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As I listen to my thoughts, I am aware that I am not always kind to myself.  As I listen to my needs, I realize that I sometimes ignore them. 

As I listen, I hear from a place inside of myself that allows what I hear to be blotted by my own beliefs, experiences, and feelings.  Even my learned habits play a role. 

I read the other day that we all have energy flowing through us and this energy becomes unique to us because we are the ones translating, passing and experiencing it.  These words felt so true and the meaning stuck with me.   

Outside of our self, energy is just energy.  Once entered into our very own domain, this energy becomes a part of us and everything that is us.  It leads us, along with our thoughts and beliefs, down the path that we find ourselves on. 

We are this powerful.  We can be this hurtful especially if we are not aware and are on auto-pilot from what we have learned and/or experienced as hurtful in the past.

I want us to be powerful in love and self adoration.  I would like us to listen, examine and let energy be freeing, empowering and supportive.

What do you do with the energy that shows up inside of you...  Do you let it feel good or do you let it hurt you...  May you just be aware.

May you let this energy be empowering, freeing and supportive.   May you let your energy pick you up and give you the gift of your best self.

Magic

As I pull myself out of bed this morning, I awaken to a new day just like you.  Another new beginning.  Another day to live my life.  Another day to love.  Another day to feel things I don't want to feel.  And, another day to breathe and this 'another day' leads me to much opportunity, possibilities and chances to spread and be love.

I'd rather want to get up and be ready to get out of bed and live and thrive.  This is not for me just now. 

I've had many moons of this.  Where I couldn't wait to do my day again - another day.  I was so full of hope, excitement and the opportunity for new possibilities.

I now let the achiness of my body put a damper on this life thriving thing.  I lived many years with the achiness and still thrived.

What is the difference now.  I suppose it is my mindset.  I'm letting it feel too heavy on me as it does.  I'm wanting it to be different because it is not fun to know pain.  I'm weary and dreary.  I still love strong.

I'm very open to me changing.  I'm very open to knowing ease.  I'm very open to popping up out of bed ready to tackle and live a new day with vibrancy and gusto.

This is not my day today.  Ha.

Wherever you are; whatever you are doing; whatever you are feeling, may you love to your best ability.

If you are thriving in this moment - go for it - bask in the feeling.   If you are struggling, allow it - feel the feeling.

Regardless of how you are in this moment, let there be love present within and shared without. 

Perhaps, love is the magic that keeps us going forward..  May you keep going forward.  YOU are worth it.  I believe in you.

Breathe

As I get ready to call it a day, I feel the desire to pop in to say hello.  I have nothing in mind to discuss.  Nothing in mind to share.

It is one of my greatest desires that my presence in this world would help to provide, open up and encourage positive growth in other people.  I just love it so when a person realizes how awesome and wonderful they are.

I read something that talked about being open to finding your own gift and sharing it with the world.  I want to - I need to support others in finding their gifts; growing their self; and becoming both.

It gives me the most fulfilling feeling to see a person better their life in their own mind; within their own beliefs. 

I believe that we are here to do just this.  We are here to learn to become, live and share our best self.  We are here to grow into the person we are born to be.  To experience our greatest of self is to experience our greatest calling.

When you know joy, you are living your greatest path.  When you know productivity, you are working your greatest self.  When you know self-love, you are open to everything that the universe is.

May you know joy, productivity and self-love; just to name a few sensational feelings that we humans can engage in.

Engage your full self with your full knowledge from the depth of what is within you.

May you be your gifts and thrive.

Namaste.

Me. You. Us.

I went to the dentist today and received my permanent bridge placed into my tiny mouth.  But, it is in and I'm looking pretty darn good!  ha!

It isn't the easiest thing for me to sit in the dentist chair.  I have to gather my courage, get in the right mindset and greatly trust that I will make it to the other side of the appointment.

I did.  It was one of the easier ones and I am so grateful for easier.  I'm always so open to ease.

I am in the process of applying for a medical marijuana card as the Pain Management Doctor seems to think I am a "perfect candidate" for it.  With my constant struggle; with my discomfort and challenges; and my constant irritation with acquiring legal pharmaceutical medicine, I just have to try this.  I have to know if it is for me.

Never say never.  I never thought I'd be in a doctor's office requesting the legal dispensing of marijuana; medical marijuana.  It is either a vapor or capsules that they offered me and I will try the capsules first as it is what I know.   I have a feeling that the vapor may be a better choice, but one step at a time.

