Grooming

My dogs are getting groomed in a grooming van in my driveway.  The woman comes and washes and cuts their hair.  They love it.  They wait at the front door excitedly until she gets here and they wag their tails and run when she arrives.  It is cute.  It is time consuming. I am grateful that I do not have to do it and that they love her. 

Today is Columbus Day in America so it is a holiday for some from work and school.  The regular routine is changed and it opens the door for something different and maybe exciting or productive in a different way. 

I have done much already.  I am still finding places for 'stuff' and I am still decorating to surround myself with 'happy'.  I enjoy the decorating very much. 

Yet, I do get discouraged and frustrated when I am unable to do something or if I hurt my hands while trying to do something.

I do what I can.  Sometimes, it feels enough.  Sometimes, it does not. 

Perhaps, all I need to do is give myself permission to let my truth be enough...

May you let the truth of you and your life be enough.

Allow

I'm open to allowing it to be a good day; a good moment; a good lesson; a good connection.

As I'm twirling around looking for direction, I am open to my best path being placed in front of me and my inner knowing's ability to take me on it.

Our world is open to us all.  It is open for you to create the life that you have inside of you to live.

With so much uncertainty and lack of clarity present, anything is possible.

I believe.

May you believe what feels best on you to believe.

                                                   Unknown

No Words

I come here with no words in my head to offer out.  My internet connection has been slow, at best, as 'they' are working outside to install a new system.  I've gotten so used to a quick connection that when I have to wait 30 seconds between keyboard clicks, it can feel like forever.

My daughter is home!!!  She has not been here since April and she is home!  How underlying calm and 'right' it can feel.  It is wonderful to hold her and to have her near.

My hands are not great.  They are 'sensitive' to most things I touch.  My thumbs seem to be 'talking' the loudest just now.  Perhaps, because they are the most padded of the group.  I know I have not rested enough.  Yikes.  I know that I do not choose to just now. 

No words come to mind as I sit here in anticipation of what I will write.  My mind is blank.  My heart is full.  My body is alive.  Perhaps, just now, this is enough.  Perhaps, just now, this is how I'm supposed to be.  Perhaps, for now, I process, live, support and stay aware of all that is in front of me and inside of me.

Perhaps, for now, I love.  I am realizing I can be good and not have everything in place.  I am realizing that I am good even though everything is not as I wish it to be.  I am good with not so good things in my life.  I am good.

May you allow yourself to be enough; be good; and, perhaps, for now - just be with everything that is in front of you and inside of you. 

Perhaps, 'now' is perfect in the overall picture of our lives...  I breathe.

 May you breathe. 

To Bob or Not to Bob...

A close confidant has been wanting me to get a bob haircut for ever....  She has always voiced her opinion that I would look great in one.  On my way out today to get my hair done, this same very close and special person to me questioned if I would get a 'bob'. 

For me, I don't believe a bob works.  For me, I feel I would feel dorky and uncomfortable.  I question if my friend is saying I don't look good as I wear my hair today or always I suppose.

I'm the kind of woman who just got red streaks in her hair as I feel it is fun and helps me to create comfort and joy within and without.   Oh, the things I believe!  If we believe it, it is true for us...(or is it...)

So, to bob or not to bob.  To be you or not to be you...

This is the question just now.

May you choose to live YOU.  "Just 9Be U -- Be You to Completion".

Living on the Edge of Chaos

I went to a class at the local 'Jamar Enlightenment Center' titled "Living on the Edge of Chaos".  It was interesting, enjoyable and helpful. 

Dr. Christine Page talked about negative and positives and to live in all of them allowing yourself to experience the ultimate truth in each situation. That all of it benefits our growth and true self.  I like to think of it as this is what will lead us home to ourselves and our best paths going forward. 

She talked about illness being 90% about our bodies wanting our attention to teach us lessons and guide us forward.  She also did grounding meditations that I thoroughly enjoyed. 

