May you be your best friend.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Enemy/Friend
"We are our worst enemies.. Be your best friend." Debbie Hershey McMahon
May you be your best friend.
May you be your best friend.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Packing
I'm packing the tarot cards and I decided to pick one and another fell out of the pile. So, I went with it. It's what works best for me....going with it. Ha.
These are the cards:
The Empress (the one I picked)
"Tarot wisdom: The Empress signifies the potential to attract great abundance and the bounties of life. She is grounded in the earth, and guided by her heart, which helps us to keep our correct centre as we probe the spiritual planes. However, we cannot take this abundance for granted. The alchemical womb must be watched and tended, lest it abort and we be forced to start anew."
Queen of Coins
"This card is the personification of health, wealth and wellbeing - a very fortunate state. It can represent our past or present condition, or a goal for the future, depending on its position in the reading."
From the book "The Alchemical Tarot" by Rosemary Ellen Guiley and Robert M. Place
May you attract abundance as you are grounded in the earth and guided by your heart.
These are the cards:
The Empress (the one I picked)
"Tarot wisdom: The Empress signifies the potential to attract great abundance and the bounties of life. She is grounded in the earth, and guided by her heart, which helps us to keep our correct centre as we probe the spiritual planes. However, we cannot take this abundance for granted. The alchemical womb must be watched and tended, lest it abort and we be forced to start anew."
Queen of Coins
"This card is the personification of health, wealth and wellbeing - a very fortunate state. It can represent our past or present condition, or a goal for the future, depending on its position in the reading."
From the book "The Alchemical Tarot" by Rosemary Ellen Guiley and Robert M. Place
May you attract abundance as you are grounded in the earth and guided by your heart.
Pearls of Wisdom
A brilliant and lovely friend gave me this story and I'd like to share it with you.
"An oyster is soft, tender, and vulnerable. Without the sanctuary of its shell it could not survive. But oysters must open their shells in order to "breathe" water. Sometimes while an oyster is breathing, a grain of sand will enter its shell and become a part of its life from then on. Such grains of sand cause pain, but an oyster does not alter its soft nature because of this. It does not become hard and leathery in order not to feel. It continues to entrust itself to the ocean, to open and breathe in order to live. But it does respond. Slowly and patiently, the oyster wraps the grain of sand in thin translucent layers until, over time, it has created something of great value in the place where it was most vulnerable to its pain. A pearl might be thought of as an oyster's response to its suffering. Not every oyster can do this. Oysters that do are far more valuable to people than oysters that do not.
Sand is a way of life for an oyster. If you are soft and tender and must live on the sandy floor of the ocean, making pearls becomes a necessity if you are to live well.
Disappointment and loss are a part of every life. Many times we an put such things behind us and get on with the rest of our lives. But not everything is amenable to this approach. Some things are too big or too deep to do this and we will have to leave important parts of ourselves behind if we treat them in this way. These are the places where wisdom begins to grow in us. It begins with suffering that we do not avoid or rationalize or put behind us. It starts with the realization that our loss, whatever it is, has become a part of us and has altered our lives so profoundly that we cannot go back to the way it was before.
Something in us can transform suffering into wisdom. The process of turning pain into wisdom often looks like a sorting process. First we experience everything. Then one by one we let things go, the anger, the blame, the sense of injustice, and finally even the pain itself, until all we have left is a deeper sense of the value of life and a greater capacity to live it."
From the book "My Grandfather's Blessings" by Rachael Naomi Remen
May you connect to and trust the wisdom of your pain and breathe it out into our world, lovingly.
"An oyster is soft, tender, and vulnerable. Without the sanctuary of its shell it could not survive. But oysters must open their shells in order to "breathe" water. Sometimes while an oyster is breathing, a grain of sand will enter its shell and become a part of its life from then on. Such grains of sand cause pain, but an oyster does not alter its soft nature because of this. It does not become hard and leathery in order not to feel. It continues to entrust itself to the ocean, to open and breathe in order to live. But it does respond. Slowly and patiently, the oyster wraps the grain of sand in thin translucent layers until, over time, it has created something of great value in the place where it was most vulnerable to its pain. A pearl might be thought of as an oyster's response to its suffering. Not every oyster can do this. Oysters that do are far more valuable to people than oysters that do not.
Sand is a way of life for an oyster. If you are soft and tender and must live on the sandy floor of the ocean, making pearls becomes a necessity if you are to live well.
Disappointment and loss are a part of every life. Many times we an put such things behind us and get on with the rest of our lives. But not everything is amenable to this approach. Some things are too big or too deep to do this and we will have to leave important parts of ourselves behind if we treat them in this way. These are the places where wisdom begins to grow in us. It begins with suffering that we do not avoid or rationalize or put behind us. It starts with the realization that our loss, whatever it is, has become a part of us and has altered our lives so profoundly that we cannot go back to the way it was before.
Something in us can transform suffering into wisdom. The process of turning pain into wisdom often looks like a sorting process. First we experience everything. Then one by one we let things go, the anger, the blame, the sense of injustice, and finally even the pain itself, until all we have left is a deeper sense of the value of life and a greater capacity to live it."
From the book "My Grandfather's Blessings" by Rachael Naomi Remen
May you connect to and trust the wisdom of your pain and breathe it out into our world, lovingly.
Monday, May 27, 2013
Movin On
One more full day here in Florida, USA and then I'm northward bound to Pennsylvania. A lot awaits me there.
I'm so grateful that I get to spend just a bit more time in this beautiful home that has my heart and soul all over it and throughout it. I have been truly blessed to experience building something from scratch that makes me happy in every nook and cranny of it; for the most part.
We are going to take our time driving up and enjoy each other and the adventure.
So, as I get ready to leave this part of me behind for now... I am open to embrace what's coming into my future. Anything is possible. Everything is unsettled.
Many emotions are flowing through me and I'm living in my power one minute, scared and anxious the next. I'm mostly accepting how I feel and not always.
I mostly fight when fear, sadness and anxiety sets in. I realize these emotions setting in and change it as quickly as I can to feel the emotion that best works in each moment. My brain helps me to do so.
I am no where brilliant at this and I'm better than I was yesterday.
May you know when you are emoting what feels good on you and what does not. May you change to an emotion that still works in each situation that feels best on you. Go below anger, fear and anxiety, if possible. May you know to use your thought changing process to keep your 'light' on bright.
I'm so grateful that I get to spend just a bit more time in this beautiful home that has my heart and soul all over it and throughout it. I have been truly blessed to experience building something from scratch that makes me happy in every nook and cranny of it; for the most part.
We are going to take our time driving up and enjoy each other and the adventure.
So, as I get ready to leave this part of me behind for now... I am open to embrace what's coming into my future. Anything is possible. Everything is unsettled.
Many emotions are flowing through me and I'm living in my power one minute, scared and anxious the next. I'm mostly accepting how I feel and not always.
I mostly fight when fear, sadness and anxiety sets in. I realize these emotions setting in and change it as quickly as I can to feel the emotion that best works in each moment. My brain helps me to do so.
I am no where brilliant at this and I'm better than I was yesterday.
May you know when you are emoting what feels good on you and what does not. May you change to an emotion that still works in each situation that feels best on you. Go below anger, fear and anxiety, if possible. May you know to use your thought changing process to keep your 'light' on bright.
Getting Ready
I'm getting ready to head back up north this week and we will be driving 1200 miles with the two little dogs. We are closing up down here and I am anticipating open land and a larger home.
I am open to what is. I do not want to revert to old habits. I want to create new habits as I maneuver around the truth of what is with our house for sale and 'staged' by the realtors. Realtors whose goal is one thing - sell my home for the most they can get. I am open to having perfect people buy it that will love and enjoy it as much as I have.
Change is upon me. I can't wait to see how I will act and I hope to participate and act easily and lovingly.
Today is a holiday here and I hope all are thoughtful of our soldiers, past and present; deceased and alive.
I hope many people are having fun with friends and family being kind, loving and open from their souls.
When we are all open from our souls and connected consciously, perhaps, there will be no need to commemorate any new fallen soldiers in the name of our country and its freedom; or anywhere.
Perhaps, we can achieve this in a less devastating way than this....
May you allow your soul to be open to give and receive light, kindness and understanding.
I just sent this picture to a wonderful friend as we were talking about one being challenged....
It is about challenging ideas/thoughts to get to our truth.
"The Alchemical Tarot" by Rosemary Ellen Guiley and Robert M. Place
I am open to what is. I do not want to revert to old habits. I want to create new habits as I maneuver around the truth of what is with our house for sale and 'staged' by the realtors. Realtors whose goal is one thing - sell my home for the most they can get. I am open to having perfect people buy it that will love and enjoy it as much as I have.
Change is upon me. I can't wait to see how I will act and I hope to participate and act easily and lovingly.
Today is a holiday here and I hope all are thoughtful of our soldiers, past and present; deceased and alive.
I hope many people are having fun with friends and family being kind, loving and open from their souls.
When we are all open from our souls and connected consciously, perhaps, there will be no need to commemorate any new fallen soldiers in the name of our country and its freedom; or anywhere.
Perhaps, we can achieve this in a less devastating way than this....
May you allow your soul to be open to give and receive light, kindness and understanding.
It is about challenging ideas/thoughts to get to our truth.
"The Alchemical Tarot" by Rosemary Ellen Guiley and Robert M. Place
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Mmmm
"One of the most exciting aspects about being on Earth right now is that there is a reordering or a retooling taking place in your DNA. Cosmic rays are coming on...to the planet so that a change is being broadcast and a reordering is taking place inside the body. The scattered data that holds the history and awareness of the Living Library is now lining up.
The DNA is evolving. New helixes or strands are being formed as the light-encoded filaments are beginning to bundle themselves together. The scattered data is being pulled together in your body by electromagnetic energies from Prime Creator. We are here to watch this process in you, to assist you, and to evolve ourselves as well.
