Eating Uh Oh

I want to be honest and share that I need to save me from myself today...

All I have been doing is eating.  Eating.  Eating.  Eating.

I'm home alone.  It's a hot summer day and I didn't decide to do anything else.  It is my mind telling me I am hungry.  It certainly is not my body.  My body is registering 'full'.

I believe that what I eat matters.  I believe the amount I eat matters.  I believe how I feel about myself eating matters.

It has been shown that when eating something with the feeling of guilt digests differently than eating something with the feeling of enjoyment.  It is always good to eat with awareness.

Oh, I am aware.  And, Oh, I am choosing to not stop myself.  I sure hope I do not do this tomorrow.  I find myself uncomfortable and, in truth, lazy.  Lazy in a way that I just don't want to force myself into doing what is 'right' for me today.  I want to support myself in having an off day.

It is in too many 'off' days therein lies the problem.  I think it is okay to have an off day.  I'm uncertain if this 'off day' is fulfilling.  I guess I will label it at a later time when it feels easier and I can be more true to myself.   Ha.  In truth, this most likely means that it is not fulfilling.  That I have exceeded the amount that would have felt fulfilling.  I can choose to still love myself.  The question is Will I...

May you be aware of what you eat.   May you be aware of how it makes you feel.  May you be aware of the thoughts and feelings that are occurring while you are eating.  May you be present to every taste, smell, bite, flavor, texture and choice.

Most of us know the best and the worst of what we eat.  May you choose best more often than worst.  May you choose you more often than ignoring yourself.  May you choose you over food.

May you be mindful.  May you stay in your comfort zone.  May you experience the feeling of pride because you ate what you thoroughly enjoyed and feel comfortable and good during and after the choice.

May you eat like you love yourself and may it be so.  

Goal(s)

Hello to you.

Goals.  We all have them or, at the very least, wish for something.  Most of us get overwhelmed at times.  Most of us have known achievement.  Most of us have lost our way.  Perhaps, simply because we are human.

I once asked what do I do when I find myself feeling overwhelmed and/or confused...  I received, what I believe to be, a very helpful answer.  The answer was to think of my current goal for the current moment.

Bam.

It brought me right into clarity and peace.  Sometimes the whole picture or big picture of what I believe has to be done is completely overwhelming.  If I break it down into each moment, each step - in this moment of now - I find it easier to choose my current goal [such as my goal in this moment is to write this blog].

It is certainly okay to have small goals such as to just breathe, make a call or connection, do the dishes.  If a larger goal of doing something that has one a bit scared is doable, I say go for it.

May you ask yourself what is your goal in this moment if you find yourself in a state of confusion or a feeling of being overwhelmed.  It is my hope that this could be helpful to you too.

Checkin In

As the day turns to dusk and the bright sunshine wades and disappears, I come to my computer to check in; let you know that I am thinking about you and to see what I have to say, if anything, just now.

I look out the window and I see small fluffy clouds of navy, white, gray and light blue.  I feel a feeling of stillness and an air of calm.  The lights on the buildings are starting to shine on and another day is done.

I am finding myself looking at everything I do as an adventure.  An adventure to do an errand.  An adventure to take a walk.  An adventure to talk to a stranger.  An adventure to love.  An adventure to open up and share my truth.

Life can be an adventure.  It is without a doubt all in the way I choose to look at it.

May you choose to look at life in a way that it brings excitement and/or uplifts you.  You can choose what this is...  Anything that doesn't weigh you down or brings you to fear...

It is a good day if we have moments of lifting ourselves and one another up.  It is a good day when something you do, share, say or feel uplifts you.  It is a good day when we don't find ourselves being our own worst enemy.

May you always be open to having a good day.

Thank you.   I wish you good days always.  And, when it doesn't feel possible, may you see/feel the one thing - no matter how small - that touches your soul.

Kind Awareness

Many of us are becoming more aware of ourselves, our lives and what is happening around us.  Many of us are opening our hearts and minds to the fullness that is life and available to us.

It is one of my goals to be aware and stop there.  Don't judge what I am learning, seeing, feeling and doing.  I'd like to just be it and not put a judgment on it.  It feels to me that the judgment of a situation may not be as conscious as the awareness of each situation, relationship and experience.

To know what I am.  To not judge myself.   This may be the greatest freedom I can offer myself.

May you know that/what you are.  May you be.  May you be aware.  May you just let it be so.  May you not judge.  May you offer yourself the greatest freedom to 'Just Be U'.  

Experience your awareness without judgment of it.

Feel it.  Be it.  Do it.  Breathe.

May you see if this works for You.

Just maybe, this opens us up to the authenticity of self.

Living in my own authenticity and love is where I strive to live.

May you know - if you wish to - where you strive to live.  Let the awareness of this take you there.

Summer

Summer is upon us here in the southeast part of the USA.  Whew.  Heat wave for sure.  One only needs to stand still outside to feel the body start to perspire.

The days are getting shorter and the nights are getting longer.

Sunset is earlier.  A full moon is just around the corner.

