Be U: Believe

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Believe

'When life feels like it is falling apart, it may actually be falling into place'...

How nice this feels to think of the unknown; the changing; the challenging; and the topsy turvy way that life can be and feel and present itself as like it is falling into place rather than falling apart.

When you are experiencing a lot of change and are uncertain in the ever changing moments, just what if life was falling into place for you instead of falling all apart. It may actually be doing both but to think that it is falling into place feels more stable and more safe than not.

'The only thing for certain is change.'

Sometimes we have small moments of positive change. Sometimes we have weeks and/or months or even years of change that we have to settle or resettle ourselves in.

Sometimes things feel like they stay stagnant or same old same old.

When I look at the big picture of life, it seems to find its balance within. In each of our lives, we have known happy times. We have known difficult times. I have heard it said that life is like a tapestry. On this side of being human and alive, we see strings, knots and overlapping lines. Once we leave this human body, we see the other side of the tapestry and it is the most beautiful and clear picture of our life.

It is okay to not know. It is okay to not feel okay. It is okay to be in a disheveled way of living. It is okay to not like it. It is okay.

I am learning that when I walk through with my truth, my open heart and mind, I am walking through my life as best I can.

I am bringing the best part of me; the part that knows fulfillment and wholeness just because I trust the big picture of life and I know 'it is what it is' and even through pain, we are alive and have the ability to choose love as often as possible.

May you choose love; love of self, love of our ability to choose the way we see things, love of our ability to believe in positive possibilities and change; love of others, and love within the moment as often as possible.

May you believe in your own power to know, be and experience love.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!