As this rebuilding or reordering comes together, you will create a more evolved nervous system that will allow much more data to move itself into your consciousness. You will awaken many brain cells that have been lying dormant, and you will come into use of your full physical body rather than the small percentage that you have been functioning with.
Every place on the planet is being affected by this change, this awareness. Those of you who are the Guardians of Light and who wish to completely change this present reality and bring different options in are anchoring the frequency. If it is not anchored and understood, it can create chaos. It will create chaos. This is why you must ground yourselves.
Chaos brings about a state of reorganization when utilized properly. Time is collapsing, and the energy is becoming larger and larger. You have come here to use that energy first. You will make pathways of consciousness as you pull the energy into your body that will assist others so that they may not have to go through what you go through.
Many people will suddenly begin to feel this energy without any preparation at all. You are all pulling light, which is data and information, onto the planet, and as you do this you create new pathways for consciousness to explore without even saving a word.
The new pathways of consciousness create new realities, new options, and new ways of living and being. That is why the collapse of your society is inevitable: It does not hold light; it does not hold the multidimensional possibilities; it holds you in limitation, and you are tired of that."
by Barbara Marciniak
Earth. We are one.
The Natural Way
Spirit Science and Metaphysics
The DNA is evolving. New helixes or strands are being formed as the light-encoded filaments are beginning to bundle themselves together. The scattered data is being pulled together in your body by electromagnetic energies from Prime Creator. We are here to watch this process in you, to assist you, and to evolve ourselves as well.
As this rebuilding or reordering comes together, you will create a more evolved nervous system that will allow much more data to move itself into your consciousness. You will awaken many brain cells that have been lying dormant, and you will come into use of your full physical body rather than the small percentage that you have been functioning with.
Every place on the planet is being affected by this change, this awareness. Those of you who are the Guardians of Light and who wish to completely change this present reality and bring different options in are anchoring the frequency. If it is not anchored and understood, it can create chaos. It will create chaos. This is why you must ground yourselves.
Chaos brings about a state of reorganization when utilized properly. Time is collapsing, and the energy is becoming larger and larger. You have come here to use that energy first. You will make pathways of consciousness as you pull the energy into your body that will assist others so that they may not have to go through what you go through.
Many people will suddenly begin to feel this energy without any preparation at all. You are all pulling light, which is data and information, onto the planet, and as you do this you create new pathways for consciousness to explore without even saving a word.
The new pathways of consciousness create new realities, new options, and new ways of living and being. That is why the collapse of your society is inevitable: It does not hold light; it does not hold the multidimensional possibilities; it holds you in limitation, and you are tired of that."
by Barbara Marciniak
Earth. We are one.
The Natural Way
Spirit Science and Metaphysics
May you question what you want, need and can do for YOU.
Picture at the Mercedes Dealership, Mmmm
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Truth
I was speaking yesterday to a dear, beautiful friend and I was saying how sharing my joy feels so different than sharing my pain.
We started thinking that, perhaps, as children, when we showed joy, laughter, and happiness - our parents/caretakers were comfortable and content around us. When we shared pain, tears, distraught - our parents/caretakers did not react, perhaps, as open and comfortable.
This would create a little human being to easily share their pleasure and, perhaps, want to hide their pain. Getting uncomfortable feedback or worse would teach a child to keep it to themselves or have a bit of fear sharing same.
Just a thought.
If this is a learned feeling/behavior, the good news is this can be changed. We can support ourselves to feel it all and be okay and recognize they are all just emotions of being alive. We can choose to just let them be. Allow our feelings to surface; feel them and let them go.
Ah, what a gift to oneself. What a gift to others if we would all stand in our truth and support one another's; no matter what it is as openly and as best as we can.
Feel it, maybe share it, let it go (all lovingly) and create anew and better.
May you support yourself in feeling what your body/mind/spirit so wants you to feel.
My belief is that there is beauty, freedom and light in doing so.
We started thinking that, perhaps, as children, when we showed joy, laughter, and happiness - our parents/caretakers were comfortable and content around us. When we shared pain, tears, distraught - our parents/caretakers did not react, perhaps, as open and comfortable.
This would create a little human being to easily share their pleasure and, perhaps, want to hide their pain. Getting uncomfortable feedback or worse would teach a child to keep it to themselves or have a bit of fear sharing same.
Just a thought.
If this is a learned feeling/behavior, the good news is this can be changed. We can support ourselves to feel it all and be okay and recognize they are all just emotions of being alive. We can choose to just let them be. Allow our feelings to surface; feel them and let them go.
Ah, what a gift to oneself. What a gift to others if we would all stand in our truth and support one another's; no matter what it is as openly and as best as we can.
Feel it, maybe share it, let it go (all lovingly) and create anew and better.
May you support yourself in feeling what your body/mind/spirit so wants you to feel.
My belief is that there is beauty, freedom and light in doing so.
Red, White and Blue
We, in the United States, celebrate Memorial Day this weekend in memory of our soldiers. We thank them for our freedom. Our flag is red, white and blue.
We also celebrate the beginning of summer. Many go to the beaches, the mountains, the barbeque and the water.
I have my red, white and blue going on this week as well it seems. My hands, feet and nose have been very numb. I am pink/red when my circulation is flowing, white at times and purple/blue when the blood is pooling and does not circulate well.
Is this my anticipation going north.... Is this the change in the amount of medicine taken that is putting stress on my body while my body gets used to having less of it..... Does it matter why.....
Interesting way to celebrate the red, white and blue.... ouch Mmmm
I'm okay where I am and I 'flow' in my truth.
May you be aware when something doesn't 'flow' well with you and change things up to create a nicer flow in your life. My wish is for you to "flow" well. ("flow well" is from another dear, beautiful friend!)
We also celebrate the beginning of summer. Many go to the beaches, the mountains, the barbeque and the water.
I have my red, white and blue going on this week as well it seems. My hands, feet and nose have been very numb. I am pink/red when my circulation is flowing, white at times and purple/blue when the blood is pooling and does not circulate well.
Is this my anticipation going north.... Is this the change in the amount of medicine taken that is putting stress on my body while my body gets used to having less of it..... Does it matter why.....
Interesting way to celebrate the red, white and blue.... ouch Mmmm
I'm okay where I am and I 'flow' in my truth.
May you be aware when something doesn't 'flow' well with you and change things up to create a nicer flow in your life. My wish is for you to "flow" well. ("flow well" is from another dear, beautiful friend!)
Friday, May 24, 2013
Posts
This writing has helped me so greatly. Sometimes I would write 2, 3 or 4 posts saying the same thing with different words, and even the same words; and not 'hear' (know) them until writing them a couple of times.
It is amazing how my (the) human brain can dislodge, disassociate, ignore much of what is habit and allow me to run on auto-pilot. I did the same thing over and over and over again wanting to do it different. (I still do I'm sure.)
When asked, "Are you ready to change, will you do anything at all to do/get better?" My answer was always "Yes". And, little did I know my deepest part of my human was so ingrained that it was laughing at me in a loving way. Basically, it was saying "I have to be taught this." "I need you to teach me this or I never will learn." And, my unconscious 'brain' was certainly not always loving to myself over and over and over again.
For me, it really had to be a CONSCIOUS awareness: thought awareness, emotional awareness, body awareness, language awareness, response awareness; energy awareness and I'm sure even more.
However, through this GREAT awareness of self; change can and does happen if we choose it. Evolving from what we knew and how we were raised and the beliefs we owned as our own TO being here now and knowing what I know to feeling what I feel, saying what I say, emoting what I emote AND trusting that all of this is 'okay', 'enough', and 'born to be'; speaking and sharing all of this.... is the only way I have found to change the dynamics of what I don't want to want I do want to live my days as.
Now, I'm experiencing this 'settling in' of myself that I chose to create and following my inner knowing (spiritually) to live the greatest of self possible to me at this moment.
So, settling in I do. Ha. This is a very unsettling process for me. And, I won't back down now.
My head actually feels waves of energy surfing the inside of my brain and scalp as to relocate, associate, and pay attention to what is now.
I allow and embrace where I'm at. I trust where I'm going. I'm excited to continue on.
Journey on. We are making this journey, may as well participate!
May you journey on with your whole self AWARE of yourself. Be you with your 'aware' button turned on high as possible and without pressure or judgment. Just live and notice how you live if you choose.
Watch yourself living.
Ha! This is an active SWAT team I saw on the road.
Picture was taken in my side rearview mirror yesterday.
The picture is perfect for this post. It feels like a whole SWAT team
is needed to make many self changes! lol How apropos!
It is amazing how my (the) human brain can dislodge, disassociate, ignore much of what is habit and allow me to run on auto-pilot. I did the same thing over and over and over again wanting to do it different. (I still do I'm sure.)
When asked, "Are you ready to change, will you do anything at all to do/get better?" My answer was always "Yes". And, little did I know my deepest part of my human was so ingrained that it was laughing at me in a loving way. Basically, it was saying "I have to be taught this." "I need you to teach me this or I never will learn." And, my unconscious 'brain' was certainly not always loving to myself over and over and over again.
For me, it really had to be a CONSCIOUS awareness: thought awareness, emotional awareness, body awareness, language awareness, response awareness; energy awareness and I'm sure even more.
However, through this GREAT awareness of self; change can and does happen if we choose it. Evolving from what we knew and how we were raised and the beliefs we owned as our own TO being here now and knowing what I know to feeling what I feel, saying what I say, emoting what I emote AND trusting that all of this is 'okay', 'enough', and 'born to be'; speaking and sharing all of this.... is the only way I have found to change the dynamics of what I don't want to want I do want to live my days as.
Now, I'm experiencing this 'settling in' of myself that I chose to create and following my inner knowing (spiritually) to live the greatest of self possible to me at this moment.
So, settling in I do. Ha. This is a very unsettling process for me. And, I won't back down now.
