Brain

I can feel my brain reconnect, rework, and restabilize my cognitive thinking patterns.  I can feel stagnation, confusion, overwork and resistance to change up here in my head.  I can feel things clicking into the new configuration.

I feel burnout and I feel new growth.

While working on changing things up in my life, my brain; my cells, my body, EVERYTHING has to go along with these changes and there is great resistant for my auto-pilot to give up what it has known and how I have reacted to life for so many years.

I am changing and living the change and it does not come naturally.  I can easily get mad that I have to relearn things.  I get aggravated that what I need to know and do now does not come naturally and just happen just because I want or need it to.  I have to work to claim the life I want to live now.  There is much work to do.  I am doing it.  I am going full steam ahead.

I wish my relationships could/would just go along with how I need them to be.  I wish my body would respond in favor of what I want to do always.  I wish my brain would just know the right thing to do in the moment easily and just do it.  This is not my truth.  My truth is that I have to re-educate myself to do what works for me now with the life that I have today. 

When I feel cold, WOW - I can put more layers on; I can find heat; I can use hand warmers.  When I feel irritable, I can look and see what I am doing or how I am acting that makes me irritable and change it.  When I feel happy, I can realize what is making me happy and do this more often.  When I hurt or feel pain, I can STOP and acknowledge and do what is needed for my pain to lessen or I can choose to ignore it and my own needs and carry on.

When I live my truth, I see and hear others living theirs.  It's a highly beautiful way of life.

May you be highly beautiful today.