Be U: Dance of Life

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Dance of Life

What is life to you? Sitting on a boat on beautiful aquamarine water; dancing or any kind of movement; listening to music; laughing with friends; reading a good book; watching the people I love happy; being with my animals -- these are what make me happiest.

I went to a belly dance class Monday night. Woo hoo! It was fun. It was feminine. It was beautiful. It gave me great joy. I checked into Pilates classes on Tuesday. They are pretty full and they will call when they have open space for my daughter and I. I'm reading a good book, I'm talking and laughing with friends (not quite visiting with them too much, yet); I'm seeing my loved ones succeed.

I am living life in a joyful way just now. I say hip hip hooray. I got here! Whew. What a ride!

I've learned the more I accept my truth and not want it to be different, the easier my life force flows. I've learned that sharing my truth enables others to more readily and easily share their own. To me, it feels almost like an 'awakening' each and every time. I've learned that miracles can happen any minute of any day. I've learned that hardship/chaos/'unsettlement' are a part of life. Again, instead of my mind going to - "why" - "I don't want it this way" - "it was never this way before".... and accepting what is - my life goes smoother/easier/more graceful.

By accepting what is - I surely do not mean to accept it, want it this way; like it this way when I really truly do not. I mean live through it as best I can while I change it as the clock ticks away. As I live my day, envision, create, feel, be smart about and involved in all aspects of what is. This is a tall order at times. So, I've learned to be in my truth and process what is prevalent in my current moment as best I can.

Life is here for us to live. Even when I'm at my lowest, not get out of bed moments; I realize now that I am living. For me, this is a part of my life; of who I am. It is my truth.

May you live your life from your innermost knowing and accept it all as you envision and create what brings you greatest joy. Good luck with this; I know it is in you just because you breathe.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!