Unusual

I have been a bit tired and eating a bit more lately.

I feel I am eating so I don't fall asleep and/or to keep myself awake.

I am feeling a bit more angry and frustrated in moments as well.

I feel challenged to let in peace and I can't seem to find 'easy' easily.  Ha.

Being uncomfortable from overeating can make me angry as well.   Not getting enough sleep can make me irritable.

Is it human to go against what we know is good for us...  Me thinks yes, at times, it is exactly this... being human.

How wonderful it would be to know that my belly is full and to stop eating.  How wonderful it would be to know that my body and mind are tired and sleep.  How wonderful would it be to say yes when I want to and no when it brings me into the healthiest of myself...

We are all doing the best that we can.  Where we are right now is, perhaps, exactly where we are supposed to be.  Being challenged with what our challenges are is the exact lesson that arrives in perfect timing; perfect play.

Life is cycles, a circle, a challenge and a chance to create what is inside of us out.  It is the journey of our life that we are here to experience.  Is it best not to judge; only to experience.  Is it in the experience that we create our destination and 'feel' our way.

We can start over any moment.  We can do different within every breath.  We can choose awareness.  We can choose not to know or see certain things.  We can choose love and honesty.  We can choose hate and dishonesty.  We can choose any variation of any feeling at any time.  And, we do...

May you choose to be aware and to take your best step forward from exactly where you are.

May you be easy on yourself when you don't.  May you let love lead and when you don't, may you know that you can  try again; start over.  Sometimes there are no re-do's and we must still go forward.  Sometimes in the re-do, we do better.

May you meet yourself where your life is at.  May you be open to creating the thinking that will think you right into the life that is your destiny.  May you know this is your destiny because it feels so; you are good at it; it supports our world; and it comes from the depth of your soul--your inner knowing.  Your destiny just feels right; feels true; lets you feel the most like you.

Perhaps, if what you are doing does not float your boat - take one step (baby step or not) in the direction of what feels more like you.

I will say no to overeating.  I will say yes to resting and sleep.  I will do me again and again and again no matter how many times it takes to get me to the path that is available to only me.

In my unusualness I find my uniqueness.  In my uniqueness, I find my super power.  In my super power, I find my purpose.  In my purpose, I find my destiny.

And, really when these words are all written and done, what matters most is that I connect to my breath through love, honor, respect, trust and believing that I am right where I am supposed to be and everything is okay.

Being human doesn't mean that we are happy and content all the time.  Being an 'enlightened' human doesn't mean that everything is easy.

Living the truth of what is and bringing the truth of who we are together is the way, just maybe, of creating the best paths forward for successful and generous experiences.

May you let the version of yourself carry on that connects to what is peace and what is ease.  Loving our own selves is the way.  When we love our own self, perhaps, all we can share is love...

Uh Oh

I find it difficult to make a phone call this morning.  A phone call to just order food delivery.

I feel myself shaking, resisting, nervous and anxious.  I am very uncomfortable.

My hands are purple.

I gently force myself to breathe.  I notice numbness sensation in my face and my fingers.  Tingly sensations in my arms and my toes.  The tip of my nose feels swollen.  My eyes see differently as my cheeks and forehead seem swollen.

Where does this uncomfortableness come from...  Why does this fear show up...  Why do I notice such things...  Who am I with this...  Who am I without this...

I am still love.   I am always me.  I gratefully breathe open and through.

"I open myself to life flowing through me and for me."

I breathe.   I let my shoulders relax.  I put my feet flat on the floor.  I feel the chair underneath me supporting me.  I am.

Sometimes there is such a war within myself.  Knowing and being in discomfort.  Knowing and being in love.  Knowing and just being...

We all have things in our lives, that perhaps, we would change...  But would we..  What challenge would we choose if we truly are supposed to be challenged in this human form; if we do need to experience challenge(s).

There is not a different challenge that I know of that I would choose.  I know I can work in, through and beyond the challenge of 'scleroderma'.  I have been doing it for 40 plus years.

What if we don't have to be challenged in this human form.  What if, as these things come up for us, we accept them, feel them, acknowledge them and walk forward through them...

Is this choosing acceptance in what is... allowing what we feel and loving through with [what may be the strongest thing we can create] gentle strength.

I am not in the throes of fun.  I am not in the throes of ease.  I am in the throes of what my life is showing up as in this moment.

So, I made the call and food is on the way...  Whoop...!

