Learning and Growing

I am learning and growing in leaps and bounds just now.  IT IS NOT EASY for me.  I say what's on my mind lovingly and openly.  I ask for help to understand and move on.  I see what and how I created my life as it is and I admit to and own my decisions and choices that brought me here.

Yes, other people swayed me this way or that.  I allowed it.  I accepted it.  They could not without my approval or allowance.  THIS IS YUCKY to own for me, especially when it was a 'sway' away from myself. 

It was easier (in some ways) to blame ME on others; blame my unhappiness or my pain on others.  To admit that I would hurt or do something to live in a direction away from myself IS in my best interest; it is NOT the easiest thing for me to admit to myself.

May you admit to yourself where you may have gone wrong and move on from here.