Be U: Another Day

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Another Day

So, we awaken to another day. I look forward to seeing what the day holds for me. I am open to all that is and I am asking for gentleness, love and a strong inner knowing to walk through with.

It's a beautiful sunny day, a bit muggy, a small breeze and blue skies with thick white clouds. It is quiet. The water in the small lake is dancing and the sunshine on it is sparkling. My bird is chirping as she just went out on the patio and my cat lays on the chair next to the bird in it's cage. Sunshine is the name of my bird. Cali is the name of my cat.

I awoke this morning to my two little dogs and my cat lying next to me cuddling. I realized what a blessing they were for me as my husband travels and my daughter is away riding. These animals are my constant companions.

In this awareness this morning, I realized that I'd like a better balance of these beautiful creatures and beautiful humans in my life. I connected to a tad bit of loneliness. However, I felt peace with it and embrace my alone time just now.

I know once I get into this house (August 4!), there will not be quiet for awhile as cleaning, unpacking, learning about the house and its needs and sharing my happiness with my friends will be all encompassing and I look forward to most of it. I look forward to waking up in a bedroom that I can stretch and look out at the pool. I look forward to my dogs getting more exercise as here in the apartment they can lay and watch my every move. In the house, they will have to follow me if they want to know where I am. We have a small back yard where we can hang out and play. For this, I have immense gratitude.

Interesting the things that come to mind when we don't judge, just allow and embrace them even. It can help to reestablish, reaffirm. Knowing awareness through love can definitely help us create the life that feels good to be in as we delete/change the thoughts that hurt us and reinforce the thoughts that help us to fly such as wind beneath our wings.

May you allow your wings to expand and allow this 'wind' of positive/happy thoughts rise the best you up and fly on through gentle strength of who you were made to be. The creation of you is perfect. Go on with your perfectly imperfect self and use your ability to fly in your grandness.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!