Be U

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Thursday, May 8, 2025

Feel

May you always feel what is inside of you to feel. Being human is feeling. Being human is the culmination of all of our experiences moment to moment; day by day; month by month; decade to decade; in each and every breath we breathe.

This is your human journey. It is, perhaps, meant to be wonderful, to challenge, to be mundane; to make us laugh and to cry and to always be changing. We journey individually, together.

The human spirit is always a part of who we are. Sometimes, I let my thoughts and others' opinions quiet my spirit. I let my human mind question my feelings.

You know you better than anyone. You are the only one that has experienced your entire life; each and every circumstance. You are the only one that you will spend your entire life with.

Sometimes, we are our own worst enemy. May you be your own best friend.

We are born with a roadmap innately a part of us and always with us.

May you tap into your feelings, your love, your desires and your own kindness.

May you grow your life through this uniqueness of You.

You are always happening. Invite your spirit and rock star-ness to breathe through as many happenings as possible as often as possible.

Honor your feelings from your own silent solitude and through your own loving truth and vulnerability. In you may you trust.

What if this is the way our Creator created us to live... May you dig it. Dig deep and honestly through your human vessel and your innate roadmap, together with your learned existence.

Obstacles

May you look and live through what may feel like obstacles to you. To see, be, feel, own, live what your heart and soul knows. It is what invites the 'beingness' of You to be so.

No one can do it for us. What is meant for us will keep whispering/knocking until we are open to receive and experience same.

As I am now; as my life is now - it is me and my experience(s). When I ignore or run from any of it, it does not leave. The longer I choose not to participate in what I am experiencing as truth, the louder things may get.

Nothing that is meant for me disperses until I live it and/or feel it. Confront it and go through it. Enjoy it and be it.

May you live and feel what is true to you and the experience(s) of being You.

There is no obstacle too big when living in the loving truth of You. Your loving truth is more powerful than any obstacle that may arise.

Thursday, April 24, 2025

Yuh Yoh

I have been not wanting to come and post. I think and feel like I have not wanted to explore (and still uncertain) about what I have going on within. I don't feel strong enough to feel it all. To open to it all. To go within and hang with what is occurring there.

My cells are swimming in overwhelm. It is not so easy for me to connect to my instinct, calm and vulnerability. My soul is not as loud as I have known it to be.

I know it is right here with the beat of my heart and my breath. And there is a spasticity that muddies the connection.

Oh boy. Oh Boy. OH BOY.

I have a small ulcer on one finger that makes it a bit difficult to type. There is a shiver flowing through my body.

It is my belief that most of our brains are not caught up with technology and the world wide connection of information that is now allotted and available to us.

I have never been more aware of the heartache and destruction; the anger and the hurt; the chaos and the mess that is.

It is an extreme 'trip' that I have not been and am not comfortable with. It is said that we grow outside of our comfort zone. I'd like to take a holiday from growing. I'd like to take a vacation staying within my comfort zone. Exploration and depth can come from being comfortable.

Many places I have traveled, I have allowed myself more freedom to just live each moment doing whatever feels best in each moment. Turn/Tune into what is in front of me through my own loving innate desires. Turn off/Tune out what I have no control of and what is not mine to carry. Perhaps, many of us are carrying too much of what is not meant for us to carry and/or even give our energy to.

I wish this for whoever wishes this for themselves. I'd like to support each other in this. We can still care but in a way that lets each other choose for ourselves what is best for us and not what I/we think is best for another.

It is wonderful to actually look and see the 'elephant in the room'. It is exciting seeing the 'dirt that is underneath the rug'. It isn't often easy. It can often be unfun. It is time. It is time for us all to be true to all that is human in a most humane way - safe vulnerability.

May our lives be full of humanity and as humane and beautiful as we could possibly open to.

This is the world I believe is being created. If you can/want to find a version of a new way of us all being in the world, now at this time; individually, together through love and support, may you really feel it and invite all of your cells to fill up with this belief. Perhaps, explore, dive in, dive through and create a wonderful world through your own comfortableness.

Miracles happen everyday. You are a miracle. May you let the miracle of your love beautifully burst open. Oh, the brightness of your love.

Saturday, March 22, 2025

Love

Stepping into love. Step up to love.

Love is… supporting one another to live our best life.

Love is letting people live their own journey. It is ok to share what your experience and/or feelings are. It is not best to think that another ‘should’ feel and/or experience life in the same way as I do. It can and usually does create negative energy, chaos and less certainty.

It can be impossible, at times, to understand another’s way. It is because I am not them and I cannot think or feel like another does as I have not lived in their (very real) storylines through their unique experiences.

Honor this. Be true to You being true to them.

May we all live free, open and be love(d).

Just maybe, this way of living is what will bring more togetherness and peace.

We each have our soul’s story; human story; heart’s story: unique only to us.

May you live the truest story of Being U. Let love.

Step with love and kindness.

Thursday, February 13, 2025

No Words

I feel that I have no words.

I come with love, positivity, light and hope.

Love so you can be it and feel it.

Positivity so you can create it.

Light so you can see yourself.

Hope because we all want to matter, to share what uplifts and to matter-of-factly create an harmonious (kinder, gentler, most loving) world for ourselves, our children and grandchildren.

May you shine your love, positivity, light and hope within and without. There is no one else anywhere, ever, that has what is yours to offer and to be.

May you let the majestic you free to openly and respectfully share the authenticity of Just Being You.

Peace Within

May there be peace within and I understand it can only come from myself.

What we tell ourselves; what we think; what we react to; and how we react is what creates our life experience(s).

It may not be the most easy time to create our harmony within as it can feel like there is much dis-harmony in our world and around us.

What if I just trust what is in this moment and be true and as loving as possible through each and every experience and relationship. Is this what can build my most wanted and aimed for harmony and peaceful flow within living through who I am and what I enjoy best...

It has been said that awareness comes first. Oh, many of us are getting a lot of that. Perhaps, even more than necessary and/or more than we want to process.

May you choose where you put your awareness. It is a choice what you focus on and how you react to same. You are at the center of your experience(s). My wish is that You create your most impending and delighted self. The most true, vulnerable You that is possible and solid.

Let everything You be so. Love everything You as best as possible. You can just let it be so or you can choose to look at it like an experiment and watch the outcome be created.

You are the master of your thoughts. Think the thoughts that, create the grounded - you know in your heart, are loving and masterful.

May you master living in/from the loving truth of You.

Thursday, January 30, 2025

Resist

I resist coming here as my mind feels boggled and overloaded these days. Information is everywhere. I can read multiple stories and have multiple stories within the same story.

I can discover multiple scenarios within myself for the same story that I choose to 'explore' that is within my own life experience(s).

It is quite the hoot and quite the conundrum.

I can look at 'now' as a very exciting time to be alive and I can look at today as a lot of non-sense happening. I can see the beauty whenever I look for it. I can see harshness whenever I look for it.

It is a mind blowing/mind altering/chaotic/loving time.

I am on my knees in hope. I am swaying with what is. I am standing in love. I am closing down to rest. I am opening up to learn and grow.

The human part of me offers resistance. The spiritual part of me opens to empathy and wonderment.

May you watch yourself sometimes. May you check in with yourself sometimes. May you be mindful of how you feel. May you gather the thoughts/experiences/moments that support you living the best of You.

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!