My head actually feels waves of energy surfing the inside of my brain and scalp as to relocate, associate, and pay attention to what is now.
I allow and embrace where I'm at. I trust where I'm going. I'm excited to continue on.
Journey on. We are making this journey, may as well participate!
May you journey on with your whole self AWARE of yourself. Be you with your 'aware' button turned on high as possible and without pressure or judgment. Just live and notice how you live if you choose.
Watch yourself living.
Picture was taken in my side rearview mirror yesterday.
The picture is perfect for this post. It feels like a whole SWAT team
is needed to make many self changes! lol How apropos!
Thursday, May 23, 2013
On My Way
I'm on the way to have a massage. I'm hoping to let go and just breathe. I believe there are a lot of answers; much peace and inner knowing connected to our breath.
I'm very tense in my body and I am grateful that I can go to get a massage. How blessed I feel. And, it was hard for me to even make the appointment.
I look forward to the other side of this massage!
Emotions come and go. Tension comes and goes. Happiness comes and goes. However, in each present moment, it is us. We are in each present moment whether we are truly there or not.
May you choose to be present in your life. May you connect to your breath that is your life. May this connection keep you present and 'in the know' that you are okay; you matter; you are the common denominator of everything that is you.
I'm very tense in my body and I am grateful that I can go to get a massage. How blessed I feel. And, it was hard for me to even make the appointment.
I look forward to the other side of this massage!
Emotions come and go. Tension comes and goes. Happiness comes and goes. However, in each present moment, it is us. We are in each present moment whether we are truly there or not.
May you choose to be present in your life. May you connect to your breath that is your life. May this connection keep you present and 'in the know' that you are okay; you matter; you are the common denominator of everything that is you.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Thank and Welcome
I'd like to thank and welcome all the countries that are meeting me here. I'm not sure if it is good or bad thing; however, it is a thing!
Thank you and Welcome to the following countries:
United States, Russia, Germany, Portugal, South Africa, Bosnia and Herzegovina, China, France, United Kingdom, and Malaysia.
May we all just be complete as individuals, together. Honoring ourselves and one another is my hope.
Thank you and Welcome to the following countries:
United States, Russia, Germany, Portugal, South Africa, Bosnia and Herzegovina, China, France, United Kingdom, and Malaysia.
May we all just be complete as individuals, together. Honoring ourselves and one another is my hope.
With Enlightenment
With enlightenment, comes change; growth; some completely new thoughts and, really, a new way of doing some things.
My goal was to find myself; find peace in the chaos and calm in the storm. I believe I have done this to the point where I sit strong in who I am. (Never always; and more than I did.)
I see things differently; I do things differently... I am different. I am still me and yet I can't easily deny myself. This is seeming to create a whole new level of needed awareness to find peace in this new me. Eh gad lol
Going and going was the old me. The new me doesn't go enough; and this is a judgment. What if I'm going as much as I can just now and if I would just embrace this part of myself that my mind tells me I'm a 'loser' and instead of saying loser - say I'm okay with where I'm at today. I want to be more than this going forward and for today, I'll accept that I am here.
I am realizing that I have been ON this for a very long time. I believe this is one reason why my head may feel like it wants to explode. This NEW information, NEW way, NEW thought process wants time to adjust. Just like when we work our physical bodies, it's good to give the muscles a day off in between strength training so the fiber can repair itself and get stronger. I am realizing that I have not given my brain time off to process, repair and get stronger in where it lies.
I tried to do this today. To disconnect... I did okay. I want to do this more and longer. I need to. So, I will be 'playing' with this and see what happens.
It's interesting that when I sit in front of the computer or on the phone; this is when I feel my head ringing loudly; my eyes going strange. Again, I'm taking this to believe that I need a break (you think?) to allow myself to dig deep within what is. To just be and breathe and to allow this process to adapt, get along and revive myself as this new evolved woman. Woo hoo.
Yes, I am feeling strange and a bit discomfort in this truth. I'm no longer questioning if I'm losing my mind. I'm not really questioning how I feel or think. I am questioning if I'm too much for anyone to understand. I certainly hope not. I certainly hope that me sharing my thoughts and process with others will open up their own evolving door and allow themselves to be all that they are meant to be; without judgement.
One can only hope, wish, dream and live.
May you connect to your evolving door (I crack myself up) and open it and walk through. Mmmm
Enlighten
"to give intellectual or spiritual light to; instruct; impart knowledge to" (dictionary.com)
"No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it." Albert Einstein
My goal was to find myself; find peace in the chaos and calm in the storm. I believe I have done this to the point where I sit strong in who I am. (Never always; and more than I did.)
I see things differently; I do things differently... I am different. I am still me and yet I can't easily deny myself. This is seeming to create a whole new level of needed awareness to find peace in this new me. Eh gad lol
Going and going was the old me. The new me doesn't go enough; and this is a judgment. What if I'm going as much as I can just now and if I would just embrace this part of myself that my mind tells me I'm a 'loser' and instead of saying loser - say I'm okay with where I'm at today. I want to be more than this going forward and for today, I'll accept that I am here.
I am realizing that I have been ON this for a very long time. I believe this is one reason why my head may feel like it wants to explode. This NEW information, NEW way, NEW thought process wants time to adjust. Just like when we work our physical bodies, it's good to give the muscles a day off in between strength training so the fiber can repair itself and get stronger. I am realizing that I have not given my brain time off to process, repair and get stronger in where it lies.
I tried to do this today. To disconnect... I did okay. I want to do this more and longer. I need to. So, I will be 'playing' with this and see what happens.
It's interesting that when I sit in front of the computer or on the phone; this is when I feel my head ringing loudly; my eyes going strange. Again, I'm taking this to believe that I need a break (you think?) to allow myself to dig deep within what is. To just be and breathe and to allow this process to adapt, get along and revive myself as this new evolved woman. Woo hoo.
Yes, I am feeling strange and a bit discomfort in this truth. I'm no longer questioning if I'm losing my mind. I'm not really questioning how I feel or think. I am questioning if I'm too much for anyone to understand. I certainly hope not. I certainly hope that me sharing my thoughts and process with others will open up their own evolving door and allow themselves to be all that they are meant to be; without judgement.
One can only hope, wish, dream and live.
May you connect to your evolving door (I crack myself up) and open it and walk through. Mmmm
Enlighten
"to give intellectual or spiritual light to; instruct; impart knowledge to" (dictionary.com)
"No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it." Albert Einstein
My Act
Yesterday, when I was going out, I heard myself say "I have to go get my act together."
I changed it to.. "I have to go get myself together."
Perhaps, huge play on words that may make a difference. Mmmmm lol
May you always get yourself together to go out.
I'd like to say or JUST GO OUT.... and, I'm not sure that would work if we all just went out without some awareness! Ha.
I changed it to.. "I have to go get myself together."
Perhaps, huge play on words that may make a difference. Mmmmm lol
May you always get yourself together to go out.
I'd like to say or JUST GO OUT.... and, I'm not sure that would work if we all just went out without some awareness! Ha.
Chillin
I am just chillin'. Being with ALL that I am. There is some wonderful, easy parts of myself and there are some tough, don't want to deal with parts and then there is this part that just is. There is nothing I have to do or focus on.... just I AM. And this part works fine without me even being there.... so to speak! Ha.
I'm thinking that we all have these (at least) three parts of self. We all handle and think (or don't think) about each part differently.
However it is for you... perhaps, it's supposed to be like this right now in this moment. And, with a few deep breaths, sink into yourself.... you are okay in this moment.
"Never, ever apologize for who you are." Blake Shelton
May you just Be U. Accept all of U.
I'm thinking that we all have these (at least) three parts of self. We all handle and think (or don't think) about each part differently.
However it is for you... perhaps, it's supposed to be like this right now in this moment. And, with a few deep breaths, sink into yourself.... you are okay in this moment.
"Never, ever apologize for who you are." Blake Shelton
May you just Be U. Accept all of U.
Monday, May 20, 2013
(Open to See Messages) Adventure
I went out this morning for a ride; an adventure. My cranial sacral massage that I had scheduled was cancelled and I had time to spend and I was up and ready to head out; so out I went. I had plans to go to a Florida department store to exchange new dog walking shorts (ha) that I had ordered online through Amazon because they were not the correct fit. The paperwork said that I could exchange them at the store itself. So, off to exchange I went. And; to feel and learn more about what was going on in my body that was bringing me much discomfort. My goal was to connect to something greater than myself for any kind of answer that would possibly be forthcoming and easy to reach.
Two nights ago, I made up a new playlist, in the spur of the moment, labeled 'car drive' and, today, I brought it with me and headed out into a rainy, stormy day.
And, my adventure began...
First song that came on was "I Want a New Drug" by Huey Lewis. I've been questioning the medicine that I am on.
The next song was "Give it to Me Baby" by Rick James. I was laughing singing for the Universe to give me something to help me out! lol "give it to me"
Next, was "She's a Bad Mama Jama" by Carl Carlton and by this time I thought I was a bad mama jama and I was dancing and singing loud because I just had to laugh that these songs came on in this order and I had it on 'shuffle'. Of course, I did put these songs on the playlist. I'm not that 'hooked up'! LOL more.
The next song was (bear with me, I'm not going to tell you all the songs, just these first few because it rocked my world!) "Get Up Offa That Thing" by James Brown which says "try to release that pressure" and pressure was one of the main things I was looking to get rid of!
So, by the time this song was over, I was out loud praising the Lord with my arm reaching up because I felt my entire connection to the Universe! and right in the midst of me doing this... "Double Dutch Bus" by Frankie Smith comes on and says 'give me a ho'.... I'm so cracking up and having fun.
Yes, I am realizing the only thing that really changed was my mindset.
Oh, and not only did the massage people cancel on me, but the people that help me keep my home clean cancelled today also.
