Be U

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Monday, September 30, 2019

This Way or That

I am open for trying new ways to accomplish health, healing, steadfast joy and the best versions of me.

I realized this morning that instead of trying to fix or heal myself, it feels better to focus on what it is that makes me happy and brings me joy. This is the route I wish to go just now. Concentrating, learning and open to doing, thinking, being and sharing things that make me happy, joyful, elated and the way I live that makes me feel like "I is 'da bomb'".

Concentrating on what makes me feel happy, good, fulfilled, content and true to my nature. Not to concentrate on what hurts, aggravates, any aches and pains; any discomfort and/or things I wish to change.

Perhaps, this is a better way, going forward, to live and experience life.

May you open up and pay attention to what makes you happy, feel good; feel fulfilled, content and true to your nature.

Just maybe this is exactly what fixes, encourages and sustains health.

This way or that way or whatever way shows up for you that feels best within yourself... This is what I wish for You.

"Just 9Be U" Be You to Completion again and again and again. "Grow Yourself Complete" 9 is the number for completion.

Breathe. Stretch. Smile. This is how I end every one of my emails.

"Be good to You" is something I wish to say, offer and share as often as possible. "Be good to You" is something I, just now, have decided is what I also want to keep for myself in/through as many situations, thoughts and feelings as possible.

May You be good to You. BAM

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

Candid Moment(s) in Time

I do not know why I took this picture. I was sitting there just hanging and being me and I was comfortable, grateful and content. What was in front of me made me feel fortunate and happy and, well, me.

A moment in time just being me.

May you have many moments in time just being You. May you be aware, present and participate in same.

Open up to your happy feelings of gratitude, contentment, joy, love, etc. in as many moments throughout each day (and night) as possible.

May you realize and experience your 'simple' moments in time that make you feel like and experience the You that you are and wish to be.

Tuesday, September 24, 2019

May I Offer

May you take care of You.

You are allowed to enjoy all there is to enjoy. You are allowed to invite ease and know that ease is possible and available to you. Relax your shoulders and neck. Relax your face and head. Relax you body.

Breathe into any discomfort you may be feeling. Breathe into all the comfort that is there for you to experience. Breathe deeply; as best you can.

May you meet yourself where you are at. Ask God, the Universe, your angels, etc. for support and help. You are love(d).

Breathe deep and let go. Thank your body. Thank your mind. Thank yourself for paying attention to your own needs and trusting in the process of your life and trusting yourself to live your life and, to often, thrive.

You matter. I care.

May you be true to your life. In this, perhaps, all life will matter.

May You become everything awesome inside of You to become.

Bloom. Explode. Become. Unique.

Oh, beautiful You. Honored.

Saturday, September 21, 2019

Windy

It is very windy and 'alive' out here on the deck of the 21st floor high above the earth and the water. Swirls of whitecaps; calls of birds and boats rocking. There is a weird feeling in the air. There is a haze everywhere.

Sometimes, life can feel 'swirly' and hazy. It can feel weird.

It is in the uncommon-ness that can rock our world; in both good ways and not so easy ways.

This is life. Everyone's life. There are some things we feel natural with and there are some things we may find ourselves feeling uncomfortable or challenged by. The calling of a new way; a new path; a new beginning shows up for us all at different and certain times in our lives.

May you accept your life as it is and bring into it the truth of who you are and the truth of what you feel and experience.

...and watch and feel the wind of magic swirl around you and through you...

Thursday, September 19, 2019

Time (Your Time)

With being diagnosed and living with a dis-ease the medical world has labeled scleroderma, it takes me 1/2 hour to eat a slice of margherita pizza because my mouth is very tiny and my gums are very hard but sensitive.

It takes me time to open things, if I can make it happen at all.

When I drop something on the floor, it may take me 30 seconds or so to be able to grasp it and pick it up as my fingers are not flexible or long. The pads of my fingertips are pretty much gone.

I take more time than I used to to get things done.

This has taught me a very good lesson of living in the moment.

I need my attention to be on what I am doing to get it done.

May you be aware of everything that you are doing... Is it easy, is it hard, is it frustrating, is it joyful. Will you accept whatever 'it' is in the moment... Can you... Are you open to... Do you want to...

May you be aware of the 'power of now' in as many moments as possible. May you be grateful for the situation in the moment; as much as possible. It will either be joyful and easy or, possibly, a moment to learn a new and better way. A possibility to learn to be only love; invite acceptance.

At this time, exactly where you are, may you meet yourself where you are at. May you be okay with where you are at. May you embrace where you are at. May you be true to where you are at. Trust in the moments that arise. Trust in yourself to rise in each moment.

The time is now to accept your life, your self and who you are and what you feel. When we move on from here, in the state of and openness to love, miracles appear. We see signs. We allow ease. We grow. We become.

This all takes time. May you do it all in your own time.

Let love not worry.

Tuesday, September 17, 2019

Open to Love

I am realizing more and more that the more I stay away from struggling, fighting, or wishing things in my life to be different, the more I open to love.

When I can keep my thoughts and judgments of what it is I am feeling; what it is I am experiencing and how it may be different from how I think I'd rather feel and experience life, I am more open to love, peace and harmony within myself and outside of myself.

When I allow what is to be present; when I allow what I feel to be felt, there is an openness that allows for loving acceptance to flow in and create life from a place of love.

When I don't allow myself to gently let what I don't like to feel be felt, I constrict myself and I shut myself down from loving acceptance and its ability to flow through me.

May you stay open to accepting everything as it is; to allow yourself to feel what shows up as your own feelings and allow unease and discomfort to be present when it is.

One can be aware of what one feels and can even say I feel this discomfort, what is it trying to tell me. I feel unease, it is okay. I walk through these feelings instead of immediately wanting to try to fix or change or run.

May you stay with all that you are and feel and let yourself evolve out through love.

Perhaps, in this way, life will flow through us and there will be no war inside of us.

No war inside of ourselves just may create less war outside of ourselves.

Oh, peace. I so invite you within me, around me and throughout others and our entire world.

To create and allow peace within creates and allows peace without.

Oh, the freedom of peace. Let freedom ring. Let us live in peace.

Peace dudes and dudettes.

May you be open to allow love, feel love, share love and be love(d).

Monday, September 16, 2019

Antsy, Anxious and Awesome

Breathe self, breathe. Deeply. Evenly. Lovingly. Feel your own love permeate each and every cell in your body from the top of your head to the tips of your toes. Breathe. Feel your whole body relax and let go. Enter into the wholeness of your breath.

Yikes.

Thanks. I needed that! lol

I have been feeling antsy, anxious and awesome. How quickly I can go from one to another is amazing. I have a feeling of not being settled and an unknowing of what I want to do next. I'm awesome because I am telling myself that it is okay; I am okay and I will know when I am supposed to know.

If you shared kindness today, you done good.

If you shared love today, you done good.

If you were aware of yourself paying attention to what you were feeling, you done good.

If you were gentle to your own self, you done good.

It is, perhaps, in these moments that we are living life fully. It, perhaps, doesn't have to be a big production, it can be a small act that we live our purpose and allow fulfillment.

It is in being fulfilled that we live our awesome.

We are not always going to be happy. We can be fulfilled by opening to all that we are in every breath.

Fulfilled in the fact that you know you are living your true self into each and every situation you come across and/or create.

May you fill yourself up by being true to who you are, what you feel and what you desire.

Believing doesn't always make it real. Ignoring what is doesn't make it go away or not there.

May you let being aware of your truth in every breath, fill you up to awesome.

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!