Be U: Sunday Night

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Sunday Night

WOWZA. It's been a truly long, nightmarish week with the movers down in Florida USA. Some stuff was delivered perfectly, some didn't fit in my smaller apartment, some stuff was damaged, some stuff didn't show up at all, some was taken back to storage and when I asked to bring back - woof, it disappeared. I feel discouraged about some of the human race because of this.

There were other incidents that are tiring to me to put into words, but in the end, there was one person that came and gave me my faith back in the human race. He did everything perfect as he delivered a third mattress. The previous deliveries were very uncomfortable as well. However, this man had me shaking his hand and tearing up; thanking him for his caring, concern and professionalism. I don't know if the movers I came in contact with are aliens or just lost souls. I'm thinking the latter and I'm not 100% convinced. Ha.

So, as I deal with what is with where I'm at, I have achieved my goal of having a home in southern Florida once again. I am in. I am set up. I'm ready to live.

I go home to Pennsylvania tomorrow.

I will be back here after the holidays to spend the winter. The weather has been my kind of weather. Mostly in the 70's F. It sure makes life easier and more enjoyable for me. To be able to take the trash out to the dumpster (yikes - I'm in an apartment again); and, when it comes time.... to be able to take the dogs out without pain or a big heavy coat in the dead of winter is going to be pretty wonderful for me. The weather here stays this way all winter for the most part. Up north in Pennsylvania it can go down to 0 degrees Fahrenheit. Yikes. That's not for me. Good for you people that like it! I wish you great chills. Ha.

So, as I wind down from very hard work moving into a 2 bedroom/den apartment from a 4 bedroom home - As I wind down from the trials of the moving company -- As I wind down from opening and tearing down what felt like 100 boxes - As I wind down from the thrill of seeing many of my things that give me joy --- I say - Whew, I'm glad that's over with!

May you walk through and know the feeling of - whew, I'm glad that's over with...

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!