Child Within

We all have our child-self within.  Who we were as a child and all our experiences are still within us no matter what age we are.

I discovered this, again, today. 

While feeling like a child, I conversed with a doctor about how I was feeling and how childish I sounded to my own ears.  Yet, how I was feeling was very prevalent, loud and real. 

What we discovered is that STILL, even after all this 'work', all this time, I still work from my little girl from time to time.  I discovered that I was not speaking fully everything inside of me because of fear of being reprimanded, abandoned, laughed at or just plain out ignored.  I hold back for fear of upset, hurt, and/or ugliness.  I'm afraid to be me.  (Here we go with the, perhaps, reasoning of the "Be U" topic again!) 

This is no longer working for me.  I have seen many signs of this within and without my relationships the past few weeks. 

What I was feeling and thinking was not being received because I was not totally speaking all of my needs/desires out loud.  Ouch.  I guess I really need to go 'here' and practice, practice, practice.  Eh gad; I don't want to, and hip hip hooray - 'eureka' - a discovery! 

So I have to get my child self, as my adult self to turn to a higher volume and speak my truth.  Just be me - all of me....Share me. 

This sounds oh so familiar to me! 

Perhaps, what we speak is what we need to hear and listen to.  Wowza.  Good stuff!!

Exhausting; Processing; and what 'great stuff'! 

May I offer to hear what you are telling others today and just 'play' with the thought that it may be something you really want/need to embrace yourself.  I hope you treat yourself (and others) with honesty along with gentleness through love and awareness.   I'm going to take a nap...