I let it rest.
May you let things rest when there is no definite clear answer. The answer may just be in the silence.
Silence on. Just maybe this is/can be a 'job' in itself ...
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Brain
My brain does not want to think or be involved in much just now. It is tired. It is on overload. Change has its attention and all the incompleteness bombards it.
I let it rest.
May you let things rest when there is no definite clear answer. The answer may just be in the silence.
Silence on. Just maybe this is/can be a 'job' in itself ...
I let it rest.
May you let things rest when there is no definite clear answer. The answer may just be in the silence.
Silence on. Just maybe this is/can be a 'job' in itself ...
Energy
I am feeling my 'energy' going outward and wanting to work professionally in a field that supports others to "Just Be U".
I am feeling a great need for this. It is deep inside of me and I can feel it crawling outward. I know fear with it. I know excitement. I know hope and love. I know great 'spot on' passion.
I don't know anything else just now! lol hoot yikes
I continue on and am open to any and all possibilities as I 'feel' and live my way towards this.
May you connect to your depth and allow it to process upward and outward or in whatever direction 'it' wants to go. May you stay open to all your possibilities.
OBWU Facebook
I am feeling a great need for this. It is deep inside of me and I can feel it crawling outward. I know fear with it. I know excitement. I know hope and love. I know great 'spot on' passion.
I don't know anything else just now! lol hoot yikes
I continue on and am open to any and all possibilities as I 'feel' and live my way towards this.
May you connect to your depth and allow it to process upward and outward or in whatever direction 'it' wants to go. May you stay open to all your possibilities.
Friday, October 4, 2013
Ch Ch Ch Changes
My head spins with letting go, giving up, passing on, creating anew and building up. I heard myself say yesterday that "I am getting used to living with my head spinning." Yikes
I don't want to get used to this and, in truth, I would never want to accept this as my 'normal'.
I am processing everything that was as I am in between 'that' and what is going to be.
I let go of my love and heart where my 'Shambala' was in my life and I am open to creating my world as I want/would like/need it to be going forward into another chapter of my life.
Selling, buying and moving one's 'home' can be quite the challenge. And, while the limited doors of what was are closing, many new and wonderful doors are opening. What an adventure!
My head spins with so much adventure. And, I Adventure on.
May you know the adventure of your own life and let it live and pass through you as you stay open to all possibilities. Choose the adventure you want to participate in through love. Your love of self and your love of what is and your love of others. Your love is what matters most and can direct you and keep you on the path to You and Your Life. Adventure On.
I don't want to get used to this and, in truth, I would never want to accept this as my 'normal'.
I am processing everything that was as I am in between 'that' and what is going to be.
I let go of my love and heart where my 'Shambala' was in my life and I am open to creating my world as I want/would like/need it to be going forward into another chapter of my life.
Selling, buying and moving one's 'home' can be quite the challenge. And, while the limited doors of what was are closing, many new and wonderful doors are opening. What an adventure!
My head spins with so much adventure. And, I Adventure on.
May you know the adventure of your own life and let it live and pass through you as you stay open to all possibilities. Choose the adventure you want to participate in through love. Your love of self and your love of what is and your love of others. Your love is what matters most and can direct you and keep you on the path to You and Your Life. Adventure On.
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Yesterday
"Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away...." Beatles
I remember singing this song at the piano when I learned that I had to get my tonsils out at the age of 14. I sang it for days! lol
And, today, I had a day. Getting ready up north for a huge open house; looking for office space here in Florida for my husband; many people reaching out and 'wanting' 'stuff' as I clear out and break down my home via great, wonderful help that I am so appreciative for. These people are truly my angels just now. How lucky I am that I do not have to watch this breakdown and only participate via conversations, phone calls, pictures and emails.
I don't think I could bear to watch what I built be dispatched, broken down, sold, given away and tossed. And, there is no other way if I no longer have the need for these items in my life going forward.
We sure learn a lot by experience. And, I am so much more grateful for the experience than not.
May you know gratefulness as much as you possibly can for as many situations as you possibly can.
I remember singing this song at the piano when I learned that I had to get my tonsils out at the age of 14. I sang it for days! lol
And, today, I had a day. Getting ready up north for a huge open house; looking for office space here in Florida for my husband; many people reaching out and 'wanting' 'stuff' as I clear out and break down my home via great, wonderful help that I am so appreciative for. These people are truly my angels just now. How lucky I am that I do not have to watch this breakdown and only participate via conversations, phone calls, pictures and emails.
I don't think I could bear to watch what I built be dispatched, broken down, sold, given away and tossed. And, there is no other way if I no longer have the need for these items in my life going forward.
We sure learn a lot by experience. And, I am so much more grateful for the experience than not.
May you know gratefulness as much as you possibly can for as many situations as you possibly can.
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Today
My husband is coming in today from Canada. My daughter is going north for the weekend. Oh, the many possibilities!
