Continuing On

I am knowing that this is where I'm at... I can no longer wait around until I feel better, stronger, different.   This is me.  All of me.

I find myself 'itching' to get out; to not 'just be' anymore.   I can 'just be' anywhere I am. 

If my dogs bark, I get angry.   If they have to go out, I'm feeling interrupted.  I don't only want to take care of a home and a family any more.  I need to take care of the spirit of the woman that is me.  I don't quite know what to do explicitly, and I do know that it's not being taken care of in the way that only I can.

So, out I go.  I hear myself saying "I just need to get away from 'here'."  I know love 'here' and I also know I need to experience more than this at this time of my life.

I feel like I'm 'climbing the walls'!  Lol and Hip Hip Hooray.   I want more for myself. 

While I'm not feeling good being in these feelings.  I am grateful for these feelings because I know they are exactly what will propel me to 'experience more'.

May you listen, hear, and respond to your feelings, thoughts and emote through and with them.

                                                         "Survivor" CBS