Be U

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Sunday, January 19, 2020

Spirit of Peace

The Spirit of Peace. It is my thought and hope that we have all experienced this throughout our lives. It is the quiet in the noise. It is the calm in the pain. It is the easy breath in the reaction. It is the love in the fear. It is the undying connection in the relationship. It is the joyful contentment within our own beings.

May you open up, relax into and allow yourself freedom and lessons with(in) the Spirit of Peace.

I am noticing [still] that I find my thoughts in the future and not in this current moment as I start and open up to my day. When this is so, I feel unsettled, fearful, uncertainty and angst. These things are not fun for me to feel. I do not like the paralyzing and the petrifaction that it creates within myself and against myself. I contract. My body, my mind and my ability to be all that I am is greatly hindered.

When I expand, my body, mind and my ability to be all that I am flows within, outside, through and around myself. Dreams, wishes, desires and 'ME' just happens easily and joyfully.

As I 'catch' myself contracting, I stop and breathe. I tell myself I am safe, able, strong and wonderful. I was born with everything I need to live my entire lifetime. I go to the place within me that is confident, willing, open and knows the depth of my own-ness. I let self-love and faith take over.

I can think a new thought. I can speak aloud a better thought. I can ask myself what do I really know about the scenario I find my thoughts in. I can touch base on the truth of it and not the old record or beat myself up in hurtful and unloving ways.

We can put ourselves first. We can love ourselves. We can be our own best friend. We can be as compassionate to ourselves as we are to the ones we enjoy and choose to support.

May you put yourself first. May you love yourself. May you be your own best friend.

It is more about all the best that we are than just an option available to us.

I wish you the most available peace within yourself in everything you do, think, breathe and are.

May You be/get excited about Being U.

Friday, January 17, 2020

Dreams, Wishes, Desires

I'm wondering where my dreams, wishes and desires come from. They do not come from my mind so much. They go through my mind. They do not originate there it seems.

My heart, perhaps. My soul. My inner being which is the totality of everything I am.

I choose to believe my inner being.

It is not like I have to think them through or up. It is like they just show up from deep inside of me. The energy of them shows up as a feeling, a thought, a picture, a song, etc. They show up through an opening of peace, silence, acknowledgement and/or subtle (or strong) feeling.

May you pay attention to these subtle and/or strong hints/whispers and let them live inside of you until they, and You, are ready to come out and occur.

I believe as we breathe into them and ourselves; as we open up to all that we are; as we validate and allow our truth(s), these dreams, wishes and desires of ours come true.

May all your dreams, wishes and desires come to fruition.

If they are meant to happen, nothing will stop them from being so. Doors and windows will open to allow the path to each one be successful.

May you meet your own unique and loving self exactly where you are today... full force; gently.

Thursday, January 16, 2020

All or Nothing

All or Nothing... Nothing at All...

I'm certainly not feeling this. Just like the spectrum of colors - black and white.

Nothing in life is all on one side... Life oscillates.

Like a fan; so are the days of our lives. Ha!

Whatever you are feeling now in this moment, after several hours or even after several seconds, you just may feel different then what you are in this breath that you breathe in just now.

Human life offers us a variety of choices, options, chances, situations, relationships, thoughts, feelings, etc.

It is up to us, as humans, what we choose, opt, chance, live, relate, think and feel throughout the day; in each moment; each scenario.

May you realize what you are telling yourself and the experience you are creating for yourself in this moment.

Do you like it... Do you dislike it... Where on the spectrum of feeling good and feeling lousy are you...

What is one small thing/thought that you can change to feel most true to yourself... More compassionate; more loving; more on Your Own Side.

May you breathe deep into yourself and gather everything possible and lean in on what it is you wish to feel that creates the you that you want to be and truly are.

Within the recesses of your knowingness, you are this powerful.

Empowerment on. I believe in your awesomeness.

Wednesday, January 15, 2020

Mountain... or Is It...

Sometimes as we hear and/or acknowledge things and situations, they can feel so monumental or overwhelming. We can feel scattered, overwhelmed and/or confused.

Yet, if we back away from the moment (feeling), outside of our feelings, we can choose to look at the moment in a way that is kinder to our own self. We can choose to see it in a different light if we choose to do just this.

When I was sick and immobile in bed, when I looked at what could go wrong, it was not helpful. In fact, it was hurtful. When I chose to be true and loving to myself in each breath, I knew - even though I wasn’t having fun (ha!) - that underneath what was going on (or is it above), I was okay. I had ailments and things that were off/wrong/confusing and hurtful and I knew that I was still okay. I was living. I was breathing. I was alive. I was coping; even when it could feel like I was not.

May you know that you are okay right here right now no matter what is going on. May you know that your survival rate thus far is 100% and that’s pretty good odds.

Underneath our humanness - or is it above it - there is a presence that resides in each of us that is the watcher, the outsider; perhaps, always open and able to choose and believe in ‘okayness’.

I wish you your own belief and experience in feeling/knowing/being okay through anything and everything human.

I Have Missed You

Wow. Where do I begin. ...

Yesterday I had an appointment that I was late for. Today I find myself early for an appointment. It was in my phone correctly and I didn’t ‘see’ it correctly. My mind didn’t process this correctly.

How many times have I been doing this lately; and for how long has it gone on...

It does feel like change is huge inside of me and throughout my life.

I was sick in bed for 16 days in December. Doctors labeled it ‘bronchitis’. I feel it was so much more. Wiped me out. I lost 10 pounds, was unable to walk the dog and I was not associating with life or the world outside of myself. It wasn’t possible.

It feels like my DNA changed. I feel different.

I have not had a cold; a cough; the flu or anything like this in close to 30 years. It was a ‘yikeser’ for me. I coughed; had fevers; threw up; hardly ate and was very weak.

I’m 95% better than when this had me down and out and I feel like I’m starting my life and myself from new perspectives, new health, new knowledge and new vibration(s).

It feels unknown. It feels uncomfortable and strange. It feels like I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

There is an un-calm in me. I find myself focusing on every moment I’m in. I hear myself saying I’m taking a step. I’m taking a deep breath. I’m hanging my towel on a hook. I’m seeing this. I’m hearing that. I’m feeling the A/C. I’m feeling the phone in my hands; the seat underneath me. I’m hearing quiet chatter from the people around me.

This, I find, keeps me in the present moment. This moment. It invites my inner calm. This is what I crave just now.

Thoughts of anything past this moment or anything previous to this moment, currently, do not bring me the calm I so vitally desire.

May you function and live in a way that what you desire and crave now creates and open doors for the possibility of same.

Saturday, January 4, 2020

Soulful

Your soul knows.

May you let it lead as best You can. May you let it fill every part of you and all that you do.

Today and each situation you experience are one part in the overall journey of your human life. It is our humanness that, maybe, wants to take it most seriously.

Things will all work out exactly as they are meant to. Life will happen for us in the most meaningful way to support our soul’s journey.

Soulful You is perfect.

May you allow and open up to your unique journey that is here for you to live.

May we all love ourselves and each other through and onward.

Thank You.

Sending out much soulful love to You.

Wednesday, December 25, 2019

Merry Christmas 2019

Merry Christmas!

May you meet yourself and your life where you are just now.

May you open your heart and your mind.

May you be extra kind to yourself.

May you live in your truth.

May you live in your blessings.

May you relax into yourself.

May you be love.

Happy Birthday Jesus.

May you breathe and be what Christmas Spirit means to You.

❤️💚🌹💚🌺💚💞💚🌟🌟🙏

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My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!