

Wow...  Never thought I'd be saying these words for real!  lol   Truth

I do have energy and I do not know what to do with it.  It is foreign and, in truth, a bit uncomfortable.  However, my head, heart and being tells me this is really 'rockin'!  This is exactly where I am supposed to be. 

I've had two big 'sessions' with professionals.  One where I put little Lisa on my lap and experienced her as a child when she first started shutting down, being afraid and, also, when she [I] first decided not to share my true self outside of myself. I then took her with me back to this experience in my mind as the adult (awesome adult may I add!?!?! (Ha)) that I am now and held her, protected her and gave her the safety that she wasn't feeling (back then) to be her true self in order for her to reboot all my cells, my brain, my way of thinking, my way of feeling and my way of experiencing life.   HUGE.   May I just restate.... HUGE!!!!

The second was with my husband on how to better understand each other's thinking processes....  (not my agenda and we all know 'Men are from Mars'!..).  I heard him speak things; feelings, emotions, challenges, and his truth in a different way.  My hat is off to him for giving it all that he has and, man, I was not ready for it!  Yikes. 

So, I process through, sit in, and feel all this new information and proceed, as lovingly as possible, forward.

May you process through, sit in, and feel any and all new information (as much as possible) as you proceed forward; with as much love as you can connect to.

The Universe is giving us (most of us, if not all) our own individual 'downloads' just now and, I believe, the best thing we can do is listen, hear and respond to our own true self.  "Just Be U" and sit, walk through and on & fly whenever, wherever possible.

The 'answer(s)' are not out there.  They are within each of us individually and, ultimately, as a collective whole. 

We are all intertwined whether we feel it, act like it or know it.  It is so.  My belief.

My wish is for you is to lovingly be open to and share what is you from the deepest part of self, connection and with the greatest of compassion.

Frustration, Agility, Fragility

I have been walking around frustrated and not real agile and a little bit fragile. 

While I have been a stay-at-home mom now for 20 years and my goal is to become a professional life fitness coach, I find myself in between these two real and extremely possible situations.  However, this in-between is not the most comfortable of places.

I'm not doing what I was; the same need is no longer present.   I'm not doing what I want to do; I am building up my confidence, gathering my accolades and creating a paying client base as it is currently at zero (0).

So as I was driving in the car today, I felt like I wanted to jump out of my skin and do something different, something meaningful, something productive.  So I screamed!  I screamed from my throat.  I screamed from my belly.  I screamed in soprano.   I screamed in alto.  I screamed in staccato and I just screamed like a crazy lady!  and it felt so good!   Oh my.

My goal was to move my energy around.  My goal was to get in touch with the energy that wants its freedom and the energy that is stifled and the energy that wants to move on.  At this moment, all I could feel was to scream. 

The big picture of our life is more clear, understandable and not too scary.  The small (in the moment) place that we usually find ourselves in is not clear, indecipherable at times and uncomfortable/scary a lot of the time.

And, it is in these in between places of torment, indecision, and insecurity that we can create the most magical future self.

It is these feelings that propel us to do different, create anew and move forward or along.  It is our discomfort that makes us want to find comfort.

May you find comfort through your discomfort.  The only way to it is through it.  May you allow yourself to be, feel, know and be what you are today.  May you allow yourself to lovingly and gently go through to the next and new evolved YOU.

Miracle Energy

I slept in this morning.  Man, did I sleep in.  I got out of bed at 11 a.m.!   Wow.   I was so relaxed and the dogs didn't bother me to get up and it was quiet and a perfect sleep-in setting.  I'm open to letting this feel only good to me; be only positive.  No guilt.  No should have, could have, would haves.   There is much peace in this.  I let my body and mind do what it wanted to do from the silence and the inner knowing that is me.  It surely felt healing to me.  What a glorious gift I gave to myself. 

With what I read about today, March 20, with the cosmic energy being so alive, I gave myself permission to feel it, connect to it and 'play' with it.  This was what I needed or I wouldn't have been able to sleep is what I hear myself saying to myself...

Let the 'energy' inside of you guide you. May it be a 'no fight' zone.

May you allow yourself to live the miracle of you.

                                                              (Unknown)

Cosmic Energy

With the full moon, the new moon, the eclipse and the equinox all falling on the same day - March 20, 2015 - there is much energy letting go, holding on, creating anew, lining up, shutting down, opening up  and changing.  All in one day. 

While this 'theme' is always happening, it is especially strong tomorrow as there is scientific data confirming it.

It is my hope that we let go of what no longer serves us.  Let us create what really 'floats our boat' and may we fall into alignment with what is within ourself and share it without and with each other.

May we just be open to this happening.  Perhaps, this is the only thing we need to do.  Ask for help, give permission and allow your best self to step forward into your full life.

Man, this would be a really good day!

I totally wish you a really good day.

