I had individual sessions with these people yesterday. What came away from both (they interrelated amazingly) sessions, was basically I saw my child-self peer from behind a door and my adult-self went and collected her and the two became one again.
Then, I took both of them (in my mind's eye) and put both of them here in my body.
I'm exhausted from it and it felt very real. It sounds very weirdo to me.
Today, I am struggling from what I believe to be the life force that was created within from this.
Both practitioners suggested and brought up the word 'AIR'. One said to feel the air inside myself. I said "What?". The other said that she is working with air energy and air moves stuck energy better than water and not as good as fire. I don't get the 'air' thing. If I ever do, I'll let you know.
I have some 'popping' going on in my joints and stomach. Is this air? My thoughts in my head are completely swirling and if I reached in to grab one it would be to run, run fast. I'm scared of it. Feel like I can't cope. When in reality, I know for sure I can cope and am excited to do so and see where I end up from here.
My stomach is upset like I can't stomach it. It's the old fear holding on for dear life. Well, I say good riddance old fear. Bring in the new. Bring in the new with the New Year coming. I'm ready, willing, and able to ROCK ON.!
I'm so tired of my habitual old ways. I'm ready for new and improved thinking, being and doing.
The doctor asked me if I could be any animal, what would I be. I immediately said the Black Panther. I'm going to go look up black panther in my "Animal Speak" book by Ted Andrews.
What animal would you be today if you could be any animal that you wanted?
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
The Black Panther
The Black Panther, "Animal Speak", Ted Andrews
Wow, longest write-up I've come across; pages! I'll try to abbreviate as much as possible. This is also for the leopard, cougar and jaguar as well.
Keynote: Reclaiming One's True Power I say bring it, bring it all now! ha
It reflects an ability to do a variety of tasks as he or she wills; be it physical, mental, psychic or spiritual. I don't claim to be a psychic.
They have the ability to move with ease or freeze entirely. People with this totem will find their greatest power in silence as goals are pursued. Revealing too much or speaking too much about pursuits can counteract some of the effectiveness. You must learn to pace your work, allowing time to rest and to play. They must not push too far or too hard on any one task. They are more susceptible to imbalances.
The female does not like others-even their mates-interfering with how they feel the young should be raised. Women with panther totems often find themselves raising their 'cubs' alone, whether out of divorce or simply through asserting dominance in that area of the couples' life.
They have an inner knowing. They should trust their thoughts and their inner visions (imaginings) for there is probably a strong foundation in reality.
The panther has very strong hearing. It also has extremely sensitive hairs on the body. The skin is our largest sensory organ and we experience much more of the world through it than we realize.
The season in which their power is greatest is the winter. The black panther helps us to understand the dark and death and the inherent powers of them; and thus by acknowledging them, eliminate our fears and learn to use the powers.
It awakens the inner passions. It can reflect the awakening of the kundalini, signaling a time of not just coming into one's own power, but reclaiming one's true power.
The panther has also been attributed to Jesus. Because of this it can signal a time of rebirth after a period of suffering and death on some level. This implies that an old issue may finally begin to be resolved or even that old longstanding wounds will finally begin to heal and with the healing will come a reclaiming of power that was lost at the time of wounding.
Usually, in the lives of those with a panther totem, there either already exists or will soon arrive upon the scene an individual who will serve as teacher and nurturer and guide upon the heroic path of reawakening one's true power.
*there's a whole lot more, but I think we get the idea.
How do you feel about cats? How do you feel about reclaiming/claiming your true power by being the true you?
Wow, longest write-up I've come across; pages! I'll try to abbreviate as much as possible. This is also for the leopard, cougar and jaguar as well.
Keynote: Reclaiming One's True Power I say bring it, bring it all now! ha
It reflects an ability to do a variety of tasks as he or she wills; be it physical, mental, psychic or spiritual. I don't claim to be a psychic.
They have the ability to move with ease or freeze entirely. People with this totem will find their greatest power in silence as goals are pursued. Revealing too much or speaking too much about pursuits can counteract some of the effectiveness. You must learn to pace your work, allowing time to rest and to play. They must not push too far or too hard on any one task. They are more susceptible to imbalances.
The female does not like others-even their mates-interfering with how they feel the young should be raised. Women with panther totems often find themselves raising their 'cubs' alone, whether out of divorce or simply through asserting dominance in that area of the couples' life.
