Be U: Me. You. Us.

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Me. You. Us.

I went to the dentist today and received my permanent bridge placed into my tiny mouth. But, it is in and I'm looking pretty darn good! ha!

It isn't the easiest thing for me to sit in the dentist chair. I have to gather my courage, get in the right mindset and greatly trust that I will make it to the other side of the appointment.

I did. It was one of the easier ones and I am so grateful for easier. I'm always so open to ease.

I am in the process of applying for a medical marijuana card as the Pain Management Doctor seems to think I am a "perfect candidate" for it. With my constant struggle; with my discomfort and challenges; and my constant irritation with acquiring legal pharmaceutical medicine, I just have to try this. I have to know if it is for me.

Never say never. I never thought I'd be in a doctor's office requesting the legal dispensing of marijuana; medical marijuana. It is either a vapor or capsules that they offered me and I will try the capsules first as it is what I know.   I have a feeling that the vapor may be a better choice, but one step at a time.

I wasn't offered cookies or lollipops or anything else. I am now applying with the state and I needed a 2x2 new passport picture. I went and had that taken. Step my step, and maybe within four weeks, I will be experimenting with cannabis and the effect it has on my health, mind and vitality of life. Last week, it was a 3 month grace period before I could acquire it.  Just this past weekend, the 3 month waiting period was banned. Lucky for me. I'm sure for others too.

It is my hope that you are doing, trying, and open to anything and everything that shows itself to you as a possible step to experiment with things (and life) that could have a positive effect on your health, mind and vitality of your way of life.

I truly believe we are the ones who know what we feel the most accurate; the deepest and the many different emotions and levels that we go through.

May you open up to your best and highest frequency possible. How high can you go??!?!

Individually, together, as we walk this journey called life - as we stay open minded and open hearted and as we relax into our vulnerability, it is my hope, dream and belief that this is what is going to give ourselves, each other and the world the opportunity to live at our highest of peaks as often as possible.

I wish you heights that come from within you and, maybe, even exceed your wildest and deepest dreams.

May you live your wildest and deepest dreams from the depth of yourself; your knowing and whole self.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!