Whatever 'battle' shows up for you today - if one does -

May you bring your true and loving self into it with gentle strength.  May you be your own best friend.

I believe in the process of life.  We are all survivors and we all thrive.  We all achieve.  We all fail.  We all breathe.  May we all just be who and what we are; from the most loving place available to us in each moment and situation.

Naturally

With earthquakes, fires, hurricanes, tornados, etc., it is not easy to find and/or access comfort. 

Inside me feels shaken up, stirred and jumbled.

I hear myself saying 'be here now'.  I hear myself saying 'as I take this breath, I am okay'.

I know to ask myself what is my goal in this moment and focus on just this.

I know to surrender.  I know to let go.  I know to send out love instead of worry.

While I have many (what I call) 'tools', I am still shaken, stirred and jumbled more often than I wish to be.

Are we all being challenged as a whole more than ever; as 'one' more than ever...  Is what happening over there becoming more affective over here then in the past...

I feel more and find myself more relatable to the world as a whole.  In this, we will find strength.  And, for now, we may be experiencing more tumultuous-ness as we learn to live in this new world that is being created.

I did get set in my ways and knew ease in daily patterns.

New daily patterns are being observed and created with the ability of most of us being able to see and know about each other more than ever before.  We are being forced to learn new ways of adapting, living and living through.  There are cameras everywhere.  What is seen is often captured.

The information at hand is staggering.  It can overwhelm.  It can also unite.

May you leave your heart open and send out love as much as possible and as often as possible.

The door to the heart swings both ways.  May you send love in.  May you send love out.

May we let love lead the way.  May we let love show us the way.  May we let love create the way.

As each of us grow into our own inner peace and we unite from this place, may we accomplish the most and best out of life and each other.

I wish you love.

May you be really easy on yourself the more hard on yourself that you are.

As we allow for ease, peace, understanding, openness, truth and love, we allow creation of a better day.

Namaste.

#unbreakable

That One Person

I hope it is true for you that we all have (at least) that one person who just gets us.  Who knows us.  Who we consider to be a lifeline to our truest of selves for.  Who just lets us be...

I just talked to this person.  I know such gratitude that I can speak my scariest and most embarrassing thoughts to and I am still okay.  I am still loved.  I am more me than ever.

A lifeline that connects my heart to my world and opens me up to acceptance and simple understanding.

May you have your own lifeline; whatever that looks, sounds, or feels like to you.  A lifeline that connects your heart to your world of acceptance and simple understanding.  

Conversation energizes me.  Truth makes me stronger.  Vulnerability makes me bigger.  Love grounds me.

I can easily say that a part of me doesn't like what I see myself doing.  What I see myself doing is nothing.  Going nowhere.  Goal-less in my actions.

However, I am reaching deep within.  Sitting with stillness.  Just what if this is way more productive than what it looks like...  Just what if there is way more going on here than my eyes and my human brain can tell...

It is hard for me to admit that this is what I need, want and am just now.  There is no desire within me that is strong enough to change me in the here and now.

And, talking with this one person - I connect to the part of me that lets me be okay.  Lets it be okay.  Allows me to embrace and believe in divine timing and that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.

How do I know this....

Is it as simple an answer as 'because this is where I am at'...

Just what if you are exactly where you belong because it is exactly where you are at...  Just what if you decide that this is enough for you to believe, know and live just now... just as you are... you are enough...

We can know great turmoil as there are overwhelming amounts of information and stories to process what they mean to us and how we live in and through everything that comes our way.  It is huge stuff going on.  It is gigantic how quickly and deeply we are being asked to learn anew.

All I can think just now is

May you let your light shine...  Let it be exactly what it is...  Let you be exactly what you are...

As you bring your true self to the forefront, your truest and best paths will emerge.

What comes next doesn't matter as much as what is now...

May you open up to what is now and just allow it and you to breathe...

Stop the war within... Just breathe.

Change

Ch Ch Ch Changes...

Change is in my life.  Change is in your life.  Change is inside of us.  Change is outside of us.

Change is always happening.

It is not so much the change as it is how we react to the change that creates something somewhere between inner calm to chaos to outer calm to chaos.

Every day 'change' shows itself to us.  We feel change.  We know change.  We experience change. Things change.  We are change.  We change.

Sometimes it feels like a happy surprise; a break; a relief; a gift.

Sometimes it feels like a problem; an issue; an unhappy incident; a challenge.