So, I get to the store and this particular store did not have the shorts that I wanted to exchange. They suggested the store 20 more minutes north would have them. As I am there getting directions, I look over and there is a card staring at me that says "She Who Never Gives Up". Yes, I purchased it.
So, back in the car I go. Teeming rain and I'm dancing and singing to the music. I also noticed - even after hearing these songs for so long and so many times - the background musical notes played by the instruments were very pronounced and many were new to me. Just another Mmmm. I imagined these notes going through me and connecting to the part of me that they wanted to connect to. I stretched my jaw, jerked my neck and moved with them. (hopefully this is as weird as it gets!)
I find the northern store and as I'm walking towards it, I realize that it is called Bealls and what I see is Be all. I'm cracking myself up! By now this was a longer journey than I expected for just extremely casual and comfortable shorts. It was interesting, I felt good getting further away from home to just get away to something different.
Anyhoo, I did my exchange and I had lunch of a wrap and a smoothie and I drove and danced more but with less vigor. I went to the grocery store and I got home. When I picked my phone up after putting the food away, it was dead. Not, dead as in not charged, but dead as in nothing happening no matter what. May I offer that this was another cancellation on me this same day. Hoot!
My daughter gave me a trick or two to try and it did come back on after about an hour. And, I was happy! I did not want to have to go to get another phone.
So, if there is a moral to this story... I have to say what kept coming up for me was to accept it all. Accept the real fun with the stuff that doesn't feel so fun. It really is all not good and all not bad. Perhaps, its nothing. It is just what it is. Society has showed me things which made me feel that some things were good and some were not. Yet, it's all just a part of life and living. It's all a part of this journey here. If I didn't label it and just lived it... well, how do you think this would feel on you? As certain feelings come up; they are what they are. Crying is no different than laughing. Yes, it feels different and the majority of us do both. It is just the way it is. It's supposed to be this way.
If some days I feel okay and other days, I do not.. It is the way it is supposed to be. Sure, I can try to pick things and say things differently to create different outcomes and yet... It is all a part of this human experience. BE ALL. If I want a new drug, I can do something about it. If I need or want something I can get it or ask for it. If I want to be a bad mama jama, I can be a bad mama jama; or not. If I want to release pressure there are many ways of doing so. If I want to thank the Lord and give him and our universe a shout out, I can shout out. It's all a part of living. Whatever I create, do, feel... I am supposed to create, do and feel.... or I wouldn't do it, yes? It may not be the outcome I want or it may be better than I want. And it all just is.
If I can be me through all that is, I'm doing pretty good.
May you just be you... all of you... as often as possible. Whew!
For those of you that have known me for a long time, I'm thinking you may relate the best because all these songs I loved once upon a time.... and today... they had a whole new meaning for me! How cool I find that! There is, perhaps, a word for this.... foreshadow. LOL
Two nights ago, I made up a new playlist, in the spur of the moment, labeled 'car drive' and, today, I brought it with me and headed out into a rainy, stormy day.
And, my adventure began...
First song that came on was "I Want a New Drug" by Huey Lewis. I've been questioning the medicine that I am on.
The next song was "Give it to Me Baby" by Rick James. I was laughing singing for the Universe to give me something to help me out! lol "give it to me"
Next, was "She's a Bad Mama Jama" by Carl Carlton and by this time I thought I was a bad mama jama and I was dancing and singing loud because I just had to laugh that these songs came on in this order and I had it on 'shuffle'. Of course, I did put these songs on the playlist. I'm not that 'hooked up'! LOL more.
The next song was (bear with me, I'm not going to tell you all the songs, just these first few because it rocked my world!) "Get Up Offa That Thing" by James Brown which says "try to release that pressure" and pressure was one of the main things I was looking to get rid of!
So, by the time this song was over, I was out loud praising the Lord with my arm reaching up because I felt my entire connection to the Universe! and right in the midst of me doing this... "Double Dutch Bus" by Frankie Smith comes on and says 'give me a ho'.... I'm so cracking up and having fun.
Yes, I am realizing the only thing that really changed was my mindset.
Oh, and not only did the massage people cancel on me, but the people that help me keep my home clean cancelled today also.
So, I get to the store and this particular store did not have the shorts that I wanted to exchange. They suggested the store 20 more minutes north would have them. As I am there getting directions, I look over and there is a card staring at me that says "She Who Never Gives Up". Yes, I purchased it.
So, back in the car I go. Teeming rain and I'm dancing and singing to the music. I also noticed - even after hearing these songs for so long and so many times - the background musical notes played by the instruments were very pronounced and many were new to me. Just another Mmmm. I imagined these notes going through me and connecting to the part of me that they wanted to connect to. I stretched my jaw, jerked my neck and moved with them. (hopefully this is as weird as it gets!)
I find the northern store and as I'm walking towards it, I realize that it is called Bealls and what I see is Be all. I'm cracking myself up! By now this was a longer journey than I expected for just extremely casual and comfortable shorts. It was interesting, I felt good getting further away from home to just get away to something different.
Anyhoo, I did my exchange and I had lunch of a wrap and a smoothie and I drove and danced more but with less vigor. I went to the grocery store and I got home. When I picked my phone up after putting the food away, it was dead. Not, dead as in not charged, but dead as in nothing happening no matter what. May I offer that this was another cancellation on me this same day. Hoot!
My daughter gave me a trick or two to try and it did come back on after about an hour. And, I was happy! I did not want to have to go to get another phone.
So, if there is a moral to this story... I have to say what kept coming up for me was to accept it all. Accept the real fun with the stuff that doesn't feel so fun. It really is all not good and all not bad. Perhaps, its nothing. It is just what it is. Society has showed me things which made me feel that some things were good and some were not. Yet, it's all just a part of life and living. It's all a part of this journey here. If I didn't label it and just lived it... well, how do you think this would feel on you? As certain feelings come up; they are what they are. Crying is no different than laughing. Yes, it feels different and the majority of us do both. It is just the way it is. It's supposed to be this way.
If some days I feel okay and other days, I do not.. It is the way it is supposed to be. Sure, I can try to pick things and say things differently to create different outcomes and yet... It is all a part of this human experience. BE ALL. If I want a new drug, I can do something about it. If I need or want something I can get it or ask for it. If I want to be a bad mama jama, I can be a bad mama jama; or not. If I want to release pressure there are many ways of doing so. If I want to thank the Lord and give him and our universe a shout out, I can shout out. It's all a part of living. Whatever I create, do, feel... I am supposed to create, do and feel.... or I wouldn't do it, yes? It may not be the outcome I want or it may be better than I want. And it all just is.
If I can be me through all that is, I'm doing pretty good.
May you just be you... all of you... as often as possible. Whew!
For those of you that have known me for a long time, I'm thinking you may relate the best because all these songs I loved once upon a time.... and today... they had a whole new meaning for me! How cool I find that! There is, perhaps, a word for this.... foreshadow. LOL
LOL
LOL, It just started raining. I just got done posting that I'm going out for an adventure and I'll weather whatever presents itself.
And, it is pouring. God is not messing with me. I'm open to go on.
May you see the humor in what is in front of you. Live you. Be you. always BE U
And, it is pouring. God is not messing with me. I'm open to go on.
May you see the humor in what is in front of you. Live you. Be you. always BE U
Change in Plans
I was going to another session at Upledger today to received cranial sacral work. I was looking very forward to it. I so wanted to learn more about what I'm feeling. However, they called this morning to cancel. Isn't that a 'hoot'. God is not messing around. I feel that He is telling me to do it on my own. I have all the tools that I need and I can figure this (what I'm feeling) out myself and let it go. Some say Let Go, Let God.
The interesting thing is that I received the call as soon as I was heading in the apartment after walking the dogs. If it would have been just a bit earlier; I would never have checked messages on my house phone before I left. So, at least, I don't show up there and have to be turned away.
So, out I will go today and take my car and drive. I'm going for an adventure. I go with ease and hope.
I did not want to do this on my own. And, on my own I will. I have to let this anxiousness, swirling energy within go. I feel very HEAVY with stuff. I hope to feel it and let it go.
LOL Nothing at all may happen and something just may. I am open to finding out.
Life. Is. A. Ride.
May you choose to ride and be open to detours/roadblocks/weather that you know you can 'weather' through no matter what.
In my dreams, but it is white! lol
The interesting thing is that I received the call as soon as I was heading in the apartment after walking the dogs. If it would have been just a bit earlier; I would never have checked messages on my house phone before I left. So, at least, I don't show up there and have to be turned away.
So, out I will go today and take my car and drive. I'm going for an adventure. I go with ease and hope.
I did not want to do this on my own. And, on my own I will. I have to let this anxiousness, swirling energy within go. I feel very HEAVY with stuff. I hope to feel it and let it go.
LOL Nothing at all may happen and something just may. I am open to finding out.
Life. Is. A. Ride.
May you choose to ride and be open to detours/roadblocks/weather that you know you can 'weather' through no matter what.
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Shame
It's a Shame. (love that song - and that is not where I am going)
I realize that I have much 'shame' today. I'm not feeling strong, happy or vital. I'm feeling confused, sad and weak. I have shame that I feel this way; shame that I'm not up and about more than I am already. I hear a 'voice' saying, I must know how to be stronger than I am feeling just now. I don't want to share myself with others when I feel this way. I laid in bed in the dark. My head feels like it wants to explode. I've tried lovingly to envision this happening (have to keep trying on) so that the strong energy pool that is sitting at the top of my skull would dissipate; albeit, to no avail.
I really haven't cut back on much medicine and I'm completely in the dark (ha) about if it's the thought of doing so; the really big wish that I wasn't 'dependent' on medicine; or that my body was on the exact dose it does need.
Shame. I have shame about not knowing better, feeling better, doing better and being better. YIKES. That's a lot of shame.
It's very uncomfortable sitting in shame.
I received an email from a loved one after telling him about this shame that I am feeling. It helped me to stabilize some and I'd like to share it with you.
I'm going to put it in my own words because I am uncertain the actual source from where it came.
