Be U

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Monday, March 23, 2020

Kumbayah

May you offer harmony and unity between what is going on within yourself and what you are showing and sharing on the outside of You.

This has been my goal for as long as I can remember. This just may be vulnerability at its depth.

As we show the world our dreams, desires, feelings and truthful emotions, we open ourselves to possible ridicule, misunderstanding, judgment and out right being laughed at or anger, madness and/or hurt coming straight at us.

Ouch. Hide. Surrender. Change. Apologize...

These are things that would penetrate my being and have me believing that I was wrong, bad, hurtful and or too much to handle; too sensitive.

I am learning that if attacked or being on the receiving end of anger or a verbal ‘beat down'... These attacks have nothing to do with who I am and the open loving truth that is me. They have everything to do with the person and what is going on inside the person on the defensive and what feels ugly and unlovely to me.

Ouch. It stays.

Hide, surrender, change, and/or apologize does not.

As our stillness is heightened these days -- the air, the water, the land and the sky remain and allow for tons of replenishment, light, abundance and glory living between and in conjunction and continuum of one another.

We can learn a lot from nature if we open ourselves fully to witness it and to be one with it.

'Days of' ... are over. 'Days of' ... are here for us to create. Individually, together.

What role are you ‘being called’ to offer...

I sit in openness to hold space for everything beautiful, fulfilling and marvelously miraculous to all living creatures; large and small; hurting and well, opened and constricted.

May we all shine.

May we all answer the call.

May you respond favorable to your life, your calling, your light and your love. May you let the journey of you shine so bright that the you that you want to be and are bursts forth from thr depth of your own vulnerability.

Friday, March 20, 2020

Stillness

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When you find yourself in stillness, may you be aware of what is going on inside of you...

Are you in a loving, kind and/or open to ease place...

Are you freaked, anxious, worried and/or stressed...

Perhaps, an assortment of feels is what shows up.

May you let full, compassionate breathing in your stillness; as much and as often as possible.

In our mindful stillness, we heal.

In our physical stillness, the earth heals.

In stillness, awareness has the greatest chance to be present.

In awareness and stillness, we can birth new ways for who we want to be going forward; what we want the world to be.

May you be/give the present of stillness.... when possible.

Direction

Are we looking for direction from the Authorities?

We look for information. We stand open to hear what is going on that we are not privy to at this time.

We are bombarded by the same information; we are updated again and again and again.

How many times are we subjected to the same videos... How many times are directions reiterated to us... How many times are you open to digesting them...

We all ‘digest’ information differently. What works for you works for you.

Maybe it could be a good time to check in to see how you are digesting information and what feelings dominant your mind and life just now.

Do you like them... Are you comfortable or uncomfortable or somewhere in between. Is fear prominent... Are you allowing your calm to happen and how often (if you would, in fact, like your calm to happen)...

Just be aware. Invite in what you wish to experience in the truth that you are consciously and/or subconsciously digesting. Be aware how you feel. Be aware how you react. No harsh judgment or right or wrong. Just what would be your preferred reaction to the information, situations, circumstances, connections and self-made responses you are in and having.

Life as we have known it will never be the same. We are in a crux to stabilize ourselves, our lives, our world; individually, together.

One world. Everywhere. All. Everything. Nothing is untouched just now.

What peace, promise, priority, positivity can you bring forth...

May You do just this.

May you do the thing that can promote a world into a ‘together we stand’ and living in the highest vibration of ourselves that we can be.

I am so in. I have been waiting for this ‘new earth’; highest of humanity; lowest of suffering; kindness, compassion and togetherness abound world.

What is inside of you as happy, magical imagination.. may you make it real.

Namaste.

Wednesday, March 18, 2020

Hang On

Just what if you were born to live right here, right now, during this time.

Just what if being your authentic whole self from the depth of your compassion, uniqueness, truth and love is exactly the part you have been assigned to ‘play’.

Hang on.

You were made for this.

May you try it on and see how it feels to You; if it feels right for you to so.

You

Be ever so gentle. There’s no place like YOU.

ORANGE:
Sense of wellness, creativity, emotional balance, sexuality, harmony, passion, freedom, intuition, and expression of emotions. (google)

May you let the truth within you live out loud; gently and compassionately.

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

Then and Now

Our world is changing. Our world is more 'One' than ever. We are being forced into this. It can prove scary. It can, just maybe, be one of the greatest of all times in history. I am praying that it will not be as near catastrophic as it can seem to be.

I find myself offering my thoughts, ideas and connections out.

I'd like to share them with You just in case something within here could connect with your own peace, hope, and love.

"Relax into your own awesome love and strength whenever you feel anything like a ‘what if’ coming on.

Most of us could have never ever thought this up. May you see the good in it, sometimes, just because you can.

I do find myself having a hard time breathing it in at times. I tell myself... Right here. Right now. I am ok.

If I find myself confused and/or overwhelmed, I can ask myself what is the very next step I want to take.

Get water. Eat. Take a picture. Reach out to someone. Stretch. Take deep breaths. Brush my teeth.

Whatever it is... I put my mind fully on my current step/goal as best I can.

When I feel myself starting to worry, realize this and change worry into love. If I find myself worrying about a loved one or a situation, send them and/or it love.

Doing ourselves differently." It is time. The time is now. It is in us to do this. It is in me to do this. It is in You to do this.

Big Hugs.

May you relax into your own love, peace and fortitude as often and as much as you can.

I wish you well. Be safe.. Be smart.. Be informed but not bombarded.. Hang loose.. Be cool.. Stay healing... to the best of your ability and desire.

Perhaps, the earth heals as we humans get find our stillness...

Sunday, March 15, 2020

My Goal

My goal, when starting this blog, was the same as it is today.

To speak my truth openly, lovingly and without fear to, possibly, encourage you to realize whatever, if anything, comes up for you during the reading of it. I am hoping and trusting that someone will become and grow into more of who You are and want to be.

If I can touch you in a way that you do better for you, I have accomplished my goal.

As it turns out, I have gotten so much out of this blogging than I ever would’ve thought.

Im learning more about me. Sometimes I write the same subject matter back to back and this shows me what I need to or what I am actually working on within my own being.

Sometimes when I read it back, I learn something or I find myself triggered or even feeling like someone or something, bigger than I, has my back.

I mostly write without an agenda and the words come through me from an outside, or is it deeply within, source.

I write a word and sometimes have to look up the meaning and it has been 99% accurate for the sentence and the gist of the post.

It helps me to feel connected. It helps me to feel productive. It helps me support and live my ‘calling’; my reason for being.

For many years, the only place to find my words were here. Then I had a website created and I post the same blog there. I find I talk less of my individual experiences in as much depth and it somewhat comes through a part of me that knows professionalism over personal. It seems the line/boundary of this is getting more blurred as we grow, become and connect in today’s world.

We are all a work in progress. We all have a reason for being. We all matter. We all are doing the best we can. We all are living this journey of life from our unique perspectives, inner wisdom, outer experiences and unique beingness.

We all want to be seen, heard, acknowledged and loved.

'Do' You. Whatever that means to You. Do You from the most authentic and nonjudgmental cells of your body.

Do you.

May you be aware of You, see You, acknowledge You, and love You.

May you open up to your work progressing; your reason for being.

May you let your inner wisdom connect with your outer experiences.

Thank you for being here. Thank you for being open to being the best version of you walking in your awareness of all that is you; for you; by you, through you and known to You.

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!