Be U: Seeing

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Thursday, September 10, 2020

Seeing

I am amazed by the different and very new ways I am seeing things. My resonation to things that I'm experiencing is also new. Some things I have known, or thought I knew as true, are looking different to me. I am waking up to more details, possibilities, new truths, new versions and new insight into [what feels like] very important roles in my life.

We are all so very different through our upbringing, experiences, lessons, beliefs and even through the totality of how we process all these things.

We are all very much the same as we all are born and we all die. We all want to feel we matter and feel love(d). We all connect to our lives even if it feels like a disconnect at times. We are all miracles and we all have desires. We all feel even as it may be in our not feeling. This is experiencing life in our human form. We all sense (if we go here) that there is something more; greater than what we know and see. We all question. We all question a life that is different than the one we have; even if it's just a momentary thing. We may wonder how our life would be ‘if...’.

This is life. This is living. When you have awesome going on, may you enjoy every breath. When you have struggle going on, may you learn to accept and bring your truth (in)to it. When you have uncertainty and/or confusion going on, may you go deep within and be true to and mindful of your thoughts, what you are telling yourself and find the knowledge within you to support yourself. When you find yourself impatient, may you believe in divine timing and placement.

Oh these are times unlike any other time in history. With infinite knowledge at our fingertips, many of us are overwhelmed, in unrest, on adrenaline highs, and unsettled. We are also empowered and have both innate intelligence and street and/or schooled intelligence.

May you trust that where you are, what you feel and the experiences going through you are exactly how your life is divinely set to learn from, build on, engage, grow and become everything that is meant for You. As you find your loving stillness and trust in your beingness, you open your soul’s knowledge to create action to journey the oh so awesome adventure that is You(rs).

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!