Shame happens when one's faults or weaknesses are showing and shame comes from one's negative thoughts of oneself.
Feeling shame is about self evaluation. Shame is about not feeling good about oneself. Psychiatrist Judith Lewis Herman concludes that "Shame is an acutely self-conscious state in which the self is 'split', imagining the self in the eyes of the other; by contrast, in guilt the self is unified.".
So, as I sit in this shame; I realize that my thoughts, which are mostly inaccurate, are creating this shame. I believe these thoughts are so prevalent because I am getting ready to head back north. I had hoped to be stronger before I did this.
So, to put it in a more realistic thought process.... I have great discomfort; I take medicine to help me with this pain. (Although I'm still questioning 'pain' because it is different that it used to be; it's not throbbing fingers; it's the whole body's stiffness and tight skin fitting on my skeleton that is my bones; it's the discoloration and blood loss to my hands when I'm cold or highly stressed). I know there are always side affects to any medicine. I know that I wish there were other options for me. I know I've tried many. I know I will keep trying until I don't try anymore. I know that if I accept this as my truth; this is all that matters to my psyche. I am doing the best I can with the current situation at hand (no pun intended!). I have had the same doctor for 30 years that has been working with me with these and many other drugs that we have tried over the last 30 years. I get regular blood tests. I listen to the doctor. He works with me. He stays on top of all new medicine and options that are available to me. I have seen several specialists over the years asking for help. What more can a woman ask for..... Oh, I can think of some! And, I am grateful that I have lived this much for this long, this greatly, and I plan to continue onward as best I can with what I have and what I know and who I am and where I've been.
So, as I make a conscious choice to let go of the shame, (this is not the place for it), I 'brain' on and embrace myself with the truth of what is. Not the thoughts that I have recycled again and again and again that are hurtful and unhelpful.
May you disregard/change your own thoughts that are not true and only think the thoughts that are helpful in you moving forward to be the BEST YOU possible.
May you erase the shame and guilt that has settled inside of you from a long time ago and either wasn't helpful then and/or certainly not helpful now. What if it is just a conscious choice to do so.... Start anew and live the best you that you can choose for yourself today. I'm with you.
Photographer/Place Unknown
I realize that I have much 'shame' today. I'm not feeling strong, happy or vital. I'm feeling confused, sad and weak. I have shame that I feel this way; shame that I'm not up and about more than I am already. I hear a 'voice' saying, I must know how to be stronger than I am feeling just now. I don't want to share myself with others when I feel this way. I laid in bed in the dark. My head feels like it wants to explode. I've tried lovingly to envision this happening (have to keep trying on) so that the strong energy pool that is sitting at the top of my skull would dissipate; albeit, to no avail.
I really haven't cut back on much medicine and I'm completely in the dark (ha) about if it's the thought of doing so; the really big wish that I wasn't 'dependent' on medicine; or that my body was on the exact dose it does need.
Shame. I have shame about not knowing better, feeling better, doing better and being better. YIKES. That's a lot of shame.
It's very uncomfortable sitting in shame.
I received an email from a loved one after telling him about this shame that I am feeling. It helped me to stabilize some and I'd like to share it with you.
I'm going to put it in my own words because I am uncertain the actual source from where it came.
Shame happens when one's faults or weaknesses are showing and shame comes from one's negative thoughts of oneself.
Feeling shame is about self evaluation. Shame is about not feeling good about oneself. Psychiatrist Judith Lewis Herman concludes that "Shame is an acutely self-conscious state in which the self is 'split', imagining the self in the eyes of the other; by contrast, in guilt the self is unified.".
So, as I sit in this shame; I realize that my thoughts, which are mostly inaccurate, are creating this shame. I believe these thoughts are so prevalent because I am getting ready to head back north. I had hoped to be stronger before I did this.
So, to put it in a more realistic thought process.... I have great discomfort; I take medicine to help me with this pain. (Although I'm still questioning 'pain' because it is different that it used to be; it's not throbbing fingers; it's the whole body's stiffness and tight skin fitting on my skeleton that is my bones; it's the discoloration and blood loss to my hands when I'm cold or highly stressed). I know there are always side affects to any medicine. I know that I wish there were other options for me. I know I've tried many. I know I will keep trying until I don't try anymore. I know that if I accept this as my truth; this is all that matters to my psyche. I am doing the best I can with the current situation at hand (no pun intended!). I have had the same doctor for 30 years that has been working with me with these and many other drugs that we have tried over the last 30 years. I get regular blood tests. I listen to the doctor. He works with me. He stays on top of all new medicine and options that are available to me. I have seen several specialists over the years asking for help. What more can a woman ask for..... Oh, I can think of some! And, I am grateful that I have lived this much for this long, this greatly, and I plan to continue onward as best I can with what I have and what I know and who I am and where I've been.
So, as I make a conscious choice to let go of the shame, (this is not the place for it), I 'brain' on and embrace myself with the truth of what is. Not the thoughts that I have recycled again and again and again that are hurtful and unhelpful.
May you disregard/change your own thoughts that are not true and only think the thoughts that are helpful in you moving forward to be the BEST YOU possible.
May you erase the shame and guilt that has settled inside of you from a long time ago and either wasn't helpful then and/or certainly not helpful now. What if it is just a conscious choice to do so.... Start anew and live the best you that you can choose for yourself today. I'm with you.
Saturday, May 18, 2013
More Tarot
I picked three cards from the tarot deck last night. It seems that when I'm feeling stuck, or looking for answers; the Tarot deck seems to get my attention. Ha.
Thank you to the book "The Alchemical Tarot" by Rosemary Ellen Guiley and Robert M. Place. There is much more information on each card in this book.
Here goes:
The Devil
"Gnostic philosophers maintained that matter entrapped spirit, and equated it with evil. The Devil represents this imprisonment - enslavement to our baser instincts and the negative side of our libido, a state that Jung termed the shadow. This can manifest as a state of anger, jealousy, or fear. It can trap us in an addiction. Or, at its worst, it can lead to destruction and violence. However, our libido is also the source of our vitality and strength; it governs our very survival. Our shadow is only that part of ourselves that we have not integrated. It is only evil when it remains unconscious. When we are unaware of this part of ourselves we can project these negative traits against others. Thus, thinking that we are good, and other people evil, we can do our worst. An example of this can be a war, where each side, thinking that goodness and God is with them, unleashes death and destruction on the enemy.
When we make our desires conscious we can choose our behavior ourselves. We can probe superficial desires, and discover that at the root of desire is the longing for the unit that we call love. When we find this greater source of satisfaction, addictions drop away, as well as the illusion of non-unity."
King of Swords
"You have a deep-seated inner confidence. This is true inner strength that does not have to be displayed. Your communication is clear and decisive; you are not afraid to speak your mind. You are capable of choosing whether or not to respond to the prompts of others, and to separate false preconceptions from fact."
Ace of Staffs
"You are experiencing the beginning or birth of something that will require a lot of energy, like a new job, a new project or a new relationship. Even though it requires energy, it gives energy back to you in reward."
May you be aware and honor what you feel. May you honor the path that you are on. I do. I honor that I'm still processing.
Process on.
Thank you to the book "The Alchemical Tarot" by Rosemary Ellen Guiley and Robert M. Place. There is much more information on each card in this book.
Here goes:
The Devil
"Gnostic philosophers maintained that matter entrapped spirit, and equated it with evil. The Devil represents this imprisonment - enslavement to our baser instincts and the negative side of our libido, a state that Jung termed the shadow. This can manifest as a state of anger, jealousy, or fear. It can trap us in an addiction. Or, at its worst, it can lead to destruction and violence. However, our libido is also the source of our vitality and strength; it governs our very survival. Our shadow is only that part of ourselves that we have not integrated. It is only evil when it remains unconscious. When we are unaware of this part of ourselves we can project these negative traits against others. Thus, thinking that we are good, and other people evil, we can do our worst. An example of this can be a war, where each side, thinking that goodness and God is with them, unleashes death and destruction on the enemy.
When we make our desires conscious we can choose our behavior ourselves. We can probe superficial desires, and discover that at the root of desire is the longing for the unit that we call love. When we find this greater source of satisfaction, addictions drop away, as well as the illusion of non-unity."
King of Swords
"You have a deep-seated inner confidence. This is true inner strength that does not have to be displayed. Your communication is clear and decisive; you are not afraid to speak your mind. You are capable of choosing whether or not to respond to the prompts of others, and to separate false preconceptions from fact."
Ace of Staffs
"You are experiencing the beginning or birth of something that will require a lot of energy, like a new job, a new project or a new relationship. Even though it requires energy, it gives energy back to you in reward."
May you be aware and honor what you feel. May you honor the path that you are on. I do. I honor that I'm still processing.
Process on.
The "Shift"
"There is no reason you can not change your life today. You may have to push past the discomfort or even fear you are feeling from reading this. It is up to you." The Paradigm Shift
May you change what isn't working for you and hold on to what is. May you share your true self always. May you come from love of self and love of others.
May you change what isn't working for you and hold on to what is. May you share your true self always. May you come from love of self and love of others.
BE YOU
"To seek on the outside for that which you do not feel you are is to seek in vain, for we never find that which we want; we only find that which we are." Neville Goddard
May you continue to connect to that which you are....
May you continue to connect to that which you are....
Where I'm At
I'm not quite sure. I feel the feeling of 'fire bugs' all over me. The back of my neck, face, fingers, feet, and toes. It's incredible. It feels like a cold gale of numbing needles going in and out of my skin. I do not want to run. I will not run. I have no need to run this time. I'm staying right here and embracing myself. All of me.
My mind is telling me I'm weird and goofy; crazy maybe. My inside knowing is telling me to stay with it; believe and trust. I write this and definitely uncertain if it will be published. I know no understanding in words. I know understanding in trusting what is.
So, I dance on. I dance with the light. I dance on the Universe. I dance with you.