Our initial reaction just may be from habit; from not processing information fully; from the actual change differing from what we would like to have happen.

If we STOP, acknowledge, process it and realize our initial reaction - and, if we do not like our initial reaction - we can change it.  We are this powerful.

May we learn to react in a way that gives us our best of self.  May we learn to react that gives us the gift of harmony and peace.  May we choose to react that allows for calm even if  'it' feels chaotic.

May you realize, that perhaps, it is in your reactions that create the full on experience of each moment.

This is good news/bad news, perhaps.

Good news is that it is in our control in how we react to change.  Bad news is that it is in our control in how we react to change.  It is up to us how we want to react.  Do we want to stay calm...  Do we want to 'fly off the handle'...  Do we want to live in anger, disharmony and fear...  Do we want to live in peace, love and trust...

How we experience life cannot happen without our permission.  We choose.  We permit.  We allow the ongoing reaction(s).  

May you choose the best of yourself even in the face of challenge, chaos and/or unwanted change.

May you react to life as the person you want to be and the way of life you want to experience. 

Remember that you are the only person you will ever spend your entire life with.  May you give yourself the most pleasant of experiences possible as often as possible.

May you let your mind, body, heart and soul work together from your deepest innate knowing into the craziest unknown places you find yourself.

Only Love

I have no words of wisdom.  No stories to share.  No thoughts to break down.

With all the natural disasters going on in our beautiful world, I have one thing to offer.

Love.  My love.

I offer you; all that is; all that hurts; all that will be - LOVE.

I breathe and I connect to my own beating and open heart.  I connect my own love to that of Mother Nature, our Universe; our World and every living thing and person in it.

May we connect to the same unwavering pulse of love.

As you are alive just now, your life means something.

May you let this meaning come from love.

Simplest, Greatest You

From the depth of darkness, I learn about light.  

From the depth of sadness, I open to love.

From the depth of silence, I experience my breath.  Within my breath I know life.

From the depth of fear, I know what it is like to feel temporary paralysis. 

From deep within pain, I learn anew. 

To run from pain, I let in fear.  To sit with pain, I connect to new possibilities.  

Allowing my feelings is to allow my beingness.  In accepting my beingness, I gain freedom to move and empower myself to live the life that I was born to have and to live.  

May you embrace all that you are and connect to your highest blessing - the blessed gift of being you.   

May you live on. 

May you live the life you were born to live.  

May you let yourself rise up to all the glorious wonder and strenuous challenges that comprise your life.   

May you give yourself freedom and trust in the process of your own humanness.       

Perhaps, in this, you open to your innate knowing.  Perhaps, everything you need for this lifetime of yours, you already have within you.    

Simply living and mirroring (from a gentle and loving place) what is inside of you out is the greatest fulfillment you can discover, live and share.  

May you live fulfilled.

      

Irma

May she 'play' in the sea and stay away from the land.

With Irma coming right at us, here in South Florida, it is a weird and strange day.  I am staying informed, doing everything that I can and gathering as many options as possible.  We plan to ride the storm out.

I have never done this before.  The possibilities that can play in my head can be non-stop and worse case scenarios.

I am asking everyone (that I can) to send us love and not worry.  When my loved ones think of us and go to worry, may they go to love and stay in love as best they can.

May we stay in love and not worry as best we can.

Be prepared and have faith.  Dawn always comes after the dark.  Always.

We have a 'safe room' in an under the stairwell closet.  It is an inner wall closet and the safest place without windows and any outside walls.

I have a whole lot of unknown coming up just now with a huge catastrophic hurricane coming my way.  My daughter is out of state and I am so grateful for this.  She is sending us love and not worry and this goes a long way.  I always and forever send her love.

It will be my husband, the two dogs, a cat and myself.  We are in for an interesting time.

All I can do is prepare, be aware, have faith and trust and bring my best self to it.  Ride it out.

May you be prepared, be aware, have faith and trust and bring your best self into your own life.

This is the best of living, the best of life, the best of us and the best of our world.

My nephew had his first baby girl this morning!  The first baby of this generation!

Life goes on and on and on.   Miracles happen every day.

May you notice the miracles.  May you feel your heart expand.  May you be true to what is.

We ride out the storms and feel great gratitude in the dawn of the constant and the new.  

Namaste'.  I'm grateful for you.  I'm grateful for love.  I'm grateful to have any peace at all in the face of the storm...   I am peace.