They have an inner knowing. They should trust their thoughts and their inner visions (imaginings) for there is probably a strong foundation in reality.
The panther has very strong hearing. It also has extremely sensitive hairs on the body. The skin is our largest sensory organ and we experience much more of the world through it than we realize.
The season in which their power is greatest is the winter. The black panther helps us to understand the dark and death and the inherent powers of them; and thus by acknowledging them, eliminate our fears and learn to use the powers.
It awakens the inner passions. It can reflect the awakening of the kundalini, signaling a time of not just coming into one's own power, but reclaiming one's true power.
The panther has also been attributed to Jesus. Because of this it can signal a time of rebirth after a period of suffering and death on some level. This implies that an old issue may finally begin to be resolved or even that old longstanding wounds will finally begin to heal and with the healing will come a reclaiming of power that was lost at the time of wounding.
Usually, in the lives of those with a panther totem, there either already exists or will soon arrive upon the scene an individual who will serve as teacher and nurturer and guide upon the heroic path of reawakening one's true power.
*there's a whole lot more, but I think we get the idea.
How do you feel about cats? How do you feel about reclaiming/claiming your true power by being the true you?
The Porcupine, "No, I mean Raccoon"
While getting bodywork today, I mentioned the porcupine, but I immediately said, no, I mean the raccoon.
So, Ted Andrews book, Animal Speak, once again....If porcupine has showed up in your life, take a look at your life. (I've been doing this almost constantly lately.) "Are you allowing other people's opinions to prevent you from exploring activities that could otherwise be fun and enjoyable? Are you overly sensitive to the barbs of others? Are your barbs inappropriate or taking the joy from others? Are you still allowing the barbs from long ago to aggravate you and sting you? Sometimes it is necessary to remove the old barbs, no matter how painful, so they do not fester and poison the system."
"Porcupines can show you how to enjoy life and maintain a sense of wonder about it, in spite of negative conditions. They can teach you how to protect the inner child from all of life's barbs and can show you the strength in your vulnerability."
During this 'massage', the masseuse is telling me how courageous I am and that she admires me (oh, I'm liking this). I'm saying I don't feel courageous. She says just how you move and accept and feel what is happening on the table. I say "do you want to see courageous". I push my body into her hands and I start sobbing like a scared, hurt child from the pain and emotion stored there. "I'll show you courageous", I say. Afterwards, we laughed, a lot. It was an experience to say the least. (I want to share that I have worked with this wonderful lady many, many, many hours for many, many years.) This kind of trust was achieved by work on both our parts. I asked her later if she was wondering how long she would push back, she shook her head Oh YES.
What 'fun', right? OH MY.
...
Racoon, it can't possibly be as suitable!....
Raccoon is one of the most adaptable animals. The paws are very dexterous. Raccoons can be expert at opening lids, latches, doorknobs and such. (everything I'm not good at) They love to explore. The most striking feature is the mask that it wears. Concealed behind a mask, people could become something or someone else. They are tools for transformation. The hidden aspect, the secrecy, helps promote the transformation. It helps us to change what we are to what we want to be. It can teach you how to wear a healing mask or show you the face you shall become. The raccoon holds the knowledge of how to change our faces.
This is very exciting to me because I relate almost completely.
Have you seen any porcupines and/or raccoons lately? Like you have time to look for animals these days? ha.
So, Ted Andrews book, Animal Speak, once again....If porcupine has showed up in your life, take a look at your life. (I've been doing this almost constantly lately.) "Are you allowing other people's opinions to prevent you from exploring activities that could otherwise be fun and enjoyable? Are you overly sensitive to the barbs of others? Are your barbs inappropriate or taking the joy from others? Are you still allowing the barbs from long ago to aggravate you and sting you? Sometimes it is necessary to remove the old barbs, no matter how painful, so they do not fester and poison the system."
"Porcupines can show you how to enjoy life and maintain a sense of wonder about it, in spite of negative conditions. They can teach you how to protect the inner child from all of life's barbs and can show you the strength in your vulnerability."
During this 'massage', the masseuse is telling me how courageous I am and that she admires me (oh, I'm liking this). I'm saying I don't feel courageous. She says just how you move and accept and feel what is happening on the table. I say "do you want to see courageous". I push my body into her hands and I start sobbing like a scared, hurt child from the pain and emotion stored there. "I'll show you courageous", I say. Afterwards, we laughed, a lot. It was an experience to say the least. (I want to share that I have worked with this wonderful lady many, many, many hours for many, many years.) This kind of trust was achieved by work on both our parts. I asked her later if she was wondering how long she would push back, she shook her head Oh YES.
