Be U

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

Condo by the Sea

As early as my teens, I knew the beach was my happy place; the place I felt home. It gave me peace. It brought me to my joy. It connected me to the best of me.

I have found my way back. It is where my relationship with my husband was founded, nurtured and grown.

We are back by the sea.

As we were in the living room, we both noticed a pigeon sitting out on the deck. We both knew, immediately, that I was going to go to my “Animal Speak” book and look up the spiritual meaning of pigeon.

I don't know what to call the sound a pigeon makes. It surely was a hoot to me as I read these words...

“Pigeons can teach us how to find our way back when we are lost. They help us to remember and find the love of home and homelife that we have either given up or lost. They are the only bird that can drink by sucking up water into its beak. This reflects that ability to draw on the energies of home, no matter how distant. They are reminders to us to remember that which has positively affected us in our early home life.”

“Remember that pigeons remind us of the possibilities, real and ideal, associated with home and family.”

May you remember what brought you into, connected you to and reminded you of the best of you through your early life at home (or in a relationship) and offered you the possibilities of the best parts of you.

Thursday, December 27, 2018

Find

(Written on 12/27/18
Published 2/6/19)

I am still settling into our new place. Boxes and clutter need to be uncluttered. Rooms need to be set up. Pictures sit waiting to find their new place to hang. Ha!

Most of us have heard the saying "where there is a will, there’s a way”.

May you realize your will and be open to your way! You have a lotta living to do!

Live on lovely one; live on!

Holiday hugs to all.

A picture of my view with Tiffany is below! I have been called home to the water. My soul is happy here. The first full day here, I was blessed with a rainbow, a sunrise and a sunset. I am home.

May you know what is home to you and live your way towards it if you are not already there.

Home is where you most connect to who you are; your love of life and your joy; and your joy in sharing your joy.

May we all walk each other home and open our ‘homes’ to each other. In this, we empower joy to/in our world. I like joy for you. I like joy for me. I like joy for/in our world.

Tuesday, December 25, 2018

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas from the depth of me to the depth of you. ‘Christmaste’. Merry days to those that do not celebrate Christmas. !! We can create ‘merry’ in our world as our souls want this. Our souls need this. Our souls know how to do this.

May we let our souls shine as one.

We are each a miracle living, at this time, together. We all breathe the same air. We all live under the same sun. We all want to matter. We all grow our best with love.

May we all open to love.

Let us create today [and all days forward] from the birth of loving one another. Your love matters. You matter. Allow and live the best version of you. As you do, you, perhaps, create ‘merry’. When you have merry, perhaps, all you can share is merry. Merry you. Merry me. Merry us. I believe.

Christmaste’. It is what is within us that we live out from.

Tuesday, December 18, 2018

One Day

I hear some people say, one day I will be happy; one day I will do this; one day I will start that... I hear myself saying one day I will have a paying career again.

Will this one day come... I do not know. I believe that life works through divine timing. I believe that life usually starts in our minds and beliefs. Life lives in our actions. Today matters.

It is ok to say one day. It is even better if we are open to today being a good day even if we want to believe it is a stepping stone to a goal of ours.

I have one full day left in my house that I have lived in for only 4 years. I have one day left of living in a community that I have resided in since 2000. I have one day left of living the life that I have been living.

My one day is now that will carry me into a different life. A life on the coast. A life on the water. A life that calls to me.

I am curious to see what I will do with it. Who will I let myself be. How will I look at life living in my 'one day' dream...

May you dream. May you live your best as you dream in your now. May you believe in your dream.

If your one day dream is supposed to happen, there is nothing that will stop it. Relax. May you live in the present growing, knowing and living the life that is being shown to you now. Step into it fully as You. Walk through it with open mind and heart. Be content where you are.

Feel, believe and love.

What is meant for you will come. All in divine timing.

Be the best of you through it all. Enjoy today.

Saturday, December 15, 2018

“Thruve”

I was typing a letter to my incredible niece and typed the word ‘thrive’ as ‘thruve’ and my silliness went with it... I liked the new word (just from noticing the typo) immediately.

The following is what ensued.

There is a new word in every town... “Thruve”. It means thriving thru the truth and loving spirit of You; by Just Being You! May you get “thruving”! Do true, loving You and thrive! Oh yeah! Thruving You is ready, set, on!

The great news is that you already have everything inside of you to thruve! Ha!

May you let the magic and awesome in you participate in every breath you take.

You are breath-taking. 💥

May we support each other and create the best epidemic of all time.

The ‘shift’ is going down. We are rising up.

I send love to You. You thruver You!

Can make it up. Can happen to You. !!

Wednesday, December 12, 2018

Boring

I don't want to be boring and the only thing I can think to write about just now is my move. Our move from the 'country' to the 'ocean'.

Man, it isn't easy. I have moved so many times into so many different places over my lifetime and I am finding that it is getting less fun, less easy and more unsettling instead of easy, fun and exciting like it has been known to be for me.

Is it I am more stuck in ways of how I want it to feel instead of being open to feeling whatever it is I am feeling and open myself up to the excitement that, this alone, can create... Yes.

Is it that learning new ways feels more scary to me as I am getting older and looking at life through a shorter life span than I've ever experienced before... Yes.

I remember telling my 92 year old client to update her bathroom; if she gets one day in it, it will be worth it. So, I want to be open to creating this new life. If I get decades in it, it will be worth it...

LOL How interesting how easy it is to see when our emotions and own life isn't at stake for big change.

Give it to me Universe. This is the life that I always knew I would go back to. Please give it to me and be as gentle and easy on me as possible.

Going from a house to a condo has many more rules. I like rules because they help regulate and keep things pretty and absolute. I don't like rules because some of them I don't want to adhere to! Ha!

Next Wednesday is the big day. Next Wednesday a truck will pull up and take what I ask of them to the condo and leave what is here that will not go to the condo. We will either rent this house out or sell it. Either way, we are leaving enough behind.

What comes forward with me are things that remind me of wonderful times, things I enjoy seeing on a daily basis and things that give me comfort in my everyday life. How blessed I am.

So, forward I go with all my blessings. Forward I go with hope, faith, trust, belief and a sheer knowing that this is exactly what I am supposed to be doing next. Fear is with me. And an inner knowing of possible awesomeness is too. Which one will I let win... I say and choose 'awesomeness'.

This is what I want to live my truth out of. So I shall.

May you know what it is you wish to live your truth out of and from. May you let it be so. Perhaps, now; right now in this moment. Bam. Do You from exactly where you are at this moment. Open life up to YOU.

Amen. And so it is.

Tuesday, December 11, 2018

WoMan in the Mirror

When was the last time you looked in the mirror and told the person looking back at you that you loved them...

Thanked them for always being present in your life...

Commented positively on something they did/do a great job at...

Wished them a lovely day...

Stated to them how awesome you think they are...

YOU are at the center of your universe. YOU. Everything you know, think, and do affects You first.

When you are happy, loving and open, your days (and nights) are happy, loving and open.

You set the tone for each moment, experience and the journey or adventure you find yourself on or in.

When you are open to easy, you have your best chance at knowing ease.

May you love and be really kind to the person in your mirror. This person is the only one you spend your entire life with. They are that important and invaluable to you.

See them. Feel them. Let them. Connect with them. Know them. Be them.

Thyself. In loving and supporting thyself, this makes a better world for us all. When we are happy and relaxed, perhaps, all we can share with each other is the same.

And so it is and always shall be.

You.

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!