Be U: February 2025

Coming for the Real You.

I'm hoping to share thoughts, fun and insightful information and aha moments with all to better serve ourselves and the universe.

My background is that of Executive Secretary for the local Electric company (11 years).

Certified Personal Trainer (since 1991) and Fitness Consultant for my own company, Beachin Bodies (6 years) and certified in Reiki and Nutrition with training in Cranial Sacral work, Tai Chi, and Meditation. Certified as a Professional Life Coach (2015); Minister at Universal Life Church (2016);

and, possibly, most important,

my own journey through illness and avenues, roads and roadblocks that I have taken to find the real me. (35 plus years).

The me that I was born as. The me that is the all-knowing. I believe the search is endless and we are here to learn and to love and to share it all.

Thursday, February 13, 2025

No Words

I feel that I have no words.

I come with love, positivity, light and hope.

Love so you can be it and feel it.

Positivity so you can create it.

Light so you can see yourself.

Hope because we all want to matter, to share what uplifts and to matter-of-factly create an harmonious (kinder, gentler, most loving) world for ourselves, our children and grandchildren.

May you shine your love, positivity, light and hope within and without. There is no one else anywhere, ever, that has what is yours to offer and to be.

May you let the majestic you free to openly and respectfully share the authenticity of Just Being You.

Peace Within

May there be peace within and I understand it can only come from myself.

What we tell ourselves; what we think; what we react to; and how we react is what creates our life experience(s).

It may not be the most easy time to create our harmony within as it can feel like there is much dis-harmony in our world and around us.

What if I just trust what is in this moment and be true and as loving as possible through each and every experience and relationship. Is this what can build my most wanted and aimed for harmony and peaceful flow within living through who I am and what I enjoy best...

It has been said that awareness comes first. Oh, many of us are getting a lot of that. Perhaps, even more than necessary and/or more than we want to process.

May you choose where you put your awareness. It is a choice what you focus on and how you react to same. You are at the center of your experience(s). My wish is that You create your most impending and delighted self. The most true, vulnerable You that is possible and solid.

Let everything You be so. Love everything You as best as possible. You can just let it be so or you can choose to look at it like an experiment and watch the outcome be created.

You are the master of your thoughts. Think the thoughts that, create the grounded - you know in your heart, are loving and masterful.

May you master living in/from the loving truth of You.

My Past Story

The first thing I would always tell a new doctor was 'my dad left me when I was 10'. He just disappeared, ran away. It was pretty awful for me. I thought it was my fault as most kids sometimes do. I thought I was unlovable. Years later, 20 maybe, I realized it wasn't just that my dad left me that affected my life, but also that my mom stayed. She stayed and I'll be forever grateful. However, her staying wasn't all peaches and creme. She was so hurt, so distraught, so frightened to raise three kids on her own and find a job that it was very hard for her to be there for me and my needs. I chose to shutdown, be quiet and try not to make it any harder on her as to not ask for much, or voice much, or need much.

Years later, in 11/12th grade, I noticed my fingers being really cold and hurting all the time. I noticed them turning purple and the pain was very 'loud'. Humorously enough, I had chosen to be a secretary and typing was a big part of my everyday. I loved it even. Fingers flying across the keyboard with as little mistakes as possible was the goal. I was pretty good at it. While in typing class, I remember putting my hands on my neck to try to warm them and make them feel better. I was naive enough then to think this must be happening to everyone.

Anyway, years went by and nobody was able to tell me why this was happening or what to do to make it better. Then, approximately 4 years later, I remember (what I felt) was little me sitting across from a really big doctor at his really big desk and him telling me I was allergic to myself. Of course, this was him describing to me what auto-immune meant. I had a disease called scleroderma and it could kill me (sometimes in as little as five years) and I would most likely be on medicine and have it for the rest of my life and there was nothing to change it.

Anyway, almost 30 years later, I've had my share of pain and I'm alive. I've had ulcerations on my fingers and I have lost most of my nails on both hands from lack of circulation and producing too much collagen. My hands are somewhat not a pretty sight and to hit something with one of my fingers by accident (well, I refer to the feeling as 'going to the moon).

When I was about 30, I started looking at alternative medicine and I tried anything that came across my path to try to stop the pain. I have tried many normal and not so normal 'ideas'. I sometimes do not believe at what lengths I went to try to ease my pain and suffering!

This is what has brought me here to this point in my life.

I'm grateful to be able to learn so much about myself and life and I wouldn't take it back (well, some days I might want to).

Something was telling me to blog. I really didn't know much about blogging - I am still a novice at best. Approximately 5 weeks ago, I sat at my computer and started typing.

I am surprised at where my blogs have led me. I thought I was trying to help others and that still is a big goal of mine. However, what I am finding out is that this is a great outlet for me.

A way to feel like I'm doing something. I told a friend this morning about my blog and I said that it's draining because I put everything out there and do not hold back as I post each individual blog; its fun because it does give me an outlet and I feel a little purpose in my life; and it's scary because I don't want anyone laughing at me or telling me that I am completely 'off my rocker'!