Be U: Where I'm At

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Monday, May 31, 2021

Where I'm At

For years previous to this, I would post a "Where I'm At" post every now and then in this blog just to be open, true and to share/be Me.

I haven't done it in what feels like forever and something within me has been telling me to do so.

So, here is... Where I'm at...

With the Corona Virus, my husband stopped all travel. He traveled a lot. Mostly every week. So, him being home and not traveling was an 'eye-opener' for both of us.

Today, he starts traveling again. It may prove interesting in many different ways.

I am open to experiencing this 'interesting' from the most open, loving place within myself.

I am alone once again. Home alone. It feels freeing mostly. There is a bit of fright present. And, I truly feel, believe and know that this is going to be an awesome week living in this freedom and this fright.

I have booked many zoom classes, sessions and 'dates' with other women starting their soul fulfilling businesses and soul calling dreams. I have one session booked with a dearest, beautiful friend from sophomore year in high school. We were roommates and we easily got along, worked well together, exercised, played real hard, worked just as hard and know each other deeply, openly, freely and powerfully. She is totally awesome. I deeply love her. I love 'Us'. She is a part of me. This session will be a gift to me. I just know this. I pray, wish, hope and want this session to be an empowering gift to her. May it be so. It is so. So it is.

I hope to gather thoughts, papers and ideas with goals of creating, growing and sharing. No set schedule, other than the calls. No right or wrong. No judgment. I plan to just feel and trust my way upward, onward and through this week of Me Time.

Whoop!

May you do You in the manner that feels best, easiest, fulfilling, freeing and/or whatever describes and encourages what works/plays out best for You.

Oh, what a FUN week we can create. All we need do is believe, allow, flow and g(r)o(w). "Just Be U" and watch your magic explode in the most beautiful and precise way.

My whole body vibrates with anticipation of sharing awesome in and with every experience, situation, moment and relationship I find myself in.

May you let the vibration of You be open, true, loving, kind and, oh, I am so hoping we all find ourselves Wowed. !!

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!