Cake

I sure hope I find out for sure and move into this house very soon (dot. dot. dot.)...   I am eating a lot of cake recently; almost daily I am having a piece.   It gives me a headache from the sugar and, yet, I do not resist.

I just had a big piece and my stomach is uncomfortable and I feel ugh.  I couldn't resist it.  I didn't want to resist it.  I heard myself say if I eat it now,  it will not be here tomorrow when I wake up.  Wow.  That sure isn't the way I want to think.

I guess I want 'my cake and eat it too'....(ha)   again and again and again.   Almost like the amount of bids on the house that I won as high bidder and still haven't had the opportunity to purchase the house..!?!

I'm ready to stop eating cake.  I will be unhealthy because of what I choose to eat if I keep this up.  It's a very uncomfortable and unsettling feeling to me.

Am I creating more unsettling feelings from already feeling so unsettled....

May you treat yourself with kindness, gentleness and love, always; and not too much cake.