I dance on.
Completely uncertain.
May you trust everything about you that you do not want to.... Mmmm Dare one go here!?!?!?
My mind is telling me I'm weird and goofy; crazy maybe. My inside knowing is telling me to stay with it; believe and trust. I write this and definitely uncertain if it will be published. I know no understanding in words. I know understanding in trusting what is.
So, I dance on. I dance with the light. I dance on the Universe. I dance with you.
I dance on.
Completely uncertain.
May you trust everything about you that you do not want to.... Mmmm Dare one go here!?!?!?
Rather Be
I am finding hesitation and fear to blog. I'm sure it is with my current topic of my prescribed medicine and lack of wanting to need it anymore.
I'm sure it's about my fear of having the strength to do without and/or the need to need it.
I'm walking through this one taking a wee bit less and seeing what I feel. I'm open to not needing it and open to needing it.
I'm angry that I want to choose this 'game' and I'm angry that it isn't an easier game for me to play.
I have trepidation as to what my answer will be. And, I know how great it is that I can, most likely, know an answer in a short time.
My head spins with confusion and I do not know if it is the medicine or if it is me.
This is what I am determined to find out.
It's a scary place for me. It is a place I have been to several times over the past thirty years! Yikes, I'm getting old.
And, I feel the need/desire to want to go here now. Now, when I'm getting ready to head back north. Now, when I'm selling my home up there. Now, when I'm not settled. Now, because I am not happy with the way I feel and am living.
So, now it is. I crawl on. I'd rather be feeling something else! Ha.
May you go where you need go; May you go where you desire to go to be all that you can be.
I'm sure it's about my fear of having the strength to do without and/or the need to need it.
I'm walking through this one taking a wee bit less and seeing what I feel. I'm open to not needing it and open to needing it.
I'm angry that I want to choose this 'game' and I'm angry that it isn't an easier game for me to play.
I have trepidation as to what my answer will be. And, I know how great it is that I can, most likely, know an answer in a short time.
My head spins with confusion and I do not know if it is the medicine or if it is me.
This is what I am determined to find out.
It's a scary place for me. It is a place I have been to several times over the past thirty years! Yikes, I'm getting old.
And, I feel the need/desire to want to go here now. Now, when I'm getting ready to head back north. Now, when I'm selling my home up there. Now, when I'm not settled. Now, because I am not happy with the way I feel and am living.
So, now it is. I crawl on. I'd rather be feeling something else! Ha.
May you go where you need go; May you go where you desire to go to be all that you can be.
Winning
"The key to winning; even if you don't win, is to know that you did everything that you possibly could have done. You are lying on the battlefield exhausted knowing that you could not have done anymore." Derek Hough
And, my 'two cents' is...
I'd like to take it one step further and offer that...
Perhaps, the key to winning it all may be to know when to fight with everything we have and to know when to not fight at all.
May you know when to fight with everything you have and when to let go completely.
And, my 'two cents' is...
I'd like to take it one step further and offer that...
Perhaps, the key to winning it all may be to know when to fight with everything we have and to know when to not fight at all.
May you know when to fight with everything you have and when to let go completely.
Essence
When I sit in the deepest essence of myself and know the power, the magic, the light and the love I was born with, I know there is no reason for discomfort. I am who and what I am and I can choose to be comfortable with myself no matter what.
May you choose comfort with all that you are. You were born with power, magic, light and love. It's the essence of who you are just because you breathe.
I think I've been reading too many self-help books!
May you choose comfort with all that you are. You were born with power, magic, light and love. It's the essence of who you are just because you breathe.
I think I've been reading too many self-help books!
Friday, May 17, 2013
Today
"Today is a good day; I have never seen it before." Maya Angelou
What a brilliant way to look at it! Nice perspective.
May you look at your day in a light that feels good on you; with as much ease as possible.
What a brilliant way to look at it! Nice perspective.
May you look at your day in a light that feels good on you; with as much ease as possible.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Cat
Cat
"Keynote: Mystery, Magic and Independence"
"To cats have been attributed a wide variety of traits--often contradictory. Curiosity, nine lives, independence, cleverness, unpredictability, and healing are but a few."
"Because the dark is the home of fears and those things humans do not want to see and can't see, the cat has come to be associated with magic and mystery. The truth is that cats have more rods in the retinas of their eyes, which enhances light perception. It enables them to see effectively in the dark."
"Whether domesticated or wild, anytime a cat becomes predominant, look for magic and mystery to come alive."
From the book "Animal Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great & Small" by Ted Andrews
There is more in the book, I just wrote what caught my eye.
"Keynote: Mystery, Magic and Independence"
"To cats have been attributed a wide variety of traits--often contradictory. Curiosity, nine lives, independence, cleverness, unpredictability, and healing are but a few."
"Because the dark is the home of fears and those things humans do not want to see and can't see, the cat has come to be associated with magic and mystery. The truth is that cats have more rods in the retinas of their eyes, which enhances light perception. It enables them to see effectively in the dark."
"Whether domesticated or wild, anytime a cat becomes predominant, look for magic and mystery to come alive."
From the book "Animal Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great & Small" by Ted Andrews
There is more in the book, I just wrote what caught my eye.
Kittens
There are four kittens outside of my apartment. I did not know until a woman knocked on my door today to tell me she has a humane trap for them right outside my garage door; to just be careful and she will take care of it.
Yes, when I opened my door just now; sure enough, there was a black kitty with green eyes in the trap. I do not like seeing them trapped and I believe that these women are going to take them, spay them in hope of finding them a home. The mom has been here all along just hanging out and she is under a car sitting watching it all. I was very happy that, pretty much, as soon as I saw the kitten, another woman showed up to take it. Two of the handy men that work here also showed up with concern.
It stresses me to see and know this. I have chosen to feel fear, or maybe just apprehension, (which doesn't feel good either) that I may run over them with my car as I back out of my garage. Yet, I am very happy that the woman was kind enough to let me know. I will surely keep my dogs away from that area because I am sure that a kitty would look like a real fun 'game' to them. They would not hurt it and they would definitely chase it if it ran. It's like I can feel the stress that these cats are under and I do believe it's better than just letting them be and multiply. Ugh
This is another feeling/'statement' that makes me believe, again, to 'stay put; stay still; be quiet; contemplate and heal'. This is a small, inner knowing, yet loud part of me. There is another small part of me saying 'loser, get a life, going to go stir crazy'. Yesterday, I was dancing in the apartment because I just had to!
What a battle I find myself in when I don't let myself accept my truth. My truth is that I am healing. It's the best chance I have at healing anyway. I'm grateful I have the opportunity to just be. I'm thinking not many people are this 'lucky'. And, 'luck' is in the eye of the beholder. Yikes.
May you hear your inner voice, respond, and lovingly accept what your truth is for today. May you know the 'luck' that is in your life.
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Yes, when I opened my door just now; sure enough, there was a black kitty with green eyes in the trap. I do not like seeing them trapped and I believe that these women are going to take them, spay them in hope of finding them a home. The mom has been here all along just hanging out and she is under a car sitting watching it all. I was very happy that, pretty much, as soon as I saw the kitten, another woman showed up to take it. Two of the handy men that work here also showed up with concern.
It stresses me to see and know this. I have chosen to feel fear, or maybe just apprehension, (which doesn't feel good either) that I may run over them with my car as I back out of my garage. Yet, I am very happy that the woman was kind enough to let me know. I will surely keep my dogs away from that area because I am sure that a kitty would look like a real fun 'game' to them. They would not hurt it and they would definitely chase it if it ran. It's like I can feel the stress that these cats are under and I do believe it's better than just letting them be and multiply. Ugh
This is another feeling/'statement' that makes me believe, again, to 'stay put; stay still; be quiet; contemplate and heal'. This is a small, inner knowing, yet loud part of me. There is another small part of me saying 'loser, get a life, going to go stir crazy'. Yesterday, I was dancing in the apartment because I just had to!
What a battle I find myself in when I don't let myself accept my truth. My truth is that I am healing. It's the best chance I have at healing anyway. I'm grateful I have the opportunity to just be. I'm thinking not many people are this 'lucky'. And, 'luck' is in the eye of the beholder. Yikes.
May you hear your inner voice, respond, and lovingly accept what your truth is for today. May you know the 'luck' that is in your life.
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Goal
"Our goal is to live happy, healthy lives, enjoying our own company. Love dissolves anger, love releases resentment, love dissipates fear, and love creates safety. When you can come from a space of totally loving yourself, then everything in your life must flow with ease, harmony, health, prosperity, and joy." And, so it is.
From the book "Heal Your Body" by Louise L. Hay
May you love yourself through all that is you(rs).
From the book "Heal Your Body" by Louise L. Hay
May you love yourself through all that is you(rs).
Life is the Journey
"In the beginning, I had considered these stops on my journey as interruptions--but I'm coming to understand that perhaps these detours are my journey. No matter how much I, or the rest of humanity wishes otherwise, life is not lived in smooth, downhill expressways, but in the obscure, perilous trails and rocky back roads of life where we stumble and feel our way through the fog of the unknown. Life is not a sprint. It was never meant to be. It is just one step of faith after another."
From the book "A Step of Faith: A Novel" by Richard Paul Evans
May you LIVE ALIVE through each detour on your journey.
From the book "A Step of Faith: A Novel" by Richard Paul Evans
May you LIVE ALIVE through each detour on your journey.
Fear
"The shackles of belief, when reinforced by fear, are difficult to break free from and rarely done."
"Some so fear the future that they suffocate the present. It's like committing suicide to avoid being murdered."
"She said she was sick of livin' paranoid and if the world was goin' to end then she wanted to end with it, not go out fightin' it."
From the book "A Step of Faith: A Novel" by Richard Paul Evans
Perhaps... Thoughts to ponder, change or throw out.