May you connect with and respond to what propels you to be 'off the chain' connected.  May you emerge from what you feel to be true for you.  May you follow this path with the greatest of ease. 

Fulfillment

I have learned that fulfillment has a new meaning to me.  It means to be able to bring my truest of self into each situation and live out from there.  And, within this empowering way of life, I know I walk my best path forward and everything is okay... not everything will be okay...  Everything is okay because I walk in my truth which is my life; my lessons; my purpose to be alive. 

 

It is not even close to being about just 'me' and 'my'.  Without 'you', it wouldn't be so affective, effective or riveting.  It is about what I share, offer, communicate and bring to our world.  It is about what you share, offer, communicate and bring to our world.  This is where we all come in as together, living and breathing wholeness. 

 

May we all support each other to be and live our truest of selves and let our paths create the true fulfillment most of us are searching for.

 

May you allow yourself fulfillment (whatever it means to you).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Appreciate

I appreciate you 'visiting' me here and being open to what is inside of you to change, love, evolve and share. 

I appreciate your open heart and your open mind.

I appreciate knowing that I have connected to you.   My wish is that I am here for you in a way that is like wind beneath your wings to be all that you can be.   To allow you to live your fullest life possible; lovingly and kindly, within yourself and connection to others.

I appreciate you.

When we change and evolve into our best selves, we change and open up new doors for our world to evolve, grow and become its best.  I feel this with all of my being. 

Thank you again for the honor of your presence and it is my wish that honor is what will become the norm between each of us.

Namaste'

                                                              Unknown

Speak Just 9Be U

Fill in the blank with your name if you are so inclined.

        Speak ____________.

This is my wish for you.   Speak your truth.  Speak what you feel within.  Speak what you want to say.  Speak what comes up for you in any given situation. 
Just speak you!

If you find yourself not knowing what to say or feeling confused or finding yourself being quiet and you don't really want to be...

Speak ____________.

Only you can speak you.

When we speak who and what we are [and what we think and feel], we are being honest, loving and walking our best and truest path.

May you just speak you.

Note:  This is, at times, my biggest challenge and my greatest gift.

                                                       Unknown

This saying "Speak (your name)" was given to me by a most brilliant, loving, awesome woman and friend. 

John of God

"John of God or João de Deus, is arguably the most powerful unconscious medium alive today and possibly the best-known healer of the past 2000 years. However, João is a humble man who is very clear about one thing: “I do not cure anybody. God heals..."  It is estimated that he has touched over 15 million people either directly or indirectly.  (from the website of John of God) 

Below is a picture of a crystal that was blessed by John of God.  My hope is that it touches you in the exact way you wish to be connected, healed, loved; or in whatever way your heart is open and ready to receive/achieve a higher understanding/vibration/connection to who you are and everything that is.

 

Wash

I watched myself emptying the dishwasher out yesterday and being very mad that I was doing it.  I didn't want to.  I didn't want to be close to it.  Yes, it is not the easiest with my fingers and yet, it had nothing to do with that.

I realized that I want more.  I'm ready for more.  (I've been saying this too long of a time now.)  I realized that this anger that arose is what will propel me to change.  This anger, as I pay attention to it, is what will get me away from 'just' doing the dishes and doing more of what is inside of me to do. 

I'm hearing it loud and clear in my frustration and anger that I want a better connection with people in our world and I want to be amongst you, enjoy you, and be completely who I am.

I AM READY.

So, as I walk forward with I AM READY and PLEASE GOD SHOW ME MY BEST WAY THROUGH YOU TO THIS, I am on high alert to see the direction and be the direction that my life takes.

May you listen, hear and feel your emotions and may they lead you home to you.

Perhaps, it is time for you too.

If you are already there, bask in it and 'know you've done good'!

May you consciously participate in your life either way.  Let it be a 'wash'. 

                                                           Unknown

Speak/H(e)ard/Truth

"If your voice is not being heard, you are silent."  From the show 'The Haves and the Have Nots' by Tyler Perry on OWN

I love this.

I've been working consciously on being heard; wanting to be heard; not fearful of being heard; and how best to be heard.  I find with the intent to be heard (or not to be heard) - the intent is, perhaps, what makes it so more than anything else.

What has been coming up for me is that as a child, I made a pact with myself not to be heard because what I took on as truth (but was an untruth) was that to be heard would always upset people I love and create pain and chaos.  I remember making this pact with myself to rather not feel than to feel and know pain.  I decided then to shut down who I was and just go with what presented itself to me.  This seemed to make my life simpler and less chaotic at the time.  An act of survival, if you will.

As a child, I did not know that by doing this, I was being more unfair and hurtful to myself and to others.  To not speak our truth and say what we know and feel can be complacent and dishonorable. 

