Be U: What If

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Tuesday, February 28, 2023

What If

What if I sat with what feels painful to me and love myself through...

What if I wrote a letter to what is painful to me...

What if I rethink something that is bothersome to me...

What if I stay present to the truth within myself...

Can I say kind things to myself... Can I choose to be extra gentle with myself...

Have I tried asking for help...

Do I dare close my eyes and feel the presence of my life (my aliveness) within me...

Can I welcome the Divine, the Higher Power, the Higher Presence, God within me... Can I know I am worthy of this divinity that is within me... Will I grasp and live through this beautiful universal energy that is within me, mine and unexplainable and true...

I believe the whole universe exists within me.

I am what I am of that which I come from.

Oooh. How mystical and mysterious this can sound and feel. How marvelous and amazing this can be and feel. How true and real when it comes through my love and truth.

To know that something way bigger than myself has me living the life that I am. The life that I was born into. The life that I have cherished, altered, participated in and have grown. This life now. My life now. Exactly how it is. Exactly how I am.

You come from something way bigger than you. You are not alone. You are meant to experience You as You. All that You feel. All that You are. All that You breathe. All that You cherish. All that You, well, have experienced. It is You. It is Yours to be so. Your life now. Exactly as it is. Exactly how You are.

What if we stopped labeling all that we are and open to the experience of Being who we are. Just Be.

From all the mystical, mysterious, marvelous and amazing life experiences that happen.

Scientifically written and what is not written to grasp. Just is. Just are. Just am. Just be.

You.

Honor You(rself). Honor what You feel. Honor all the life that passes through and opens with every breath that You take.

May you open your heart, mind, body and soul. Relax into. Live open. Let your innate knowing and love be so.

Blessing and Love.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!