I'd like to have no self-inflicted shackles, no useless fear, a future to look forward to and a really comfortable, open hearted present. And, when my time is up; I'd like to know that I helped others to be happy with themselves.
May you know what all your hard work is towards.
"Some so fear the future that they suffocate the present. It's like committing suicide to avoid being murdered."
"She said she was sick of livin' paranoid and if the world was goin' to end then she wanted to end with it, not go out fightin' it."
From the book "A Step of Faith: A Novel" by Richard Paul Evans
Perhaps... Thoughts to ponder, change or throw out.
I'd like to have no self-inflicted shackles, no useless fear, a future to look forward to and a really comfortable, open hearted present. And, when my time is up; I'd like to know that I helped others to be happy with themselves.
May you know what all your hard work is towards.
Helen Keller
"Faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into the light." Helen Keller
Emotions/Logic
"You sound like you're okay with it." "It's history, and the only way I can try to get a clear picture is to think logically and not emotionally." "I like emotion better." "You're good at it." So, they'd use that, too, he decided. Both emotion and logic. "Okay, what does your emotion tell you happened?"
From the fiction book " Whiskey Beach" by Nora Roberts
May you use both your logic and your emotion. May you know which to best use when.
From the fiction book " Whiskey Beach" by Nora Roberts
May you use both your logic and your emotion. May you know which to best use when.
Drugs
I have been on medicine for a very long time. Way more on than off. Since last Monday at my cranial sacral session, something in me clicked strongly that maybe I don't need or want these drugs anymore. Perhaps, that they may even be hurting me.
I have felt this way before. I have gone on and off several times throughout these 30 years. I have heard a doctor say that I am not addicted; I am dependent. I'm questioning the difference. I do understand that I was being told that just like a person with diabetes or high blood pressure needs medicine to keep the condition stable, I need pain medicine. I do understand that for a long time, pain medicine did help me get through many a day and sleepless night. I was grateful for the drug many times over.
Today, however, I am feeling deep inside that my body doesn't want it anymore. My body is feeling like it is poisoning me more than helping me.
I have fear and shame in discussing these drugs and my 'dependence'. When I was first given medicine way back in my late teens (waaaay back, lol), an adult that loved me said "you should be strong enough NOT to need a drug" and that has 'haunted' me long. I did need the drugs; or so I believed and felt. My pain has been great for a very long time. I have suffered a good amount. I remember concerts, dinners, parties, get-togethers where my pain was so great I could focus on nothing else. I remember long nights just rocking myself to try to comfort myself. My husband spent many moons rubbing my hands for me to help subdue great pain. It truly was like my fingers were dying while I was living. Dramatic, yes. True, yes.
Yesterday, I became aware of my pupil(s). The dilation of the black circle. It looked beautiful to me. I know drugs affect the size of this dilation/constriction just like the sun. Recently (yesterday), I do not want to be dependent on the drug anymore and I started weaning some. My head is dizzy and my body weak. My eye sight is not strong. I'm seeing things through a very light 'fog'.
I do not know where I will be an hour from now regarding drugs. I only know where I am this moment. I don't like them for me.
It's interesting how this is exactly what this drug is supposed to do to/for me; affect brain receptor sites. Decreasing the amount affects me exactly how the less drugged body is supposed to react.
Yet, my human craziness thinks it is all me. I want to put blame on myself for not doing better, knowing better. I want to blame myself for not being strong enough. I also wish that knowing what is best for me was as easy as black and white.
Albeit, this is not to be true for me today. So, I walk on and through; excited to see what happens next.
All I can do is trust myself; my inner knowing; my body; my mind to proceed forward and create the life that I am continuously supposed to be in. Sure, I have control over much. I surely do not have control over everything.
I do what I can with what I have with where I've been and who I am. So do you. THIS is enough. We are all enough just now as we are.
We move forward together in light, love, beauty and hope. We support each other and ourselves as best we can.
We move on.
May you enjoy the ride of your life. You are the only one that can!
I have felt this way before. I have gone on and off several times throughout these 30 years. I have heard a doctor say that I am not addicted; I am dependent. I'm questioning the difference. I do understand that I was being told that just like a person with diabetes or high blood pressure needs medicine to keep the condition stable, I need pain medicine. I do understand that for a long time, pain medicine did help me get through many a day and sleepless night. I was grateful for the drug many times over.
Today, however, I am feeling deep inside that my body doesn't want it anymore. My body is feeling like it is poisoning me more than helping me.
I have fear and shame in discussing these drugs and my 'dependence'. When I was first given medicine way back in my late teens (waaaay back, lol), an adult that loved me said "you should be strong enough NOT to need a drug" and that has 'haunted' me long. I did need the drugs; or so I believed and felt. My pain has been great for a very long time. I have suffered a good amount. I remember concerts, dinners, parties, get-togethers where my pain was so great I could focus on nothing else. I remember long nights just rocking myself to try to comfort myself. My husband spent many moons rubbing my hands for me to help subdue great pain. It truly was like my fingers were dying while I was living. Dramatic, yes. True, yes.
Yesterday, I became aware of my pupil(s). The dilation of the black circle. It looked beautiful to me. I know drugs affect the size of this dilation/constriction just like the sun. Recently (yesterday), I do not want to be dependent on the drug anymore and I started weaning some. My head is dizzy and my body weak. My eye sight is not strong. I'm seeing things through a very light 'fog'.
I do not know where I will be an hour from now regarding drugs. I only know where I am this moment. I don't like them for me.
It's interesting how this is exactly what this drug is supposed to do to/for me; affect brain receptor sites. Decreasing the amount affects me exactly how the less drugged body is supposed to react.
Yet, my human craziness thinks it is all me. I want to put blame on myself for not doing better, knowing better. I want to blame myself for not being strong enough. I also wish that knowing what is best for me was as easy as black and white.
Albeit, this is not to be true for me today. So, I walk on and through; excited to see what happens next.
All I can do is trust myself; my inner knowing; my body; my mind to proceed forward and create the life that I am continuously supposed to be in. Sure, I have control over much. I surely do not have control over everything.
I do what I can with what I have with where I've been and who I am. So do you. THIS is enough. We are all enough just now as we are.
We move forward together in light, love, beauty and hope. We support each other and ourselves as best we can.
We move on.
May you enjoy the ride of your life. You are the only one that can!
Be
I am being who I am as best I can. It's amazing how much I can change in one day! Yikes. Yesterday, I went from loving my alone time to being lonely.
I'd like to offer to be who you are as best you can.
The good news is that we already have who we are inside of us. We already have everything we need to do this.
May you be connected to yourself as deeply and strongly as you possibly can be.
May be most 'alive' picture ever. Picture from "Come Heal Yourself"
I'd like to offer to be who you are as best you can.
The good news is that we already have who we are inside of us. We already have everything we need to do this.
May you be connected to yourself as deeply and strongly as you possibly can be.
May be most 'alive' picture ever. Picture from "Come Heal Yourself"
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
When
"When you get; give. When you learn; teach." Maya Angelou speaks the words her Grandmom told her to Oprah.
I am certain that you have your own specialty that you can pass along. I believe I'm doing mine and it rocks me.
Honor God by living who you are out loud.
May you choose to do YOU.
I am certain that you have your own specialty that you can pass along. I believe I'm doing mine and it rocks me.
Honor God by living who you are out loud.
May you choose to do YOU.
King/Queen/Princess/Prince Me
"Your crown has been bought and paid for. All you have to do is put it on your head." James Baldwin (Super Soul Sunday on OWN)
May you own the power that flows through you and help others do the same.
Just what if everything was unlimited and available to us and all we have to do is believe.....
"My energy and love are unlimited." "My energy and love are unlimited." "My energy and love are unlimited."
May you own the power that flows through you and help others do the same.
Just what if everything was unlimited and available to us and all we have to do is believe.....
"My energy and love are unlimited." "My energy and love are unlimited." "My energy and love are unlimited."
Reminded
I'm reminded today that we all have our stuff. I'm reminded today that it is, at times; most times, all intermingled with everyone's else's stuff.
I am realizing that wherever I am; I am.
If I can feel strong within; own what is mine; allow you to own what is yours; know that I am okay as I am - then, wherever I am, I am okay.... !
So, wherever I am; I am.
Wherever you are; you are.
You are okay as you are. Therefore, wherever you are, you are okay.
Got it? Get it. Good!
May you allow the strongest of your self (always) to be with you and may you bring yourself to where you most enjoy to be. And, know, that wherever you bring yourself - you are still there and YOU can choose to be okay anywhere.
LOL That was too fun to write! I'm doubtful, but hopeful, one can understand it, however. Mmmmm
I am realizing that wherever I am; I am.
If I can feel strong within; own what is mine; allow you to own what is yours; know that I am okay as I am - then, wherever I am, I am okay.... !
So, wherever I am; I am.
Wherever you are; you are.
You are okay as you are. Therefore, wherever you are, you are okay.
Got it? Get it. Good!
May you allow the strongest of your self (always) to be with you and may you bring yourself to where you most enjoy to be. And, know, that wherever you bring yourself - you are still there and YOU can choose to be okay anywhere.
LOL That was too fun to write! I'm doubtful, but hopeful, one can understand it, however. Mmmmm
Glorious
It's a beautiful day here in sunny South Florida, USA and the sun is hot and the breeze is cool. The landscapers are surrounding the place with their lawnmowers, weed whackers and rakes. I have the patio door wide open and there is a fabulous breeze coming in. I hear a plane in the distance and the flow of the fountain in the next room. My dogs lie at my feet and the sun is shining through the side window. The sky is blue with a few white puffy, friendly looking clouds. I breathe the fresh air. Glorious.
May you recognize what is 'glorious' for you today.
May you recognize what is 'glorious' for you today.