Especially as an adult, it is our responsibility to share our truth because in not doing so, this is what creates chaos, lies, untruths and festering of what is - as our feelings do not get lived out and played through.  And, then, when I wonder why I'm not getting what I want and why people are not understanding me and/or knowing the real me, I blame it on others.  When, if I do not share the real me, they have no way of knowing the real me. 

So,

"IF YOUR VOICE IS NOT BEING HEARD, YOU ARE SILENT."   So, even if I am talking and I'm not being heard, the silence of same overrides my voice.

I want to be heard in everything, everywhere, in anything and whatever I do and feel.  I'm open to owning who and what I am and walking in my truth and walking the talk and let go of the battle within me.  The battle that I can easily see two sides of the same situation.  However, in these two sides, which one feels most true to me.  This is what I want to know.  This is what I want to share.  This is what I will own.  I am more ready than I ever have been.

Yes, I'm scared.  Yes, this is somewhat new to me.  Yes, I'm not sure how it is going to go.  Yet, I didn't do all this work, learn all these lessons, gather all this wisdom, take all these classes, write all these posts, feel all these things to not be completely me. 

There is no one but you that can be completely you.

May you buy it, own it, live it, share it, speak it and instead of silence (even when you are talking), let YOU be heard.  Let what leads you and what feels most real and best for you be known.

It is time.  What you feel and know; think and want matters.  It propels our whole world forward as you walk forward in all of the glory that is you.

May the truth of you be heard.  What matters most is your own acceptance, comprehension and ownership of your truth.  What matters most is you hearing your truth and living from it. 

May you 'hear' who you are so you can be who you are. 

 Unknown                       

Company

My company, for now, has left.  My nephew(s) were here and we had a lot of laughter and a lot of fun.  Their support means everything to me and their crazy youthfulness is a real joy to be around!  How energetic and all-encompassing they can be.

It is nice to spend company with company.   I also like to spend time with my own company as this rejuvenates me in a different way than it does when I spend company with the company of others.
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I spent time with the company of my new doctor today.  I was fearful of my appointment with him as I knew I had to share my truth and question where he was coming from and offer him to please meet me where I am in my healing process and not start from the beginning as if I've never been to a doctor.

I whined some (or so it sounded and felt so to me).  I offered factual information which was a good way for the doctor to be able to hear me as many of them deal with facts [rightly so].  I condensed my story of having my first ulcer on my finger at 17 and, now at 54, I am still dealing with them; although they are healing faster and they go less deep.  I was heard.  I allowed myself to be heard.  He was very willing to hear me as it is what conscious energy I brought with me to the appointment.

My goal was accomplished.  There are still no real, tried and true answers.  But, I was heard.  I am owning who/what/where I am and with this ownership of same, I take full responsibility of my life and my reactions to my life and to others.

How can I expect to be helped and heard if I don't speak my truth and own and share what I need/want and feel.   How can I not tell someone how I feel and expect them to know.  It is unfair to myself.   It is certainly unfair to them, especially when I then blame them for not responding to my needs.  If they do not know my needs, how is it fair that I am mad or hurt by them that they cannot/do not fulfill my needs. This is 'messed up' thinking, reaction, expectation and communication on my part. 

It is good thinking and good communication when I strongly state my truth from a loving and truthful place within myself.  From here, I am standing and owning ME and from here, I am giving others the opportunity to really hear, respond and react in their own truth and with their own knowledge.  How glorious and wholly this can work...  How rewarding it can be for the parties that are willing to go 'here'.  The consensus was that the doctor and I both have the goal of helping me to know better health and less pain.  This was, in fact, stated by him.  He thanked me for sharing my truth with him and said that truth is the best way to go.  I truly felt an energy change in the room where, I believe, we both benefited from this open and truthful conversation as we went from only his intent to my own as well. 

May you know, own, share, and speak your needs in the company of others.  True communication and company imbibing on.

Just Imagine

"I dream of a world where we can walk round the supermarket without feeling like we're living in a backwards world of processed junk, where communities grow their own food & it doesn't cost a fortune because it comes from the earth.

Where people genuinely care for each other & take time to listen, where schools teach you to listen to your soul & reach for your dreams & to be an individual.

Where we can talk freely about our fears & anxieties without fear of rejection. Where people don't care about the latest trends, money, cars..in order to feel 'worthy' or to fit in.

Where there is no division, a world government who pulls together to provide for every single person on this planet so that not one of our earth family goes hungry or thirsty ever again.

Where cruelty to animals, children & the elderly is eradicated because we just do NOT tolerate that.

Where children are taught to meditate & that kindness to others & the SELF is of upmost importance.

Where women (and men) simply do not put up with relationship abuse because they instinctively know that they are worthy & can walk away with a heart full of self love that will see them through.

Where bullying in schools is wiped out by teaching yoga, meditation & compassion from a young age.

Where children can keep their innocence whilst still knowing that no one should touch them in intimate places because that is their right.

