Be U: Complete

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Thursday, August 15, 2024

Complete

What if I told you that you are complete just the way You are.. You are whole. You are perfectly imperfect just like each and every one of us; here and now.

Being human does not mean that everything goes our way and that there is no pain nor [what can most certainly feel like] hardship.

It is our thoughts about what is going on in our life, that creates our attitude and our fortitude; our experience. It is in our acceptance and openness that frees us to fully engage and stay present.

Most of us know and feel exactly what is going on in and around us. Many of us do not stop to see and/or dwell on our true understanding/wisdom or deep down and/or reoccurring feelings.

It is, perhaps, a choice we make to step out and look or to 'buckle down' more and continue what we habitually do. Perhaps, the only way out is in and the only way through is through.

Many of us were 'taught' to just keep going and ignore/numb out/not look at things that feel hard or hurtful.

Whether we look to see or choose to not look and ignore, in the so many ways we humans have discovered and created to do just this, our truth is still here with us - either way.

There are definitely things that I feel are hurtful, unfun, sad and even scarring. Things that go against everything I believe, want and feel comfortable with.

There are definitely things that are amazing, beautiful, entrancing and filled with divinity that opens me up completely because it satisfies my soul; my joy of being.

There are definitely things in between that feel neutral or free of my radar, so to speak, or my need to entertain.

This is life. This is being human. This is our journey - B(r)E(ath)ING here while living life on earth.

Perhaps, it is time to look and see, stop and feel, embrace and invoke the truth of our life.

What makes your soul smile... What makes your heart full... What makes your brain light up... What makes your gut want to celebrate...

What makes your soul heavy... What makes your heart close down... What makes your brain turn off... What makes your gut want to battle, run or freeze...

This is You being You. You being complete. In your completeness, you are your greatest self now.

You are the one you spend your entire life with. May you be your own best friend.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!