Little Bear

My Pekingese little dog is in the hospital.  We took her in last night around 3 am.  She had been vomiting all day and then developed diarrhea with blood.  My poor little baby girl.  Seeing her little face look up at me telling me she just wasn't feeling good was so difficult.  Her big eyes with her little face and extra long body was not peppy and spry.  She is a joyful thing.  She is not the brightest as she runs and plows into whatever gets in her way...   She is just the most 'full of joy' dog I've ever known.

They say she will be okay.  I am told with hydration and antibiotics they can get her insides to calm down.  Culprits could have been something she ate or a bad (very bad) reaction to the medicine (anti-inflammatory) that I gave her to help her walk better and feel less lethargic. 

I just want her home with me; once the diarrhea and blood thing gets healed.  That is not a fun thing to watch, experience, or clean up after. 

I count down the hours until I can call again to see how she is doing. 

I am so grateful I had people I could go to for help.

I hope she can bounce back to herself and continue sharing her joy with everyone who comes in contact with her.  She is a great joy in my life for sure.   I just do not want her to suffer.

Sometimes I think watching someone suffer is harder than being the one that suffers; although neither is preferred.

May you walk through with intent and engagement of any suffering that may be present in your life just now.  Allow yourself to feel what it is all about for you and my hope is that it moves through as quickly, easily, and informative to your being in the most productive way possible.   Grieving/sadness/discomfort are all okay if/as this is what you are feeling.  I believe it's a must to feel it to free it.  May you feel it and when you are ready and able, let it go.  Love yourself (and others) through.  Allow yourself and others to be and experience in the only way we each know how... today.  Allow the experience to 'just be' and allow yourself to be enough just as you are.