Where we all realise that every single one of us has a right to be here & that every single one of us is a miracle on a journey of self growth & that mistakes are in fact life lessons & to look forward instead of back.

That love for ourselves & others is THE most important thing."    Jolene O'Brien


This makes me feel so warm and glowing; wonderful.  It is what is inside of me.  I believe. 

May you imagine, connect to and grow what you feel from deep within to create what makes you feel warm and fuzzy! 

May we all connect to the one source from which we are and create 'warm and fuzzy' from here; individually, together.  My greatest wish.

 

Here

Here I am.  Here my body is.  Here my aliveness is.  Here. 

Our bodies take up space and continually want homeostasis and it is good to be aware of the space we take up and the balance or imbalance we feel. 

My body can be here and my mind can be so many other places.  I can be on the coast of California, hiking the dormant volcanoes in Hawaii or spending time with my loving, deceased people that I have loved in this lifetime.  If I can imagine it to be true, I can experience it.

Perhaps, this is visualization, a form of meditation, a way to escape where my body is or what it feels from time to time (just to get rejuvenated).  Perhaps, it just is so.

If you'd like to imagine a place and put yourself in this place feeling what you want to feel, doing what you want to do, experiencing what you want to experience... do you know where you would want to go; do you know what you would want to do....

While your body is 'here', may you allow your imagination to take you 'there'.   May you give yourself a mini vacation; even if it is just all in your mind...

Travel well....

Hoot!

Message

I just keep getting the same 'message' loud and clear to just let it (life/everything) be what it is.  To process it from the core of who and what I am.  To accept it all and place and process myself right in and through it.

This is peace within for me and where I will grow the greatest and do God's will.

So, my message for you for today is the same.

May you allow the life that is around you and within you to just be.  Allow it all to flow through you from the deepest truth that you can tap into and grow yourself and your life from this most unique place that is you(rs). 

Namaste'... The depth and beauty within me honors the depth and beauty within you.  Within this place, we are all connected.

Sister has Left the Building...

I just dropped my beautiful sister and her precious friend off at the airport with my daughter.  I am so grateful that they were here.  I am sad that they are leaving.   I'm so happy they will be back with their daughters(!) in May for Mother's Day.   I'm looking so forward to their next visit.

While they were here, I did take one hour to go and have a "John of God" session with crystals and candles at the Jamar Enlightenment Center here close to my home.

I've read and saw shows regarding John of God and his healing and I always had a curiosity about him and his work. 

We had a half hour session of moving energy around and discussing being open to healing.  Then there was a half hour session lying on a table with chakra lights and colors caressing my body.  I purchased a crystal that was blessed by John of God; two actually. 

I walked away believing that I can and will be healed.  Perhaps, I am already; I only have to own it.  I also walked away knowing that it is, perhaps, me in the way of my own healing.  (Note:  I am not saying this is true for any one but myself.  I trust you to know what is best and true for you.)

The only way through (what and how things are) is by continuing to create and to walk forward; to just do what is inside of me to do, by following my heart.  Perhaps, the bigger my fear, the more of the healing and reward that I can tap into.  As I walk through any fear that shows up for me, I change, challenge and, perhaps, heal my life.  I tap into and get closer to being and doing what I know I was born to do and which is now my calling to do professionally. 

HELP PEOPLE OUT LOUD AND IN PERSON...

Doing it is the best answer.   I am still stuck somewhat on the how to.   I'm stuck in the fear of my own inability; my own physical ineptness.  I'm stuck in the fear of failure.  I'm stuck in the fear of not having enough physical energy.  I'm stuck in the fear of not feeling good as so I wouldn't be able to carry on or through what I commit to.  I know that I know 'things' of great value.  I know that I can be helpful.   I know that I care greatly.  I have learned much when it comes to the human spirit and it's ability to ignite our true human body, mind and life to live from our soul out.  I know how to connect to the inner depth of myself and others and to connect as one.  In fact, I'm less afraid of the spirit and soul connection than I am of the human process that we all find ourselves involved in.

So, as my wish is to guide myself and others outside of our own 'building' (body); to let the building encapsulate us - yet, to prosper and grow our best of self during this thing called life/living - I am reminded that we must leave the building that we have built around our selves for protection and comfort and fly into some discomfort to get to all that we are; individually, together.

May you work from your soul to create the life that is happiest, best and most fulfilling while we are here ALIVE on this Earth.  Work from the inner you out to know fulfillment, love of self and others, and completeness in the here and now.  I believe it is always available to us.  We only need to tap in and know that we are worthy, allowed, entitled and born with everything we need to be our most loving, fulfilled self.  May we get in touch with it, get on with it and be it...

What is it that you know you are supposed to do next...  May it be your time to do it.

                                                    (Unknown)

Live your life from your soul by being, bringing and living your truth from the inside out.