Be U

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Hands All In

I have my hands in and on and reaching for many possible answers and solutions. I am reaching out to many different places and to many different people for help.

I feel stronger just doing this.

May they reach back and help me to bring myself up.

May you either reach out or grasp onto someone's hand in the guise of helping one another today.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Best

Do your best. You are going to fail at times. So do your best again. Auggie Garrido

Good words to live by.

AND, I do not know a person that this is not true for.

Mmmmmm

May you do your best with what you have, what you know and what you feel today.

Things that Happen

I read somewhere yesterday that things happen for us and not to us.

Found it interesting.   "Felt' different on me.

May you choose the words that feel better than others. If you find yourself using words that are hurtful to yourself, may you CANCEL them and exchange them with a FEEL BETTER word.

i.e.

Boring - Quiet/relaxation time, Contemplative

Loser - Learner

Dumb - Learning or Unknown

I am useless.  - There's plenty of things that I can do.

Whatever it is I find myself saying out of habit - I can always change it up and boost myself instead of berate myself. We all can; if we choose it.

May you have fun with it as you create the you that you truly are.

If you are building yourself up too much or trying too hard - this, too, cannot feel too good on a person. It's an awful lot of work to constantly say how good we are to others.   If we know it; perhaps, that can be enough....???? People WILL see it for themselves.

Just thinkin out loud..... Ha

Monday, May 28, 2012

Seven of Swords

From the book, "The Alchemical Tarot" by Rosemary Ellen Guiley and Robert M. Place

"You are completing something such as bringing a final idea into place or finishing a project. The message also might mean disarming someone, even verbally, while at the same time building up your own resources. Or it may warn of thievery, especially theft of ideas, though sometimes the thief is a hero or a trickster, who heals us by taking negativity from us."

My wish is for you to bring you wherever you go today and do not give YOU up.

Body, Mind and Spirit

What your Body, Mind and Spirit are 'calling' for, is exactly what you need. There is nothing else to chase.

Memorial Day

May our Memorial Day get more and more ancient as we find our way to navigate to our love of one another instead of war.

Today, I honor all who have given their life and the ones who loved them.

Free Yourself

"Every day, you make decisions that define your life. You may feel stuck in a job, an addiction, a bad relationship, or just a rut in life. If you know you are stuck, then you are stuck. If you believe you can get out, you can. You have the power to free yourself."

I believe!

May you always believe!

From the book "The Power of Self-Healing: Unlock Your Natural Healing Potential in 21 Days!" by Fabrizio Mancini

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!