Nature is always changing and so are we.  Yet, sometimes it feels like I stay the same.  I have lived long enough to know that I have and do not.

I practice gratitude consciously.  I've always been thankful.  However, perhaps, with not as much consciousness as I do now.

I always knew I was grateful for fun days, enjoyable people, wonderful views and exercise.  Now, it is more about loving people, who I am and my relationship(s) with all that is.

Life is deeper these days.  Change is more drastic at times.  Information more forthcoming.  Living in the truth of  'life' seems to be a deeper experience, perhaps, with more challenge as connection to everything is just a click away.  What is happening 'over there' is more real.  What is happening 'here' is known by more 'critics'.

No where left to hide.

Just like heat in the summertime, truth in the experience is present and witnessed.

May you allow what is to be experienced by the truth of who you are.  May you not hide from the truth.

Whether we hide from it, ignore it, do not speak of it, it is still the truth.  I think witnessing and processing each situation and experience that arises is the greatest way to become, grow, create and walk in our best path.

No more elephants in the room.  No more pretense.

May you get as real as you possibly can get.  Don't sweat it.  Just let your own love and truth guide you.

Be free to be everything beautiful that you are.

Flow.   Grow.   Glow.

Here We Are

Whew.   What a life.  What living.  What experiences.  What wonder.

Right now as you are reading this, you are breathing.  Perhaps, stop...  check in with yourself...  what are you feeling...  is your body relaxed...  are you present in this moment or only kind of sort of here while beginning to take the step into the next upcoming moment(s)...

Can you give your body a deep inhale and exhale a few times...

Can you feel the ground underneath you supporting you...

Will you allow the feeling of love for yourself...

Are your shoulders up by your ears or relaxed...

Right now, in this very moment, we are living.   This is us living.  Can you give yourself a choice on how you want to feel...   how you wish to experience this moment...

Do you have the feelings you wish to feel present...

Whatever you are feeling, do you trust yourself to be here for yourself always and in every situation.  Can you make a pact to never abandon yourself...

This moment is yours, especially if you let it be.

May you create each moment into the moment that you can know fulfillment because you are present to your feelings and present for yourself in your truth to what you feel...

May you create the you that is best to experience life as...

Perhaps, it is not so much as create but tap into...

You know better than anyone about you, your life and your dreams.

May you live as You.

Namaste.

What you see and how you experience what you see is totally up to you...  May you see with the best part(s) of you to create the best and most true experiences.

Duality

Duality has been coming up for me for a while now.  Duality - 'a dual state' (dictionary.com)

Where I once believed and experienced that I cannot feel fear and love at the same time, this is exactly what I have been experiencing.

I can have love in my heart and fear in the brain.  I can feel both within my being.  There is a loud duality going on that I am experiencing.  A duality of being able to see life in more than one way.  Questioning.   The vibrations are like a concerto that includes all the notes along with many different instruments.

It feels powerful.  It is a loud feeling about the world [and everything and everyone in it] that I feel like I have never experienced before in this way and to this degree.

I am being challenged within each breath.   I am experiencing love, excitement and trust along with fear, stuck-ness and being easily overwhelmed.  It is not so much that I am going back and forth and from one to the other.  It is more that a complete set of emotions and all of life are within me and playing out through and around me.

Do I want to fight what is because I don't like it or do I want to accept what is and bring the true me into it and through it...  Do things not change, eventually, anyway...   I ask myself what brings me the most peace within...

May you choose peace within if this is what you wish for.  

BAM!  What do I do with all of this dancing, noise and information...  How is it so that I am also experiencing silence, peace and the deepest and strongest sense of self that I have ever felt before...

I hear in my thoughts that this is where the words 'mind blown' come into play; up to the surface and through my awareness.  WOW.  'Mind blown'

I read where the earth is vibrating at the highest of highs.  I read and hear about a lot of sorrow and loss. I feel indecipherable change taking place within almost everyone's life.  I feel the majority and mainstream of humankind being tattered, battered, worn, questioned, bounced about and shown to experience things to include the greatest world upheaval that has ever been displayed.

I do not wish to label it good or bad.  I only wish to hold space for the best to come up and through each of us.

May you allow yourself to participate in what is being shown to you.  May you keep an open heart and mind and be willing to expand into the greatest life that you can 'dream' up.  May you know gratitude, forgiveness, and truth.  May you just breathe into yourself and acknowledge what you are feeling/experiencing when/if you find yourself at a crossroad or overwhelmed by the information pouring into your own awareness and consciousness.

The 'roof' is being raised, perhaps.  Consciousness is expanding.  Awareness is in our face.  New options are being offered.  A new way of life is being created.

You being true to who You are and what You feel is everyone's best way forward; in a loving, non-judgmental, and easygoing way; inasmuch as possible.    

May you "Just 9Be U".  May you begin/continue/realize your way to 'grow yourself complete' (fully true, present and vulnerable) in as many situations, experiences, relationships and plans that you find yourself experiencing.

"Out with the old.  In with the You."  Michael Harrell