Be U: Where I'm At

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Where I'm At

I'm scared and I'm so excited. I'm setting up addresses/'paypal' account/filing company name with courthouse, ordering tax id number and ordering credit card so that I can do business as "Just 9BeU".

I remember doing this with Beachin Bodies 30 years ago when life/society/connection to things were different. There is so much more complexity now. There are so many things that are so much simpler. It is quite the hoot.

Click of a button - every bit of information necessary to do the above is right here, right now. With the click of a button, I get so much information that I can find myself overwhelmed and my head spinning.

What a ride!

I have 'to do' lists and I am living among you humans ready to continue the next chapter of my humanness. I live with open heart knowing that the people I connect to and encounter are exactly the right people that I am supposed to connect to and encounter.

I am home alone with both daughter and husband traveling. I am here giving myself permission to do me and to create the life that I am ready to live as an individual and a woman. I will always support my family and I am learning that to support one's self is of utmost importance. Thriving is a beautiful thing and, perhaps, the only way one can truly thrive is if they live the life inside of themselves to fulfillment.

So, live I shall. I'm ready to not only be a mom, a wife, a friend but to once again be a professional. Yikes. It is scary and it is exciting.

It is inside of me to do.

So 'do' I shall.

May you do what is inside of you to do.

May you first connect to, dream with, encounter and know what it is that wants outside of yourself. May you know when you are ready. May you be gentle on yourself throughout each process and situation that you find yourself in. May you create your dreams within without. It is time. I believe. Continue on.

Photo by Greg as shown on picture (I'm sorry - I cannot make out his name)
This is a flower that looks like a butterfly; a 'black bat' flower.

Sonia Ochoa, a professional dancer that looks like an angel.

Either way, I believe their beauty in their art is from within because it is glorious.

May you allow yourself to shine the beautiful 'art' that is within you.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!