What 'fun', right? OH MY.
...
Racoon, it can't possibly be as suitable!....
Raccoon is one of the most adaptable animals. The paws are very dexterous. Raccoons can be expert at opening lids, latches, doorknobs and such. (everything I'm not good at) They love to explore. The most striking feature is the mask that it wears. Concealed behind a mask, people could become something or someone else. They are tools for transformation. The hidden aspect, the secrecy, helps promote the transformation. It helps us to change what we are to what we want to be. It can teach you how to wear a healing mask or show you the face you shall become. The raccoon holds the knowledge of how to change our faces.
This is very exciting to me because I relate almost completely.
Have you seen any porcupines and/or raccoons lately? Like you have time to look for animals these days? ha.
Mrs. Clause
Mrs. Clause tries her best to support him and sometimes she just needs to give it a rest and be her own person. Not only live in his dreams.
She loves, for the most part, helping and guiding and supporting. And, just once, she'd like to see what it felt like to be completely doing her own thing with complete abandonment; following her dreams and desires.
Right now, there are so many elves and people in the world that need her and she puts them first. This is okay and she needs her turn more frequently.
OK, Mrs. Clause, get up Little Bear says. Get up and be you even when your personality is not as strong as your husbands.
Thank you for supporting Santa because he does great things in this world and for the world. And, I know you are great too!
Mrs. Clause - Is it time to get out of the kitchen (if that's not where you want to be) and get on the sleigh and take it wherever you want to go? Let Rudolph's red nose guide you for a change!
Didn't see this coming. ha. (again, middle of the night!)
Why does Mrs. Clause not even have a first name. She doesn't, does she? I better go back to bed! ha.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Right Now
please stop what you are doing.
Relax your shoulders. Take a deep breath. Feel the seat and/or floor underneath you. Feel the support that it offers.
Know that you are perfect and lovable just as you are.
Know, that, Right Now, you are perfectly okay in this moment.
(oh, I so needed that.)
What do you need right now?
Off Day
I am having a sad, not feel good about self, kind of day. It stinks. I'm not liking it and I'm certainly not enjoying it. I want to hide from the world. I want to hide from myself.
I'm cranky and miserable. I'm cold and tense.
Not doing anything that I want to do and so I'm miserable and pouting.
Feel sorry for myself kind of day. I hate feeling sorry for myself.
So, not a good day for me. Been trying to talk to myself, trying a bunch of different things; but to no avail.
Am I getting coal in my stocking because I'm being a bad girl. What if this isn't being a bad girl and just being human.
Perhaps, it's okay to feel this no matter how much I don't like it.
If this is what an off-day for me is really like; I'm hoping for an on-day real soon!
What if, just perhaps, what if this is a good day for me? Whose to say.
I have a headache. ha. big surprise.
I'm cranky and miserable. I'm cold and tense.
Not doing anything that I want to do and so I'm miserable and pouting.
Feel sorry for myself kind of day. I hate feeling sorry for myself.
So, not a good day for me. Been trying to talk to myself, trying a bunch of different things; but to no avail.
Am I getting coal in my stocking because I'm being a bad girl. What if this isn't being a bad girl and just being human.
Perhaps, it's okay to feel this no matter how much I don't like it.
If this is what an off-day for me is really like; I'm hoping for an on-day real soon!
What if, just perhaps, what if this is a good day for me? Whose to say.
I have a headache. ha. big surprise.
Monday, December 13, 2010
HAPPY One
I want to say something happy and inspiring. I've got nothing.
So, here is a picture of happy and inspiring.
Content and Just Being U... anyway. ha. You Know You Got It When It Makes You Feel Good. He is doing what he knows makes him happy.
Looks to me like he needs nothing. It's all in the attitude.
Why are some homeless people really happy and some people with all the comforts really miserable?
It's all in how we look at things....
May you look at things 'happy' today!
So, here is a picture of happy and inspiring.
Content and Just Being U... anyway. ha. You Know You Got It When It Makes You Feel Good. He is doing what he knows makes him happy.
Looks to me like he needs nothing. It's all in the attitude.
Why are some homeless people really happy and some people with all the comforts really miserable?
It's all in how we look at things....
May you look at things 'happy' today!
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