Be U: Here. Today.

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Here. Today.

As I wander over to the computer today and log into the Be U blog, I have no words, ideas or suggestions to share.

I have been on the phone looking for answers, products and connections to ways of doing things easier, better; being more informed.

The information doesn't come easily. Connection doesn't always come easily. The sales consultants are not offering me description, prices or sizes easily. The sales consultant is suggesting for me to go to a nearby store to see for myself. This is a fine and dandy idea. However, what are the phone sales consultants for if they are unable to 'consult' with me about their company's products.

What a hoot.

At times, I would say this must be me. This is my mind not understanding or knowing how to get the answers I need/want. But, just, what if, it is not always me. That it isn't even mostly me. What if our human world is changing, growing and offering us things that even the professionals cannot keep up with. Just what if, it is time to slow down and be happy with what we have and where we are.. If only for a moment.

Yes, technology and progress has given us humans ease, information and informed help in accomplishing and even creating our goals under many distinctions. Answers to just about anything factual, and even non-factual, are abundant and right at our fingertips.

And, there is so much unknown. There is so much that can't be fixed. There is so much that challenges us to grow. There are so many new ways of being and doing.

I feel like mistakes, returns, lots of having to learn things and do-overs are the norm. Maybe this is okay.

I think what I'm trying to offer is that if you are confused, overwhelmed, baffled in today's world -- maybe it isn't even mostly you. Just maybe it is our world and how we have created it.

Be gentle on yourself as we all walk through what is known to be the biggest manifestation, shift, evolution, changes of, in and for our world; that our world has ever experienced, ever before.

We are all here at this particular time of evolution to evolve into a new species of human BEings doing things in new ways, new thinking and, perhaps, even with new faces. Some faces are medically enhanced. Some faces are our own true ones. Some faces are in between. Maybe, there is a part of us that is deciding if we want to show or hide our own vulnerability behind our faces.

Many are finding that it hurts more than not to hide our pain anymore. There is great change within what we 'face'. Honor yourself and each other. Bring your true, loving self to each situation. Be gentle with yourself and follow your inner knowing and what is best for you as preciously as you possibly can. Let's support one another to do the same. Let love dominate through this.

Bam. This is one way to walk through and enjoy today as best as possible being present and true to what and who we are.

If you feel confused, don't judge it. Step back and be with it. Be open to your best way forward. Ask yourself what is your goal in this moment that you feel confusion in.

Confusion usually occurs when we want it one way and it is happening another.. or we want it one way and we are fearful of sharing our desire. We resist, get confused, feel challenged and think ourselves lost or less than.

When really all that is happening is -- there is a new way showing itself. A different way to be had; to walk through life. Be present and aware. Do not allow auto-pilot and pretense.

May you tell yourself that you are open minded, open hearted and let it be so. Receive.. Feel.. Know.. Process.. Speak your truth.. Let go.

The time is now. Bring the power of the loving truth of you into play.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!