Be U: Bee

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Bee

Thanks to Mr. Ted Andrews for writing this fabulous book that I refer to often for fun; enjoyment and information; help. "Animal Speak"

Yesterday and today, while outside at the horse show, I saw several bees hovering over my diet coke. I couldn't figure why my diet coke because there is no real sugar in it, but I'm guessing it was the lemons that I squeezed in it.

Bee (I am listing the information that I find useful, however, there is more written in the "Animal Speak" book on Bee)

"Fertility and the Honey of Life"

Bees are long time symbols for accomplishing the impossible. Because scientists could not understand how, with its proportions, bees were able to fly. Scientists came up with that bees can move their wings at such a high rate of speed that this is what makes them able to fly. This is why the Bee is a symbol of being able to accomplish the impossible.

If Bee has shown up in your life ask yourself if you are taking the time to enjoy the labors and activities you involve yourself in. If we take the time to enjoy what we are doing, the activity seems to feel more productive and 'taste' sweeter.

The honeycomb of the bee is in the shape of a hexagon This shape signifies mysticism. It is a symbol of the heart and the sweetness of life found within our own hearts. It is a symbol of the sun and all the energy that emits from it.

The bee also reminds us that no matter how great our dream, there is the promise of fulfillment if we keep pursuing it. The elixir of life is as sweet as honey and the bee is a symbol that promises us that the opportunity to drink of it is ours if we only pursue our dreams.

I would love to do what seems to be impossible and heal my hands and the 'problem' that is creating the scleroderma from within. I do believe. I do believe. I do believe.

What would be your impossible dream come true? Do you believe.

This is frost on my car window from the inside of my car in Florida.
What I thought to be impossible shows the true possibility of frost on my car in sunny, warm Florida! Ha.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!

Coming for the Real You.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Bee

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