How I feel will not change the outcome, it will change the ride.  I am choosing peace (as best as I can).

Storm, Calm, Storm, Calm

Life.

We experience storms.  We experience calmness.  We survive.  We thrive.

Today as I sit here watching and waiting on word if the biggest hurricane in the Atlantic Ocean will come to land and change lives, I know no worry.

I hear myself telling myself that worry will not change its course.  Worry will not help me out.  Worry will only mess me up bad in this moment and any moment I spend worrying.  So, for now, I know no worry.

I know awareness.  I know preparation.  I know keeping informed.  I know doing what I can.  I know prayer.  I know trust.  I know there is no stopping the power and awe of Mother Nature.

I feel a very distinct energy in the air of challenge, anxiousness, love and calm.  These are all energies.  It is my desire to stay involved and attached to the energies that are most helpful, most productive and that feel best.

When I choose to feel the best available me in each moment (which is always everchanging), I can choose the best version of myself; the best path to walk down and the best place to be to share the energies of love and calm.

I almost always have an underlying feeling of discomfort and unwillingness to own any pain and hurt that my body is experiencing.  I seem to often witness this state of dis-ease.  And, at the same time, I do my best and stay open to experiencing the best of me in it and through it.  The best of me that is love.  

I don't know much else.  I only know the balance and imbalance that comes through me.  The storm, the calm, the storm, the calm.

May you be open to witness what is coming through you.  May you choose the best version of it and you in each moment.  May you be open to all of life and still believe in good; still believe in miracles; still believe in yourself.

You matter.  What energies you put out often come back to build us into what we offer to the universe and one another.

The very best you can do is to do your very best... in each situation that arises and flows through your life.

May we all crave, create and cruise onward and through the best versions of our own self and support the same in each other.

Individually, together we are one.   Who we are and what we do touches...

Where

If feels to me that our world is changing quickly.  The awareness that we have now [deep within and because of our connect-ability], is enabling, empowering and overwhelming many.

To see so much despair.  To see so much love.  To experience both in a world where there are cameras everywhere is a very interesting world.

The things I tell myself are to be true to myself.  To come from kindness.  To share compassion.  To be true as I stay open to hope, love and what shows up for me in each moment.

I find it easier to look at the big picture and believe in the circle of life.  To believe in my own experiences.  To believe in my instinct and inner knowing.  To trust that I am okay through it all.  And through it all, as I stay me from a place of love, I know, see and can feel the magic in what is.

Pain is so great.  And, yet, we can still choose love.  Love is so great.

I choose love.

May you choose what allows, enables and empowers you to feel the best that you can feel.  

May you feel the brightness of your truth through love.

May you connect to the world's heartbeat and believe (know) that you are what is needed right where you are, just as you are feeling what you feel.  Open up to love.

May we all be shown the love within each other.

Honoring this Moment

I sit.  I breathe.  I feel my feet flat on the floor supported by the ground.  I feel my body being supported by the chair.  I breathe.

I notice I sit tall with my fingers on the keyboard.  I see myself seeing the computer screen and these words type out as my fingers move.  I honor the connection between my brain and my fingers.  I am grateful for the connection between my heart and my brain.

I know that I breathe without having to do anything or even having to be aware of the fact.  I choose to be aware of such a miracle.

I follow my in breath down into my belly.  I follow it out.  I notice the smoothness of it.  I notice the coolness of the air as I breathe in.  I notice the warmer air as I breathe out.

I let go and feel my body weight relaxing more heavily into the chair.

I hear the trickle of the waterfall in the room.  I feel the air conditioner blowing air and I give thanks that it is 74 degrees F in here instead of 92 degrees F.

I let love breathe into every cell of mine.  I send love out through my fingers into these words.  I pull love into my being from the all-ness that is meant for me and is me.

I breathe.  I feel my belly and lungs expand and contract.

I am grateful for this moment in time.

I feel the connection to all within me.

I pause.  I sit in stillness.  I sit in gratitude.  I sit in the wholeness of this moment.

My husband sits across the desk doing his work.  My dogs lay on the floor at my feet.  The sun is shining bright at the window.  The sky is a beautiful blue with a purplish haze.

I honor this moment.  I honor my life.  I honor myself.  I honor you.  I honor our world.

May you honor this moment; your life; yourself, others and our world.

As we live through honor in more and more moments, may we create the most fun and enjoyable place to breathe in and out our own lives.

Namaste.