Monday, May 13, 2013
I
I sit in awe at the complexity of myself. I had a brilliant Mother's Day with beautiful words and sentiment from beautiful people. My daughter was the first to call me. My husband gave me the greatest gift he has ever given me by stating how grateful, beautiful and accomplished I've been at being a mom. His awareness and enlightenment of 'momhood' was right on with the way I see it and a first for us. I was told many wonderful, awesome things that just sat beautifully in my heart and all of who I am. It was exactly what I needed, wanted, and desired to hear. I am grateful and lighter because of it. I actually felt pain leave my body.
I went to "Sam's Club" for a hot dog with a dear friend and we sat there and talked for hours. Yes, you did read this correctly. "Sam's Club" - a warehouse grocery store; this is where I spent my Mother's Day eating a hot dog! And I loved every bite and every minute! LOL
My day was totally one of a kind and magical for me.
And, it's hard for me to own this and feel deserving of getting 'it' how I wanted 'it'. I am filled to the brim just now and I have some guilt and anxiety around 'having it all'.
It's exactly what I've worked very hard at for many, many moons - to 'have it all'. To know oneness and peace with all that I am. And, I feel like I 'have it all' in this moment and all day yesterday! Woo Hoo; Party On; Hip hip hooray and Wow.
Yet, to share this; to sit in this; to know this; to live this; to own this.... It 'ain't' the easiest thing I've ever done!
What is up with this?
So, what I come up with is that the child in me feels a bit unworthy and spoiled. The adult in me says 'you go girl'. and my adult thought-out perception says 'you put in much effort, time and focus on this; allow yourself to reap the reward".
How complex can I make it? Ha. LOL Evidently, pretty complex! (Am I making it this way; or is it the way it is.... Mmmm) Or is it not complex at all and just feels so... Always opportunity to learn...eh gad!
Perhaps, it is a good thing to stop being surprised when things go my way and lovingly embrace and be open to honoring the Creator/God that created me to have it all by simply allowing myself to HAVE IT ALL.
We were all born to have it all! What having it all is to me is probably not what having it all is to you.
Know that I want you to have it all. I want you to succeed. I want you to own all of you and keep what makes you happy and let go/change what is not allowing you to be in the 'YOU' direction in each minute possible. I want you to know oneness and peace with all that you are.
When you own your greatness, it empowers me to own mine. I hope that me owning my greatness empowers you to own yours.
We all matter. We all have greatness. We all deserve to be affirmed by that one person that means the most to us. And, if we allow ourselves to matter to ourselves, perhaps, everyone else affirming us is just a wonderful benefit to creating LIGHTness and ease in our world.
May you be open to having beautiful affirmations with each person you encounter being available, forthcoming and gifted to each other as many times as necessary for you to be filled to your brim with ____________(fill in blank; whatever it is you are desiring for your life going forward).
It is our birthright to be happy, fulfilled and great. It is our job to support one another in fulfilling each other's birthright.
We are all here at this great universal 'shift-ness' going on. Own who, what, how, why and where you are and what you feel and let this owning create the YOU that you truly are. Perhaps, nothing has to really be known for us to accept ourselves. However, what we do know, if we own it, miracles can happen. This is my experience and belief.
Do it for yourself; do it for your loved ones; do it for our world and do it because you can.
Empower your power by just being you.
I went to "Sam's Club" for a hot dog with a dear friend and we sat there and talked for hours. Yes, you did read this correctly. "Sam's Club" - a warehouse grocery store; this is where I spent my Mother's Day eating a hot dog! And I loved every bite and every minute! LOL
My day was totally one of a kind and magical for me.
And, it's hard for me to own this and feel deserving of getting 'it' how I wanted 'it'. I am filled to the brim just now and I have some guilt and anxiety around 'having it all'.
It's exactly what I've worked very hard at for many, many moons - to 'have it all'. To know oneness and peace with all that I am. And, I feel like I 'have it all' in this moment and all day yesterday! Woo Hoo; Party On; Hip hip hooray and Wow.
Yet, to share this; to sit in this; to know this; to live this; to own this.... It 'ain't' the easiest thing I've ever done!
What is up with this?
So, what I come up with is that the child in me feels a bit unworthy and spoiled. The adult in me says 'you go girl'. and my adult thought-out perception says 'you put in much effort, time and focus on this; allow yourself to reap the reward".
How complex can I make it? Ha. LOL Evidently, pretty complex! (Am I making it this way; or is it the way it is.... Mmmm) Or is it not complex at all and just feels so... Always opportunity to learn...eh gad!
Perhaps, it is a good thing to stop being surprised when things go my way and lovingly embrace and be open to honoring the Creator/God that created me to have it all by simply allowing myself to HAVE IT ALL.
We were all born to have it all! What having it all is to me is probably not what having it all is to you.
Know that I want you to have it all. I want you to succeed. I want you to own all of you and keep what makes you happy and let go/change what is not allowing you to be in the 'YOU' direction in each minute possible. I want you to know oneness and peace with all that you are.
When you own your greatness, it empowers me to own mine. I hope that me owning my greatness empowers you to own yours.
We all matter. We all have greatness. We all deserve to be affirmed by that one person that means the most to us. And, if we allow ourselves to matter to ourselves, perhaps, everyone else affirming us is just a wonderful benefit to creating LIGHTness and ease in our world.
May you be open to having beautiful affirmations with each person you encounter being available, forthcoming and gifted to each other as many times as necessary for you to be filled to your brim with ____________(fill in blank; whatever it is you are desiring for your life going forward).
It is our birthright to be happy, fulfilled and great. It is our job to support one another in fulfilling each other's birthright.
We are all here at this great universal 'shift-ness' going on. Own who, what, how, why and where you are and what you feel and let this owning create the YOU that you truly are. Perhaps, nothing has to really be known for us to accept ourselves. However, what we do know, if we own it, miracles can happen. This is my experience and belief.
Do it for yourself; do it for your loved ones; do it for our world and do it because you can.
Empower your power by just being you.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Fire
I heard someone say that they want to only surround themselves with people who are kind and supportive. Then, I see this on "Facebook". I believe this is a good reminder for myself and for everyone. I want to surround myself with gentleness and understanding; I also want to be the 'fan' for other people's flames.
"Set your life on fire; seek those who fan your flame." Carolyn Budai
May you be and have kindness, support, gentleness and understanding always with you.
"Set your life on fire; seek those who fan your flame." Carolyn Budai
May you be and have kindness, support, gentleness and understanding always with you.
Happy Mother's Day
Happy Mother's Day to the people/countries celebrating it today; this month, this year.
A mother is special for so many reasons. There is NO love like a mother's love. Until I became I mother, did I fully understand this.
If you were ever once a practicing or supportive mom (ha), you are still a mom today and will forever be one. You have been blessed with the greatest lesson of all time. And, whether your mom is still here on this Earth (May I offer to acknowledge her in your best way.) or not; I believe, she is always with us in our hearts.
My mom and my mother-in-law are both deceased. They are very much alive in my heart. I honor my mother for her strength, her undying love, and for the person that I am because of her. I honor my mother-in-law for teaching me what unconditional love is and how anything is possible through a light heart and laughter. I was blessed with two amazing women in my life. I am grateful for my mother who raised me and my mother-in-law who 'adopted' me.
Now, today, I am a mom. I have known no other love as demanding, fulfilling, awe-inspiring, all-encompassing and a love that warms me from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. I am grateful for my beautiful daughter.
I've been blessed. I am blessed on this Mother's Day.
I am not with my family and a big part of me is sad and empty. Yet, I know wherever I am that I am still a mom and I am lucky and thrilled that I have this greatest of honors.
It is not always easy being a mom. It may not even always be natural where I easily know what to do. However, the love is as natural and as deep as it comes.
So, whether you borne a child; adopted a child or love a child and you are a woman, I honor you today.
No matter where you are or who you are with; May you honor yourself and your family as you celebrate one of the greatest of all loves.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
A mother is special for so many reasons. There is NO love like a mother's love. Until I became I mother, did I fully understand this.
If you were ever once a practicing or supportive mom (ha), you are still a mom today and will forever be one. You have been blessed with the greatest lesson of all time. And, whether your mom is still here on this Earth (May I offer to acknowledge her in your best way.) or not; I believe, she is always with us in our hearts.
My mom and my mother-in-law are both deceased. They are very much alive in my heart. I honor my mother for her strength, her undying love, and for the person that I am because of her. I honor my mother-in-law for teaching me what unconditional love is and how anything is possible through a light heart and laughter. I was blessed with two amazing women in my life. I am grateful for my mother who raised me and my mother-in-law who 'adopted' me.
Now, today, I am a mom. I have known no other love as demanding, fulfilling, awe-inspiring, all-encompassing and a love that warms me from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. I am grateful for my beautiful daughter.
I've been blessed. I am blessed on this Mother's Day.
I am not with my family and a big part of me is sad and empty. Yet, I know wherever I am that I am still a mom and I am lucky and thrilled that I have this greatest of honors.
It is not always easy being a mom. It may not even always be natural where I easily know what to do. However, the love is as natural and as deep as it comes.
So, whether you borne a child; adopted a child or love a child and you are a woman, I honor you today.
No matter where you are or who you are with; May you honor yourself and your family as you celebrate one of the greatest of all loves.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
"Ode To Mothers!"
Mothers cannot do it all
But surely do they try.
Mothers hear the angel's call,
... To comfort all who cry.
Mothers for themselves may fall,
For others they will fly.
Mother's bear the weight of all,
For their children, they would die.
A Mother's gift extends beyond
All bounds of time and space.
Her lovingness and nurturing
Make Earth a peaceful place.
- Kristin F. McKendall
Mothers cannot do it all
But surely do they try.
Mothers hear the angel's call,
... To comfort all who cry.
Mothers for themselves may fall,
For others they will fly.
Mother's bear the weight of all,
For their children, they would die.
A Mother's gift extends beyond
All bounds of time and space.
Her lovingness and nurturing
Make Earth a peaceful place.
- Kristin F. McKendall
as shared by "The Power of Oneness"
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