What If

What if what I'm calling 'low', is not low at all?  What if this time of my life is just very life changing and creating the life that I will be going forward with.  Just because it feels low, doesn't necessarily mean it is. 

I've heard many people say that their disease or disaster put them on the track of their life that made more sense; created more happiness than what they were currently living in. (although it can leave scars)

Mmmmm.  I know for my own dis-ease, scleroderma, it has brought about a life that would never have come about for me without the issues and symptoms and roads I experienced because of it.  Many, I would rather have not been a part of.  Yet, I love and am proud of who I am now.  I love knowing what I know and, I think, I use it affectively, for the most part.  I'm deep.  I'm true.  I'm genuine.  

These traits were not the easiest to come by for me.  Also, the 'depth' takes some energy.  Ha.  Yet, for now, I know no other way.  It's what I'm about; who I am.  I feel real and connected to a source (I call God) that I am one with.  He is the Master and the Almighty.  I am a soul here on Earth.  I need to feel connected to everything and everyone I encounter. 

There is much I do not know.   I feel pain, sadness.   I know joy, greatness.  I've experienced much.  I want to experience more. 

I'm open to what God has in store for me.   I accept the life He has chosen for me.  I've learned that fighting it, makes me less of who I am.

May you accept the total you just as you are today.  May you continue to grow towards all of who you are as you live your life.

I did say Deep, right?   Ha.  It makes my head spin!