We had a partner session where we, with our own intuition, went into each other's sacred space and 'looked' what each other was about and if there was anything that could be shared with the other person that would help them propel forward immediately.

My partner came up with that I am total 'indian'; one with the land and all that is.  That I understand this experience here on earth and do not be afraid of it.  To be open to my truth and let myself speak and share it.  I loved hearing this.  It brought me great excitement.  I still believe I'm not where I'm going and I certainly believe I'm on my way!

What I experienced in her sacred space was that she was a 'watcher'; a 'looker'.  She watches from the background and knows much.  She has white wings and was fairy and gnome-like.  She knew everything that was important for her to know, she only has to own it.  It came to me for her to speak all this knowledge and she no longer needs to be in the background when she doesn't want to be.

It was pretty interesting. 

I learned (again) that when we find another that is willing to cross the human boundaries and enter the domain of connectedness that really cool stuff happens! 

May you give yourself permission to connect deep within -- with yourself; another; or many or all that you encounter.  Really cool stuff just may happen!

 

Dizzy with Excitement

I am here feeling dizzy, excited, uncertain, certain and many things all around.

I'm feeling the Universe sending many new paths, unknown and unchartered, for us all to travel; if we choose.  I'm feeling my family, my relationships, my every day being changing to a more truthful and ultimate way of life.  Connections, dreams, inner knowing are all coming into a brighter light - a new portal or doorway. 

As I sit on my big chair staring at the walls, I realize that what I'm thinking and feeling is literally happening in my life as well.  As I'm sitting in quietude, I hear the contractor sawing, hammering, knocking and I smell the burning of wood.  We are getting a beautiful new door on our new home - a new portal...

How interesting. 

I know not what to do with all this information coming at me.  It excites me.  It petrifies me.  It elicits happy dancing and wanting to hide. 

I do not know how to walk or be in all these changes.  I so do want to walk. 

I have people around me and connecting to me stating the same feelings with different words and scenarios - yet the opening of newness and new pathways are loud and working on getting clear. 

We can choose love.   We can choose fear.  We cannot choose both at the same time.

May you choose love.  May you be open to what is being offered you.  It may be very different than what you are looking for or expect.  And, it may be what is so inside of you that once you step on this path, you just may feel home.

Walk through whatever it is that presents itself to you in the truest stage of who you are and be ready to fly (or live) through new 'portals' that bring you to your ultimate life.

Just what if....

May you be ready to believe in yourself and step forward into what gives you ultimate connection to your own self and everything that is.

Oh deep...

To Experience or Not to Experience

I'm overloaded with much.  A new door, new curtains, new glasses, new energy.  I'm feeling better and stronger.  I can't grasp more than this.

I see and feel the universe putting many of us on our path(s) and creating situations, movements and unsettling conversations for us to immerse in or run from.

I'm choose to immerse (for the most part).  I find it exciting, exhilarating and enjoyable.  I know peace within more than without.  I trust myself to hear and feel these new paths and situations that are present in my life.  I see same in other's.  I see most responding favorably.  This excites me greatly.  lol

It amazes me the creation(s) I am seeing in peoples lives to propel them and to alter their life's focus.  To abide by what they know and to have a chance to be open to what they don't know.

My wish is that you are listening, seeing, creating and allowing what may not feel right to your brain, but certainly feels right to your being.  Listen from within and walk on knowing the truth that is you and feeling the easiest path to walk.

So much is opening for us to be our ultimate self; to live our ultimate truth.

This isn't always easy.  It is always the best and most fulfilling outcome.  It is never impossible if it is for us to experience. 

May you find yourself fulfilled as you are aware of what is and bring yourself up to meet it with gratitude, clarity, open heart and open mind.  The time is now to live all that you are here to experience.  Feel on.  I believe this for myself in every cell of my person.  May you believe what is for you, with easy clarity, with every cell of your person.