I wasn't offered cookies or lollipops or anything else.  I am now applying with the state and I needed a 2x2 new passport picture.  I went and had that taken.  Step my step, and maybe within four weeks, I will be experimenting with cannabis and the effect it has on my health, mind and vitality of life.  Last week, it was a 3 month grace period before I could acquire it.  Just this past weekend, the 3 month waiting period was banned.  Lucky for me.  I'm sure for others too.

It is my hope that you are doing, trying, and open to anything and everything that shows itself to you as a possible step to experiment with things (and life) that could have a positive effect on your health, mind and vitality of your way of life.  

I truly believe we are the ones who know what we feel the most accurate; the deepest and the many different emotions and levels that we go through.

May you open up to your best and highest frequency possible.  How high can you go??!?! 

Individually, together, as we walk this journey called life - as we stay open minded and open hearted and as we relax into our vulnerability, it is my hope, dream and belief that this is what is going to give ourselves, each other and the world the opportunity to live at our highest of peaks as often as possible.

I wish you heights that come from within you and, maybe, even exceed your wildest and deepest dreams.

May you live your wildest and deepest dreams from the depth of yourself; your knowing and whole self.

Just Because

Be extra kind to yourself today.  Be gentle with yourself today.  Be loving with yourself today. 

Let go of  any judgment.   Let go of all tension.   Let go of anything and everything that bothers you just now.  Take a deep breath and let go.

Believe in yourself.   Look how far you have come.   Look at all you've gotten through.  Look at all you have done.

Just because.

May you love yourself just because you can choose it for yourself; today and everyday.

May you choose self-love, self-compassion, self-support, and believe in the miracle of YOU.

YOU are a miracle.  Stunning.

Pops

There are many times when things just pop up in our minds, our heads, our hearts, our 'being'.

Most often many of us ignore or only pay a slight attention to these things.  We hear them but we don't listen to them.  Some of these pop up thoughts happen rarely; like if something happens and we are reminded of something. 

Many of these pop up thoughts are common and they pop up many times a day on continuous days.

I'm thinking it is a good idea to start listening to them for me.  Really hearing them...  Give them my full attention.

A song, a rhyme, a happening pops up and I'm open to paying attention to it.  To, maybe, get the song and play it in full.  To know the rhyme and say it out...  To relive the happening or the feelings the happening brings up and feel them through.

Just what if these pop up thoughts are here to lead us either into something or away from something.  Just what if they pop up to tell us/teach us something that really matters.

Perhaps, it's just to process through it and let it go for good.  Perhaps, it is to lead us in a best direction from where we are.  Just what if...

May you hear what your thoughts are telling you and give yourself the freedom to let your thoughts support you, love you and, maybe, even guide you.

Let your thoughts connect to your instinct to know the power of you. 

You are the only one that thinks completely like you.  No one, anywhere, thinks like you. 

Sometimes we are our own worst enemy.  May we be our own best friend.

Think ever-evolving you.  Since we humans think, may we think well...  Ha!

War

I find myself, again, in a war between what I know and what I feel.  I find myself, again, not wanting to have pain and discomfort and not knowing how to let go of pain and discomfort.

Every day can be a battle of what I want and what I know.  Every day can be a battle of not wanting scleroderma and knowing that I do.

Every day I have an opportunity to let go and be free.

Every day I oscillate between holding on and letting go.

I wish I could say I feel great, vital and that I just do whatever I want.

I can only say I could feel much worse and I do the best I can.

It would be enough if I would let it be so.

Maybe tomorrow will be a day that I will let it be so.  Maybe one minute from now, I will let myself be enough exactly as I am.

I am grateful I have many moments of this.  I am human where it is not for always and ever.

I am human where I question and wonder.  I am human where I get frustrated and sad.  I am human.

May you continue to walk forward and from the place that you are in this moment and all the moments to come.  May you know that you are human also.  May you let yourself be enough as often as possible.

You are enough.  We truly all are. 

Just what if we are exactly where we are best to be.  Just what if we know exactly what we are supposed to know.  Just what if we feel exactly what is best for us to feel.

Let your feelings waver.  Let them be what they are.  We are not our feelings.  They are only a part of our life experience.

May you open up to love.  Love of self.  Love of others.  Love in each moment.

Breathe love as often as you can.   Come back to love every time that you can. 

Everything you are and feel will lead you into your truest of self if you let it be so.

May you let it be so.

May 'enoughness' be yours...