Be U

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

"Signs, Signs, Everywhere is Signs"

(Five Man Electrical Band)

Signs, signs, everywhere is signs.

I am noticing balancing numbers again. My favorite and has been for years is the 11:11 and then there is the 77!

4 minutes later, I saw this:

It was no longer 77 degrees at 11:15. However, I laughed at all the 7's I noticed on top! 7, some say, means "surprises".

I had written a post entitled "Waiting" and this is what I noticed the same day:

"Anticipation".

Signs? I think so....

Are you open to seeing your signs?

LOL

(*No one was harmed during the shooting of these pictures....I happened to be in an empty neighborhood during this period.)

People

"People, people who need people are the luckiest people in the world" Barbra Streisand

Isn't it also true that we people can be challenged greatly, as well, through our relationships. I know I can.

Do our relationships work best when we come from our true place inside of ourselves and lovingly say what our thoughts, desires, and needs are.

We may not be able to ward off problems/troubles; however, we can choose not to be alone or deal with them solely. We can always choose to let someone acknowledge us lovingly.

If you feel you are not being acknowledged and would like to be, what can you choose to do differently that will help others open their hearts to you.

We are the common denominator of all our relationships.

May you choose fun, and not labor, with your relationships today.

Happy Labor Day Weekend!

Labor day is "dedicated to the social and economic achievements of American workers" (internet). Many of us also see it as the unofficial end of summer.

We have great opportunity for learning and growth on this Labor Day holiday; this is for certain. (in my world anyway)

May we all choose a better way to be us today and not be stuck in the old ways that used to work to keep us 'safe'.

A NEW DAY IS UPON US.

I hear, see and feel this from many wonderful people. I'm ready; I hope you are too?

Saturday, September 3, 2011

A New Me in Town

There is a new me in town. I am feeling stronger/better and I see the world differently and find myself acting differently as well.

I am slowly allowing myself to live me 100%. Show me 100%.

I am seeing signs, words, symbols, meanings all around me that encourage me to move forward, be balanced and live true.

How exciting and how scary. And, I am feeling I am the only one who will understand or get any meaning from them and I don't want to bore you.

I'm sitting with my world and it's spinning around me and through me and I am on a carousel of sorts and I don't know when I will be able to get off and walk forward.

Crazy, huh?

You bet.

I'm thinking that you are very lucky if you stayed the person you were born to be and didn't let LIFE get in the way of YOU.

If you did take some detours to become the you that you are today,

May you find the path that is best traveled for the you in all your beautiful totality.

where do I come up with this stuff....too weird....even for me. ha.

Waiting

It's like I'm waiting for something to happen. I'm not sure what, why, how or with whom; but I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen.

It's not a dreaded something. It is an exciting something.

I wonder if I'm waiting for nothing...

What are you waiting for?

A Moment

I was walking my 11 year old dog this morning. He walks pretty slow and it gives me more time to think (just what I need).

I was realizing that my hands feel whole even though they may not look it. I was thinking about how balanced I feel between what is going on inside of me and what I am showing to the world; what I share with the people that I encounter.

I got home and I saw that it was 73 deg. inside and 73 deg. outside on the digital thermometer that reads both temperatures. I walked back to change my shoes and the clock read 11:11. I had the television on and there was something about balancing the whole person inside and out.

I got a laugh. It was a moment.

May you connect to your moment(s); whatever they may be.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Everything

Everything that has been in my life; that I've experienced in my life; that I have done in my life that has brought me to here has made me the exact person that I am supposed to be.

Everything that has been in your life; that you've experienced in your life; that you have done in your life up to now has made you the exact person that you are supposed to be today.

May we continue to let life happen and help to shape, mold and create the people we are supposed to be tomorrow.

May you move forward in your life knowing you are exactly where you are supposed to be because this is where you are.

Processing

I am almost silent these days because I am processing everything that I have encountered, learned, experienced and dreaded in my life up until this very moment.

I am living in these moments and allowing my truth to shine to whoever I come in contact with. Some people want to discuss it; some people couldn't care less; and some want to run away quickly!

I am learning that whatever is going on inside of me that it is imperative for my health and sanity (and also for my ability to move forward in my life) that I show the true me on the outside of myself as well.

I have connected my outside experiences with my inside knowing. How exciting! How brilliant for me! It is a dream come true; a goal that I have had for a very long time.

It was and continues to be a slow process for me to be brave enough to 'play' my life this way. I gave it up along time ago and totally decided to never connect the two again.

Well, that wasn't working for me anymore. So, I went deeply inward and I am slowly shining my inside light out to the world that I may better see, better connect, better share and JUST plain BE BETTER.

I sit in the process of this.

May you allow yourself to be exactly where you are....for this moment...whether you understand it or not.

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!