Realization

I am doing more for others than I do for myself.  Multiple trips to grocery store; multiple trips to doctors; well rounded meals.  I do special trips for the newspaper everyday.  I do realize I am doing these things because this is what I see/think she needs and it gives me something when I fulfill others' needs.  Like giving a gift; we do it because it feels 'right' to us. 

I am seeing with my eyes; mind and heart wide open.

I'm really good at taking care of others.  I want to be really good, again, at taking care of myself first.  I get mad that I'm doing more for others than myself only when I don't do enough for myself.

When I am happy; I enjoy doing for others.  When I deprive myself too much; I am not enjoyable to be around. 

I can deprive or blast myself with love.  Somewhere in between is most likely the best answer for me.

How to do it..... how to do it......

May you know how and enforce doing for yourself what keeps you in your (mostly) content place.