I prepare for his arrival. I prepare for her departure. I don't know where I'm going with this information. Apparently, nowhere! lol
I'm often in a state of flux, physically and mentally and emotionally. We have an Open House scheduled for our house in Pennsylvania on Sunday. We are breaking much of what was once "Shambala" down. Going through Christmas decorations via phone between myself and my great help which is my sister. I 'walk' through the whole house with her figuring what we are keeping, what we want to sell and what we will give to, hopefully, parties that need it the most.
Almost every 'piece' we discuss has sentimental value for me; what it represented, where I got it from and the wonderful memories that I have attached to much of the material things. I take these memories and place them gently in my heart and fill it up so I can take all the beauty of Shambala with me.
I'm realizing it was like a 'fortress' to me. A beautiful safe haven where every where I looked and stood, I was surrounded by things that made me feel comfortable, joyful and connected me to the beauty of it all and to the love of many living creatures. There is a memory with every single knob, handle, floor and ceiling beam for me.
My humanness surely finds comfort in color, flow of water, fish, animals, plants, green grass and beautiful big trees. My body sure enjoys sitting in comfortable chairs and being surrounded by things that just make life easier such as the recyclable bin that went from the house to the garage so I did not have to put my 'nose' out into the cold winter to recycle. I feel very blessed and am proud of my creativity and my ability to make this happen; along with my husband's huge help and hard work.
I am finding myself bending to use the washer/dryer/refrigerator and stove here in the apartment. While they all work fine, there is something comfortable in having high, strong, quiet appliances that do make the human life easier.
I wish ease for every human in the way that ease matters to them most. For me it was being warm and cozy and having much comfort in the style and the use of everything I was able to think of. Sharing what I had with my loved ones brought me extreme joy and fulfillment.
So, as I learn that my 'home' is inside of me and my peace and contentment come from within as well, I cannot discount that 'things' do make life less of a struggle. Even the carpeting in this current apartment, while new and just fine; I have learned that extra padding under the carpet makes it last longer in looking good and being comfortable. I have learned having a hot water line and not having to wait for hot water in any place of the house is quite comforting and creates much ease and saves water. Of course, to heat the water does not save energy. There is a constant payoff with everything.
Yin/Yang. Good/Evil. Happy/Sad Up/Down Comfort/Discomfort I'm sure you understand and can come up with many opposites of your own that you have lived through, happily experienced and just barely survived!
With each of these experiences, we grow. Happy continued growing!
May you know that you deserve ease and may you open your heart to living in comfort; whatever this means to you.
I still totally believe, that when we share our truest of truths about ourselves with each other and support each other in doing so.... a nice, beautiful and loving balance can take place throughout all of our lives.
We have nothing to lose. It is worth a try. Just Be U, lovingly, openly, truthfully and put out into the Universe what is deep within yourself and I believe the Universe/God/Creator will respond in your best light for your best life.
You deserve it. You are worthy. You matter. IT IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND HOW YOU PERCEIVE YOUR WORLD. My wish for you is to perceive it in the best light you are able to today.
I need to recreate my perception almost by starting over. Oh, not easy. Oh, the possibilities.
May you allow the most bizarre, can't imagine it happening, and the happiest possibilities come your way and grab on and follow your passion in every step you take.
Go the road that makes you happiest through constant flow, trust and deepest inner knowing communication/connection with your heart, soul, mind and body all growing and creating together.
Unknown
I prepare for his arrival. I prepare for her departure. I don't know where I'm going with this information. Apparently, nowhere! lol
I'm often in a state of flux, physically and mentally and emotionally. We have an Open House scheduled for our house in Pennsylvania on Sunday. We are breaking much of what was once "Shambala" down. Going through Christmas decorations via phone between myself and my great help which is my sister. I 'walk' through the whole house with her figuring what we are keeping, what we want to sell and what we will give to, hopefully, parties that need it the most.
Almost every 'piece' we discuss has sentimental value for me; what it represented, where I got it from and the wonderful memories that I have attached to much of the material things. I take these memories and place them gently in my heart and fill it up so I can take all the beauty of Shambala with me.
I'm realizing it was like a 'fortress' to me. A beautiful safe haven where every where I looked and stood, I was surrounded by things that made me feel comfortable, joyful and connected me to the beauty of it all and to the love of many living creatures. There is a memory with every single knob, handle, floor and ceiling beam for me.
My humanness surely finds comfort in color, flow of water, fish, animals, plants, green grass and beautiful big trees. My body sure enjoys sitting in comfortable chairs and being surrounded by things that just make life easier such as the recyclable bin that went from the house to the garage so I did not have to put my 'nose' out into the cold winter to recycle. I feel very blessed and am proud of my creativity and my ability to make this happen; along with my husband's huge help and hard work.
