Be U

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Friday, April 19, 2013

Out

I did go out yesterday (ooh) for fun and it was a beautiful sunny, hot day. I opened the moon roof and windows and went on down the street with my music blaring and the wind blowing. YES, it was enjoyable. Yes, I want to do more. Yes, I ended up sitting at a movie theatre watching the latest Tyler Perry movie, "Temptation". A very interesting movie - thought provoking and surprising (just like our current world). He does good work. I love his work. Something about him, I strongly connect to in my soul. I am grateful for his work.

Anyhoo, I drove a bit more after the movie and, bammo, I hit a turtle in it's shell on the highway. Ugh. My car must've been too low to go across him and I heard his shell bang. I felt terrible for this poor harmless turtle. I told him in my mind that I was sorry and I dislike very much that it happened. What's a car driver to do when in fast moving traffic....Yuk

I believe any almost any living thing is beautiful and has a right to its place in life. Call me weird or a 'wackadoodle', I cannot step on a spider or kill a stink bug.   I have to gather them and put them outside to carry on.

We all have our 'stuff', don't we! Mmmmm

So, today, here I am. Alone and able to do whatever I choose. I am in control and no one is around to judge me, want me, change me, compromise with me or need me. It's quite a place I find myself. I am grateful for this temporary aloneness. If I cannot live me now -- I want to say I'm screwed. However, I will say, I'm in trouble if I cannot find things to do and enjoy doing them.

I believe I need this time to learn how to take care of me better and more fully. I have a list in mind such as cranial sacral massage, pedicure, hair, girlfriends, exploring and adventures. I am excited and I will also be out of my box for a bit. I've been inwardly searching for years now and I'm ready to take this ME that I am and bring me out into our world once again. I have an idea of how it will look. I have a great idea that it will feel wonderful.

I'm reminded again that I feel like a 52 year old new born peeking my head out into our world and wanting to go out and dance in the rain; or the sunshine; or the high winds.   I just want to dance! I hope I have the energy. (oh, my human brain)

I was at a massage last week and the woman mentioned to, perhaps, "stop asking why". Just go through my day and stop asking why. I always thought that if I knew the why I could 'fix' things. What if nothing needs to be 'fixed' and we can still choose to smile, laugh, be together and accept what is and learn a better way to move forward as we do so.

A strong person cries as easily as they laugh. A strong person embraces as easily as they fight. A strong person accepts as easily as they judge.

May you allow your 'strength' to carry you forward.

Let the chapters of my/our journey here on earth continue!

What are you going to do with your time today? If you say you have no time, is this 100% true?!?? Mmmmm

Thursday, April 18, 2013

STOP

Perhaps, we all could use the valuable tool of STOP! STOP what we are doing and just change it up in one way; at the very least. There is abundant chaos, horrific information, hurt, anger and fear in our world. I almost can't breathe at times.

I'd like us all to STOP immediately doing things as usual and change one thing up right now today that will change the path of our world. Just what if it really could! Change one thing to pleasure and lightness today and my hope is that this pleasure and lightness will abound and darkness and pain will dissipate; and quickly, would be preferable.

Live your truth; be vulnerable in the right places through your truth and trust that you have everything you need to carry on beautifully. Perhaps, start with your family dynamics. Lovingly, speak your truth of how you are feeling and the way the world (even within your household) is affecting you just now. Tell them how you'd like it to be; your ultimate happy picture of how you would best be at your happiest.

I am STOPPED. I am waking up in the morning and going to bed at night. I confer with many people through the day, mostly electronically, and I'm afraid to go out into this world that feels so dark just now. AND, GO OUT I WILL. I plan on getting in the car and driving; letting the windows down and blasting the music. I'm going out for enjoyment today and I will not let fear, darkness and uncertainty stop me.

The pained must be loved and the loved must be giving if we are to live a better, happier, stronger, lovelier life. I know I want to.

If you are in the position to give one extra smile today, please try it - you just may like it. If you have no smile in you today, be open to feeling your lips curve up and wonderful chemicals release into your system and honor what and how you feel today. You are 'here' for a real reason. You are not making up the way you feel. Listen to yourself, hear and respond in the manner that best brings you connected to your truth.

STOP, FEEL, CARRY ON in one way that is different for you today. Do it for yourself, your loved ones, your world and for me, please.

I need the world to feel, do, and live better. I need this now today. Please help me.

