I love the freedom of following how I feel and administering said medicine as I deem necessary. I also know the feeling of being overwhelmed because I do not know how to do this and there are no guidelines that have been documented. Trust of self is a beautiful gift here that is showing itself for me to learn (again).
Legal marijuana and (now being more openly condemned) opiates have not had many open studies or documented results of the use of these things together.
I've been doing this on and off for a little over a week and I've been very uptight, confused, unsure, overwhelmed along with a bit of hopefulness. I can easily connect to these same feelings now. And, yet, something today told me to just trust my own inner knowing, my informed answers and my own 'guesstimates' as to accomplish my goal.
My goal is to feel the best that I can feel. To be as peaceful as I can be. To thrive to my greatest ability and capacity. To live the truest of me.
Can drugs deter my true inner knowing capability... Very possible, as it is a mind altering regimen that I am taking on.
Can drugs help me to feel the most comfortable I can within myself... Maybe.
Can drugs hurt me... Yes. Can drugs help me... Yes.
As I open up to be my own and true best friend, I let go of the mean and hurtful thoughts and things I tell myself in regards to hoping to have more ease because of narcotic drugs.
I am deeply working through my layers of what feels like my multiple onions. I am open to learn. I am open to receive good and easy answers. I am open to change with the help of knowing how. I am open to being free. I am open to living from my heart. I am open to living the truth of myself. I am open to show/live on the outside what I feel on the inside.
I am open to the best me possible.
May you be your own best friend. May you be open to being and living the best you possible.
May you let 'happy' happen even in situations that can be true and real reasons for unhappiness.
We are happy because we choose happy. We are happy because we work at looking at the brighter side of things. We are happy because that is who we are and who we want to be.
I choose happy.
I certainly do not know everything. I certainly don't have all the answers. I certainly am not liking some of my only options. I certainly can still connect to happy.
'Happy' is always within our reach. Sometimes, we need to use different meanings of the word happiness to think of ourselves as happy.
And, there is always something to be grateful for.
Live from gratitude. Connect to your happy. Be the You that You want to be.
May you meet yourself where you are at and allow contentment of believing in your own strength be 'in your pocket' and easily and readily available to you; as often and as much as possible.
We humans have tremendous strength.
May you be gentle and let love carry this strength and know that it is present for your use whenever you choose to breathe and tap in.
Tap into the magic of You.
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