Be U: I'm Back

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Monday, December 11, 2017

I'm Back

I am back. I come to this blog wondering if there was lost interest while I was away. I hope that I could touch people exactly where they wanted/needed to be -- as to touch the most vital piece of them so that they could live the best version of themselves.

It all happens within. What is within is the most precious gift or horrendous challenge that we know.

Much happens outside of our self. It is in the process of what is happening that makes us and creates our experience(s).

For example, two people could see a snake. One, who doesn't mind snakes would have a peaceful go with it. The second, who is freaked out by snakes, would not have as pleasant a time in this situation.

It is in how we process the situation; what we believe about the situation; how we see the situation that creates our experience of the same.

California was a nice experience for me. The beauty of the fall in Napa and the warmer daytime weather in San Diego were treats for me. Nature is beautiful everywhere. Nature is also powerful. And, in nature (and life) - to fight it - creates the angst.

The recent and present fires are sad and extremely challenging. Here, in another example, we have the power of ability to process in our minds the most unpleasant of situations. Because this situation can surely be very unpleasant; I would think. We can also chose gratefulness that it wasn't worse than it is/was. We can see people pulling together, helping one another; the boundless amount of people that come because they care.

Where we focus is what produces our experience(s).

May you focus on what feels best on/in you whenever you can. However, be true to you and whatever you feel is okay and real. It is true to you. And it is okay.

May you find a way to be as loving and kind to yourself, as possible, in every situation that you encounter.

You have this power if you open up to it and allow it. My wish for you is that you can find your way to it eventually.

You matter. You are enough. I care.

We walk forward individually, together. We walk forward with open hearts and minds. We walk forward supporting each other to be the best of ourselves.

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!