May you STOP, search, and do one thing that makes you know you have it going on because it makes you feel good!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Reading

I came across an interesting paragraph in the book I was reading the past few nights. With the death of my fabulous Aunt "E", these words hit me strongly and strangely...

"It's my aunt Eleanor. She was napping in her room, and Sallie went to check on her, and according to your mother, there's something wrong with Aunt Eleanor's breathing." Mason stood up abruptly. "Do we need to get a doctor? Take her to the hospital?" "Who knows?" Celia said. "She's in her nineties."*

Is there a message in here somewhere in this reading.....Mmmmm

May you read into everything that pushes you closer to sharing your true self with all of us.

*From the book "Spring Fever" by Mary Kay Andrews

Aunt E - I love and miss you. Thank you for being in my life and teaching me much.

Truths

"I never lie, Duchess. I find the truth more interesting."

From the book "Island of Flowers" by Nora Roberts

May you be 'more interesting' always.

Save the World

"We don't need to save the world, just spend it more wisely." Swami Beyondananda

"In fact, many of our strengths and weaknesses, the parts of ourselves we own as who we are, are directly attributable to familial and cultural perceptions downloaded into our minds before we were six years old. Programmed perceptions acquired in these developmental years are primarily responsible for health and behavioral issues experienced in our adult lives."

"What we mean by self-consciousness isn't "I hope my hair looks okay," but, rather, a quality of being both a participant in life and an observer of life at the same time."

From the book, "Spontaneous evolution: Our Positive Future (and a Way to Get There from Here)" by Bruce Lipton and Steve Bhaerman

May you recreate your thinking for your life as it is today. Be present to your thoughts and let things work for you in the now. BE YOU NOW

Brain Power?

From the book "Spontaneous Evolution: Our Positive Future (and a Way to Get There from Here)" by Bruce Lipton and

Steve Bhaerman

"The brain, like any governing entity, seeks harmony. Neural harmony is expressed as a measure of congruency between the mind's perceptions and the life we experience. An interesting insight into how the mind creates harmony between its perceptions and the real world is frequently illustrated in stage hypnosis shows. A volunteer from the audience is invited onstage, hypnotized, and asked to pick up a glass of water, which the volunteer is told weighs one thousand pounds. With that misinformation, the volunteer struggles unsuccessfully with straining muscles, bulging veins, and perspiration. How can that be? Obviously the glass doesn't weigh one thousand pounds even though the mind of the subject firmly believes that it does. To manifest the perceived reality of a thousand pound glass of water, something that cannot be lifted, the hypnotized subject's mind fires a signal to the muscles used to lift the glass at the same time it fires contradictory signals to the muscles used to set the glass down! This results in an isometric exercise wherein two groups of muscles work to oppose each other, which results in no net movement--but a lot of strain and sweat. Cells, tissues, and organs do not question information sent by the nervous system. Rather, they respond with equal fervor to accurate life-affirming perceptions and to self-destructive misperceptions. Consequently, the nature of our perceptions greatly influences the fate of our lives."

In my own words and how I hear this.... What/how we think is what/how our bodies respond...

May your body be happy today. May you change your thoughts if it isn't so.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Torn

Somewhere between living in a beautiful oasis that belonged to me to placing my home up for sale and allowing the house to be 'staged' to allow others to be able to envision themselves as the resident of this home...

This is where my 'Shambala' is at:

(SORRY - 'token has expired" for the sales video. If it becomes available again - I will post) My own pictures are below before 'staging' occurred.)

May you enjoy it for me because I am still somewhat pained to see what was once mine feel like it has become the realtors. And, I know this is the direction I truly want to go. I want to create anew and, my next chapter, will not have such a grand house.

Yes, I put myself here exactly where I am at. No one else is responsible for me but me.

Yes, I made a mistake by creating this 'heartache' of still owning a home that feels like it is no longer mine. I did the best I could with what I knew and where I was and what I believed.

Yes, I love and have great pride in the detail of this home.

May it feel like a mini-vacation to you (if you enjoy looking at homes) and allow your own dreams to become your truth. May you give yourself permission to have everything that you truly want from deep within.

"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it." – William Arthur Ward

Family Room

Formal DR

Formal LR

Informal DR/Fish Tank

Yoga Room

Sunbed Room

Kitchen

Master Bath

Automatic Blinds Up

Gym

Aerobic Room

Massage Room/

Shooting Star on Ceiling

Theatre

Sauna

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!