Be U: October 2024

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Friday, October 11, 2024

Invite Peace

May we step outside of our heart and persona with each relationship we have. Look anew. Look anew from a place without titles (such as woman/man, daughter/son, mother/father, caregiver, wife/husband, friend, professional title, etc.), without judging right or wrong, or any habitual connections/ways/beliefs.

A new you. A new look with new eyes.

Appraise each experience and relationship this way.

May you meet it all where it is now. Where you are now. Where they are now. Where life is now. In this present moment. Again and again and again.

Love. Let love.

Truth. Let truth.

Trust. Let trust.

Breath. Breathe.

May we rise into this new time on earth in new ways with the goal being peace.

Support each other through who we are and who we want to be that gives us the most peace.

May our own peace reach each other’s peace.

May we have peace within so peace is the first thing we share.

Amen.

Saturday, October 5, 2024

Mini Moon

“Earth will get a second moon for about two months this year when a small asteroid begins to orbit our planet. The asteroid was discovered in August and is set to become a mini-moon, revolving around Earth in a horseshoe shape from Sept. 29 to Nov. 25.” Google

Mini Me. Our self as a child. They are always with(in) us.

May you let the child that you were walk with the adult that you are. Play. Love. Be.

Perhaps, imagine ‘mini-you’ sitting on your lap and/or hugging/holding them; thanking them and shower them with any and all love and support they may crave. Together, live your whole, fulfilling and amazing self.

Thank yourself for all that you are grateful to yourself for. For all you survived; for all that you are proud of; for all that you are and are becoming; for all your growth; for all your accomplishments; and for still choosing love and kindness.

Perhaps, look in the mirror and tell the person looking back (You) how much you love them; again and again and again.

Perhaps, write down as many things as possible you love about yourself. Invite your list to grow.

May you be your own best friend. You are the only one you spend your entire life with. Treat yourself exceptionally.

When we are our true and fulfilled self, we are our best self. Sharing our best self feels, well, best.

Heal and uplift thyself which, in turn, heals and uplifts the world.

As the moon(s) orbit(s) the planet, may we be open to our journey being one of kindness, humanity and bringing healing for ourselves and our world. Let us invite and create a more harmonious world for ourselves, our children and all living things.

Thank You.

Amen. And so it is.

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!