I am finding myself bending to use the washer/dryer/refrigerator and stove here in the apartment. While they all work fine, there is something comfortable in having high, strong, quiet appliances that do make the human life easier.
I wish ease for every human in the way that ease matters to them most. For me it was being warm and cozy and having much comfort in the style and the use of everything I was able to think of. Sharing what I had with my loved ones brought me extreme joy and fulfillment.
So, as I learn that my 'home' is inside of me and my peace and contentment come from within as well, I cannot discount that 'things' do make life less of a struggle. Even the carpeting in this current apartment, while new and just fine; I have learned that extra padding under the carpet makes it last longer in looking good and being comfortable. I have learned having a hot water line and not having to wait for hot water in any place of the house is quite comforting and creates much ease and saves water. Of course, to heat the water does not save energy. There is a constant payoff with everything.
Yin/Yang. Good/Evil. Happy/Sad Up/Down Comfort/Discomfort I'm sure you understand and can come up with many opposites of your own that you have lived through, happily experienced and just barely survived!
With each of these experiences, we grow. Happy continued growing!
May you know that you deserve ease and may you open your heart to living in comfort; whatever this means to you.
I still totally believe, that when we share our truest of truths about ourselves with each other and support each other in doing so.... a nice, beautiful and loving balance can take place throughout all of our lives.
We have nothing to lose. It is worth a try. Just Be U, lovingly, openly, truthfully and put out into the Universe what is deep within yourself and I believe the Universe/God/Creator will respond in your best light for your best life.
You deserve it. You are worthy. You matter. IT IS ALL ABOUT YOU AND HOW YOU PERCEIVE YOUR WORLD. My wish for you is to perceive it in the best light you are able to today.
I need to recreate my perception almost by starting over. Oh, not easy. Oh, the possibilities.
May you allow the most bizarre, can't imagine it happening, and the happiest possibilities come your way and grab on and follow your passion in every step you take.
Go the road that makes you happiest through constant flow, trust and deepest inner knowing communication/connection with your heart, soul, mind and body all growing and creating together.
Pharmaceutical Medicine
I am still 'working' with the medicine that I have been on for pain a long time. I am uncertain if it helps me or hurts me. I am open to know the answer.
It is not easy. It Definitely affects me.
I 'work' on.
May you be aware of what you are allowing into your beautiful, supportive body and know how your body is affected by it.
It is not easy. It Definitely affects me.
I 'work' on.
May you be aware of what you are allowing into your beautiful, supportive body and know how your body is affected by it.
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Middle
Many of us are in the 'middle' just now. We are not where we know we are going and we are not in our past. we are here now; in the middle.
It is a trying place at times. It is a happy place at times. It is a scary place and it is a place where anything is possible.
My mind is in a heightened state of confusion. With the internet and everything that I depend on it for; it is awesome and frustrating.
I am paying the apartment rent today online and because the apartment complex has changed their rent payment website, I am lost. I must set up a new account and my head spins with the information that I need to complete the transaction. While I know I can do this and I know it really isn't a big deal, being in the moment of one more added 'change' just now in my life... it throws me.... Yikes.
So, I walk away, catch my breath, and come back to it with new insight, calmness and understanding.
Crack me up that this new technology is making our lives easier. And, I know that it is and has. I also know that it's complex and a work in progress as well.
What happened to one telephone company; one electric company and one gas company... What a hoot. So many options, so many roads open, so many roads shut down, so many things to get lost in.
So as we find our way while we are lost.... (if you are not lost, ENJOY IT)
May you breathe. May you hold on to what is working and let go of what is not and create what is best for you.
May we survive the shift that we are living in and reap and enjoy it's benefits whenever/wherever/however possible.
WOWZA!
Unknown
p.s. "Internet" came up as a misspelled word on spell check.... Hoot!
It is a trying place at times. It is a happy place at times. It is a scary place and it is a place where anything is possible.
My mind is in a heightened state of confusion. With the internet and everything that I depend on it for; it is awesome and frustrating.
I am paying the apartment rent today online and because the apartment complex has changed their rent payment website, I am lost. I must set up a new account and my head spins with the information that I need to complete the transaction. While I know I can do this and I know it really isn't a big deal, being in the moment of one more added 'change' just now in my life... it throws me.... Yikes.
So, I walk away, catch my breath, and come back to it with new insight, calmness and understanding.
Crack me up that this new technology is making our lives easier. And, I know that it is and has. I also know that it's complex and a work in progress as well.
What happened to one telephone company; one electric company and one gas company... What a hoot. So many options, so many roads open, so many roads shut down, so many things to get lost in.
So as we find our way while we are lost.... (if you are not lost, ENJOY IT)
May you breathe. May you hold on to what is working and let go of what is not and create what is best for you.
May we survive the shift that we are living in and reap and enjoy it's benefits whenever/wherever/however possible.
WOWZA!
p.s. "Internet" came up as a misspelled word on spell check.... Hoot!
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