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Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Friday, September 18, 2015

Hello

I have returned from my trip to Pennsylvania; my old place of residence. I stayed with my sister and celebrated the upcoming wedding of her first born. My goal was to experience this wondrous time of her son falling in love with the woman of his dreams and to celebrate the upcoming nuptials through shower, bachelorette party and details, details, details.

When two families (in this case anyway) merge together to walk forward in and with their children's love, many emotions, lines, boundaries and truths are experienced. Both parents have been married for over 30 years and they both danced to the song "Always and Forever" in their own weddings.

It was a lot of fun, a lot of joy and I met a lot of new people and connected to many friends and family members that I hadn't seen for between 2 and 8 years!

My days were full of love as I walked in and with an open heart.

My sister and I did fun things planning and building the wedding day from her own eyes and the two getting married.

I am so grateful for this time. I wouldn't have missed it and I am glad I didn't have to. !!!

My health held up pretty darn good if I must say so myself. 5 days in is where my body and mind said enough, you need some downtime. My spirit kept me soaring through til the end.

I realized that when I am with people and doing things, it is much easier to forget/ignore the self. I believe this ability is worthy. I also believe the ability to give to one's self during these times is worthy as well. I believe to accomplish a balance that allows for togetherness and alone time is what works best for me. I think I did pretty good. Yay!

May you realize when you want together time and when you want alone time... May you give yourself permission to achieve what you want as often as possible. This is where health, love and spirit soar the best.

I wish for your spirit to always soar as best as possible.

Only we, ourselves, manage this. This, perhaps, is good news and bad news. May we tap into it being only the good news way more than not!

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!